Sometimes i just have to think. Thinking wise, not academically sadly. Thinking about other things, alot of things. Some general some personal some just random rubbish. From young i thought about alot of things which now i find childish and ridiculous. Being idle, i just have too much time to think and think about the things i didn;t have any explanation for and why things are like the way they are.

But now i think about things which affect me. Brood over things like results and things which might not be important at all. Sometimes i think i have too much time to spare. Rather than doing homework, im actually stoning and thinking of such useless things. If only i think as much academic wise, i would have been a whiz kid or something. LOL.

&yknw what i've been thinking for so long? How everything could be different if something did or did not happen. How everything could be different. But of course nothing could be reverted, wrongs could not be righted. It really is not as easy as it seems, cos i've tried so hard. But i still do think.

Seems like things have reverted back to the start. When i always see you online but never talked. Just maybe now, it's for a different reason. Don't we use to talk everyday, what changed this? The faint blue highlight is forever on your display name, it was always there everytime i signed in. Just didn't double click on it and start something. Just didn't exactly dare to. Just waiting every time to see if you might be the one to start something. Time and again i signed off with nothing at all. I knw that things are different but i didn't knw it would turn out this bad.