Lessons today were totally boring. Lessons after break were totally killers. Maybe only physics passed very fast. Gohsm lost her voice and we were told to copy answers for reading and writing for the whole period. She actually released us 10min early. Miraculous. Anyway she stay also can't do anything because she got no voice and can't teach. lol.

Then had cca selection, rather chaotic because damn many people were there. Results will only be out on tuesday. Then we trained awhile and i played match with jingzhan and szefan. Won one lost one =x. Ohwell~ Then me, sherry, zhijun and peiqi went to jp for zhijun to look for her stuff. And peiqi's sis joined us for awhile then they went off. After zhijun's dinner we went home. And my father got bu shuang again because i reached home late. Stupid. There's no way i will reach very early back home anyway.

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Feel so pissed, so tired of this. Does it really matter that much? Obviously not, it doesn't matter at all. The problem's all with me, it's always with me. I thought i managed to not bother about it anymore. But of all the hopes and faith i've been given, i got back to that stage where it matters, alot. And so now, i'll just have to learn that this is really not the most important thing of all. Apparently i've just thought too highly of myself when im just nth.

& is that really too much to ask for. I thought all was explained for. What's your problem? What's my problem? I'm so bloody sick of all this rubbish. If this is the way, then fine. I shall leave it this way and not care anymore. Fine. I don't give a damn anymore. If you are so insistent about it. Fine. Everything doesn't matter anymore, i suppose.

Do everything the way everyone wants it. I'm frustrated of all this, sick of all that and very very tired of everything that's happening. I don't, and never wish to care anymore. Is it just me, or the bloody problem with everyone else?

I guess it's me then.