27 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY.

so much for finishing hw early. and
now im bloody boreddddd. i have
nothing to do at all...unless it's those
bo liao stuffs. then i have plenty.
BLAH.
i want to go town...or at least just get
out of the house...i bet i will be staying at
home tmr again. argh how bad can it
still get? another week minus the monday
which is good. dun needa sing the school
song. not that its not nice. but im standing
the first in the row and i find it sort of
ear-piercing if you get what i mean.

and thanks for letting me see and get it
into my head wad im doing to you all
every morning. its true
i didnt realise it. but now i knw and
i agree im unreasonable. okay. so sorry.

SINYEE-

28 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY.

okay. felt so nice cos i was reconnected
with some of my fellow juniors from xnps (:
yay. i love my juniors. hahaha :D
glad to knw you all look up to me. i didnt
knw i taught you al alot of things leh,
weiqi. i thought i just crapped around
but then haha nvm larh (:

so today was one fine day i went to the
library and done my sci assignment 4 and
assignment 6 and shao nian wen zhai.
the sci assignments were tough! blah.
and yanyi basically went there to slack when
she didnt knw how to do the assignments.
too bad lorh. who ask she nv listen in class.
and we were joined by yingting after about
one and a half hour. i saw vanessa and some
of her friends. and when i finished my
assignment 4, me and yanyi went to have lunch.
but i went and didnt see anything i ant
to eat. so we went back =/ and
i saw chienying at watsons. blah. went
back to do my assignment 6. joined by you wei
at 1pm. and yanyi was practically
begging me to go arcade with her. and its her
treat. but too bad. i didnt feel like playing.
so byebye to her treat :D then around 2,
we decided to go. then went to eat. after that
yanyi wanted to drag us off to the arcade.
and yingting told her that if im going
then she will go. but of course, IM NOT GOING
blah..and i decided to go back to the library
to finish all the hw i have brought instead of
going home so early. yeahh so now i left the
active reading of macbeth to act 1 scene 7!
yay! felt so accomplished! haha i hope my mugging
mood stays forever :D LOL okay nvm
i remembered still got cid stuffs to do. =/
i want to go to town larh! xP
neverrrrr mind. boox. i just hafta wait
till my birthday.

i like the feeling
of studying so much. lol. i must
be seriously mad i guess. at least i can finish
assignments 4 and 6! of course with 1 or 2
blank qns. but it isnt too bad le. based on
the knowledge that i actually LISTENED
in class and my beloved sci companion.
it helped so much...lalala and stupid shao
nian wen zhai's done too...im free to slack
like hell after i finish all those hw. i cant do
much with revising anyway. since the next
sci test will be chem instead of physics
and history instead of geog. i cant study
for it now =/ sad lorh. but im ahead of time.
I HOPE.

SINYEE-

29 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY.


aiya...i dunno whats the problem with me...
im still in the mugging mood...its the longest
time i have had this kinda feeling.
normally, it lasts no longer than a day,
and now, it's been a week already. so,
im off to je library tmr with yanyi to do
hw and revise and borrow and return books.
yeahh well. i knw i sound like a big nerd.
but wadever larh. its rare i ever feel like
mugging so why not make the best of it while i
still feel like it? haha anyway also have alot of
homework for the long weekend. so sick
and tired of this. really tired.

today had another chinese brush painting
art lesson. today draw the scenery. i think
did alot better than the last one. but then
listening to the teacher droning on about
how to draw for like 40min, i very nearly
fell off my seat. i just cant help falling asleep.
haix. i still feel its a hopeless subj anyway.
i just suck in it larh.


CCA starting again on tue. heard it would be
a new coach instead of ah zhu. hmm..wonder
what happened to him. i hope he would still come
back. although he loves to torture me and jenn
but then. im used to it le lorh..
haix. wadever larh. tuesdays and fridays sucks
cos there is cid. at least now i can do smth.
i realised how slack i have been in doing cid
over the last term. im really sorry my members.
im a useless leader for this =/
but tuesdays and fridays are supposed to rock
cos there is cca. but you knw, the sucking part
overrules the rocking part...haix.

okay. i guess today shall be one day i can sleep
early le...finally. i want to die already.

SINYEE-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TESSA! <3



30 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY.


okayy...im crazy...why am i crazy?
im in a mugging mood. come on larh
crazy sinyee. got no mid yrs, mug what?
yeahh. MUG WHAT?
i tell you. catch up on the stuffs i haven been
listening for the past few weeks. catch
up on all the hw that im lagging behind.
go read and revise in some subj. wadever.
i know im crazy. i dun really go for breaks now.
and i am even able to tear myself away from
the comp. some accomplishment i would say.
for one thing, me listening in class is how bloody
rare. especially during physics lesson. but
physics is the lesson which i pay the most
attention to now. okay, that's amazing isnt it?
but then, there are just so many researches
to be done that i hafta use the comp
even when i dun feel like it. SINYEE
NOT FEELING LIKE USING THE COMP.
that's just impossible! well then, i think
i might have some sort of problem le. i see
all the sec 3s and 4s mugging for exams
then i mug along with them. crazy me.
blehx. do research and research.
presentation after presentation. im so
sick and tired of this boring and routine
life. it's been i-dunno-how-long since i
have slpt before 12am every night. my
stuffs just seem to be endless...there
always seems to have one more popping out
of nowhere when i thought i have cleared them finally.
well...take time to adjust...
im tired already.



sci presentation today. i would say we did
pretty bad. no matter how well prepared
i am, there are always BRILLIANTLY
NONSENSICAL uestions that can catch me
off guard. and byebye, there goes my mark.
i really did put in a lot of effort. even though
it was just a short 11 slidwes presentation.
and peishi put in alot of effort too.
she searched for all the info. 3 pages full of
words which all looks like alien lang to me.
and i went to find out EVERY SINGLE thing
i didn't understand and put it into a ppt.
and in the end. in the end. everything
went down the drain. it isnt anybody's
fault. maybe it is my fault. but wadever.
there;s nth i can do now except grumble but
my marks wont come back.
sometimes i really wonder whether all my hard
work put in was worth it. cos it doesnt seem
like it is. it always manages to let me down smehow.
but maybe its my problem. i dun knw.



art tmr. the bloody hopeless subj i suck in.
humph...go and waste time only.
haix...xP



SINYEE-

31 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY.



it feels so accomplished to be listening
for a change. i feel accomplished cos
it's been how long since i really listened
in class. okay nvm. the air-con's not
helping...i almost fell asleep during the
active reading of macbeth in mr lee's
lesson. not that its boring or wadever.
im just tired. and i could have missed
the stop home if peiqi's sms didnt come
in time. phew!

nothing much to blog about. no more
imspirational posts like yd. no more
sense in me. im tired =/
and now i have the geog report and the
physics presentation script to worry
about. all due tmr. well who can i
blame? myself larh duh. stupid girl.
i just wanna sleep larh right. damn
the geog report. my fault. damn the
sci ppt script. my fault. damn YOU.
not my fault.
joking joking :D

SINYEE-

maybe it's gonna be a long post. i dun
expect anybody to really finish reading
from start to end. okay.



Can you imagine my surprise when i
stepped into CLASS 2C today and felt
the ever-so-pleasant cooling feeling.
And i realised the air-con in our class
was ON. And i was wondering whether i
had stepped into the wrong class. I decided
i wasn't wrong. and imagine me jumping
for joy and trying to quote miss ek's
IP speech "GONE ARE THE DAYS WHEN
ALL OF US HAVE TO SUFFOCATE!"
okay, nvm. and it was just so amusing
to see everyone gaping at the presence
of the cooling air in our class when they
turned the knob of the door and came in.
believe me, their reactions were funny :D



okay. you bet the air-con kept me awake
the whole day. but sometimes...it just
makes the place even MORE comfortable
to sleep in. even more so with the fans
turned low. hahaha...okay, away from the
air-con issue. today's home econs was
CANCELLED due to the science quiz. arh
crap. im willing to pick home econs anytime
although i dun really like it too. okay,
it wasn't exactly genius standard. i would say
it was manageable. but you knw, i fell
asleep halfway through the paper cos the
environment was just TOO comfortable.
but i finished the paper in 30 min and had
the rest of the 30 min to go pig out.
then went to jp with sherry and yeejin
for sherry's bottle hunt. and she settled in
for the blue adidas bottle. A whole 250ml
lesser than mine. and my colour is nicer :D
BLACK! haha the blue just doesnt..erm..
look the correct shade. ya...
and a bit bout what i read in reader's digest
that made me wonder...



death has always seemed like such a distant
thing to me...like it won't happen to me
just like that. but the reader's digest article,
bout this person who devoted his lives
living wih bears and caring for bears and even
introduced his girlfriend to bears, ended up killed
by bears. We are talking about REAL bears
here, with claws and sharp teeth and everything.
not the kind of soft and cuddly and harmless
soft toy bears. So what happens was that
he and the gf lived on this was it a deserted
island? which was inhabited by brown
bears and the grizzlies. so this season happened
to be a bit of different. more grizzlies turned
up than usual and they seemed alot more
mad. as in out of their mind and untamed.
this guy thought he knew the bears well enough,
he thought he would not die. but the bears
lost their state of mind and just decided to rip
the man apart one day. and POOF! the
poor man is gone. along with the gf, who
became bear's breakfast as well.
JUST LIKE THAT.


scientists feel that perhaps the bears were so
used to the guy that they had forgotten he was
a man instead of a bear like themselves. so
when the bears picked a fight with him,
he did not have any chance of retaliating
and he said good bye to the world.
SO MUCH FOR SAYING A GOOD DEED
GETS REPAYED. isnt that pure bullshit?
all the man wants is to protect the bears,
care for them, live with them. and down
he went exploring the bear's stomach.



which brings me to another book i read.
this guy was a worker at this restaurant.
he was supposed to stop working on friday
cos he have to leave for college. A TOP
COLLEGE. but 2 days after, on sunday
EASTER SUNDAY, the owner of the restaurant
calle and asked whether he could help go to the
restaurant and open the door for the workers
cos he can't make it in time to open it himself.
and the guy was just so nice to go
to the restaurant on easter sunday to help
the owner open the restaurant up
when he got shot by a person attempting
to rob the restaurant. THE GUY DIED.
it's all very ironic. and to think that
the guy believed in God so much and wanted
to become a pastor when he grew up.
to think he believed. he had such a bright future. his
grades were not in the toilet. he made it
to a top college and he has such religious beliefs.
and all his dreams and hopes were dashed
by that f-ing guy who decided to pick that
restaurant to shoot. pick HIM to shoot.
of course, that is just a story. but the
article was for real. it set me wondering.
will i be the one to JUST DIE like that
some day? it wasnt fair. life is nv fair.
but then, afer reading this 2 articles,
death felt alot closer to me. so no point hiding.
no point running. im not afraid.



SINYEE-

I SCREWED MY 2.4KM RUN.
i ran with an empty stomach and
muscle ache. i was lagging all thetime.
i did a f-ing 13.54. lousier than
peiqi, lousier than last year, and most
unbelievably, lousier than HER.
i cried after the run. cos i think i juz sucked
so much.SHE isnt supposed to come anywhere,
ANYWHERE close to my timing and she
actually BEAT ME. come on larh.
spare me this shit. i know i lagged today.
but not to the extend that SHE can win me.
its bullshit. i bet she ran one round short.
but you knw, whatever. im gonna kick
her ass at it next yr. and i was so quiet and everything
after the run that i scared my friends.
ohwells, dun blame me. and i went in the rain
in school today. it only rained a little.
but i just stood in the open until the cleaner
keep looking at me. well, sinyee loves the rain.
though whenever i cry my red nose will be a dead
giveaway. no point hiding. no point running
away from it all. just face it. show it.im not afraid.

SINYEE-

okay. did a last min trng for tmr's 2.4
4 sets 400m and 4 sets 800m. almost die
there le..haha okay. average 400m is
bout 1min 30 sec. okay larh. hope i can
do well tmr. hmmm...my legs hurt now =/

so bored. didnt go out today. so bullshit.
damn sian. dun wanna do hw. slack and lag.
rahh...SINYEE GO TO HELL LARH.

SINYEE-

And today was filled to the brim with
BULLSHIT. stupid man. I went to school
for gardening, which means i can't help
out with the PTM. And what a NICE
news i got when i reached school. There is
no gardening and i hafta go for PTM.
ass larh. I stayed at the table outside of
my class with zhao wei and qin hui
since 8.30a.m, waiting for the parentsto arrive
and register and wait for their turns.
Then, some parents arrived late and they have
a long queue infront to wait. and they got so fed
up they started scolding me and zhao wei.
I mean, WHAT SORT OF BULLSHIT IS
THIS LARH? you bloody arrived late so you
jolly well shut the phuck up and wait for your
turn. and i dun see the need to flame me.
It is oso not my porblem if you have to meet
more than 1 teacher at the same time. you
should know to go to the other class
and register first. cos how will i know you
hafta see more than one teacher?
and for not telling them this, i got flamed again.
and the thing was supposed to end at 12.30 for
hell's sake. but it ended at 1.30 instead.
crap lorh. it wasnt even supposed to be my
job in the first place. but im juz nice enough
to turn up but wad shit did they give me.
Sometimes our kindness is juz not appreciated.
after the whole hins still hafta stack up all the
chairs and carry the boxes of water which
is completely of no help to my hurting arm.
i dun believe i actually went for this shit.
im nv ever gonna get involved in this again.
it's so not worth it. this is pure bullshit man.

SINYEE-

hahaha im eating ice-cream now! LOL.
and i haven eaten my dinner...xP
STILL haven finished the superconductivity
shit. but it's getting on well...getting on
well...for this i slept at 1 last night and
didnt touch any of my hw...luckily
today dun really have alot of lessons...
okay. i declare:

I HATE ART.

so stupid. had wad chinese brush painting
shit today. of course anything that i draw
is cannot make it. so i juz crushed my
revoltingly-disgusting eye-sore piece of
work and it ended up in he rubbish bin.
im never ever gonna pick art as a module.
although its art history. which is honestly, WORSE.
okay wadever.

no cca...then went to play with sherry. actually
i didnt want to play. cos my arms are hurting
like hell. but sherry forced me lorh. i cant even
serve a ball larh. wth. then i went and sat
st the canteen and lagged until like 4.30 when
jin went home. rahh...then went home at 4.45
like that and went to jp with sherry.
sherry is mad. she loves to indulge in this ice-cream
which is so extravagant and not worth the
$2.80 at all. she even forego break for this.
crazy ass. she'll nv learn that an ordinary ice-cream
can juz taste as good without the high-end price.

now is time to chiong my sci ppt again larh.
sian lorh. i think i'll skip dinner tonight.
okay im mad already. arh wadever.

tmr still got gardening. and my arms are hurting!
it will be worse if i hafta carry the watering can tmr.
god forbid my arms dun juz fall off.
LOL. then still got geog proj meeting.
sian larh. i wanna pon gardening...! i knw that's
not possible. i'll juz have a make-up on
the next session which is my birthday.
STUPID LARH. i rather go and help
with the parent teacher meeting can.

i had a so-fun time telling sherry wad i want
for my birthday this yr..haha i'll get my
mum to buy me my bro's adidas watch...
so cool lorh. 100 over bucks =/
i mean, come on larh i've been wearing
my watch since p6 can. it's time for a change!
hahaha i wanna go town with my clique
or more ppl on my birthday! okay
it's still i dunno-how-long till my birthday...
blehx xP

SINYEE-

Ok...what time already arh...12 midnight.
and im NOT DONE with the superconducting
crap. i dunno what time i'll sleep
today. i haven even TOUCHED my hw.
i dunno what time i have to wake up
tmr. probably 4 again. =/
stupis larh...such a failure lorh..
nothing can do properly...
and my arms are aching like hell...
RAHH...

SINYEE-

Sci ppt not finished.
Im desperate to finish it.
I dun wanna spend my whole day infront of
the comp doing it.
I wanna do my hw.
Someone save me from this
superconducting shit.

SINYEE-

RAHH...why is everything so screwed up
today...got back progress report...kenasai
lorh...sucks like hell.
language arts got B3, chinese got B3,
maths got B4, geog got C5. URGH.
and it's so weird. I failed my physics paper
but our practical test is taken into account.
But how can my 11/15 practical make a
failed grade become A2? I think there is a
calculation error...there is no way my practical
can pull my marks ALL THE WAY from D7
to A2. NO WAY. so im gonna look for
tan hui zhen tmr to clarify with her. I mean
i think most people wont care bout it larh. but
other people who got higher than me
in BOTH the practical and theory got lower
than me =/ So it's unfair to them. so i shall
go look for tan hui zhen tmr. haix...hope it
doesnt pull my grades too far down...



okay...better things now. I settled the planning
thing with serene teo already. juz hafta
stay back after school on monday to settle
everything. hmm..good one thing off my back.
and the sci ppt. told ms tan that we couldnt manage
to get anything off the net and didnt understand
a single thing in the research books. so
she gave us a website to search or we hand
in on fri instead of tmr. although it's juz one day
i think its good enough le...another thing down.



RAHH...flunked my napfa today =/
everything deproved except for inclined
pull-ups and shuttle run. haix.
started with standing broad jump. kenasai
lorh. so long never do le. then i deproved
by 10cm. wth larh. my 200cm target gone.
didnt maintain my 195cm. and now its 185cm.
RAHH. a low A. then was sit-and-reach.
last year was 46cm. this year deproved to 39cm.
I GOT A BLOODY B! all A only this B!
argh!!! my full-mark
target GONE. JUST LIKE THAT. next up was
inclined pull-up. the one i think im the most
confident at. at least i didnt let myself down
for this. I DID A 50 FOR IT. improved by
3 only larh. i could have gone on when i reached
50. cos the 1 minute time limit wasnt up yet.
but if i do too much this yr then next
yr will hafta chiong even more. so i juz let go.
then had shuttle run. he one im most
not confident of. improved by a littlllleee
bit. 10.62 sec this time. okay.
last was sit-up. MY BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT.
last year was a smashing 45. and this yr?
a bloody 36. kenasai lorh. deproved like
hell...no more full marks already larh.
ass man...RAHHHHH!!!!
and every where is aching now =/
im lousy eh...

SINYEE-

i changed the default font colour to white.
hope you all can see it better now...
So i got my language arts results back
yesterday and expectedly, i did badly.
41/60. hmmm...unforgivably low. x(
haix...but useless broding over it anymore.
its time to move on...

so yesterday was just like any other boring
monday with lots of boring lessons and stuffs
like that. our last swimming lesson
was damn hiong. swim 4 laps breast stroke,
4 laps free style. maybe it's simple for
you, but definitely not for me xP i think i
could die already...after the 4 laps of free style..
but didn't actually do 4 laps. we slacked through it.
nothing much happened larh...peiqi burnt
my hp after a 1 hr 56 min chat =/
yeahh we talked about anything and everything...
was how long since there was finally someone to
listen while i just tell eeverything...

today was also another boring day. home econs
was theory lesson. what could be worse?
didnt have trng at sunsports today...
heard that ah zhu was hospitalised =/
sounds so serious sia...then had trng in
school but it was raining how hard...
i was playing chang jiao with goh hua and the
ball kept going into the muddy puddle.
and i went to the canteen to wash the ball.
and when im back, im drenched. how nice.
then slacked around cos i didnt feel like
trng at all...then waiting for the rain to
stop raining so hard then go home.
and peiqi once again burnt my hp
with a 1 hr 6 min chat =/ okay but i enjoyed
it. LOL. mr is napfa test..so long nv train
le i doubt i can maintain my fullmarks..
especially shuttle run...RAHH...

everything comes crashing down. i find myself
worried at so many things when i shouldnt
be. i mean HELLO! i have no mid yrs!
so what the freaking hell am i worried
about?!? first up, the planning for the trip.
the note to serene teo went unreplied and
my committee members are STILL not
confirmed and everything has to be done
by friday. second thing, CID project.
bloody hell this is the biggest pain in the
ass lorh. juz what the hell do we learn in
buliding models larh. DUMB. and the deadline
is end of april, but our model is still
not up yet. AND ITS MY FAULT.
third thing, physics presentation. this one...
totally cannot stand it. my group is juz so unlucky
to be just me and peishi and we got
a bloody difficult topic. SUPERCONDUCTIVITY.
cant get anything useful off the net at all.
and the trip to the library yesterday
was in vain as well because i was stunned
at all the weird and complicated formulas
they use. maybe the scientist don't know
that children nowadays hafta do this
sort of researches. =/ still have, class tee.
i dunno when we can get it done. we haven
even settled for wad colour our tee will
be and we want it done by june. ass larh. i know
this is the welfare's job but still, i can't stand
the speed we are progressing. maybe i really
need to slow down sometimes...i think im
moving along too fast...so fast i find
it hard to catch up with myself.. i've become
so slack. at my rate, i can't afford
to slow down...but if i dun, sooner or
later i'll lose everyone.
I need to sort stuffs out. everything is happening
so fast, all at the same time...im lagging
behind. i cant afford to lag behind...make me
go faster and i cant take it anymore.
spare me the madness...



SINYEE-

I changed my blogskin! hahaha...
Another day i didnt go out. 3 FULL
days i nv go out...im rotting at home
already larh...bored. bored. bored.
my sms gonna bao soon...man.
thats bloody lorh rahh...


I read josephine's blog. Im sorry you
feel left out. Really sorry. we all know
that when it comes to friendships,
5 is always a tricky number.
There are times i feel left out too.
but i didnt think it was this bad.
I didnt think we left you out...
Our clique seem close enough together.
About the attitude part...i think you
juz feel too stressed up. CHILLX GIRL!
WE ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU!
Although sometimes i cant stand your
attitude, i juz keep quiet bout it didnt i?
We all live with it, really, cos you are
a part of us. We accept you the way you are.
Maybe you can try to change the way
you portray your stressness and unhappiness.
I dun think there is anything wrong with us.

And to peishi: dun think that you are
the odd one out in our clique JUST COS
you dun have a flip fone like we do. i mean
thats lame larh rite. it doesnt concern whether
you have flip fones not.and we got into sc nominee
and not you and also, cos all
the 4 of us want the triple sci combi but
nt you. But like wad i told you, there
must be differences in friendships and even
best friends quarrel sometimes. If
everyone in our clique has the same
interests and the same everything, you
have to agree it would be some boring friendship.
we spice it up with our differences.
everyone is different. But make smth
out of the difference.

smth called friendship.

SINYEE-

RAHH....i wanna change my blogskin!
im getting sort of sick looking at the same
blogskin over and over again xP.
yes, im this kinda person. i like to change
my blogskin often...lucky TONGJING
arh...can find something nice and you
like. boox. where is my dream blogskin.

today was an ultra boring like hell
day. lagged whole day at home nv go
out. only in the morning jos they
come my house to do proj. then i lag
here lag there sian like hell. I finished
my hw except for the shao nian wen zhai
that one see already sian diao. so i was
sending out the "if i have 15 sec to live,
what will you tell me" sms. and i got uber
funny replies. and i tell you the lannest
reply i got was "erm...ah..umm i think
times up liao" like how -.- and of course
larh peiqi, we will be the fav senior and junior
for many lives to come and cy..haha muz be
my councillor again. haha looking at so many
ridiculous replies, really make me wonder, if i
really were to die, will i really hear all this things?
well, i hope. except for the erm..ah..umm part..
haha so i tell you. i have 15MIN to live wad will
you tell me? haha tell me in my tagboard (: really
glad to know what you'll say. (:

SINYEE-

I've been thinking about this alot...

When the day comes when my sec
3 and 4 seniors have all graduated.
The day when my batch become the
seniors without any other seniors.
We become the oldest. The people
held responsible. No more seniors to
lean on. When the day comes. Will i still
love rvtt as much as i do now?

Without my seniors, i don't think i would
quite like rvtt as much. My seniors are
really the best parts of rvtt. Why i always
so look forward to training sessions.
Of course i have juniors. I have cute
and wonderful juniors except *.
But i don't think they can quite compare
with my seniors. After the table tennis
camp last year, I would say we all really
bonded. We had team bonding games, bbq,
pt...The purpose was for rvtt to bond
and i would say it realy worked.

Although i shall say that we, the sec2
batch wasn't all that close and familiar
with the B'div '05 batch. Since we don't
have trainings together. So i didn't actualy
feel anything when our seniors like jia lin,
wei quan etc. left us last yr. And after the
camp, we were introduced to the sec4' o6
seniors and of course, all of them were
wonderful to each and every one of us.
I must say i'm still not very close to some
of the seniors but i think i get most of the team.
So this year, Im not letting our dear
sec 4 seniors leave without feeling anything,
without letting them know that i will really
miss them.

This year's nationals' was fruitful. Although
we didn't manage to clinch any position
in Top8, i realised that my seniors
really care about us. We gained things
that have even stronger values than juz
winning the tournament. When we were
unable to brace the losses, we sec 2s,
couldn't accept the fact that we had lost
when we had such high hopes, we juz break
down and cry. So then we have our seniors
to comfort us. And i think you all really made
me stronger. I remembered when the
c girls had lost to nanyang, all the 4
players cried. We didn't think we should
do this bad. Because we were so close to
first. And when Maria told me "we are very
proud of you all" I saw her point.
It's not in winning, the point is, we tried
our best, they were stronger than
us, so we shouldn't take it so hard on ourselves.
And of course, i remember tessa trying
to cheer me up by stuffing that chocolate
into my mouth...and my promise with kwan
jie, and that eat-out we had at JEC after
our last zone match. rvtt made me a stronger
person. My seniors made me a happier person.

I cannot imagine the day my sec 3 seniors
have to leave. peiqi's crap counselling,
stella's bear hug and shibin's gao xiao
attitude. I know that day have to come.
But i hope it isn't anytime soon. I don't
want you all to leave. ='(
And now im waiting for the farewell
I dunno what I'll do. But of course,
i will be sad. Maybe you all won't want
me to be sad. But i can't help it.
Who ask you all were such great seniors

To my three most special sec4 seniors:
Tessa- Will always remember the 11 days
we spent in China...Maybe if i didn't go
for the trip i won't see you as such a
special senior i guess...So im very glad
i decided to go for the trip and i will
remember that chocolate you tried to
stuff in my mouth x) and our little private
joke bout me and you. haha.

Kwan Ling- Actually didn't know you so
well one right...all cos of one day after
the eat-out at JEC you happened to
go home with me an jin. And of course
all your counselling was great. I know im a crazy
junior so i need a crazy counsellor (:
I don't know how i can survive without
you and your counselling.

Chien ying- I never forget you larh..haha
your counselling also very effective. That's why
you got rehired xP. And the best thing is,
you are always there! No matter how late
Cos i know you are nocturnal. Of course i
will feel like shit when you all go. so must
still go online often. I have countless troubles.(:

I got so many things to say to my seniors
who are leaving. I will really miss all
of you. You people were always there
for me. Cos of all of you, I LOVE RVTT.

SINYEE-

Ok. Ariel wanted me to do this. So
i shall (:

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn
to page 18 and read line 4: "You ran
over the hot coals!" Shopaholic and sister
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you
can: I touched my printer...
3. What is the last thing you watched on
tv: ehh...was it da chang jin?
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
erm...2.20p.m bah.
5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual
time: 2.23p.m

6. With The exception of the computer,

what can you hear: the rain outside and

some dumb show on tv.

7. When did you last step outside? What

were you doing? Yesterday evening, to buy
dinner.
8. Before you started this survey, what
did you look at: Josephine's blog. Then i
remembered ariel wanted me to do this. (:
9. What are you wearing: Hang Ten top and
old shorts...
10. Did you dream last night: Yes, but
i forgot what was it about :P
11. When did you last laugh: erm. erm. Oh.
This morning when i saw my brother's
friend put on his msn nick that my brother
sux. (((:
12. What is on the walls of the room you
are in: Im in the BALCONY larh rite. Fan
and windows...
13. Seen anything weird lately: I don't think
so...everything's sane around here...
14. What do you think of this quiz: ok lorh.
I normally won't do it unles ppl ask me to.
15. What is the last film you saw:
I Not Stupid 2? Long time ago le...
16. If you become a multimillionaire
overnight, what would you buy: All the
birthday presents that i owe ppl and
everything off my wishlist...then save the
rest for CHOCOLATES and other ppl's birthdays.
17. Tell me something about you that
i don't know: How would i know what
you dunno...dumb question sehh.
18. If you could change one thing about
the world, regardless of guilt or politics,
what would you change. Firstly, make
some suck-ups disappear forever. Then,
make it so my dear sec 4 seniors dun
have to leave us.
19. Do you like to dance: Im ok with
it...
20. George W Bush: He has nothing to
do with me...xP
21. Imagine your first child is a girl,
what will you call her: celestine?
hahaha no larh..i dunno.
22. Imagine your first child is a boy,
what will you call him: blah blah blah.
I DUNNO.
23. Have you ever considered living
abroad: um..yes. Australia would be
great for me.
24. What do you want God to say to
you when you reach the pearly gates:
I guess it's the same as Ariel's.
"do you want to go back in time and witness
every single moment of history and your life?"
no, actually i only wanna witness my life.
25. 4 people who must do this in their blog:
I choose people who update regularly.
Stella, Kwan Ling, Wee and Sylvia. (:

SINYEE-

I got back all of my results today except
for language arts. Yes, i did very very
badly for all of them. I admit i did
last minute revision for this term
assesment, so i really deserve this
lousy numbers. But i studied very
hard for geography. I really did.
But all that hard work went down the
drain anyway since I'm so close to
failing...For one thing, i think everyone
agree with me that 1 hour is really
too short for papers like Maths, Physics
and Geography. The questions require alot
of procedures and it takes up a fair
bit of our time. I need to be justified.
We were given one whole long list of
topics to study for and in the end, all
the basics which no one bother to study
come out. I'm never going to go
by the lists ever again. Or at least, I'm
not going to do last minute work again.

So the day started off with physics. Of
course i already knew i didn't do too good.
BUT, i didn't know i did THIS badly.
I failed physics. 24/50. Just another
mark...Of course i felt...like shit. But
what can i do? Afterall, i feel that's
what i deserve. I didn't study properly
for it, so it's just my fault. Yes, it's
ME ME ME. I can't blame anyone or
anything. It's ME. My fault.

Chinese paper. My biggest disappointment.
i missed the A1 by 2 marks. I must
be really very careful doing the paper
then i can get my A1. Maybe you think
my mark is good. 37/50. I can't accept the
fact that i lost o a girl whose chinese
have always been weak. I can't bring myself
to accept this fact.

Geography. I won't say i felt very
disappointed. By the time the paper was given
back to us. My mood was already like
shit and i already have complete
xin li zhun bei i would just fail it.
I got the paper and i think i ought to
go knock myself on the wall. 21/50.
I passed by one pathetic mark. I
just tyco scraped past it.

Maths paper. I totally didnt have any hope
because my maths was always on the
50+ boundary. Im very prepared to
fail this as well. There isn't anymore moderation!
wtf. I could have got a B3 if the 10 marks
were added to my pathetic 57/100.
See, i just sucked so much.

Now just waiting for language arts.
I hope i don't do too badly. But even
so, i guess i deserved it too. Since i
never really took language arts seriously.
SORRY MR LEE.

Im really too disappointed by all these
close-to-failing marks. But i won't give
up YET. This is my first RVIP test. And
i must say i learnt to study WAY beforehand
and manage my time well. I need to revise
constantly already. The next test is in term 3.
I have enough time to prepare for it.
So i must jia you for the next test and
only put in hard work and hope for the best.
While others choose to brood
over the unsatisfactory results, we should
move on. And get those who were
disheartened to get back on their feet
and hang on. I hope everyone is not
too saddened by their test results because
you can't possibly do worse than me.
So we should all just move on and
jia you together. It will all be worth
it in the end. I believe it will.

SINYEE-

im very troubled. so troubled. that
stupid planning. it didnt seem to be
so complicated from the start. why did
it turn out to be so difficult to deal with?
we have like 400 sec 2 students and
izzit so difficult juz for me to find
5 capable people? izzit really so difficult?
i juz need 5 ppl you noe. 5 ppl. now
i only confirmed ariel, daniel and sherry
then its like all the while i thought all the
6 classes will go with all the 6 leaders then
only today i noe 2 classes going one time.
and the first 2 classes from 2nd to 4th june
then next 2 classes from 3rd to 5th.
got the stupid lapse. tell me how to find
leaders willing to leave their classes.
im willing to take 2B if i have to.
of course i mind. but wad can i do?
im like how despo already and you are still giving
me the "you wanna be with your
class crap" i noe that weveryone wants to
be with their own classes, so do i.
but the thing is, its juz 3 days. and its easier to lead
other classes cos the ppl in your class
sure wont listen to you. i dunno wad to say.
its all ridiculous to start with. extra work
on my back. ass larh.

SINYEE-

today was filled with all sorts of events!
first have class leader investiture. took
damn long. i think everyone was
fascinated by the way yantong
pronounces the word "chairperson"
haha...it was damn funny lorh xP

then we had class phototaking! it was
damn damn fun. it was the happiest
phtotaking session i had. I LOVE
MY 2C (: me and ariel were screaming
like hell over there cos im about to
fall off the slippery chair im standing
on...hahaha it was very very fun larh...
then we lagged around in lab
lesson lorh...home econs cooked shepherd's
pie. was quite nice juz that it looks a bit icky.

then we had cca phototaking! was very fun
too even though the one taken with
2C was funner x) i was like the second
row then standing right at the end of
the line. then the funshot everyone crowded
to the front and i sat beside peiqi
and i gave her rabbit ears! wahaha (:
then jason and tessa announced our
2006/2007 rvtt committee.

announcing our new committee:
captain- peiqi!!! *cheers*
vice captain- kah han
treasurer- shibin!!! xP
asst. treasurer- antonio
sec 1 co-ordinator- NOT MOEKA!
suprisingly xinhui and yujie.
sec 2 co-ordinator- sherry and yunpeng

okay thats all. i wanna be the capt next year
lorh...but i know its impossible..cos sherry
will be de lorh...nvm i wont stop you from
imagining me with the BLUE insignia!
then we went to JEC for
a sort of gathering larh...juz go and eat
and lag around basically...and once again
i felt the bond i had with rvtt...(:
so today was a happy day!
yay! I <3 MY RVTT TOO! (:

SINYEE-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEREN!!!
see larh everyday got ppl birthday.
wo bu broke cai guai arh. haha

ok nth much to blog about today. i
juz went to my grandma's hse and stoned
there from 3 to 7. wahh wth. i
LITERALLY stoned there...nth to
do at all..i dunno why the hell my
father dragged me there in the first place
lorh. no comp, dun watch tv,
nth nice there at all...walao i dunno how
i managed to survive. my only entertainment
was peiqi's smses. yeahh thanks alot(:
then was my cousin's birthday
so ate the birthday cake and off i went
home. FINALLY.

yeahh so i got nth much to blog bout larh...
byebye (:

--sinyee

ok. so all i did was juz go blog surfing
around and i read someone's blog and
i remembered stuffs i was supposed to
forget. of course. unhappy stuffs.
yarh. so why am i back here? to
release my stress before i go mad.
LITERALLY mad.

i mean, wads the problem. i've
already tried my very best to forgive and
forget but its really very difficult you noe.
i cant forget those things that you did
and stuffs you said in order to get your
way. i noe you didnt affect me directly
but in a way. pls dun act like you noe me
very well. cos i can confirm to your face
that you noe ABSOLUTELY NTH.
i bet you dun even noe i hate your guts.
so why dun you juz buzz off and find a place to
hide your face and your crap and stop
pissing me off. its an irony that you
are so two-faced. its hard to believe
such ppl reallly existed. but it was you.
YOU who proved it to me. YOU whom
i used to think was nice. you were not
the you i used to noe. you changed cos you
wanted attention. you wanted power.
YOU SUCK.

sometimes whenever i start to feel
that you are ok, you will do something
to refresh my hatred for you. i will find
out the korean translation of i hate you
and start writing it all around instead of
sarang heyo. stop being such and asshole
and stop trying to get ppl's sympathy.
im getting really sick of that. every now and
then you will like to express how chamm you
are. you think you are cghamm. and i tell you
im how many times more chamm BUT
i dun do wad you do. you are DOWNRIGHT
CHEAP.

dun ask me who im referring to. close friends
might noe. who is so powerful for sinyee
to have such a deep hatred for her.
who is that f-ing ass around here
who likes to do things which pisses sinyee off.
i tell you one last time.
DUN MESS WITH ME SUCKER.

i dun care if you think im vulgar
or wadever bullshit larh ok. when im
pissed i do ANYTHING and you better
believe it. i dun care wadever you think
now. if you haven seen this side of me. its
cos you dunno me well enough. so im telling
you now.

sinyee is not the nice girl you think.
sinyee is very vulgar when she's pissed.
sinyee is juz some girl with serious ap.
sinyee doesnt tolerate ANYBODY'S nonsense.
so. i conclude. dun piss sinyee off if
you want her to be nice.

--sinyee

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VERON!!!

April really so many ppl birthday larh.
later still got jieren, kahhan, sylvia,
winnie, tessa and eileen...blahh...
broke already larh...xP ok nvm thats
not the point.

im having problems confirming my
committee members...so far, i only
managed to confirm ARIEL! yay girl,
keep it going! (: and i needa find 4 more
ppl and decide wad we wanna let the
ppl do before the 21st of april..
how packed..i think we will take long long
time to settle larh...hmmms...i got
ppl in mind but haven asked yet xD.
dun even noe whether they will accept this larh
but it's pretty fun and everything
you noe..maybe ppl want lorh...anyway
we'll get to go two times mahh...

okay...so everyone is starting to
fall sick again...izzit becoming the
latest trend again...haha...okay
so get well soon peiqi and jin! dun wear
yourselves out larh...(: okay.

no hw nowadays but got proj, proj
and more proj. wth larh...im bloody
sian of proj and reflections and stuff like
that...BULLSHITTTT...im so bored larh.
nth to do. i slept at 1 plus last night.
and woke at 1 plus today...haha i slept
a whole 12 hrs! how long since i enjoyed
this luxury larh rite. anyway,
my mum dun think that the voodoo doll is
cute at all so i still have to pay for it myuself.
but like i said, IM BROKE.
lalala, wadever larh rite...im gonna heckkare
and take it as it comes...thats my style (:

--sinyee

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIBIN!!!

hmmm...so today was our second trng
at sunsports...was pretty ok larh...
juz that ah zhu started out training me
and jenn again xP. i think my forehand
really improved alot. yeahh smth good.
then after that me and jenn had a break
before we go and play doubles match
with peiqi and shibin :D we thrashed them
haha...and ah zhu slacked around too...
he's like enjoying himself so much when
he play doubles with us and he serve then
we cannot catch one. laugh there like some
idiot...xP on the whole today's trng pretty
lag except for the jump table part...
wahh there i really feel like dying...
and our dear sec 4 seniors skipped the
jump table part except for maria and choonyen
they do until the fifth set then buay tahan
already xD

today is our dear sec4 seniors' last trng.
hmmm...quite sad lorh...wo hui xiang
ni men de! my seniors all so nice larh...
especially kwan jie and tessa (:
haha...my counsellor and "lover"
i will really miss you all de x)
i hope next time we all trng you all
will still come...cos sinyee loves all
of you all de worh...-smiles-
cos my seniors are the bestest parts
of rvtt and the biggest reason why
i <3 rvtt so much (:

--sinyee

so i slept at 12 last night again...haha
i bet if i nv meet tzehui today i will
surely overshot the stop and who noes
maybe i'll end up at outram park again
haha...ok no larh...and after two days,
i finally see peiqi today! hahaha...
nahh i didnt go all high. its juz like
normal leh haha...

ok so today was another boring and tiring
day. i fell asleep during maths lesson.
no, not exactly fell asleep. should be
cos the teacher finish teaching early then
lemme sleep. yarh. effective communication
sux as usual...haiyo. its sucha hopeless
subj larh can. the teacher's perfume juz
makes me wanna puke. so i wasnt listening
at all to the teacher and was writing
sarang heyo (: everywhere available.
and zhao wei asked me whether im mad.

ok and i was super mad during geog
lesson. me and yingting and peishi and
xuanwei were talking bout tooting stuff
which has completely nothing to do
with the topic we are discussing.
and mdm mak heard wad we were talking
bout. but wad can she do? juz shake head
and walk away. HAHA. i was so mad today
that mdm mak asked me whether i was
ok. lol this is like the first time any teacher
asked me this question. of course im not ok
larh. im sure to flunk lang arts. and
its not rendy lee's fault...i didnt take
the subj seriously so there, if i fail, i juz
so deserve it larh rite. =/

and tmr is another 3 hrs of gruelling
trng...man i dunno how much
longer i can take. hmm...
i really like the voodoo doll in
lian he zao bao. i like it!!! haha.
who's willing to gimme money to buy?
joking...^^

--sinyee

okay. so smth really stupid but funny
happened to me today. i waited for
an sms until like 12 last night then i
was like feeling how tired this morning.
i slept on the mrt and yeah, you guessed
it i missed the stop. HAHAHA.
the next time i open my eyes was
like OUTRAM PARK. yeahh great.
lucky i go school early. so i juz got out
and waited for the train BACK to
school. how stupid but how funny.
and when i got up at outram park,
i saw this shuai guy from i dunno wad
school larh..haha..maybe tmr will overshot
to outram park again...no larh
joking only...

today's learning journey was to
chinatown. we got this super GAY
guide larh called JACKIE. haha.
gay guy got gay name. he so sissified
can...urgh. and bloody er xin.
he have got good info alright but
im juz disgusted by his sissified gayness.
haha...

my neck hurts larh...and i dunno why..
and my right shoulder joint STILL
hurts. urgh. maybe it's cos i slept on it last
night. haha heckkare. then i had
my "date" with serene teo after
school when im already uberly tired...
then i was told im the leader of the
committee to plan for the malaysia
trip for sec 2 geog lesson so sorry
tessa, you are not applicable x)
and i hafta pick 5 committee members.
i already have ppl in mind and we will
discuss wad is the area we want the ppl
to work on. the rest is tian ji bu ke xie lou.
hahha. ok. thats the end of my
boring day larh...im now waiting
for somebody to call me...hahaha

--sinyee

my flu has finally decided to leave
me alone except i still have the
occasional sniffs. haha. ok so today
was my second day of ROLLERBLADING!
haha..i could real fast today. but
still got a bit of prob with the turning
techniques. but wadever. today
fell alot of times all HEAVY falls.
i hurt my left pelvic bone and my
right shoulder joint. >.<
and i got wad kind of tan at the
end of the sunny day. a patch of white
then a patch of tan then another
patch of white. RAHH. er xin can.
nvm. so today was my first trng
at sunsports club as b div girls.

hmm...we left the school at around
2.35 and waited for that holy 196
until like 2.58. so long larhh..then late
for trng. the place really ulu lorh..
the toilet. i cant even bear to
see. and i went in there to train.
and tessa tell us have to do 200
times of forehand, 100 times of
backhand and 100 times of forehand
underspin. like wth. the only
thing i can do is 100 times backhand.
then me and jenn shared a table with
pearly, rousi and jin. then zhu jiao
lian picked me and jenn out to
the outside squash area to train.
feel how ostracised larh...that place
so hot can. then we were trying to
do 200 times forehand when tessa
and vanessa came in and told us
that the thing bout the 200 times
trng is all a joke. HAHA. like how nice.
we train like wad and you tell me its
a joke...after that we kenna pulled inside
again and zhijun and sherry go outside.
then zhu jiao lian staretd playing
forehand with us. and was pretty hiong lorh.
pick balls, train. train, pick balls.
then move on to backhand.
its really weird cos my lannest
forehand became not bad and my
best backhand became the lannest.
hmmm...then they all go break left
we all in there with ah zhu and after
that lijie came and train with me and jenn,
she la and la then we ding and ding.
how tired. we were like the only 2 there
who nv went for break at all cos
the two of them were so interested
in lian-ing us. hmfph...then 6
o clock finally came! i thought
can go home and my shoulder is
hurting badly. then who noes still hafta
jump around the table to lian
our jiao bu yi dong. wth. damn
hiong can. first trng already wanna kill us.
no break man. haix...hope its better
overall its pretty ok. everything's nice
enough except the jumping part x)

--sinyee

im still down with flu. GRR. making
me fell groggy and sleepy all day.
today is the day the sec 3s leave
for their sec 3 adv camp. the highlight
of their sec 3 life. and ppl who know
this will noe the sec 3s will be gone until
wednesday afternoon. that means i
wont be able to see peiqi for 2 days!
RAHH. nvm. she'll still call me at
night. haha. ok
so i went to the elective course
today and im in ROLLERBLADING!
hahaha. its pretty fun. though
the front part was boringggg.
and our grp which is the sec 2s even
slower than the sec 1s. they are
already able to skate fast. and us?
slow coaches. its not i dun dare to
go fast. i juz dunno the way.
i fell ONE TIME thrughout the whole
SIX HOUR lesson. hahah im pro.
hah ok shant be ego now. tmr
still got another 6 gruelling hrs
of blading. hmmm...maybe if
the gear didnt smell so much
it would be better...and tmr is my
first trng in rvtt b division girls!
hmm.. and peiqi isnt there. bleh.
nvm. i still have my nice sec 4 seniors =)
looking forward to it haha. ok.
im like how sleepy now. stop that flu!

then after school was feeling how sleepy
budden still stay back to discuss bout
cid proj. then saw 4 npcc boys
going over to the canteen extension and
wth, they go open the unlocked
cabinet took out a net and 2 bats
and started playing. wth. i so kan bu
shuang can. they dun even noe which
two parts of the table should go tgt.
then i sat on the canteen bench looking
at them with THAT FACE.
wth. wad a complete insult to rvtt.
play like how lan there. they are not
even supposed to go anywhere near there
or touch our stuffs. then louis went
over to scold them. x) 3 cheers for
louis!

--sinyee

im down with flu. i cant stop sneezing.
im like rudolf the red nose reindeer.
i feel extremely sleepy. i cant
open my eyes. urgh... stop that flu.

someone pls tell me wads the f-ing
prob with my mum. i was doing
my stuffs in my room. then she asked
me to help her untie her sports shoes
shoelaces. i did and i went back
to my room and continued with my stuff.
then she asked me come out
again and help her adjust the tightness
of the shoe. i did and i went back in.
then i came out to use the comp.
and i had music on. ana she said in this
super nasty voice "take the shoes out
larh...listen wad song..."

wtf. i mean dun you noe how to bloody
untie your own shoelaces and adjust
them yourself? hell noes wads the
bloody size of your feet arh huh.
i listen to music you unhappy then
tell me take the shoes out larh. wads
the f-ing prob with listening to songs
larh. you unhappy then go away and
shut up larh. you dunno how to take
the shoe out yourself izzit.
i can take it out for you but you cannot
ask properly one meh. still say
wad listen song. you unhappy
then get lost larh. wtf. its like
bullshit larh rite. juz stop pissing me
off larh.

wahh..i pissed was i last nite. everything
like bu shuang me like that. my father
want me help him write letter. then
my junior refuse to stop talkin to me
on msn then he flare up and scold me.
wtf. them my mum ask me to help
her write the add on the envelope.
then she say my handwriting too
small and wadever. make me write
it over and over again. wtf. then i use
the comp halfway not responding
when im already feeling so fan.
i really really wanted to scream.
i need to let it all out before i go
mad. wads the prob larh.
i seriously think i got some prob.
always feel so weird and depressed.
wtf. and im like how pathetic.
nvm. this entry is filled with
random stuffs. how long has it
been since i last felt accomplished.
haix. like VERY LONG? i didnt think
i felt accomplished at all this yr.
im juz becoming more and more
mad. sometimes i really wonder wads
my purpose in life. you see arh.
im a typical example of a useless
person. my hw always nv hand in
on time, my projects all last
minute work, my exams all
flunk and blah blah...there isnt any
area that i seem to be good in.

i nv show this kinda face i always show
in school to my parents. the reason
being i can dun explain to my
friends but i HAVE TO explain to
my parents. so since i was feeling so
screwed last night, i juz gave my
father that face anyway and i juz refused
to say anything more. and they were the
ones who always say they understand
me the most. HOW WRONG.
they are the ones who are the
most unaware of wad im thinking.
how i feel etc. they nv bother
about how i feel or wadevr. they juz assume
they noe. like how HAHA. if
they noe then they will noe how to
juz get lost and leave me alone when
i show them that face and stop bugging
me. ya wad do i expect. they think
i lead a relaxed life can. they dun see
me struggling with myself during exams.
ALONE. mugging there like nobody's business
until wad time. they dun see it so they
think i dun needa study for the exams.
im like studying in my room and they
nv ever wlk past my room cos its like
the last room closest to the door.
and wad they assume. im using my
hp and sms and chatting in there.
wtf. they only see me use the comp
cos the comp is in the balcony larh rite.
they think i have no hw cos they dun see
me doing it in my room. they dun
think i have any reason to be tired
cos they dunno i wake up at 4am most days
to finish my hw. they dun think that
i am stressed at all juz because i nv
SHOW it to them. they think im very
relexed. yeahh how rite. wtf.
and wad they think of my slacking
bro? study very hard. cos they
ALWAYS walk past his room which
is like juz next to the kitchen.
then nv see him slacking around
and using the comp and playing
ps2. ya they think he is like how
hardworking cos he is 3rd in his class.
how to compare. he is 3rd with
FAILING SUBJ YOU NOE.
at least i dun have larh rite.
and wad kind of school is he in larh.
JURONGVILLE CAN. i go that school
you think i still third. i bet i every
yr top scholar can.wtf. how can compare
like that? tell him come my school and see if
he can get 3rd larh. you think get
3rd so easy in rv arh. at least
not for me larh. im stupid
mah cannot meh. wth. everything wanna
compare. when i get back my psle
score and im at least 40 marks more than
him not as if they got say anything larh
rite. wtf. its so wadever. why dun they see it.

--sinyee
and im full of hatred. for everything. everyone.

i flunked my sc interview...hahaha...
but its fun! i was like in the
school since 9 when my interview
starts at 12. hurhur. then watched
all my friends come in and go out
of special room one. all come out with
" i flunk le" so i didnt have high
hopes. i dun wanna be anyway. but
still felt a bit disappointed. haha.

and ms teo freaked me out today.
i was juz sitting there and talking
to ariel, jos and gk when she came over
and asked in a very excited voice
"sinyee! do you want to help me
plan a trip to m'sia?" omg. i was like
soooo freaked out. wad has it got to
do with me? so i made a very very
quick decision in my head. i mean. wad
can i say? the answer is an obvious yes.
maybe it will be fun lorh...budden
how does it concern me larh. so
now i hafta stay back after school
on wednesday to discuss this thing.
ok. great. :/

and i went in the interview and i
got shot down like how chamm.
nvm. i wont get in de larh. but it
doesnt matter. hmm...all cos of time
management lorh...if not for that i
wont hesitate so long when they ask
me whether i can cope if i become sc.
i hesitated like HOW LONG before
i said yes...

BECAUSE I GET DEPRESSED
EASILY LARH! HOW YOU EXPECT ME
TO SAY THIS TO MS TAN? TO
CHOONYEN? MAD ARH. I GAVE A YES
COS IM GIVING MYSELF A CHANCE
TO TAKE UP THIS CHALLENGE LARH.
HOW CAN I JUZ SAY IT LIKE THAT
THAT I DUN THINK I CAN COPE
COS I GET DEPRESSED EASILY?
HOW? SO IM FORCED TO SAY
A YES LARH. IS THERE ANYTHING
WRONG WITH IT. MY TIME
MANAGEMENT SUX LARH. IF NOT
YOU THINK I WILL STILL HESITATE.
I JUZ SPIT THAT YES OUT STRAIGHT
AWAY LARH RITE.

of course i got shot down.

im feeling so screwed again. wth.
this post wasnt supposed to
end with me feeling screwed.
it was juz supposed t be a post when i say
wad happened. IT WASNT
SUPPOSED TO END THIS WAY AT ALL.
im getting out of control.
i think all this is too much.
see how easily i get depressed?
THATS WHY I HAVE NO
CONFIDENCE I CAN DO A GOOD JOB
BEING AN SC BUT HOW DO
I TELL IT TO THEM? nobody
understands you noe. really.
im NOTHING. dun blame me
for doubting myself. but im of
no use. and there's no second meaning to
that.

wad is MY purpose of life?
i dunno wad i want.