Got a feeling this is going to be a rather long post. As usual, welcomed to leave anytime, if you don't mind then well, go ahead.

Second CIP session today, still did wrapping the whole time. Think i gotten rather accustomed to it, so i shouldn't be changing duty most probably. Shibin and her friends came and helped out too, so we gave them the easy job of cutting the laminating plastic for us to wrap. I guess 5 hours of that can get boring as well.

So around 9.50am, me and melvin went out of the library to prepare for math test. Anyway must thank jianlong for lending his calculator to me. Totally forgot about it. Anyway, im going to flunk this test with a single-digit score. How sad. I didn't even get to finish question 2 in the 45 min. Didn't even care to try questions 3 and 4. Zzz. Though it was rather expected, but i thought it was manageable, just need more time.

Then went for a late break with melvin because i was going to die from gastric pains. And went back to wrap books again. Had class lunch. I hate jec. For banning people from sitting on the second floor anymore, so 3H always gets split up, what kind of a class lunch is this? Then decided not to go for training for class lunch. Then i saw zhijun there and she said that im giving up training for class lunch when we said that we want to win nanyang. And i felt damn guilty that i still went off for training after finishing lunch.

After confirming with xinyu that i could take 334 to that guailan CC which i have never heard before, she told me to alight at the first CC with a macs there. And so i alighted a few stops after, to find that i had alighted at Jurong Green CC instead of Jurong Spring CC which im supposed to train at. And then, i wanted to take 335, so i walked 3 bus stops to look for 335, to see none. And so i took 157, thinking that if i can't find it then i'll just go home since 157 reaches boon lay interchange as well. And man, was that 157 slow as snail! Almost killed myself on that bus. And i finally found the place.

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I really didn't realise what im becoming if someone didn't tell it to my face. I really wasn't treating the trainings seriously, not treating the matches seriously. I didn't give them my 100%. Yes, i wasn't like this in the past. And i really don't knw what is the problem with me now. And i can't blame anyone for not playing well these few days, not to mention the past few matches. Maybe i just don't have that motivation anymore. Wrong priorities. What's the problem with me?

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It feels like it's been so long, when it's only that few weeks. Like i was only scrolling through the whole long list of msn contacts. When i saw it. So long since i saw it. And suddenly overwhelmed by nostalgia once again. Can't describe that feeling of that few words i saw. What i saw but could not deem true. Just wondering when i'd ever get something back.
Because i really miss you so much.