I'm in a very unstable state of mind now so the below contents are quite explicit, language-wise, and not meant for the faint-hearted. If you are not exactly a fan of my vulgarities, i suggest you get out of here now.

You knw, sometimes i wished there was no price to pay for murdering someone, because if it really was like this, my goddamn brother would have been dead by now. Wtf, i really cannot stand him okay. I see him se the comp for consecuetive 6 fucking hours then i told him at 8 i wanted this goddamn comp at 9.30pm. He let me wait until 10.30 still tell my mother its because he bu shuang so he dont want to give me. I had the impulse to go up behind him and pummel his goddamn face, but i knw i can't do that, he's practically double my size. I have the impulse to walk up and flick off the goddamn switch of the comp. But i didn't , i just stood up behind him, and i almost went mad behind there. Bloody hell, i wished i had no such brother.

And you, walao eh, i cannot stand you also. Bloody two-faced. One more time im gonna tell you to your face to fuck the hell off away from me and shut your ass up. It's not like i did anything to you, i dunno why the fuck you must say that of us. You are not exactly someone very perfect. I wont really mind if you are that kinda academically inclined, physically fit and mentally mature, excuse me, you are NONE of that, and most importantly, you are NO beauty queen, so please stop saying you think im very ugly because i knw that at least im better off than you. sometimes maybe you can go look yourself in the miirror and look into your own eyes and search your heart, if you happen to still have one, why the hell are you doing all this? And pls stop deluding yourself. I don't want to tell myself again that what you say dont hurt me. I know im not all that kind of superchio person, i know i told them i dont really care, but you cant deny those words hurt. Imagine i tell you that you are ugly, how the fuck will you feel? I figured i just about had enough of tolerating those bullshit you keep sprouting to me, I figured so you dont deserve my respect after all. So all you showed me was a scam. Sinyee does not tolerate rubbish of any kind from anyone, so pls fucking feel honoured i managed not to ask you to fuck off already. I really dont give a shit to anymore you want to say. I'm staying immuned, showing my long-hidden attitude. My incidentally big attitude, and i happen to know i am very good at giving ppl attitude. I really regret taking you as my friend, so much for that, we had all seen through your self-pity and your acts crying for fake sympathy. and thanks for one and a half yrs of friendship.
I really dont care anymore, make me rid of feelings.

``sinyee

Came back from xingnan's lantern fest celeb. This year's celebration is godamn boring. I just enjoyed talking to Mr Ng..

School sucked today, lag like siao. After school went out with veron and ariel and we talked bout someone. Crap, i hate her larhs. Wah man, i feel so damn tired now, plus sore throat. x(

I dunno what to update already. ahh...so tired..

``sinyee

Stupid CID report, solo chiong it until 1.30am last night, or is it this morning? But thanks josephine and hui en, at least you all got help me. Ohmygod lorh, this morning woke up at 5am like going to die like that. I feel super super grouchy larhs. I mean apart from all that staring at comp screen at binomial theorem and pascal triangle, i knw im gonna hate them together with manuka honey, apart from that, i was like changing the stupid printer ink at 1am this morning. lols. nice time to change larh. In the end still tkc still want me to edit again. kns.

Like walao, today's lessons i keep dozing off. gahhs. and i ound out the criteria for triple science combi. I dun think i can make it ): So maybe not going to blog so often bah. Tmr got tanhuizhen's
leson again, take away ong's lesson. haix, maybe in the end only my languages and chem can make it...

After school went studying in the lib with josephine again. But then i was too tired bah, fell asleep while reading my humanities journal. haix. Why does it feel like im gonna so flunk my EOYs? )X

``sinyee

Blogger is being stupid again. Im unable to make changes to my template, so weiqi, i can't relink you yet...

So, today was a long long day. Lessons and everything was lag, all revision. I guess the only best part of the day was assembly. Yuling's demo pwns all can. Then we had chinese, after culture presentation, yunzheng go youtube and we ended up watching hardgay. Ya funny is funny, but i dont like the class being so obssessed with it...Even wanted rendy let us watch.

At the end of the day already half shut down, still got remedial with tan hui zhen. Honestly i already wanted to die. Found her talking alien lang which i dont really understand. after two and a half hours, im finally free to go home. On the bus already so sian then still got headache. Sciences are bad for health. Guess maybe too tired or what, gave calvin attitude. sorry bro, thanks for understanding.

I dont know how to snap out of this shit. CID not done, tests coming up and tkc is gonna flame me tmr already. Great.

``sinyee

Ran 5 rounds in the morning today, and as usual it made me feel very drowsy instead of supposedly freshening me up. IRP was cut short due to the long speech made by ms ek during morning assembly. It was only about 10min after that we settled down, that we had to go back to class again. I was asked to go and see ms wan, i didn't knw what for, but turns out that i'm the buddy of one of the 31 PRC scholars coming to our school this time round. I had wanted to say no, but seems like i didn't really have any choice...

History lesson was abit off track? Mr lim started talking about er, social etiquette. All because the 4 of us who went to see ms wan was late getting into class. So he sort of went through the many steps that we had to do before we actually returned to our seats. We went on to group work on the factors leading to the fall of the tsarist government and blah...

Then it was er, chinese lesson? It was like, damn boring. Culture presentation of the xin hai ge ming. Then the video was like dpn't knw how sian, and ang let us off late again. She always not happy then purposely drag the lesson, let us off late..After break was chem lesson. But before that, our class got owned. we were sort of a lilttle too noisy and chng came in and was like asking everyone with insignias to go out and get flamed. And towards the end he snapped "TELL ME WHAT CLASS IS THIS???" Okay, that's just dumb, but who doesnt knw that big piece of paper with a prominent 2C is stuck on our front door? Oh please, not like i want to say anything, but he really is very kb.

Ong's lesson was revision. We were very er, ahead of time. We had done everything we were supposed to and we still hacve two periods left. Ong told us that we really rock...because we were just so fast. Lang arts was actually very crappy, we were er, restless? Just couldnt keep still or shut up. Pre-exam stress. haix. Maths was also revision, pretty much everything's the same. and like, finally, school let out.

I just realised how superficial a person can really be. I guess i was really wrong to have even believe a single thing of the bullshit she's sprouted. If only i had known earlier what she really is, maybe "trust her" wouldn't have crossed my mind at all. I really don't understand what had caused this big change in her. It isn't like she was like this all the way, but maybe i'd rather not knw. I really don't want to have anything to do with her. Just get out, and get away from me.

``sinyee

眼泪再苦再咸有你安慰又是晴天

wahh today feeling super sian in school. the thought of thimun presentation after school screws me up man. just so bored. and i got nth to blog. after school in the end dun have the presentation. picture this: im jumping up and down in the air and screaming happily cos it's cancelled. aha. i did that larh.

i went to the swing today! no more ppl to fight over the swing with. but i only stayed half an hr. so bored, so sian. haix..

``sinyee

微笑再美在甜不是你的都不特别

okay, so i went studying with jos again for 3 hrs this time. though i was gone for the whole day, but you get what i mean, we slacked larhs. i woke up late today, slept late last night, although i still didn't want to sleep when my dad made me. so me and jos met at 9.45am and had breakfast at macs. we stayed there until 11plus, we couldnt scam the seats anymore cos we had finished eating. we stayed at the lib until 1plus then we went to food court for lunch.

i want to sue that ice kachang bar at that food court larhs. the quality sucks totally. yesterday was disfigured ice cream and today was like, oh i dunno what. its a con larhs. then when we went back the lib, didnt want to study anymore. started doodling some stuff to myself. i think i do that too often.

ohwells, came back and i went to the swing. saw two malay kids there. so i just went and sat down at the bench. then the little boy was so cute, came over and said "jiejie you want to play?" i see those big innocent eyes, can't help but smile. i said no cos i didnt wanna fight over the swing with 2 kids. then the little boy asked me to help him push his sister on the swing. then a tamil girl came with her mother. and the tamil girl helped to push. perfect racial harmony. hahas.

okay. im going to do my english compre!

``sinyee

okay, so i went to lib and studied for 4hrs with jos today. i finished making notes for all the chapters. going to read through everything by tmr, for the mock paper on monday. hardcore chem is bad for health. if anything, my cough has gone from bad to worse. okay, maybe it's not chem's fault, but whatever.

isnt much of anything to say today. my whole day is spent at the library. im quite sick of studying so much during the weekends. whoever is as hardcore as us, study everyday after school until like 6plus, every weekend for like the whole day? maybe there are people as sick as us out there. maybe you. lol.

i counted i got like 189 contacts in my hp contact list. saddening there isn't a single person to sms when im bored. one hundred and eighty nine ppl larh for gooness sake. hardcore chem is really bad for health, i realise. cos im having another headache now. This chemistry thing, you better give me an A for chem end of years or im gonna kill myself.

alrights, im gonna go do smth thats supposed to be done long time ago. to prevent a certain someone from having private talks with me in the morning anymore, im not gonna sit around and wait for all of you to be available you knw. haven you all once thought who will be held responsible if it's not done? yeah well, duh, of course it's me. and it's not like you all dunno how much he freaks me out. nobody gives a damn to what i say. then fine, i can finish it up myself.

i knw you all dun give this a damn, not interested. but hell, it's not like i am okay.

``sinyee

骗人的 ):

another random day. sometimes i think my life really very routine, bored to death. no excitement. ohwells. so this morning went running with Ariel again. only ran 4 rounds, cos we only felt like running 4 rounds. lol.

science lesson returned our quiz. i did okay bah, although not the highest, but got improvement already. although my mum think it isnt very good, but heck, she everything also think not good. 10.5 out of 15 le, what more she want. highest also 1 mark more somemore my chem is like cannot make it de lorh. ahh whatevers. pe was lag larh. netball assesment. cant be bothered with that. fail i also heck.

comp lesson was as sian as ever, so nth much anyway. lang arts lesson was lag as well. do compre. chi lesson also lag, go gthru compre. haix, today is lag, but then very tired. halfway in school got abit fever. i also dunno why, but then my temp is like always higher than ppl. my normal temp now is 37.8o C. okay then very sian. after school went to lib, but forgot lib closed at 4 so me and jos went jec but cant concentrate on doing work there.

december got STEP to thailand. but then my father dun allow me to go cos thailand abit de erm, unstable now larh. must see how first. hopefully can get to go bah, i really want to go de lorh, but i also feel abit unsafe larhs. so ohwells, we'll wait and see.

``sinyee

so much pain so little time.

okay, my blog finally can work already. haix, like i already said, the paper 1 sucks big time. totally flunkalicious. haix. can't help it also larh. im damn sure my chi paper content sucks because i finished both gong han and zuo wen in 45min. the content must be like super shallow.

after school went to jp lib. study alone, but halfway very sian, thought of the swing. then since only like 2 plus, i went back intending to spend another 2 hrs at the swing. but then, saw my mum on the way home then too bad larh, no swing liaox. haix.

so i came back, and i went to sleep because my headache was like super bad. until 8.30 i wake up and eat dinner. ahh, i dun want to go to school tmr...

``sinyee

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PEIQI.

ahh, today didn't have that terrible terrible gastric pain. but then still coughing and today add on another. got flu liaox. funny man, cough and sneeze, im full of disease now. goodness, tmr is paper 1. i hope i dun drive everyone crazy with my coughs and sneezes. then come home now got headache =/ crapp larh. what the fck is my problem???

haix. lessons today were okay. i got fined another $2 for my long fingernails. ahh wells. we had the 98.7FM DJ come over today. they were so funny. ya, and they said if we heard them say "river valley high" during their time slot today, the first person to call in would win a pair of singapore idol tix. yeah, and they said river valley university, river vally road, river valley low, river valley highway and stuff. some girl got it larhs. 2 pairs of the tix. but since im not interested in singapore idol, well, i dun care larh.

after school went to lib to study with josephine and jin. was super tired larhs, couldnt really concentrate. but came home and i erm, skipped dinner again. haix, no appetite. just great, before exam i become like this. haix. i dunno what to post liaox. today i very sian, okay, actually i everyday also sian. haix. hopefully i dont flunk paper 1..

``sinyee

ahh, i dunno what is the problem with me. it's like, i got a fever this morning out of nothing, and i started coughing, and some super cannot tahan de gastric pains. goodness, i think im dying tmr. pls attend my funeral. ahh what is wrong with me? the gastric pain is like second day already larh. then today suddenly pain during desmond lim's lesson. lol. the pain can kill man.

ong lesson's today were all go thru stuff. he said i improve in my chem. in the quiz larhs. phew! but then he said it in a way i hated, he was like "we have ppl improving, huh, toh arh toh." and i was like wth? i hate ppl calling my surname one can. but whatever. i think it's like now, i improved im eng, hist and chem, left maths le. maths arh, i hopeless. i can already say now that i confirm plus chop fail my maths. haix. sad lorh. but, nvm.

after school stayed back to write zuo wen. aiya cheapo one. i anyhow write cos i just wanted to hurry and up and go buy somebody;s present xP. okay then i finished then i bought then i went home and i er, i skipped dinner and i did a card for somebody xP and then i sat infront of here. okay thats basically everything. and that im really bored of course.

oh god, paper in another 2 days. crapp. hopefully i dun flunk it. me and josephine are regular ppl who go to the lib everyday after school.im starting on revision for physics tmr. argh, gotta start earlier cos im slow. haix. okay. im bored! and sick ))x

``sinyee

THIS IS MY 300TH POST.

lessons were okay today, as usual. i presented my language arts speech, was helluva nervous larhs. but i made enough preparation bah. hopefully it would be not bad. they tell me apart that i speak too fast, everything else is okay. but speaking fast is already very bad..haix. ya and rendy gave us back our essay today. and i was like sitting there thinking what kinda rubbish i handed in, and he was like "im announcing the A students" and i went ya, sure wont have me one larh.
but, my name apppeared after josephine's name. wow. unbelievable sia.

i dunno why i pay so much attention to history lessons. no, it's not because i like desmond lim. and no, not because im afraid of him. actually i think there isn't much
to be scared of him, he very friendly what =x i find that perhaps now got more interest in history? so ya, full attention. and i have seen the way his eyes follow yingting's every move as she talk to jerrine. and looking like he could almost read their lips. sort of er, creepy, but nvm, me and kaying don't really talk during history. we were only discussing bout that that, i dunno
what to call that jing zuo thing. and we were thinking whether it might turn into a revolution. great, first im chem mad, and now im history mad.

we had a chem quiz today, i didn't knw it was today, so i didnt really study for it. but i think it's
pretty okay bah, hope i dont do too badly lorh. and there was this, lame but funny convo between ariel and zhaowei before malay lesson.

A: Can you lend me your dict later?
ZW: WHY EVERYBODY WANT MY DICT ONE?!?
A: How many dicts do you have?
ZW: er, i have two here and dunno how many at home.
A: It's very dangerous you knw, your dict not being with you all the time.

lol, yeah lame ass convo, but funny.

after school went to je lib, supposed to study. but we met josephine's junior sonjia and we gayed
around at the lib. hahas. was goddamn funny. i didnt really study much =x. and i was like so goddamn bored and the two of them got someone to sms and i once again, couldnt find anyone to chat with me in my 100+ contacts. pathetic. haix, can spmebody like ke lian ke lian me
and offer to like chat with me sometimes? lol.

``sinyee

okay, this is crazy, i updated the third time today.
cos i was super sian and i go blogsurfing and i
went to wee's blog and found that she say whoever
went to her blog must do this:

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesnt make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 ppl at their tagboard to ask them to do this!
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How are you feeling today?
Hips don't lie- Shakira
er...

How do your friends see you?
Xun zhao- Fan Wei Qi
does that means they are looking for the true me? lol.

Will you get married?
Imagine me without you- Jaci Velasquez
is this good or bad?

What's your best friend's theme song?
Chang tou fa-Fan Wei Qi
oh yeah, like i have any best friend at all. somemore, with long hair lol.

What was primary school like?
Jie shou- Fish leong
it was like acceptance? wow

How can you get ahead in life?
Aurora- Angela Chang
er..

What is the best thing about your friends?
Bless the Broken road- Rascal Flatts
i don't get it..

What's in store for this week?
Because of you- Kelly Clarkson
yeah i knw, because of you. but who?

What song describes you?
Yi yan wan nian- S.H.E
eh, does this mean that i got yuan jian? LOLS.

To describe your grandparents?
Down- JJ Lin
down? i think they still very highh

How is your life going?
Can't break through- Busted
okay, pretty much in deep shit.

What song will they play at your funeral?
I can't go on- F.I.R
who play this song i will haunt that person. already dun needa go on liaox what.

How does the world see you?
We're all in this together- High School Musical
not bad arh, we're all in this together worr

Will you have a happy life?
Cai bu tou- Angela Chang
wahh, cant predict one arh.

What do your friends really think of you?
Ba ai fang kai- F.I.R
er, they want me to let go of what?

Do ppl secretly lust after you?
Tian tian ye ye- F.I.R
er, everytime of the day? gayness

How can i make myself happy?
Fu yun- Angela Chang
to be like a cloud? LOLS.

What should you do with your life?
Wo shi xing fu de- Fish leong
heh, im already xing fu le

Will you ever have children?
Ai qing yoghurt- JJ lin
ehh, guailan

The next 5 lucky ppl:
if you happy and you knw it then JUST DO IT (:

``sinyee

okay, so i shall do this thingy which sylvia had
tagged me dunno how many million yrs ago. here goes.

start time: 6.56pm

5 years ago i was:

• in primary 3
• in Xingnan Primary School
• a prefect
• a guailan girl, and still am
• yeah, short.

5 snacks which i enjoy:

• twisties
• er, cheezels?
• chachos
• CHOCOLATES (:
• yupi apple rings

5 songs which i knw all the lyrics:

• Cai bu tou - Angela Chang
• Chu dian - S.H.E
• Yuan lai - JJ Lin
• Du Chang Qing Ge - Selina and tank
• Because of you - Kelly Clarkson

5 things i would do if i had a million dollars:

• Buy presents for those i owe and those coming up.
• Crazy shopping spree!
• Save it.
• But lotsa chocolates for myself and others.
• Bribe teachers to lemme pass my EOYs. jkjk xP

5 things i will never wear:

• er, yeah, nose stud.
• some clownish outfit
• not nv, but rarely, a belt.
• tongue stud? LOL.
• i really can;t think o anything le.

5 bad habits:

• Bad tempered. More like fiery tempered. xP
• Short term memory
• Procrastinate when asked to do housework
• Frank. i mean, too frank.
• The whole me is lousy to start with.

5 biggest joys:

• To smile a genuine smile.
• To kenna counselled by my counsellor, although normally for bad things xP
• To spend time with my ex-classmates
• To trust and be trusted.
• when i win a tournament, pass an exam etc.

5 famous ppl i'd date:

• kns can, singapore actors are like ._. and foreign actors are not my type.

5 ppl to do this quiz:

i tag ppl also might not do. if you happy and you knw it then you do.

• Peiqi
• Kaying
• Matthias
• Eugenia
• Xinyu

ahh im like goddamn hungry! lols, it's 6.05pm and
no one's at home except my king kong bro who is
pretending to study for his prelims tmr. okay, so
im waiting for my parents to return home with my
dinner while i chew on bread. yikes.

so i went to the library to mug with jos today. the
first half of the day was good. pretty good. we sat
in silence doing that damned piece of science assignment
for 2 and 1/2 hours. i don't believe i spent so
long at a already half-finished piece of assignment.
and we didnt even talk. so we went for lunch at 12.30pm!
hawker food today since the two of us have been stuffing
ourselves with fastfood this whole week we've
been out mugging. not good. ohwells, hawker food is
just as nice (:

after that we went to fairprice to find things to sneak
into the library! hahas, we smuggled in a whole pack
of 12s OREOS. and yupi apple rings!tra nice. wahaha.
but sadly, by like 1.30pm the library is a much less
pleasant place as compared to 10am. it's a whole lot
noisier, but it isn't as cold, i don't half mind though.
since im almost frozen to death even with my jacket.

but then we started slacking. no mood to study already.
then we started to talk about some things. hahas.
was super funny, bout the traffic light thingy xP
and im super bored. and saddened, because there are
like 100+ contacts in my hp and i can't seem to find
anyone i can sms when im bored. haix. it's like so sian.
really cannot find anyone to sms. eh jos, i really miss
talking to that person...haix.

and then i took 99 back again and reached home at 5.45pm
and i walked through the rain today. it's rain with the
sun out though. fun xP but it got too hard i didnt go to the
swing. ahh, swinging with the rain must be more shuang
than the wind.

goddamn, i forgot bout history assignment. and im still
hungry.

就像我们凭直觉走 找不到同一个出口
从现在到心痛要多久 还有没有以后

``sinyee

is there some kinda problem with cbox? can't seem
to load it. ahh heck.

was just looking for a place in the library after the
hsk test today. was fairly okay. i couldn't find any
vacant tables, so i headed off home cos i didn't really
feel like studying. but i ended up, a place i have last been
3 months ago. that playground with the swing across the
road from my house. i went there, i dunno why. and i just
sat on the swing. then i thought, when was the last time
i sat on a swing? three months, or probably more.
i must have stayed there at least 2 hrs. on the swing, on the
playground bench. listening to the music i keep replaying
and replaying in my hp.

i got up with half a mind to leave three times. but i
sat back down everytime because i didnt want
to leave that windy place. it was just, so windy, i
was waiting for rain. but it didn't rain larhs, so i left after
bout 2 hrs. maybe i can do this every now and then.
especially swinging with my eyes closed. i must have
looked like some siaoded girl in rv uniform swinging there
acting possessed, but heck, i like it.

and i came back, and fell asleep =x wah record, i almost
nv did fall asleep straight after i reach home. not even after
the tiring camps. whatever. and i did my chem assignment.

tmr, go lib with jos and study chem and maths. i want to
feel the wind again. but got alot of mosquitos x kaoz,
i killed 2 or them, goddamn blood suckers. rest in peace.

``sinyee

so i hosted korean students. shouldn't have prepared
my lang arts speech until so late last night. i didn't get to
present it today anyway. i missed all the lessons except
for 30mins of the first period chem. and the only lesson
the students get to sit in is comp lesson. im pretty sure they
are bored to death because i am as well.

we had a school tour and watched their taekwondo. not
bad larhs. then when me, ariel and veron went up during
rendy lee's ;esson to tell him that we are unable to present
today, we were standing like this: left to right: veron, me, ariel.
yeah, and rendy went "HEY LOOK! TRAFFIC LIGHT!"
okay, and that was so amusing everyone laughed. hurhur.
if you dun understand what traffic light, veron has green insignias,
mine yellow and ariel's red. so traffic light, in the correct order
somemore.

haix, i should have known that this would happen one day,
now i have to change partner. negative feeling. jenn i
will miss you x( lol okay so after school i went to the lib to
study with jos until my neck ache. covered another chapter for
chem today. so ya, gonna finish the last chapt soon.

tmr got hsk. i hate it. i dun want to go. 3 hrs bloody chinese
test. :f fucked up larhs.

i dunno why im feeling like this, i haven felt like this for a long
time. it's been awhile since i last felt depressed. since
i last shed tears. for no reason really.

为你伤心多一点 少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得

``sinyee

went running with ariel in the morning today. it was
supposed to make me more alert during lessons. it
worked for ariel, and just the opposite for me, i wanted
to sleep manx. haix, today got like every lesson. die le
i nv do flash. haix.

do my final brush ups for speech tmr, IMF history
report and CID proposal draft. haix.

``sinyee

okay i changed my blog song to breakaway. cos
esther said she was sick of my fullhouse song xP
okay. i dunno why but im damn tired today. keep
falling asleep. first period of the day, IRP lesson,
i already fell asleep halfway reading about the 911
incident. wahh totally lose focus. whole day wasn't
much of anything, low concentration anyway. until
assembly, is house meeting. hell, i kenna sabo-ed to
run 4X400m. stupid, but then after that found out
that we were like just stand-by de. and i felt sort of insulted.

gonna host some korean students on friday. get to
pon lessons.

okay. after school me, jos, yeejin went to jec to eat and
then we went to library to study but in the end, jin drew
in her organiser, josephine spammed my organiser
and i sat there reading fearless likea good girl. lols.
and i fell asleep on the mrt and bus. haix, off to do CID,
group members haven send to me, guess i hafta cover up.

and i don't want to think about it anymore.

有时假装沉默是否有点难受
到底期待像什么 一眨眼又让心伤透

``sinyee

okay, so i haven updated for the past 2 days. my blog
is the one becoming dead. haix. been quite busy with
school work recently. changed sitting plan, and my table
mate now is kaying! (: she is sdamn funny one larh.
hahs, you cant believe my joy when i finally get away from
that everything-borrow de jieren. ahhs, i also dunno what
to update actually. eng speech gave me quite some stress.
haix. i finally finished rvtt contact list manx.
3months plus liaox, about time also le. i dun believe my
low efficiency. lols.

i realy dunno what to update. off to type my last source
for eng speech and my CID research. phew, i dont believe
im actually doing something to get the group started.
not bad, im actually doing something. wow. lols.

关于你们手牵手
还是关于你和我
你说你总是在我左右
下一秒却又让我 猜不透

and my knee still hurts =/

SINYEE-

away on camp yesterday and the day before.
actually i came back yesterday at 8plus. but
my stupid bro refused to let me use the comp,
so i had to wait till today. replies to tags first!

zhijun> yeah i knw very difficult to achieve it one. but
thanks (:

linyinggxD> are you the linying from rvtt last time?
thanks (:

gk> sorry arh, yeejin took my answers away, you
check with others lorh, or school re-open i lend you.

kaying> thats porn web? LOLS. those ppl. i where got like
that de friend. see my links also dun have the name.

xinyu> dun have arh? hahas i dunno. im not a music person.

i shall just update bout the general camp, not specific
details, cos the camp is sorta sianz. there were 9 rv
chairpersons sent to NACLI, a leadership camp institute.

2A- Jesslyn
2B- Winnie
2C- Me
2E- Edmund
2F- Melvin
2H- Chih Yun
2I- Calvin
2J- Yan Sheng
2K- Shanice

im in same group as edmund. the red devils. yeah, it's lame
but thats because our super useless leader couldnt think
of anything better anc everything also smokescreen.
at least NACLI's environment is better than STEP.
in the dorms, there are BEDS and it's AIR-CONDITIONED.
unlike in STEP camp, sleep on the boards and as hot at night.
and the best part is you dont have to wash your own plates
after meals. its all buffet type. But this camp very lag, zero
excitement one arh. as lag as calvin the lag king (:
pentium negative 5.

anyway i was saying, i dont like my group, because the group
leader is a complete useless ass. super de dunno how to
organise things larh. and the rv ppl had a night walk on
the first night. not exactly night walk, cos we just went
to the sofa area and listened to edmund's porn songs and
calvin beating edmund up. hahas of course, melvin got
play a part also. (:

i think we will learn more thru STEP. although its more tough
but it can train our independence. i think we were conned by
desmond lim. he said leadership camp, and it was a national
education camp. i certainly didnt learn anything about
leadership there. and there was this gay harmony dance
where there was a gay instructor. kaoz man, cannot take
that guy. super niang can.

2nd day got talk with mayor. sian until want to die. alot
of ppl nodding off in front. and that includes edmund and calvin
and chih yun and shanice xP straits times reporter
interviewed me. ya then nth much. went on NE trail.
best part is the reflections at bukit chandu. the illustration
for the killings at pasir panjang last time was so realistic.

when we went back we had lunch and watched some videos,
had some discussions. best discussion. cos the leader went back
home already. then i led. what will happen if the situation
of racial riots did not improve. use typical rv way of linkage.
hhaas.

racial riots->unsafe->masses live in fear-> very chaotic-> dun dare to go out-> economy suffer-> masses suffer-> everybosy unhappy-> Great Depression-> Commit suicide-> population decrease-> end of singapore.

okay i knw thats very carap but heck. for fun and laughter xP

anyway off to chiong my thimun thing. later still have to go
hwa chong for thimun conference.

SINYEE-

okay. i decided on fullhouse ost- i think i.
heck le. this one not bad..okay back to work.

changed new skin! hahas took quite a long time to
decide on the blog song. i dun really like this current one.
but anyhow, heck.

tmr going for some ne camp le. sianx. i just wanna finish up
the damn hw and the thimun ppt. gahhs. the sunburnt
shoulders still hurt like siao. manx.

today's bicultural camp is okayy. not as bad as i thought it
would be but STILL, 9 hrs in school is a killer. i like the movie
at the end. the violinist guy is so cute. hahas. but the
story quite sad. hafta go chiong my thimun ppt now.

SINYEE-

im sunburnt. im red. im aching all over, especially my
shoulders. and i feel so shi bai.

i stayed up until 12.30am to do the station materials.
even at 12.30 i didn't get to finish it and i woke up
at 5.30am today. 5.30AM okay. it's freakin early and
i onlt slept 5 hrs. I met the station masters and we reached
palawan beach at 8.30am. waited for the class.

the whole class reached at 10am.we played captains ball first,
which is about the only game that went well. was okay
larh. after that had break then station games. the class
didnt enjoy the station games. some totally didnt even give
a damn, a few was more or less enthu and the rest neither
here nor there. groups leaders failed to identify and lead group
to the correct station. station masters try to make them high but
to no avail. after 2 stations, i released the, for lunck at 12.30pm.
i wanted to call off the station games cos it didnt have a point
since so many of us isnt having fun. you wei is really right.

our class is not as bonded as we think we are. bonded is
automatic initiative to come and play the games with whichever grp
you are asigned. bonded is not standing there giving an eye roll
and acting like you dunno what to do. bonded is you put your
heart into this damn thing and make it fun. and we're nowhere
near it. we cheered together, got 3rd, we think we're bonded.
we managed a nice skit, last min, we think we are bonded.
the whole class sat together once or twice during break and we think
we are bonded. real bonding is EVERY SINGLE member of 2C
will come automatically and find themselves a seat togther
with the whole class and not having others to go and "INVITE"
you in. bonded is not sitting in your own preferred group of friends
and having mini discussions. even if you are in the class, what is
the purpose? we are still not bonded.

i also didnt want to end it halfway. station masters put in
so much effort but if they are really not enjoying it then no
point carrying on already what. and they do not enjoy it alot,
stop deluding yourself. our class is really not as bonded as we think
it is. i just ope that the class will accept whoever they have to work
with and go ahead with this plan. we excos planned this for a month
you knw. it's really not as easy as you think one larh. and
the money for all those materials. all those soya sauce and
sponge you all play, we didnt take a single cent from the class fund larhs.
we paid TOTALLY with our own money. all you all had to do is pay
a $3 and go in and PLAY! we already have the plan, you follow!
is that alot to ask for?

and so we ended up in the water. i as so dry and in 5 seconds,
soaked to the skin. done by esther and joanne. and lydia,
joanne and pocheng had a good time flinging me around in the water.
gk dragged me around in the water also. and my whole pants
was so full of sand. it's quite fun in the sand and water.
we played monkey for awhile. 2 monkeys suddenly become 6.
like siao like that. everyone play play until 3 plus. the sand was too
hot for us to play iceman so we left early. but we only managed
to reach harbourfront at like 5plus. we wasted so much time
at the beach, but nvm. after that, we were supposed to go to
food junction to eat. and suddenly, a griup of girls, with
a "i wanna eat delifrance", ran off. what kind of a bonded do you
call this? but whatever.

i reached home at 8.45pm. rained real hard on the way back.
i thought to call my mum to bring me back home. but
i thought otherwise. and just walked through the rain.
stupid pail and radio and ball. my precious radio. filled
with SAND, my goodness. i really cant bring this
kinda stuff to class outings more damage done than good.
at least the rv towel got use, use to cover my radio...

but nvm, this is considered not bad for our first class outing
le bah..will try harder next time...

SINYEE-

wow, today so long and tiring. woke up early to go
sentosa for final exco meeting before class outing tmr.
we had a look at palawan. not bad. had all plans sorted
out by 1plus. then we went to diso to buy materials and
me and yimin went so many places looking for those
stupid latex balls. found in those thpusand yr old shops.
disgusting latex dusty ball. haha. okay i still have to
continue with my station's materials. short post.
hopefully class outing will rock like hell tmr and i'll have
a nice update with picts! (:

SINYEE-

didn't blog yesterday. i went out like at 1plus
to the library (again) and stayed there for like
5 hrs. first 3 hrs alone and i did the chem revision paper
and revised the first 2 chapters of chem. then around
4.30 kailin and jin came and joined me. then i only
managed to study another chapter of chem. we talked
so much. and its so fun ;) propably going out again on
tuesday. only day im free. haix.

then reached home at like 7plus. then i started finishing
up bits of the questions i left blank. yay i knw how to do
balancing equation properly now already. godlike gk should be
proud of me sia. im a bit slow larh, but still manage to get it
and i dun believe that super-satisfying sense of achievment.

and i reached the last page. open ended questions. the first one
wasnt so bad. finished it fairly quickly. but i keep getting stuck at
question 2. goddamn, i scanned down the page and the question
goes on. 2a, b, c, d, e, f, g, h, i, j. and j still got part a and part b.
utter gayness! keep asking to write the balanced chemical
equation. i have no problem at writing the chemical formula of
the substance or balancing. but when they ask stuff like a
colourless solution is formed after the pale green solution underwent
ionic precipitation. i have trouble identifying what kind of
solution. but my bro isnt useless. he happened to suck in everything,
eberything but chem. he taught me, in an almost mocking way.
i dun blame him, since i always thought he was useless. some time for him
to get back at me. he's really pro. maybe even pro-er than godlike gk xP
then as the question goes on, i managed to identify some myself
hahas. not bad, got progress. so i finished the ws! at 10.30pm =/

then i finished reading my book 4 and 1/4 of book 5. then damn tired.
nv go online and went to sleep at 11.30 like that. this morning woke up
at 9. did my maths assessment. still okay. no problem yet. then read
another few chapters of my book 5 and went out for cip.

3 frigging hours of straightening out books for lib cip.
bad idea. the sight of your masterpiece, perfectly arranged books,
being pulled out and placed at random again. wah i tell you, my
temptation to thump those kiddos. but of course i didnt. super
sin de larh. slaced for the last 45 min. boring alrhs.

then we all went to causeway point to eat kfc. sat at the fountain there.
was damn fun! then me and veron and peishi went to walk
walk round causeway. we bought anklets. yes, i already have it
in pink and blue and purple but i bought another yellow and orange one
anyway. the sales person is like so...bu shuang cos we take hell long to
choose smth that is just $1. then we went to ice lemon tee. and we
wanted to buy hairbands. honestly i dun need any hairbands
at all. but for the fun of it. its the most difficult to choose my colour cos
i just dun suit any colour. but i settled on the lightest shade of pink
peoshi and veron says i look cute. and thats the last thing i want.

well, of to continue my assessment. or probably some thimun
research.

SINYEE-