I dun believe it. i juz dun believe it.
i mugged until like 12 last night to
study for the geog test and i woke
up late cos i was so tired. in the end
wad happen? all those that im very
confident of the answer didnt come
out. only 1 qn. how are volcanoes
formed. then those that i blur blur
one all come out. and i bet i get a
zero for my map skills. cos i dunno half
the qn. wth. wads the point of me
studying so hard when i still flunk in
the end. and after the test, my mood
was all the way screwed. malay
still got suprise test today. wtf.
i didnt even bring the file. i
didnt noe how to answer like half
the qns. and i dun care. cos i was feeling
so screwed i was ap-ing the teacher
all the way. cos all of us dunno
some qn then we were like talking
and saying we die and wadever stuffs.
then she was like "hey no discussing"
and i said "not as if we discuss can get
an answer liddat" and she looked at me
very long. i noe she can sense my
ap-ness. but who cares.im juz waiting to
kenna stripped off my post.
until come out for cca. feel even more screwed
when i was told we hafta go to b div
and leave zhen jiao lian, my juniors
everything! i dun wanna go. i really
dun want. i dun wanna leave that place.
i noe it sounds ridiculous cos we will still
see them. but like wad zhi jun says
the feeling is not the same anymore.

then we were playing the slapping
game again. and yeejin slapped me.
hard. so i pretended to cry. but then,
i was really crying. i really needa
let loose. i juz felt so screwed. but i was
pretending like im crying cos she
slapped me. im like so mad already.

we were made to play with juniors today.
and i cant stand it. totally. and im like
feeling how tired. so i went to take a
break after a torturous few minutes
of trying to teach my junior how to
play with chang jiao. and guess
wad. i juz fell asleep on the bench.
juz like that. typical sinyee.
then after that i mostly slacked thru
the whole trng.

haix. tue hafta go training at sunsports
already. our very first trng there and peiqi
wont be there x(. damn the sec 3 adv camp.
haix.i fee so screwed. it juz feels
like wad jin said. common test over
and im oso over. i bet i flunk every
single subj xcept languages. haix.
juz so so so screwed. i think my brain
gonna overload soon.

anyway trng today was so slack me
and jin juz sat down there and sang
because of you. and i realise we make
a great duo. haha really. then we were
like halfway thru tian hui when it rained.
how zhun is that larh. then i walked
thru the rain purposely cos i wanted to fall
sick for very long le. take a break from
everything for a while then i will
have the energy to continue mugging
for the rest of the yr. i noe wo ke yi de.
yes. i can if i want.

--sinyee

dun talk bout the physics paper. i bet
i flunked it too. mugging like hell for
geog lorh. haiya. im despo to score.
wadver. i have 5 more topics to go.
jia you bah! (:

--sinyee

i blew it. i totally blew the maths paper
today. wtf. i feel like slapping myself.
there was juz a pathetic 7 questions for
1 hour. and i cant even finish it. wtf.
and 2 girls in our class cried today after
the test. im like trying how hard to
control my own tears. i very nearly juz
cried like that. i cant believe that im
so pathetic.i didnt study for the income
tax thing. all cos of this. i cant do qn 6b)
onwards. wad a complete letdown. i really
really feel like slapping myself. all cos
of this. a whole 37 MARKS juz got
deducted like this. wad a failure larh.
so stupid can. how can i express my
frustration?!? urgh.

wad stupid international friendship
day. why cant it juz be any other
normal day like last yr? make me do the
stupid paper strips until like 12 midnight
last night and didnt manage to finish
up the zuo wen. so wad did i do?
WAKE UP AT 4 AM THIS MORNING.
im like how tired. and i haven even study
lorh. wtf. after class still hafta go
ACM until like 4.30 larh. im like so tired
until i fell asleep on the bus. then still
got the tan hui zhen's remedial lesson.
im in completely no mood to listen to
wad she says. but i forced myself to.
im prepared to flunk physics tmr.
yeahh wadever. die lorh.

on a lighter note, today is international
friendship day. peiqi gave me a box of
swiss-made dark chocs. looks really
ex larh... and gave sherry
and zhijun and yeejin a tolberone.
mine is a golden box with blue ribbons.
cant bear to even open it larh...so delicate.
but wtf. my mum thought some GUY
gimme one larh. bullshit can. its like juz
peiqi ok JUZ MY SENIOR! is there any
fcuking prob with a senior giving a junior
smth on IF day? NO RITE? WHY MUZ
IT BE A GUY TO GIVE ME THAT?
senseless talk. BULLSHIT ARH.
and she's like scolding me like i always
accept other ppl's presents. i mean.
come on larh. ppl buy stuffs sspecially for
you and you turn it down. if it was you,
you buy a present specially for someone,
when he/she doesnt accept it, you
will feel disappointed one rite?

i think im falling sick again. i've been like
sniffing non-stop since this morning
and now i started coughing liao. wtf. wad
a great time to fall sick. urgh.

--sinyee

tmr is the maths paper. tmr is
international friendship day.
tmr is the day we hafta go
ACM. haix. tmr is a busy day.

haix. tmr is international friendship
day. my class's ambassador is a
mummy in the end. i know it is my
fault again for going off for tournament
on that day and leaving you ppl to finish
up wadever was left to be done.
so, expectedly you all didnt do it. and
of course it is my fault. it was such a last
minute work. im really sorry we cant
do our jap idea. haix. got scolded by
ang today cos i forgot to do the duty.

im positive i flunked the lang. arts
test today. and i'll juz go on to flunk
maths, science then geog. haix.
tmr going to ACM. then come back
still hafta stay back for tan hui zhen's
half-an-hr remedial. feel so hopeless
liao larh. my cid not done, friendship day
didnt do a good job, hw cannot catch up.
wad good am i?
A GONER. haix.

i feel very guilty cos i didnt go for cca
today. i didnt pon it purposely. we all
thought there wasnt any cca. so i nv bring
my bat and pe tee. then sherry and zhi jun
tell e got cca. then i cant borrow bat that
is chang jiao from anybody. so i didnt go.
i think only sherry and zhi jun go. cos
is mr tan say train on our own and coach
wont be here anyway. but i dun get.
we have common test tmr and the
nationals already over...isnt time to
let us take a break?i needa study
for maths one lorh. and im
afraid i will get into trouble. haix

haix. haix. haix. haix. i cant stop myself
from pitying myself. im really pathetic larh.
so stupid...haix.

pls get away from her ok. i cant stand this
anymore. i dun want you to do this. and
pls dun act like you noe me so well.
im disgusted and irritated. juz get lost.

I don't know what to say.as expected, we lost
to RGS. but i felt somesense of achievement
and disappointment at the sametime. thats
why i dun noe wad to say. i would say RGS
was ok. we lost but at least we didnt get
thrashed at least i feel that me and jenn did
well.first match. we lost 11-8. 8 is already
very good i think. second match lost 11-5.
hmm. we didnt really do so well huh...third
match lost 11-6. guess its still ok bah...im
ok...even though i kept staring into space
after the match. i noe shibin and tessa and
peiqi is noticing...im really ok. i juz felt
disappointed too. i cant say why cos
who noes who is reading this. to those who
dunno. this is the reason i was so distracted
and down after the match.juz take it as cos we
lost 3-0. kwan ling and peiqi did REALLY
well today! they lost but lost with a
set score of 3-2 which is extremely good. ok.

and i got this really shocking news that this
teacher i cant say who, recommended me
for the sc thingy. according to her, the student
council will not be happy if i get elected cos
i have strong opinions and i dun like to JUST
listen to the leader. she says that i am the kind
of ppl to be elected and not only ppl who listen
to the leaders all the time. Okayyy... isnt that
the kind of ppl who gives leaders big headaches?
and im agressive. yeahh im aware of that. and
accordingto seniors, since she has such a high
position in the school, if i pass my inerview,
im sure to become an scwhich is the last thing
i want. urgh. whatever ok.i dun care.

i decided that i want to get into the team.
i will and i must.i noe im the one who can make
it happen. ok. the coach have the final decision
larh. but i will train hard hard and put in my best
so if im really good. iwill get into the team. i
want it to happen.i dun want to break my promise.
it will happen. it will.

tags:
kwan> heyy you and peiqi did well today!
so proud of you! =))

jingg> haha. thanks for your encouragement =)

jennings> haha. we made history in c girls only
larh..jia youu when we go b div. lets
get into the team tgt yeaa?

sylvia> hahaha yea...we share that common
hatred dun we =)

--sinyee

haix. another day closer to the doomed match.
i dun want larh! i know there's nth wrong
with losing. cos like wad cy said. we nv set out
to win the raffles family. which is, sadly, TRUE.
but still. losing is still very unacceptable to me.
in the nationals. my morale has been greatly
decresed like how many times from all that
losing until now, finally, i dun believe in myself
anymore. and specially to kwan: i know i
made a promise that i would train hard
and not be a reserve next yr. but it juz seems
like the chances of me having to play is so
slim. so very depressing. i know i tell ppl
not to doubt me. but im already doubting
myself. cos i know my limits. its very
difficult for me to be able to play next yr.
i dun want to be a reserve. but then.
do i have any choice? like who wants to be a
reserve like that. definitely not me larh. i want
to play. but am i given the chance or not.

im juz going more and more crazy already.
sure i will be disappointed if i become a
reserve YET AGAIN next yr. but wadever.
like who cares. dun ask me whether im ok
when we lose tmr. i cant stand ppl asking me.
wad happened during the dunman match.
i can control myself until ppl talk to me.
even though we were prepared to lose.
we know there is no chance of winning.
it doesnt mean that i wont feel sad.
dun ask. dun talk to me. juz be there. pls.

I hate suck-ups. I really really do. I
really cant stand the sight of you sticking
around with people having the insignias.
It is like so ridiculous to do it this way.
Being power-hungry and attention-seeking
is like so annoying. To all of us, to those
ppl you suck up to, and to you. Wad reward
do you gain in doing this? To a position with
great power? In this way, it's not your capability
but juz mere popularity. It turned out otherwise.
sucking up doesnt mean you get everything.
i realised that the seniors dun remember you
at all when we have to like vote or wad.
i noe you wanna be popular. and it's not wrong.
but do you hafta stoop yourself so low to have to
suck up to people in the high positions?
It is juz an action of desparation. maybe you should
see for yourself. how pathetic and blood boiling it
is to see your seniors getting sucked up. that is
UNSIGHTLY. how will you feel if that happened
to you? Nobody can help you if you choose to be such
an irritating suck up. you chose to ruin yourself.
no one will help you. so you can juz STOP sucking up.


went to je lib to study today. i finished my li jie wen da which
is late. i cant finish cos i got tournament and that day so much
hw. wadever. i will flunk all those tests ok.
and that tournament on monday is a sure-lose.
pls dun give me hope. i dun want to have hope and
lose terribly in the end. it will be too much for me.
anyway i bought that soft toy doggy today. another
strike off my wishlist. which is good.
i dread monday's arrival. i dun want to lose yet again.
i have lost countless times but why does matches with
nanyang and dunman make me cry? because i had
hope. i thought we had a chance of winning. especially
for nanyang. even though they were strong, i really
thought we had a chance of winning. as for dunman.
we should have won. but we lost. its all because i have got
hope in those matches. but they came crashing down on me
and ruined everything. our 1st position in west zone.
the top 8 in nationals. we were so close. juz so close
that i cant help but only cry. dun give me
any hope at all for the RGS match. unless a miracle appear
which is impossible, the chances of us winning is an
absolute ZERO.
PLS. no hope or i will break down again if i lose terribly
on that day. i cant take it you noe. stop giving me hope
and telling me i can do it. i noe very well that i cannot.
no matter how on form i am on that day, the
chancs are still ZERO. i noe very well how well
i can do. the match is juz for us to go and court
death. i cant do it and thats it.

--sinyee

let me say sorry to ppl im supposed to before
i forget. sorry to shibin cos i pangseh you today.
yee jin want me to go jp with her. very sorry.
sorry to peiqi to make you go so far in the end.
im very sorry...

ok. i got another tumbler :) from peiqi
today! the dale from one of the chip and dale
squirrels. haha. im so happy. anyway, the boys lost
today to i dunno wad set score. but they against
RI strong opponent mah...

tests next week...im so lag. haven study at all.
monday got swimming test, common test and
tournamnet. im feeling all that stress falling on me
now already. i onder how am i gonna survive
it this time...i dun think im gonna take it any longer.
its all too much for me already.

i got shortlisted for the sc thingy. and i dun wanna be.
seriously. i am already stressed enough i dun
want another responsibility for me. its too much.
i wont even think about it.

--sinyee

zhi jun went ahead and played today
anyway. she did a good job anyway. won 3:0.
me and jennings won 3:0 too today! moeka won,
sherry won, xin hui and yan ran won! haha.
we thrashed st joseph convent 5:0! haha.
b gals won them too 3:2! haha. today is a fine day!
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIA!

my first match win them 11:3 second match 11:2 and
third match 11:7. i did a nice smack for them at the last ball
of match 2. haha. wad a nice win. and peiqi and kwan ling
won 3:0 too! <333 haha. i love the tumbler peiqi gave me. (:

anyway next monday v.s RGS. sure will die.
anyway we already out of top 8...aiya...nvm..

--sinyee

i noe we are gonna lose again even though
its a supposed -to-be-100%-win match.
cos zhijun fractured her finger and she cant play tmr.
i noe we will lose and i cant do it. i dun wanna
play anymore. we will lose without zhi jun.
spare me from the screaming. i bet i will juz cry tmr.
cos im trying very hard not to now. im a weakling.
i cant go on.

--sinyee

I blew it. We lost.

LOL. why now my blogger in chinese har. nvm.
more tags now har. new cpu. downloaded messenger
plus. got more font colours. ARIEL ISNT THAT
COOL? haha ok.

tags

wenyi> loke loke is MR LOKE! haha.

shibin> haha i got no choice mah..they say my
url prohibited. wad can i do?

zhiying> thankyew! =)

judith> thank you and tag often ok? =)

smiles> yeahh ok relinked =)

sylvia> y ok..haha. tag often kies? haha.

ok. today watched a very gory movie called
passion of the christ IF IM NOT WRONG.
its really disgusting although i watched the whole thing.
the part about the punishment part and
crucifixion were TOTALLY gory and i shall
not descibe it too vividly later you all vomit.
nvm. i feel very bored now. arhh.
i suddenly feel like converting to catholic.
but wadever.

--sinyee

Yays! I feel so happy! I finished my jian
bao and the science ws! It seems like i have
misunderstood the question that's why i
can't get the answer. haha. thanks ariel!
You have been a great help. =)
and now im left with the stupid killer maths.
and i dun even wanna try. i mean, i noe
thant i dunno how to do for sure. ohwells.
shan't waste mt time anyway. i WILL
try but i dun think there will be much outcome from
it larh.. nvm tmr's school reopen. and same as
jos. i half look forward and half dun.
i look forward cos i like school *haha*
and i dun look forward cos its one day
closer to the dunman match. wadever larh.

oh and anyway i have inserted the archives links.
its under the "me" section. feel free to refresh
your memory of wad i had written..haha

--sinyee

For the first time in my whole 13 yrs of
life, this is the first time i find myself
having no idea wad to write for my jian bao.
Seriously it's the FIRST TIME.
nvm. i'll die tonight. since all that i have
done is the geog reflections. im juz talking a bunch
of nonsensical crap in my jian bao.
wad a failure larh. such a simple thing like a jian bao
and i can be stumped. and i still have got the
killer maths and sci. urghhh. im doomed.

Tuesday match with dunman already arh...
this one also die. For one thing, their smacks
are very pro and they are very steady.
And they use hua mian. sry to pl who dunno wad
this is. its a type of rubber. ok.
nvm. die then die. i dun care liao. do hw now.

--sinyee

urghh...i tried doing sci. but i dunno how
to do cos the qn didnt tell me the object dist.
so like how to draw the angle larh.
maths even worse. i will so completely
fail. it's like alien lang to me can. wadever.
and chi that bao zhang du hou gan.
its the easiest. but im like so lazy. nvm im
gonna do anyhow. and 3 geog reflections
in 1 week. you 1 week got so many thoughts to reflect
one har? reflect on wad? how to play table
tennis and how to thrash dunman high izzit.
cos thats everything on my mind for the week.
considering i have training 3 days outta 7.

one thing. i should juz stop using the comp.
nvm my dad is gonna replace the cpu soon.
then hafta restore everything then i cant use.
even though its very chamm larh but still.
at least i can stop using it.
yeahh wells. im so bloody bored
im gonna finish chi and geog today and pia sci
and maths tmr.

--sinyee

wahh i dunno wad hapened to my bro's
eyes. he claim that he became blind for
a while last night. see larh. play ps2 play
comp. play until now the eyes spoil...
lol. wadever larhh.

school hols ending liao. i haven really done much
hw. im doomed. yeahh well wadever.
im so bored. why my tagboard always got so many
weird weird anonymous tagger
who claims to love me or wadever.
a bunch of cheekos. lol.
im bloody bored. i dn wanna do hw larh...

--sinyee

wahh...wad happened to my old link larhh...
wad this page is forbidden...crapp. nvm.

today was an extremely crazy day...was
supposed to wake up at 0700 to do some
hw..budden i lazed until 0815...haha then
cant get there on time larh..and when i got
outta my house at 0925, i was on the bus,
reaching jp when i re-read this msg from jos.
"pls rmb to bring the geog models."
and i was like OMG SHIT. i left mine at home!
i smsed ariel, no reply. called jos, nv pick up.
called veron, hp turned off...urghh...
and wad did i do? go all the way back and got
the stupid board then chiong down to the bus stop
in less than 5 mins.

reached at like 1115. wadever larhh..late and
everything. slacked around until mdm mak
out from staff seminar. told us to go classrm
to wait. but the shuttles at the staircases were
locked...then she went to look for class 4b's keys.
then we were like trying the door and it wasnt locked
haha..mdm mak went for nth...then we went
in and presented the 38 slide killer presentation
and the product. then left it in the class...hope
nobody will destroy it. xP

then me, peishi, ariel, veron, jos and hester went to
lot 1. walked around and all of us except hester
went to take neos. the first machine sucks
like some shit. got like 3 cams then one at the very
top then another at the middle and one at our foot.
we didnt even noe when the cam go off.
we needa keep looking out at the 3 cams to see which is the
next. so it was disastrous. we kept screaming ok...
thyen we decided to take a second one. this
time it was extremely nice. we did the banana
dance pose...haha and the indian one ariel
and jos did...and we saw kwan ling...ariel was
like so mad to go up to her and say "you look
like leng shan" my god larhh....crazy ariel! =))

ok then we went home le....today was juz soooo fun..
haha...im happy...im happy more often nowadays =)
and im glad. kill dunman high bah...xP

--sinyee

ok...today was another tiring day...2 sectors
training at jurong and rv again...today at
jurong more intensive. cos coach put me play
backhand which im better in, instead of
forehand. so i played more hiong larhh...
was once again late but this time late for bout
3mins. ahwell anything larhh...
stella and choon yen came today!!!! nice larhh haha..
wahaha, peiqi also came larhh and today she
played with me! =)))

not like yesterday...i said peiqi had some chem
prac thing rite, she skipped it to come and train.
like how nice rite and wad did coach do?
put her to play with moeka. its like so mean larhh...

damn it...school re-open second day tournament
liao...arghh damn scared...

--sinyee

today was the class leaders' workshop. it
wasnt as bad as wad i thought. in fact, i
thought it was pretty fun. yeahh...i was
in group 3. i was grouped together with 5
other chairpersons. Nobell from 1E, Esther
from i-forgot-wad-class X), Estee from 1L,
Cherie from 1B and Edmund from 2E. yahh...

we started with some group handshake thingy
as ice-breakers. we hafta create a group handshake
and everyone has to hold hands and produce 2 sounds.
then my grp was doing this crazy thing like we
anyhow hold and we stamp our foot until we
say "SHA!" this is wad you say when you
won a nice ball in table tennis. it was edmund's idea
cos we from table tennis. X) and we actually got 1st
for this lame thing..haha...

oh..the whole thing is like 4 hrs long larh
so i shant say detailedly...juz say that it was very
fun and i like estee! cos we all share a common
hatred for * in her class...ahaha...okok...
we got to noe each other larhh and learnt like how
you should handle your class when you have prob.
i really learnt alot. =)

i few quotes i found really meaningful...

"what you say and how you say it can be as
important as anything else you do as a leader"

"People don't care how much you know...
Until they know how much you care..."

and this poem mdm chan shared with us.
she said whenever we find ourselves feeling
down and shi bai cos of our dutie, we
should look at this poem. which in my case,
it happens alot.

Winners are people like you

Winners take chances
Like everyone else, they fear failing,
but they refuse to
let fear control them.
Winners don't give up.
When life gets rough, they hang in until
the going gets better.
Winners are flexible.
They realise there is more than one way
and are willing to try others.
They respect their weaknesses while making
the most of their strengths .
Winners fall, but they don't stay down.
They stubbornly refuse to let a fall keep
them from climbing.
Winners don't blame fate for their failures
nor luck for their successes.

Winners accept responsibilities for their lives.
Winners are positive thinkers who see good
in all things.
From the ordinary, they make the extradinary.
Winners believe in the path they have chosen
even when it's hard,even
when others cant see where they are going.
Winners are patient.
They know a goal is only as worthy as the
effort that's requird to achieve it.
Winners are people like you.
They make this world a better place to be.

okk...i crapped pretty much huh...
nvm..hope you all can see it my way..=)

--sinyee

today was a long and hard day...
went to train at jurong pri early
im the morning 9am. ok. did some
very intense training of my forehand.
coach put me to play forehand purposely
cos he noes my forehand sucks larh.
wadever. the 3 hrs passed quickly.
and soon it was 12 and me and
zhi jun and sherry and coach were
chiong-ing back to rv for our trng.
we were late for 10 mins. the trng
started at 1pm. then we train again.
i handed jennings her cookies. =)
i sincerely hoped it was nice...anyway,


i was feeling extremely bored to death
and wadever. when i saw rendylee in this
EXTREMELY SHORT pair of shorts.
and my friends were all laughing at the
way he looks. X) it WAS pretty funny.
and i was telling jennings "maybe he is
wearing an FBT" and guess wad?
moeka laughed out VERY LOUD. and i
looked at her incredulously and asked
"DO YOU EVEN NOE WAD IS AN FBT?"
it wiped the stupid smile off her face and she
shook her head saying "no."
and i said
"THEN WHY THE HELL ARE YOU LAUGHING SO HARD FOR?"
haha...she think she junior i dun dare tell her off.
she is so..cannot stand her larh.
her attitude juz sucks.

after another 3 hrs of trng, i was extremely
tired and i juz slept on the bus on the way home.
yeahh and i hafta endure the 4 hr
long class leader's workshop tmr.
crapp...so chamm arh...nvm...
tmr stella is coming...and peiqi arh...
your chem prac end at 3 plus we
end at 4..you dun needa come le larhh...
haiyo..pls make it on thurs.

im so laggy in my hw!!! i cant stand it already...
im gonna do some liao. i am prepared
to get stripped off my post...wadever.
the class even more happy...aiya...heck
le larh...

--sinyee

i read "Destiny's cries" today. i realise the
author likes using the name JACKY WU ZONG XIAN.
you noe. that taiwan host. ya..haha.
and the story was nice too. im like siann-ed to
my bones today. i didnt go to geog meeting
today. cos my mum dun lemme go larh! and
i wasnt feeling well when i woke up.
and peiqi sms-ed to say she saw pei shi. feel so
gek-ed! i would have seen her too if i went for meeting.
urghh...nvm...

tmr got training..and im not gonna be scary
to my baby sotongball tmr...haha =) and
can see xiao derrick. kwan ling going with us!!!

haha..i talked alot to kwan ling...yeahh
and she is a second cy. talk soooo much sense.
haha...i <3 kwan ling too! ya if you want me to name
the ppl i love in rvtt. the list will juz go on and on.

i love peiqi! i love jennings! i love stella! i love sotongball!
and on and on and on...wahahas....i juz so <3 RVTT!
im really so sian...online nobody talk to me. sms
all reply so slow. except sherrie. haha.
then i dun feel like doing hw. juz cant
bring myself to touch them. nvm. im prepared
to get stripped off my post. so slack...
urghh wadever...

--sinyee

oh...the "Old faces, New tricks" really all too
long for me le...i cant sit still so long staring
at the comp screen and i bet i will take more
than 1 1/2 days to finsh! cos trng and everything
ya...tmr going trng at jurong pri! can see xiao derrick!
then got trng in school. i <3 trainings. i <3 rvtt! :)

last nite. was very very mad at *.
not that junior. somebody else. i dunno why.
i cant stand her doing all this. maybe its juz me
or maybe she is the one with prob.
so i was practically screaming at anyone who would
talk to me online. cos its like 12.30 already larh.
and a big thank you to those i vented my
anger on. i was very vulgar i noe. cy and po cheng...
my consellor and po po rawks :)
cy, next time pls juz go and be a psychiatrist
or counsellor and FOC me when i go find you.
cos you always manage to talk sense into me.


ya..so after that i was thinking. why am i so
angry at her? at wad she did? like wad cy said
although i hate to admit. i was jealous. yeahh wadever.
and i decided wad she did dosent really
matter to me. i am not affected. she did not
affect me or those im close to. like my dear
jennings and peiqi and stella and shibin. yeahh and the
list goes on. i really shouldnt take wadever she's
doing to heart. cos its not worth it.
i shouldnt waste my time hating someone when
i can take that same time loving someone.
like my dear jennings :D
i shouldnt make myself so angry over smth
that doesnt affect me nor my close friends.
its juz not worth it...

--sinyee

haha...i went to the love stories link of
josephine's blog cos i simply had nth better
to do and i clicked on "I Believe You".
its a really really nice touching story.
i would say the music played at the last
chapter of the story was very influential
to make me cry...but i didnt larhh...
its so nice...i want to read old faces new tricks tmr!

some parts of the story i really liked.

But only love can stay,
Try again or walk away.
But i believe,
For you and me,
The sun will shine one day.
So i just play my part,
And pray you'll have a change of heart.
But i can't make you see it through,
There's something only love can do...

Remember: To be happy, you either change the
world or change your thinking.
To be realistic, you have to change your thinking
to be happy.
But me, i will change the world for you...

p.s: josephine. you noe i typed your name wrongly
and i SPECIALLY came back to change this ONE
mistake. =) wahahas...
--sinyee

today was that stupid walkathon thing...
was really stupid cos i woke up at 0530
and im supposed to give cy his morning sms
at 0515. urghh. and im meeting jin at 0550.
no time. juz pia and got outta the hse.
jin even later. didnt wait in the end.

the thing ultra spastic. nth to do. walk then sit down
and eat some dried up lousy beehoon and feeling
completely siann. then they tell us to go play the games
so i said i juz wanna sit and sleep. but queue up
for some candy floss in the end. after that went home liao.
i was there like sian like some shit and i sms peiqi
and she takes a hell of a time to reply until i
wanna kill myself. but yeahh. she's at a CHALET.
not some boring walkathon. of course she's taking her
own sweet time. urgh..

then went to eat ice kacang with jin, shi bin, tessa, maria,
valerie and kwan ling. then me and jin and
shibin went to jp to walk walk see see.
nth much. du diao. after that jin went home i went
to basement and chatted with shibin until dixon
shaun and jia qiang came. they wanted to watch
movie but i dun want and their movie is 1635.
so i chatted like so long with them about
like everything...then my father called me 3 times
and sounded extremely pissed when i finally went home.

wells, making cookies tmr for dixon and my dear jennings.
so lucky larh you. i hope peiqi was like that too. but
nvm, she's still my fav. =)

--sinyee

i changed a new skin! i love this skin cos its simple
and sweet...wahahas...pls give comments. (:

listen larh you all. about the script thing.
you all juz tell me i continue with or
without josephine and peishi's part then
ok le alright. it's ok. nth will stop me
from getting good marks for it.
not even if it means i hafta redo anything.
but you cant blame me for grumbling bout it.

ooh and peiqi is most likely going!!! wahh
i so <3 STELLA and PEIQI!!! =)))

--sinyee

holidays are so...cant be called holidays.
even though we dun really have hw but
have trainings on tue, wed and thur.
still got trng at jurong pri. haha xiao derrick is there!
ok. tmr is that stupid walkathon thingy.
i dun understand why izzit compulsory for sports
cca and taf ppl to go. i dun need any cip hours
and i would rather spend a nice sunday morning
sleeping like a pig than having to reach there
by 0645! and wads the worse part?
PEIQI IS NOT GOING! its so...urgh.

holiday trng would be fun. i <3 rvtt!
stella coming to train with us! yay..stella rawks! (:
im gonna get peiqi over as well. i dun care.
ok. still have to do geog presentation
on fri. specially go back for that. like HOW NICE?
how f-ing great is that. im not saying it's
anyone's fault coa it's the damned comp's
fault.

come back from holidays to flunk all the tests.
like how pathetic. yeahh well great.
wadever.

--sinyee

wahh...today extremely tired cos i slept very late like
12 last nite cos i was doing the script for geog
proj. wadever. then ytd had science prac test.
fail liao. 1 careless mistake caused my whole
record to be wrong and the graph is wrong too.
now holidays le. FINALLY. i've been anticipating for
like HOW LONG? time to catch up with all the
work. so guilty. i think i would be stripped off
the cp post soon...always nv do hw...
then holiday got yi da dui training lorhh...
then still got that terrible 4 hr long cp workshop.
i cant stand it already larh! im going crazy!


term 2 week 2 so bz. common test, learning journey,
international friendship day, wad crapp. then the
cid proj is like have to do the literature review
when i dun even noe juz wad the hell is that.
its not my fault lorh, i went for tournament ok.
then my group lag lorh. im not trying to say that we
are not doing anything ok but its juz lag.
aiya sian arh. still coming back for the presentation
on fri. i do the script until late like some shit in the
end today nv present. i noe i didnt finish the script
larhh but im kind enough to offer to do ok.
its a bloody 37 slide ppt lorh. so pla dun gimme
the pissed look when i say i haven finish. i hafta do hw oso
de lorh. its juz so guo fen larh. now i have to redo it all
over again.

--sinyee

ok. i didnt blog ytd. but too lazy to blog
bout the bball match we went to support.
i juz making 1 statement : they SO rawk.

today was cross-country. getting all the tips
i can from matthias. haha. thanks.
after school took mrt to bishan with ariel,
jos, peishi and veron. didnt have much
time when we reach, so juz took a snack, walk
around and we took a cab to MacRitchie.
took a hell of a time to look for 2c. after that
we were playing the bombing game with 2B
and 1L. we joined forces with 2b to qi fu
1L. haah who ask * in 1L. =p

then dunno when we went to gather at the burning
carpark then i took attendance and ran
here and there to find the remaining ppl in
my class. then we were led to our starting point of the race.

we received a false starting alarm and everyone started
running. then mrs yeow said she will say 3, 2, 1
and the alarm will sound then we will start.
in the end she counted to 1 the alarm didnt start but
we all heck care all started running.
i was running alone lorh. wadder hell.
then later slowly everyone started spacing away
then i was overtaking some netballers and 1 or 2 athletes.
was like half dead when i reached the killer slope
leading to the LONG highway. i stopped the first time
at the killer slope. then clarine was shouting for me to hurry
up. so i chiong. then first bus stop. winnie and
yue ting cheered like mad. hahas thanks (:

this centaur gal and i keep overtakingeach other at the
highway then i see a safe dist away then i stopped
to walk again. then she still continue running.
coming closer, then i started chiong-ing.
and i hear her say TSK. hahas.
i chiong like some shit at the bend into the reservoir.
then i stopped to walk AGAIN. then our mino level
i/c XIN YI came running past me and she stopped in front
of me. then she turned back and ask, wanna run?
then so i chiong-ed all the way and overtook her to the
gal guides at the finishing
line and finally overtook thsat unicorn gal who is always
infront. cos i really sprinted like mad.

then the girl guides hand me the number tag.
i look at the number and i wanna die. number 21.
wad the hell. i chiong until i wanna die i only
GET THE PATHETIC 21??? i was so...
disappointed larh. my aim for top 15...GONE.
then i reported to the whichever place larh.
i didnt get the red band so was even more disappointed
cos i last yr have. so that means im not top 10 of mino.
HOW IZZIT POSSIBLE?!?

while waiting for other runners, i found peiqi and we talked
for dunno how long. then she say she last yr oso have the red band.
so same boat as me.

then later prize presentation. top 10 runners of mino got
trophy. then only 8 gals went up. and one of them was xin yi.
and i was thinking, how come she slower than me she top 10
and im not? so after that i go ask.
and i got ANOTHER SILVER TROPHY.
my second this month! haha...good good...
after that got on the extremely
packed bus 52 and alighted at clemnti to take mrt.

go home my father still say. run 21st still got
trophy. so lousy. i mean wth. its ok already larh.
i not in athletics lorhh. still wanna train me to top 5
next yr. like how possible? 0%. then found out
that peiqi oso got a trophy and oso got lectured by her father.
the diff is. her father want top 20. my father wants top 5.

--sinyee
chiong-ed like some shit...

im emotionally unstable today.
i cried for no reson at the mrt station. siao.
i need my counsellor. NOW.
pia geog proj. mugging for everything.
i seemed to have forgotten the real
purpose of life now. at least i noe
wad im doing when i cry. at least thats
the real me.

--sinyee
my tears are worth nth...

I WANNA SCREAMM LARH!
ruin my mood can. f***. so
bull shit arh. URGH!

--sinyee

i cant stand it. that * is really so GUO FEN!
who she think she is? juz some superly
stuck up junior can. yes JUNIOR.
crying juz cos she dun get to play is ridiculous
enough. and guess wad she say to yanran?
"why must let the sec 2s play? i better than them wad."
like wad the f***. she is ABSOLUTELY more
lan than us can. anyone of us can easily thrashed
her without so much as batting an eyelid.
completely cannot stand it!
no wonder all the seniors hate her like shit.
i dun pity her. she totally deserve it.
someone should juz tell her how pathetic
she is by thinking she is better. PLS.
juz ask the coach and you will noe how
much she suck. if she become sec 1
co ordinator, she's gonna lead the team to death
next year. so ego. wad hell.
i will cross my fingers and pray ard she not co ordinator...

--sinyee

i told myself that it 's ok and im alright.
but why izzit that im unable to brace the loss?
i noe that everyine says that we cant expect
to win nanyang girls'. so be it. so why am i still
brooding over it? stop it already!

i noe you will hate me now. i noe i was harsh on you.
and im sorry about it. i was really very scared.
im very sorry! wad can i do? ='(

--sinyee
on the verge of breaking down...

well. like wad i've been saying all along.
like wad you all have heard.

we lost.

i was already so convinced that i dun hafta
play cos im second doubles. imagine the
shock i got when i went down to training
and was told that im now the first doubles.
i noe i said i wanted to be but it was so fast for me
to take. all the stress is on us...i was so tense.

i would say that i was very disappointed
with my performance today...i was extremely
off form. the B boys put up a great fight today.
you all rawk. really. it was a great game even if you ppl didnt win.
C boys you all rawk too. Won fuhua. even
though kam seng injured his arm, he still won with
nelson...it was close fight. but it was victory after
all. B girls nvm...you all tried your best le...
at least you ppl managed to stay there long enough.

that * is so guo fen larh. juz cos she wanna play then she
go tell coach to replace zhijun. then after that zhijun buay
song go complain then after that go back the same order.
then * unhappy she cant play so she cried. -.-

the B girls played with nanyang and the each of them
played for an average of 20 mins. THAT'S LONG OK.
C girls. wad happen? go up 5 mins get thrashed
down...all the supporters from our schhol like most
left halfway during the first match. i mean, then
who is there left to cheer for us? so it was complete ownage.

i wouldn't say my opponent is strong. they didnt even
smack us at all. jennings...i noe the both of us very
tense today...but you pretty much messed up...
pls dun be so tense...im very scared...i noe i messed
up too...so we are pretty much quits.

well, 3 matches of extreme tyco-lose balls,
i was totally not in the mood to say anything at
all. so i juz went and sat in a corner and cried.
it was so close. i think we can win them actually.
but why did we lose? thanks peiqi for cheering
me up. you rawk the most. after i was calmed,
another group of seniors came over and started
consoling me again. and a new wave of emotions overwhelmed
me and i started crying all over again. and
peiqi was desperately telling ppl to get away
from me cos she hao bu rong yi stopped me from crying.

our seniors said they were proud of us.
my coach told us that we cried shows that we have the fighting
spirit for the game and not juz let us lose
anyhow. wad can i say? I LOVE RVTT.

thanks yu shan, po cheng and sherrie. you ppl
really came and supported me...really
thanks...you all rox too...
matthias...really sorry im unable to bring you in.
im very sorry...thanks for coming anyway...=)
tessa, i didnt purposely throw your chocolate
away...i wasnt in the mood for any chocs...
im sorry...dun be angry kayy...

our school got the most amount of trophies.
48 trophies and 4 plagues in all. cool man.
all 4 divisions rawk.
C girls-- 2nd position
C boys--3rd position
B girls--2nd position
B boys--4th position

after the match had the prize presentation
then the photo taking session. as usual,
RV was the last school to finish taking photos
cos they want us to have so many poses. urgh.
then we did the "we will win the war" cheer
in the "we have won the war" version. thats the rvtt
spirit! i totally LOVE rvtt!

after that went to je to have dinner with seniors...
20 table tennis peeps. the scene was spectacular...
a sea of blue...(our tournament shirt colour) then went
home with kwan ling and yeejin.

now down to the nationals'. even worse.
the only school we can beat would be evergreen.
the rest cedar girls', RGS those better than nanyang
we dun even stand a chance of winning. nvm...

--sinyee
I LOVE RVTT.

ohman. tmr is the tournament...! i wanna be
the first doubles larh! wadder lorh..
tmr is like confirmed to lose larh...
no matter wad way or however you put it,
its confirmed to lose de...i might not even get
to play ): wahh....im like so tired and
so tense! waahhh....

today break record. no hw. so shuang.
haiya...lesson was like superly sian
as usual. haix...even if i play tmr will
oso confirm lose...

oh and im like so pissed with mak today.
i was in such a great mood when i came to school
today and it lasted all the way UNTIL HER LESSON.
she came into the class and was looking for
the mahjong paper she left with sherrie a few
days ago. then nobody bothered to answer her qn.
she suddenly siad "2c, you are a unreliable class."
and she started saying things like we always
hand in assignments late and wadever wadever.
then she was like scolding halfway she suddenly
look at me and said "huh chairperson? you all dun hand
in work on time!" and she was like giving me that
pissed look. once again, I WAS SCOLDED FOR THINGS
I DIDNT DO. i noe it is my responsibility and wadever
to ensure that the class hands in assignments on
time. but why izzit that all the teachers auto blame
chairman and not subj reps or dept chair?
if it is my responsibility, im pretty sure there's smth
to do with the dept chair too. like HOW AM I SUPPOSED
TO CONTROL THEM TO HAND IN OR NOT?
if i do that for like every subj then wont i become
like HOW BUSY? then wad the subj reps do? slack arh.
win liao lorh...my fault larh. everything my fault.
fine...

--sinyee

EVERYTHING IS RESOLVED.
im so so glad to say this...it turned out that the *
incident ytd was all a misunderstanding.
im genuinely happy today. finally in a long
long time, i find myself happy again. it's a
great relief...i find myself very paranoid at this
sort of things. really VERY paranoid.
ohwells, nvm...everything is ok now...
oh yes and get well soon peiqi! =)

so sian today. tmr writing zui wen summore.
haix. fri coming le....will we win???
will i get to play??? we'll noe on fri...

--sinyee