Chinese paper was still alright, hope i can secure an 'A' for this, but why does it seem so impossible to get. Argh, this is really bad.

Had to get through a 20 minutes talk with s.teo after school to explain why i wasn't able to go for step camp in thailand. She ended up talking kind of out of focus and i was sitting there feeling awkward but i can't do anything about it.

She's gna call my father tonight. I'm sort of in a dilemma now, do i go or not? There's a high chance it's gna clash with rvtt camp. I'm seriously stuck. I half wish that s.teo won't be able to convince my father, but i half wish to go too, i don't want to give it up just like this. I knw there's no way im gna give up rvtt camp. Now what do i do...

Chem paper's tmr. Remedial was cancelled anyway. The mugging today wasn't really very productive but i ended up feeling really mentally exhausted. I guess a slacker just can't mug. So, im just gna go take the paper tmr and flunk. I'd be lucky if i manage a B4.

I realise i can only mug effectively with a pair of perfectly working earphones where all the noises around me would be drowned out. And i'll be surounded by nothing but music. I'm gna get them soon, another 28 bucks gone. But i want nothing but music.

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It's been so long since i last talked to him. I think ever since we graduated? Apart from the occasional birthday wishes, we would not talk at all. Though i wasn't really all that close with him back then, i mean we were from different classes to start with, he was still a special friend..

Really was quite surprised when he approached me yesterday on MSN, asking for my advice in his relationship problems. He sounded so hurt, so helpless, like i was the only one left and his last resort for someone to speak to. My heart just ached when he told me he cut himself for the girl. I really, really felt so pained. Very sadly, i wasn't much help to him since i'd never been in a relationship myself. All i could do was just reassure him of my presence and perhaps help him sort things out the logical way.

Sometimes i don't understand. I never thought guys would go so far out for the girl he loves. Yes, there may have been exceptions, but i was never truly convinced until yesterday. Now, i just hope everything would turn out alright for him..