I still can't access to my templates. So too bad blogger. I've moved, everyone. Please relink!

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Jonathan> I don't knw why the timetable states that tkc is my co-form. But anyway, if he's going overseas, you can bet i won't give a damn la. He's been picking on me for 3 years straight just because i refused to join athletics in sec 1. Aiya, don't need say what motivation liao. I'm gna sink into depression soon. LOL.

Sylvia> I'm gna change to ebloggy le, i've decided. But i need you to help me with the codes, is that okay? Then i'll move. Enough of this blogger rubbish. And i don't think ebloggy will go merge with yahoo la right.. Merga le also might not suck like blogger.

Yingying> Yes, precisely. The only reason i haven't moved already is because of all my archives. But now i'll move, i think my archives are damn childish. Haha.

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Third consecuetive day of denied access to my blog template. Quite enough. I'm gna ask sylvia to help me do the ebloggy codes and im gna move there. Bye blogger.

Went to sylvia's house today to do our english advertisement poster. I woke up at like 12.30pm and saw sylvia's sms to meet her at 2pm bukit batok mrt station. And i stun there about 5 seconds. LOL. In the end i reached at 1.45pm and waited for 10 minutes.

First did the drawing of the main picture. Done alot of copies of it, with and without outlines and all that. And took alot of pictures from different angles then let sylvia's sister choose. Haha, she kept ka chiao-ing her sister can! Damn funny, i think her sister also pek chek liao.

Doing the photoshop part was more tedious. Had to change alot of stuff. And kept playing around with the final picture's size until we got pek chek too. But then just went jec and see if they are able to help us print A3 size, if not we will just print A4. And yep, it looks damn nice now, in A3 size, clear and only costed us $2.50 We're gna own it tmr (:

Then went to eat dinner with sylvia. Made some modifications. Showed it to my mother when i got back. And she said it looks like it came out of an actual catalogue so it's not original. Ah, like almost all advertisement posters look the same la, then how original you want? If hook don't like it then too bad, we can always keep it for ourselves.

Stupid gamelan reflections to do. Practical and theory test tmr. Flunk it for all i care. And i don't care too if it's graded.

Consecuetive two days of failure of access to my blog template is equivalent to driving me to another blog host. Since i can't change my links, blog song, blog skin, wish list and such. It's darn pissifying, if anything. I'm gna have to move to another blog host some time. And say good bye to this stinky old blogger.

Soon blogger's gna be left with no one if this lousy service continues. Bet you i'd laugh out loud.

Okay, what's the problem with blogger, seriously? Firstly this dumb google thing, then it gave me this retarded New Post page that im staring at now and then now, i can't access to my Templates page to strike off something from my wishlist or change my blog song or change my blogskin. Sucks luh. I'm really pissed about this. One day im gna move to ebloggy like sylvia and jonathan. You blogger. Better appreciate that i haven't moved already before i really move. LOL.

Today was darn slack. No homework to do. Been very long sicne i last woke up at 1pm. Lagged around at home for awhile before going to jp and to return my book due today. And i bought S.H.E's Play album :D It's great, but some songs sound quite funny on a first listen.

Came back home and basically lagged. Until now. Okay not really, been doing my invitation cards to my birthday chalet. And they look pretty (: Like sylvia says, it's just 14 days away. Doesn't time just fly past.. So fast it's gna be mid-may soon..

And like what i read in her blog, mr tan's gna leave 3 Hapsburg soon. It's been a good 5 months he's been our co-form. And i seriously think mr tan and ms chia are possibly the best form/co-form teachers one can get. Mr tan just always understands how we feel, i guess because he's young too :D Wish him all the best in his studying overseas.

And for the 4th time, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIENYING! :D (Nah, this is not stupid le, is idiotic already =.=)

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谢谢你的温柔 S.H.E/飞轮海

谢谢你如此温柔 捧着爱静静等候
我的双手 其实同样在颤抖

但我能给你什么 我只是一个他遗忘的我
心被一扫而空

我会把你 种在我心中
也许某天 会终于再次长出一个梦

不知道不明瞭不想要 为什么我的心
明明是想靠近 却孤单到黎明
不知道不明瞭不想要 为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽 总是在孤单里
在把我的最好的爱给你

谢谢你如此温柔 点着笑容的灯火
只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬

还没决定往哪走 才所以不能答应你陪我
怕你会变成我

Hmm. What can i say? After reading sylvia's blog, and the class blog (which was posted by her too), it struck me very hard. Not only did i realise how my so-called "mugging" actually is nothing but slacking, i came to understand that i simply did not put in enough effort.

I think it was sheer luck that i had managed to pass history, SS, english and chinese. Border-line passes, but still a pas nonetheless. Yes, i did fail chem and math as expected. Math not quite as bad as i thought, chem was a letdown. Physics alone left to be known on wednesday. Which i think im pretty much done for as well..

Came back home and father just talked to me about my failure in maths again. I can't take it much longer. Why must they always assume that im spending so much time and concentration on my trainings and neglecting my studies? I didn't even go for training today. I'm just totally crushed by his words. He told me not to be so active in cca because he assume im a reserve for the team. He says it's not worth it for a reserve position to screw my maths up.

And yknw this really cracked me up. I've played this sport for so many years, although im not very good at it, am i to him, just nothing but a reserve? Is my plac value that low as he sees me? Does he really hate me playing it so much? I really can't take this. I can't give this up now, although i might be happy to. It's been stressing me for awhile, but not to the extent that he has to make me quit it. And i knw that i can't.

I just feel so lost and i don't knw what i can do. Even if i really did study, i still screw up. I can't study to get good results, i can't do well in my cca. I can't handle this bullshit from him. I just can't. I really hate my parents forever pushing all the blame to my cca. Maybe they had convinced me and now i really dread going to cca too.

Sometimes they just cannot understand and i just don't knw what i can do instead of feeling so frustrated and lost.

I really wished i could get myself out of this too. I don't knw why my passion just die off that easily. It's just torture. Maybe there wasn't really a passion to start with. Maybe that 'passion' was the interlude in all my unwillingness for it. But now i've gotten myself in this, there isn't any way out, i can't leave my responsibility. Though i don't knw why they must give me a position which i do not want. I'd rather they didn't give me anything, if i can't get the one i want. Why still get me involved? It's better off with people who truly want it.

I don't think i'd be able to do such a fantastic job as well. So i suggest you don't depend on me. There are others far more capable because i can't even handle my own problems well. I've lost the right to assume any more responsibilities for now. I'm sorry but i wished i could have the right to do more.

This page looks completely fine in school. It looks completely screwed at home. I certainly hope it's not my computer's problem.

Went through maths paper today, without the paper though. And i regret so much for crossing out the workings which i can't get an answer. I wasted 3 marks on it. And from question 1 to 5, i only have got 7 marks so far. Pathetic. Can't do anything about it, i'll be thankful if i even manage to hit 10.

Next was history paper. So far the one im most disappointed in. JUST scraped a pass for it. Completely ridiculous. The essay which we've practiced in class before, the one that im supposed to score, i got like a 2 out of 12. And the opinion question, which i was totally unprepared for, i got a 10 out of 13. Irony.

I think ms chia is damn disappointed in me, if not everyone of us. I've fallen, and i've fallen hard. From my A1, to a B4 now, is unacceptable. I don't knw how to take it but act like it doesn't matter. And this is everything i get from studying.

Went to the NEWater production place today. It was quite interesting. The games they told us to play. Look at this bunch of fifteen-year-olds amuse themselves with this game with a fish in the fish tank. Answer trivial questions to play.



A wrong answer would result in a crack in the fish tank and water would leak. Two wrongs and the fish would die. In the end, we answered all questions correctly. How did the fish die? NO, not by leakage of water. It died in the dirty fish tank water, because we refused to change the water. Like damn funny can. Everyone watching at us play was laughing la. Haha

Went out with sharmie, chiouyih, sinyee, chingxin, kristie, lihui, xinyu and yanyi to watch 200 Pounds Beauty at je. But much to our dismay, it wasn't available there. Wasted alot of time lagging around the place, calling up people to help us check the time available at cinemas close to us. Got quite pissed off and didn't want to go at first. The show at West Mall starting at 7pm which was damn late already. But i still went without asking.

The show is really good. Some parts quite touching. And i don't believe i cried for that. LOL. I think it's getting easier and easier for me to cry man. Ahh, must control my emotions better.

Anyway im darn tired now i want to sleep. Long day at school tmr. Zzz.

I'm feeling super tired. The comp's screwed. I turned it off at 10.15pm because it was frigging lag and i don't have the patience for this laggy comp to keep me awake. But i tried again and it isn't lag now. Ohwell.

Back to lessons today. Got back chinese gong han and i got some smashing lousy mark. I can't believe my chinese is still a bloody C6. Where the hell did my A2 go?! Grr. This is so pissifying. Gohsm didn't come to school today, so the whole class just lagged and studied for module for abit. Mr liu's class was free period too. Early break for 5 minutes.

After break had talent time in 3H which kind of fell under expectation. I mean, it was funny and all but.. okay i don't knw what to say. =/

Module test was damn.. I'm gna flunk it for sure. Once i got the paper i stun there for about 5 seconds before i even knw what to write. It's not difficult, it's just that i can't recall a single thing which i studied. So another one flunked.

My essays were so short i think they look like source based questions. I wrote halfway and fell asleep =x In a slumber i was thinking 'okay, im gna finish the paper' and so the next word which i wrote on the paper was 'okay' which was so NOT supposed to be there luh.

Went for the jab today. And tell you what, i can't believe im such a weakling. First was height and weight. Zzz i think i need a diet like right now. And don't try to convince my horrendous weight is due to muscle mass, i don't buy that crap.

Next was the stupid jab and lihui told me to go first. So fine, i went first. No feeling at all. Was sort of anticipating the weird feeling i felt in promary 6's jab but it didn't come. It only started to ache after the jab. And i almost fainted, can you believe it. I'm such a bloody weakling luh.

I was like standing in the queue to wait for the doctor's check-up and then i saw the lights overhead spinning. And i squat down to rest for abit, then lihui and pearly told me i looked pale. So i went into the classroom again. The nurse said it was because i didn't take my lunch before the jab. Crap. I'm a weakling.

And the doctor's check-up was darn retarded. I sat down, he looked at my list of allergies or illness. Everything was a 'No' so he said 'Hmm very fit. Take care.' Signed his name, chopped the clinic's chop, his name's chop, and i go out and pay 10 bucks for this. CON LUH.

Now there's still this faint throb of the ache every 3 seconds or so. Damn it. It ruined my appetite yknw, and i got no mood to do anything at all because of it. This sucks. Tmr's gna be a long day, going NEWater factory for learning journey. Hope it'll be fun with hapsburg!

And im so gna miss the 9.30am dismissal time. The daily mugging session with josephine, daniel and qinhui. All the fun and stress the exam brings. It must be better than the result getting time. It's the start of my Dooms Week ):

& yknw what, i think i'd be able to write a 3 factor essay on why my life is so frigging screwed up now and get a full marks for it. Because no one can understand it better than myself.

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And im bloody screwed up today. Everything just keeps screwing up, nothing's going right. Please don't blame me, i can't handle. I just feel inferior is all. I'm sorry.

And i just can't bring myself to do this. No matter it is to the first matter or the second matter. I just can't do it. What can i say? I don't want to force myself to ever do anything ehich i don't want to, and no one can make me too. Pertaining to the first matter, it will be alright, i hope.. I'll just have to try real hard..

But the second matter, im really sorry. And that's probably everything i can say. Because no one will understand, i just can't force myself into it. I'm just so sorry. I don't want anything anymore.

What? We have to take jabs? Ahh no..

Suffering from flu and sore throat now. Zzz.

Totally got owned by math paper. See, i said studying is of no use. I totally put in effort already but i only knw how to do roughly 2.5 questions. Deducted like 40+ marks. And that is so encouraging. I think im damn pathetic.

Like damn it, i see the first question is only solving simultaneous equation then thought still can do, then solve until i damn pek chek also don't knw correct or wrong la. I JUST DON'T KNW WHY I CAN'T GET THE ANSWER WHEN I KNW HOW TO DO THE QUESTIONS. Use the method then can solve normally and today all can't solve. What is this man.

Sorry mr liu, don't blame me, i tried.

After school went je lib to lag awhile with sylvia, josephine, daniel and qinhui. Only awhile. Supposed to study for module but i got no mood at all. So me, josephine and daniel went marina square. LOL. Okay, we were lame enough and walked a long way and sat by the singapore river and chatted for about an hour or so. We really have got nothing better to do.

Alot of random walking. And my mood got more and more screwed up along the way. A flu, a headache, a phone call, a pissed person.

Ah well. And took 97 back from marina all the way to je. Then back home. Then don't knw why suddenly got a sore throat. Anyway i really have no mood to study for the module test, which in any case i don't think if i study it would be much help.

Was told have to take a tetanus jab for OBS. Unless our primary 6 vaccination was in august or later. Damn it, mine's in april. I hate needles la can. Zzz.

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No, i am not pissed at you. I was not pissed at you, or anyone for that matter. Maybe im just pissed with myself for always feeling so inferior. I can't compare to you, or anyone else. I don't think i'll be able to get my passion back in such a short time. All i felt when i heard of it was getting pissed. Or im just afraid of defeat. I've always felt like nothing compared to the rest of you. I don't knw why im still in this. I don't want to feel like this but i can't help it. I'm just inferior and admit it, it's a fact.

And you knw what, i really regretted telling you i would help. Because i have no intentions to help in any way. And it's not against you or anyone. I'm just too worn out to have to worry about more things. I knw it's not fair to you because you have stuff to manage too, but you've been given the responsibility. So it's not really like i can do anything.

I'm sorry if you don't like this. But i have no bad intentions meant or any hard feelings. I'm simply very worn out by everything. So please don't come and ask me anything pertaining to this issue anymore. I'm gna reach the limit soon.

Damn. I hate this weird page.

SS paper went alright, was better than the history paper, that is for certain. And essay question was indeed british defeat as anticipated. But the opinion question stunned me for awhile. Hopefully i'll be able to do well for it.

After school was mugging math at library with sylvia and jieren. Did a few questions which sylvia prepared then waited for the pros - josephine, daniel and qinhui to come. Then i did some more while the rest slacked. Like i was the only one doing and didn't even realise. Today was by far the most productive of mugging days or maybe im plain desperate to pass math. Haha.

Went to the rink again today, think im addicted already or what. Or maybe i just need the motivation.. I still have a few days.. Shall believe i can do it by then.

Wanted to study at the senior citizen corner after going back home and taking the two textbooks. But i reached home and just felt so tired that i didn't want to go down anymore. So just self studied at home. But the bad thing is that i will kind of fall asleep halfway =x

Gna have to study for module tmr or im totally gna get owned at it on wednesday. Well, i kind of think im gna flunk module without a doubt, but nvm, shall still put in some effort. Even if it's a bare minimum, it must still be better than nothing.

And OBS is gna take place around 2 months from now. Think it's gna be damn fun. Been looking forward to it for like so long and it's finally here! Went for briefing today and it reminded me so much of step camp at changi last year. Ah, hope it would be more fun than step camp. I think it would be.. Jiayou everyone! Last paper tmr, 2 for bi-cultural and module students.. After that, we'll be free (: Tmr shall be the last day of enjoying the 9.30am dismissal time too..

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Don't worry. I'll be fine.. It's completely normal, maybe you just haven't seen enough of me. There's always a time where my emotions just go down, way down. I might not be okay now, but i will be. Thanks for noticing and concerning, it did mean alot..

The page still looks weird. =/ And my new monitor screen is big, very big. And bright without the filter. Ohwell, random.

Went out to mug again with josephine, yanyi, daniel, matthias and sylvia in the end. Wasn't even remotely close to being productive. I'm done with SS, thankfully, but i've done like nothing for math. And im worried now, very worried.

Somehow i had managed to persuade myself not to focus on my math in the library because i just felt like sleeping, having slept at like 3am this morning. But now that i got home i start to worry about math, because suddenly, i don't exactly feel like failing it anymore.

I guess yanyi got mad at me over lunch. =/ Sorry girl, we didn't mean to like, leave you alone there or complain about you or anything. Was just picking fun. It's a small misunderstanding. I knw you're not that petty yet. So yeah, don't be mad anymore.

Second half of the day was basically slacking through. And taking the pain of deleting 100+ of my smses but still not even halfway there. Ah, i will finish deleting it one day! Then matthias left. So i entertained myself by talking with sylvia.

Sylvia and i then went for our cheese waffles and oreo pearls chocolate and went to the ice skating rink where we saw this little girl having her skating lesson. She was kind of void of expressions but her skating was damn graceful. Just make me feel inferior because i can't even play my table tennis well enough. Ah, now i have motivation..

Went back and talked to sylvia about our lives. I mean, some interesting issues. And later sylvia went off. So josephine and daniel were talking some random rubbish with me. Hmm..kind of good to talk about things once in awhile. Clears my head.

And i took like 20 minutes to walk home at a slower-than-snail-speed speed today. Just felt kind of worn out and..i don't knw, sad or something? But yeah. Shall not let it affect my mood for upcoming papers. 3 more to go and im free.

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I've thought things through.. I guess i'll still have to depend on myself for the motivation to ignite my passion again. Cos i really hope i'll be able to do it, so i can enjoy myself while at it too.
Cos i wished i could help, but how do i do that when im disliking it so much now? I'd hate to feel like im forcing myself to do things i don't want to. So i shall try and make myself do things like how i used to love it so much.. So don't worry, i'll honour my words.

I just want to be like you. When i could treat it like it was my life and enjoy every moment of it.

Just a simple sentence, a simple incident, can spark off my motivation. I really hope i'll be able to get there because i knw what i want for it. No more disappointment..

Hmm okayy, my New Post page looks weird. Ohwell, it's out of place.

Blogging a little too late, over the midnight mark, supposed to refer to things as yesterday. Basically i just spent few hours in the library with josephine, yanyi and daniel and for a while sylvia, jieren, sweecheng and melvin mugging SS. Was not very productive though time just passed very quickly today. Almost done with it so tmr will be left to doing math. [And exploring phones!] LOL. Okay.

Nothing much to blog about anyway. Gna watch Spiderman 3 with yeejin after school on monday. Birthday treat! (:

Physics paper today totally owned. Well okay, i don't knw if it would have helped if i had studied more. Since i did not. I have no idea why i was so tired last night that i went to sleep at 8.45pm then woke up at 10pm with half a mind to continue studying. But i could barely get a few lines into my head when my eyelids are already struggling to close out on me. So i succumbed to my fatigue and did not wake up until 5am.

I was stuck at section A, the MCQ part for nearly 30 minutes. Once i turned over the cover page, the first question stumped me already. While staring intently at my question 17, i sub-consciously fell asleep =x But still, i managed to finish the paper afterall, though i doubt i could clear a pass at all. So i still think i'd do better for chem than physics.

School let out at 9.30am, so went jec for breakfast with yanyi then went west mall to scout for mothers' day presents. Yanyi was the one who wanted to get something for her mother, not me. And i saw two more books which i want today! Both of which would total up to about 45 bucks. Zzz..

Took 157 home from there and have been slacking ever since. Okay i've highlighted what im gna study for SS. Before i bore myself stupid over the weekends and while away precious time, i'm out to study my SS and math with josephine and yanyi tmr, and of course on sunday too. Hopefully mugging now would prove to be useful, unlike my previous judgements.

Jiayou everyone! A final dash for the last 2 papers (3 for bio students) and we're free! :D Though another day closer to my D.Day. Ah well, i guess what have to come would still come. Now's the time to relax abit after a week of extensive (maybe not for me =x) study. Rest well everyone!

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Been quite addicted to my current blog song - Ye Zi! The music video's kinda moving, been replaying it countless times for the past few days. Rather nice and reminiscing. I recommend Tonight by FM static too (:

4 more days. (5 for me. Module test :O) Jiayou.

Apparently, i've made a decision after s.teo's call to my father. It really pissed my father off anyway, so he pissed me off next. He told s.teo that i am not gna make it to university and told her not to talk about going to step for scholarship application. That was his stand.

After he hung up the phone and learnt that my rvtt camp might clash, he tried to dissuade me going to rvtt camp by wanting me to go step camp. 'Do you knw how to prioritise? This camp can get you a scholarship, and what does your cca camp do? Can it get you your 'A's in the exam?' WTF. How ironic.

So he left me with the decision myself. Telling me that he don't want my constant over-attention in cca affect my studies. But if i choose to go step camp, i've got to pay for it myself. Which implies he wants me to go for none. Like that's bullshit alright. I don't give a bloody damn to my cca anymore, but that's another thing with the camp. I just can't not go. Yes, i will still have senior farewells, i will still have camps, but what he don't understand that it won't be the same batch of seniors, it won't be the same camp. Moreover, it might be my last chance to lead it as head coordinator with the 3 others.

And he said, 'honestly, i hate you playing table tennis.' And he gave me a really ridiculous reason to go with it too. I've just decided, im giving up step camp. Well, i might never get a second chance, but i can do nothing about it because both camps are equally important. Whichever way i'll still have to make a decision.. I might have chose this to spite him, or i just can't bring myself to shirk the responsibility i have.

I haven't spoken more than 5 sentences ever since i reached home 2 hours ago. I think normally i'd be rattling off to my mother about how my day went, much as she's not interested in listening. Well, though she isn't the one who disallowed me to go for the camps, she had a part by putting in a bad word for me after every sentence my father spoke, basically. Might as well.

Chem paper is gna own me. But hey, it's not like i really care anymore. Tmr's physics and im gna get owned too. Sad but true and mugging is seriously useless. I wish i could just chuck everything out of the window and not care, but somehow i'll find myself picking up my files to read. Slackers can't mug, and when they do, nothing is achieved but a major mental exhaustion.

So i got home at 6pm feeling very worn out and all i wanted to do was drop down and sleep before continuing on my mugging later. But my mother told me to go down and buy dinner for everyone. 'You brother has a headache.' WOW. He has a headache but he's sitting away infront of the computer playing his stupid maple story. You mean headache can't go down buy food but can play games on the comp? So my brother cleverly went to sleep. So i had to go down anyway.

It's always a bad day on an exam day from the start all through till the end. I can't even be left alone for a while to study. Can't everyone like shut up for once. Stop giving me such bullshit already. I still want to study my physics, now don't blame me if i fail it.

Chinese paper was still alright, hope i can secure an 'A' for this, but why does it seem so impossible to get. Argh, this is really bad.

Had to get through a 20 minutes talk with s.teo after school to explain why i wasn't able to go for step camp in thailand. She ended up talking kind of out of focus and i was sitting there feeling awkward but i can't do anything about it.

She's gna call my father tonight. I'm sort of in a dilemma now, do i go or not? There's a high chance it's gna clash with rvtt camp. I'm seriously stuck. I half wish that s.teo won't be able to convince my father, but i half wish to go too, i don't want to give it up just like this. I knw there's no way im gna give up rvtt camp. Now what do i do...

Chem paper's tmr. Remedial was cancelled anyway. The mugging today wasn't really very productive but i ended up feeling really mentally exhausted. I guess a slacker just can't mug. So, im just gna go take the paper tmr and flunk. I'd be lucky if i manage a B4.

I realise i can only mug effectively with a pair of perfectly working earphones where all the noises around me would be drowned out. And i'll be surounded by nothing but music. I'm gna get them soon, another 28 bucks gone. But i want nothing but music.

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It's been so long since i last talked to him. I think ever since we graduated? Apart from the occasional birthday wishes, we would not talk at all. Though i wasn't really all that close with him back then, i mean we were from different classes to start with, he was still a special friend..

Really was quite surprised when he approached me yesterday on MSN, asking for my advice in his relationship problems. He sounded so hurt, so helpless, like i was the only one left and his last resort for someone to speak to. My heart just ached when he told me he cut himself for the girl. I really, really felt so pained. Very sadly, i wasn't much help to him since i'd never been in a relationship myself. All i could do was just reassure him of my presence and perhaps help him sort things out the logical way.

Sometimes i don't understand. I never thought guys would go so far out for the girl he loves. Yes, there may have been exceptions, but i was never truly convinced until yesterday. Now, i just hope everything would turn out alright for him..

Went to jp just now to help my mother buy some stuff and stock up on my pens and writing pad. And i found myself standing in a very long queue in popular, wondering why the hell is it so crowded today when i remembered it's labour day. Ohwell.

Wandered around there for awhile. And i saw the watch that i wanted again. But then, i realised it's not a nike watch but a baby-G. Too bad it's still 137 bucks all the same. Taken to favour to study in the senior citizens' corner downstairs, i revised chem for a bit, before i got completely sianned and gave up. Chem's so darn sian and torturous when you get a noob teacher. Now how i miss aloy ong.

Was told we're supposed to stay back tmr for chem remedial after our chinese paper. Come on, what's the point man, what's the frigging point? Zzz, don't knw how to teach still want a remedial is only a waste of both her time and our time. It'll be better spent on my self study. I'm not gna go, i mean it.

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Random email which i received, and people might have deleted it in an instance, i found this section particularly meaningful:

If the world were to end in 24 hours, all the phone lines, chat rooms and e-mails will be saturated from people sending messages to others, saying: "I regret having made you feel bad", "Pardon me", "I love you", "I hold you in high esteem, take good care of yourself" and sometimes "I have always loved you, only I never told you".

It's just the question which i always love to ponder about when im damn free. What would i do if the world would end in 24 hours? Ahh, what a pity to die at such a young age of 15. But there are even younger people who are gna die along with the rest of the world. There are still many things i have not done, many places i haven't had the chance to go. I guess you never knew that since i was very young i have always wanted to go australia. When i first heard its name, i was thinking what a nice name this country has, and i would want to go when i grow up. But well, i haven't had the chance to, and i certainly don't wish to die before i go there. It must be a really nice place..

But back to the point. No doubt everyone would be regretting like hell if the world is gna end in just that very short 24hours. I don't have to mug for chem, since i'll be dead by then =x And i once thought, whether i would choose to die with my family, 2C, 3H, or rvtt?

All is equally important, family is the place where i was born and nurtured, 2C the first class which taught me to love and cherish.

3H the class which always make me burst out laughing like some mad girl and of course make me scream at them sometimes =x

RVTT, the group that's with me for the whole of my rv life. Though it isn't as close to me as the 2 classes, but there are times of joy spent together too. It taught me to be strong, and never give up. So i knw if i chose to die with 3H, they would want to die with their sec 2 classes too. And RVTT would want to die with their own classes. So is everyone in rv gna die together? What a weird thought. Haha.

But if i knw the world was ending in 24 hours, i won't hold anything back. And i'll just say, i wished you'd stayed.

Some random post. Back to mugging.

I'm supposed to be studying for my chem paper. Yet, i've been infront of this computer since 9 in the morning. Doing nothing but slack. I don't knw how i managed to sleep from 8pm last night to 8am this morning. http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/317048 Inspired by sylvia, you can try it in the midst of mugging. It's damn simple, sure you can score full marks.

I have no mood to study at all.