Your IQ Is 110

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Something quick ripped from jonathan's blog. It's obviously not for real and only for entertainment purposes because my mathematical intelligence should be wayyy below average. Verbal intelligence genius? LOL thats fresh.

Training today was halfway between hiong and slack. Started run 5 rounds and 5 times zigzag between the tables. 20 sit-ups and 20 push-up for warm ups. Zzz, my wrist hurts. Im bloody bored now and i have not touched my hw today at all. Die. I got my FMA #14 today anyway.This post is totally random. My mind is very clumped and messed up now. Zzz needa clear the fog. -.-

Whee, i'm back! Wahh, i'm a slacker eh, in the past 3plus hours or so, i only finished reading Around the world in 80 days for the book review and done the xi you ji shang xi thing. Really dumb, don't knw want me to xin shang what, fen xi what. LOL. Si liao, i think my comp going to crash soon. Just in the 3plus hour i turned the comp on, it went sot and turned off by itself for like 6 or 7 times already. I think is the USB port thingy, so i changed the internet USB port t another one, and tada~ It's done liao. Zzz better don't sot again. Comp crash = die. Alot holiday hw need comp sia.

#1 Po Cheng
This quiet but not so quiet girl. Always like to look at me in her innocent eyes and say in an innocent voice "monkey..." and start laughing at her own joke -.- Newly crowned Jay Chou in our latest class lunch, haha. Always stand behind me in line during assembly and keep going "monkey..." or "sinsin" Yeah, first person to call me sinsin larh, what a funny name. Anyways pc must jiayou for next year okay! Don't be so stressed up because of results (:

#2 Xin Yu
Ahh, xiao yu arh.LOL. Softcore fan of my blog. We always like to laugh at our own jokes, or at nothing in particular. We're both mad i guess. She's a chinese PRO and a very nice girl. And always stand behind pc in line during assembly and get scolded by me cos she like to talk! Hahas (:

#3 Esther
ESTHER! Haha, esther is this look innocent but super not-innocent and violent girl. One of them who loves tickling me everytime. Likes to pretend you don't knw me and act dao. But i knw you're that nice and fun girl! Folk dance partner dance with her always very fun one, halfway giggling nd swing me so hard when we supposed to turn around. Hahas, violent kia. But a serious girl in her work, very hardworking de okay! (:

#4 Eugenia
The girl who is like chao obssessed in maple! And you shushed me during class lunch when i interrupted your maple talk with kaying and jiahui! How can?! LOL. I think she's pro in maths. Although not one of those chao enthu ones in class, but i think you still feel sad that we have to separate bah...I enjoyed our little chat about our CCAs some time ago. Jiayou for yours okay (:

#5 Jia Hui
Haha, the weird crapper. Always when i look at her, she'll give me this face, eye brows half raised, half smiling, looking at me with innocent eyes. LOL. Not much opinions in class one and always listen to us talk. Unless it's talking about maple larh, another maple freak haha. Anyways, don;t be so blur next year already and jiayou okay (:

#6 Lydia
Lydiaaaaaa! Haha, what a very nice girl. Went to suzhou with her last year december, and just went vivo city few days ago with her. She's a very sensible person larh, alot of good ideas to contribute to the class one. But under her serious and sensible self, is another crazy and fun to be with person altogether (:

#7 Yan Yi
You this arh, you say i always catch your ankle socks arh, why you wear so low let me catch? HUH. LOL. Say next year when you change class i cannot catch you nymore eh, tell you what, i won't even be chairperson anymore next year lorh. I can still catch you when you come for class outings! Haha jkjk. And dont be so slack, so crazy, so irritating, so NOOB, then you'll be very nice le. Haha (:

#8 Jerrine
Our class's "coffee, tea or me" Crowned by aloy ong, how, i forgot. Haha. A very cheery and bubbly girl, seems to always be smiling. An art PRO. And alot of crap. Another one who loves tickling me and squirt water at me one. I see you cute, i never retaliate. Haha. Anyways, must jiayou for next year too if you taking art. I mean, if you not taking also must jiayou larh. HAHA. Remember i always got the power to make people cry! LOL. (:

#9 Josephine
Ahh, my first friend in RV. Yeah 1C's very first chairperson who resigned in the first week. Haha, also very cheerful girl although can get very scary when you dao people. Thanks for all the ideas and things you have done to the class, you haven't been a bad welfare leader larh, don't worry. haha. Our friendship really got alot of obstacles in the way but we managed to overcome it and remain as friends till today. It's not easy bah, but it just took a little more initiative, a little more willingness to forgive. I'll miss the days we go mug chem together, the things we always talk to each other about, the times you always drag me to the locker, and i always ask you to go toilet after evry lesson. Jiayou for next year too and *flaps arms* HAHA (:

#10 Ka Ying
Deskie!! Haha. Sorry for having to listen and absorb my crap in the very few days we sat together, Got to knw you as quite a sarcastic, lame but nice girl. Also like to laugh at nothing one leh. And you are actually quite talkative, which i don't believeis being influenced by me lorh! Responsible science rep although sometimes abit blur. Haha, continue to jiayou next year (:

#11 Yu shan
The umbrella of our class, lol. Super bian tai one. Also went suzhou with her, my shoulder lend to you every night there haha. Can still come and find me for my shoulder to cry on, it's free of charge! Haha, and she's bian tai. To think last year when we selecting sec 1 class name, she suggested 1 Cervix. Like wth? Is that like sick or what larh. Another person who calls me sinsin. And she is a FAN TONG. She eats alot. Like omg. We all tio stun when she eat 5 bowls of rice in suzhou larh. LOL anyway, chinese PRO, don't be so bian tai anymore and jiayou for npcc too, i knw it as well as you xP

#12 Pan Yin
Another girl who calls me sinsin -.- Haha called me what? Starry girl, haha, i wonder what that means. A truly quiet girl who is serious in her work. We always lame around together. I'll go "panyin..." and you'll say "sinsin..." and we'll both burst out laughing. See, at nothing again. We're all mad.`A pleasant girl to be with, don't really have much opinions de, must speak up more next time okay (:

#13 Ying Ting
The man of the class! Haha, our beckham. Names by, er was it peishi or was it me? Haha, cos of her cool attitude. And also anything also "aiya heck larh" You've been a good friend to me and stuck with me when i had some problems with some people. I knw your mum very hardcotre one, that time PTM talked to her so long i thought you having tea session inside. LOL. Anyway, must also jiayou for your studies and cca k (:

#14 Shu Hui
The knowledgeable one. hahas. History and english pro. Very quiet leh, abit anti-social sometimes. But i'm glad you came to our latest class lunch. Always sit in the corner and read books only larh lol. Also not much opions for the class one but very polite! (:

#15 Yu Ling
Bian tai xiao jie as crowned by aloy ong again. Because she's just plain bian tai. keep talking about what francium, caesium throw into swimming pool and explode. LOL. And very loud girl, alot of crap opinions, really must learn to be tactful and think first before you talk. Haha, offend people not good liao, learn to be quieter bah. (:

#16 Yi Min
My fellow xingnan friend, very shi bai to say i still don't knw you very well =x Haha, but always like to act cute one larh, alot of cute clothes also, black and pink. Anime and manga addict, draws nice anime too. She abit extreme one, all her comics got birthday like siaoz. haha, responsible welfare member too. Must jiayou in guides, be CCa leader (:

#17 Sherrie
Hey doudou, lols i wonder why you called me that. Zzz anyway you have been a very very very very guailan friend to me for the past 2 years too. Haha, i remember last year you were that quiet girl who stood infront of me in the assembly line. And i always blow your hair until you buay tahan and from a quiet girl, started to tlk, until now a noisy girl Haha. The girl who is younger than me by a whole 5 months, jiayou for your CCA and good luck with tkc (:

#18 Ariel
Ahh a very sensible and capable girl. My advice friend bah, apart from my counsellor larh. Responsible person and a good friend. Our friendship also alot of problems along the way de, but we have also overcomed it. And we both like to gay around, although yors abit extreme for me to take. Can get scary when dao-ing people also. Jiayou for your triple sci (:

#19 Me
Haha, that's me. Our class's Bu shuang xiao jie, also crowned by aloy ong. -.-

#20 Joanne
That bao li guang and uber high-pitched voice when you get too agitated or excited. Haha, which i love to imitate too. Heh. Very serious in her work and very hardworking too. The girl who stood behind me last year andi always ka-chiao her until she demand me to turn back infront. Haha joanne is always that interesteing and hao qi fu girl (:

#21 Veronica
You sucky-nica! Haha, I only just noticed that the booklet you gave me has “sucky-sinyee” at the top of your note. Haha, our sucky family rules right, LOL. Your full tile “Imba Sai Sucy-nica Sucking Champ” Yeah, crowned by me, wah so honoured right. LOL. Anyway, nice time going crazy shopping around in west m’sia. Pro in all subj, jiayou for next year (:

#22 Pei Shi
Although things didn’t turn out the way we wanted it to be, I also don’t ant to continue having any unsettles disputes. I had enjoyed the time we were together in a clique, and you crazy banana lots of crap to talk. And a lot of dirty jokes. LOL. Anyway jiayou in your studies bah (:

#23 Yvonne
Alot of nice ideas to contribute to the class. And also alot of lame and spastic jokes and chao leng stuffs to say. I enjoyed outr chat about you-knw-what during learning fest. Our stories are quite alike in some ways. Pro in history also, you look uber cute in short hair! Haha, anyways jiayou for your cca (:

#24 Guo Kai
Haha, my closest guy friend in class le bah. Lol, because we go to school to together yanyi thinks we're togetherLOL. Anyway, i told you this many times le, you ar one irritating and kaypoh guy who always wants to knw who i like. Then always like to read science companion when i reading fearless on the bus. Got godlike gk help me, then my chem improved. Haha, thanks godlike. (:

#25 You Wei
Haha this responsible treasurer. Stands up to everyone and everything. At first still think he hates me larh, but it's not larh. The one who showed to me, that our class is really not as bonded as i had thought. I knw you love the class, i knw you wanted to cry that day! I saw your watery eyes lorh. Haha, quite enthu with class activities. Normally acty like he dont give a damn but contributes ideas. Jiayou for next year too (:

#26 Jie Ren
Another one of my closer guy friends in class le. This guy damn crap. But then still a very nice guy lorh. Ke lian to sit beside me and absorb my crap and tolerate my temper everyday , but we're equally crappy for each other. LOL. Likes to borrow my pen, pencil, ruler, correction tape, foolscap and maths textbook to cover what you are doing during loke's lesson! Haha and always slack history one. You must duo duo jiayou for your studies next year le k i knw you also love our class alot de (:

#27 Min Zhang
Thought he was quite anti-social at first. Always so quiet sit in one corner and read book. Or junhao will gay with him, i seeriously wonder how he stand junhao larh. But he also got alot of crap, just thatmust crap with right people at right time. Too capabl, everything also participate in one. Too prim and proper too, thats why 2C has its extremes. Anyway, continue to run fast fast next year (:

#28 Chin Hui
You this chingay, last year got bad experience doing proects with you. Say clementi, you go to lakeside. Say boonlay, you also go to lakeside. You like lakeside so much arh? But then still must tell you, dont be so anti-social, so flirt, so slack, so irrtating, so dumb then will be okay le. Must jiayou for your studies and basketball. Tsk, in bball so long liao, think you also never play match before. Haha, must put in more effort k (:

#29 Jun Hao
My CCA mate larh, full of crap and irritating sometimes. But he's a god listener. although sometimes egoistic and really gets on my nerves. Can be trusted bah. Always liven up the class along with gk, the class clowns. Our class will be super quiet without the two of you. Anyway, junhao you better play well and get into team next year, i think not much problem for you larh (:

#30 Yun Zheng
Our class's very own cao cao! AVA rep for 2 years liao. Always still forget to keep the PHP, last year still put egg inside with junhao, then got smoke. LOL. Sat beside me last year too, very scary one, like to mumble answers to himself. haha, but pro in alot of subjects. very animated and comical too. (:

#31 Zhao Wei
Responsible dept chair. Really quite responsible larh. Dont knw why i still complained about you at the start until you got pissed and said "then what you want me to do" 0.0 Haha, a very funny guy also. Alot of crap one and always say "i very good one" for no reason larh. LOL anyway, it's ben nice working with you this year, hope you will be abit more serious next year bah (:

#32 Wen Rui
You this guy, very de bad. Always like to compete with people, compete results. Then you will say "i win you, nehnehnipoopoo" And like wth? Very pro larh you. Represent singapore in that boh liao game. HAHA. Anyway, since you missed the last day of school with 2C, YOU MUST COME TO CLASS CHALET OKAY?!? Haha, and take care of your health kayy (:

#33 Xuan Wei
Ahh, nothing much to say cos also don't knw you very well. Quite comical guy bah. Always get picked on by our class, i dont knw why also. But then i knw you like to "mo" min zhang, it's abit gross larh huh. Our class's Osama bin laden. Haha, remarkable performance at the skit (:

#34 Jia Chen
Haha, your power shaking super butt! Crowned by gk! You really can shake your butt man -.- LOL. Very entertainging indeed. haha, and why you so fair? Lol, must eat more, so skinny one larh. Haha, jiayou for your studies china man! (:

My tribute to 2C:
The song which is editted by sherrie&yingting. I further editted it and decided to present this to 2C, the class i've been in for so long. The class that will stay with me.

Photograph (editted version)
Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Yanyi's head

And this is where I had fun
I think JE is our favourite hunt
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is the place we hang out

And this is where I went to school
To meet 2C and the class goons
Attendance says I skipped school twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should i go back and reminisce the days
Life's so boring without 2C
If I could turn back time I'd treasure this

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say itGoodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the class door
I found the photo of the friends that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The ‘chers hated us hangin' out
They say some cuckoos went to tore it up

We used to listen to the Ms Ang
And crap along with everything she knows
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To crap to more than just an empty toot

It's the first time I'll say
I miss 2C so much every day
All of us had gone separate ways
But it's so hard to forget those class gays

Every memory of looking out the class door
I had the photo album spread out on my toilet floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking with the class goons
I found the photo of the gays that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

I miss 2C
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to save
Too hard to delete it

If I could I relieve those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the bus door
I had the photo album spread out on the JE floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of scrambling out the bus door
I found the photo of the memories I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me...

FINALLY i finished it liaox. Wahh, my break is over 45 mins ago, time to do hw again le. Tata~

Okay, i typed this long entry last night, but my comp went bonkers and POOF! It's gone. Zzz, fine i shall start over again.

So, xinyu and josephine both had individual dedications to the class, and i was asking josephine if i should give one too. And she said "giveeeeeeeeee" so yeah, i'm giving xP. Anyway, this is meant for people in 2C only, so if you're already quite sick of such posts of mine recently, i suggest you leave first cos it's gonna be a long entry. Otherwise, read on (:

I can't stop looking at the time capsule of the class, wanting to open it everyday and look at the contents, but i'm not supposed to. I want to look again, at that class photo, what everyone had signed and wrote. I want to look at my badge again, the birthday list, our sec 1 cheesecake cheer, the class banner...I should really put it somewhere i can't see easily.

I still remember...
December 23rd 2004, the day first stepped in RV. The day we first met. The time i was talking with yimin and noticing everyone in class.

Last year January 3rd, our first day as a class 1C. The time i got to knew the geylang man and gigolo who is junhao and guokai. The time when we first met ang. The day our fates sealed as a class.

November 7th, our class's very first outing. The bbq at west coast park. The time when we invited mdm chan who helped us start the fire. The time i tried so hard coaxing yushan on to the firefox, and she went to the other side, screaming all the way. The time i returned home with a fever which lasted a few days.

October 12th, our cheering competition. The time i thought we would surely lose because we were so leng. The time we stayed back and thought of the cheer. The time we actually got top 5 in the 11 sec 1 classes.

This year May 29, 30th, our first class chalet. The small chalet at pasir ris costa sands. Our movie marathon with that funny zombie movie. The time you guys went out late after watching final destination 3 to cheers and get supper, scaring yourselves all the way. The time we woke up early to watch the sunrise, but only could notice the change of colour in the sky. The time yuling sat beside the bbq pit the whole night, the strong girl xD.

June 3, 4, 5th, our west malaysia trip. The time when we went into the eerie hotel with super many mirrors, yellow water(eew). The me and junhao and a few people were sharing dirty jokes. The time the whole class went into zhaowei's room on the last night, made so much noise that reception complained. The time where all of us scrambled out of his room because we thought there was a spot check. The time of the beautiful firefly boat ride, the firefly flew into our boat, joanne got damn scared she rocked the whole boat. The rumour about the crocs in the lake, i don't knw if it's true though.

July 28th, our teambuilding day. Though it wasn't exactly very fun, it served its purpose. It was this which bonded us a little more. The time we put on our face paint and sprayed our hair white/gold. The time we got 3rd in cheering. The time we proved ourselves, we are not the once so leng class anymore.

September 4th, our second class outing at palawan beach. Though things didn't turn out the way EXCOs wanted it to, i think we all still had fun playing like crazy people in the water. Gk dragging the girls around in the water. Playing with seaweeds, playing captain's ball. The time when i wa so dry one second, and soaked to the skin the next.

October 26th, the day we go separate ways. Our journey together ends here, our gayness sealed till we next meet as a class. I spammed arcade with the guys, took neos with the girls, we as a class had class lunches. Every one of those bonded us, held memories. Memories which we'll reminisce, if we still remember 2C. Every individual in class is unique, 2C itself is unique. No other class would ever be like 2C because they dont have our asset, they will forever lack in this : gayness xD 2C will be one of its kind, and it's because we made it possible. (:

Gtg do hw first, continue in my 1 hr slack time (:

Zzz, just woke up about 1 hour plus ago. Haha, 2.55pm break my record already. Last night or is it this morning, slept at 3.15am. Haha enough of playing with smarterchild. it's indeed quite dumb.

It's time to do work man. THIMUN is damn demending now already. Grr, i really wonder why the hell i said yes in the first place. Right, jaslin? Haha suan le, since i already cannot back out.1 month later it will be out of my life forever. And seeing as to how slack i am, desmond lim surely won't ask me again next year, and i sure as hell won't say yes again!

&& all the holiday homework! Chinese department so hiong for what, always give us so much homework, and the most fei4 of all larh. Buy those two books, later read le then throw one side, wast 10 bucks. Zzz, our school's holiday homework they think very fun arh. Language arts one also, got writing assignment, reading assignment, viewing assignment and speech assignment. Can't they stick to conventional stuff. The viewing assignment is really kind of stupid larhs. I think our Singapore and Comparative studies homework is the most straightforward one liao. Going to be quite busy bah, can cannot sleep at 3am anymore, sure won't have enough time to do homework one. Haha, chienying, cannot pei you liao. xD

So okay, i don't want to miss holiday trainings..But writing workshop missed one already, then don't knw class chalet will miss or not. Yay, tt chalet is confirmed. At least the holidays won't just be filled with work. I hope there is even class chalet afterall.

This post is sort of random. Just wake up, my thought not organised yet xP

You knw what time is it now? 3.02am. 0.0 Siaoz one, me and chienying online fooling with that smarterchild. Dont knw why smarter, seems very dumb. Zzz, tmr surely knock out until 2.30pm haha. Nvm, think i going off soon.

74% attendance for today's class lunch! Haha 25 people turned up in the end larhs, 17 girls and 8 boys. Most people reached a little after 11am larhs but it's okay, we were supposed to be lag xD.During lunch, i was super amused by some very very sick jokes peishi was telling me and jerrine. Like ohmygod, my mind is so polluted and corrupted! Zzz, all your fault larh peishi! But i had my fair share of laughing like some "IMH-runaway" on the second floor of jec. I passed around my autograph book and some of the messages were really quite touching. I spot a common point and i conclude: fierce + crazy + humorous + guailan + fun + nice = me 0.0

After lunch, we hung around chatting there while the guys went off to spam arcade. We girls also went larh, spent 4 bucks there. Played that bball machine again, we girls are so noob larh! Look at zhaowei and junhao play, pwn us like siao haha. Played the bishi bashi machine, pop'n'music, DDR and some other machines. Was damn fun alrights! Then the 17 of us girls went to take neos. Goodness, 17 into that little space is abit overwhelming. But fun (: The neos were great larhs, extremely, authentically 2C. I think the funniest picure is the one with all our middle fingers =x and the decos are damn funneh (: I want to have class lunch again. But must have $$, like this can go broke one.

I'm waiting for my fullmetal alchemist #14. Zzz like finally. Holidays already, but then damn busy. Still feel quite slack and have no intentions of starting hw yet. Ehh, i think i got influenced by somebody larh. If i don't start soon, i knw i'll die. The hw this time is like...0.0 Haha okay. I still have not finished writing the letters =x Lalala, slack first, work later =DDD

It's quite late. I'm not talking online because it's damn late and not many people are left online anyway. It's 2.10am. I'm still here, as i type this entry, i just finished watching the class presentation for at least the 10th time. Every single time, a new wave of memories brought back. Every single time, felt sad that we are finally parting. Every single time i see those smiles in the photos, felt a tinge of nostalgia. I can't stop the separation, but i am still able to feel sad. It might not seem like a big deal. We'll still see each other anyway, not like it's already year 6. But the feeling won't be the same anymore. I'll belong to another class, 2C would not exist anymore, but the spirit will live on.

So i was saying we have a time capsule. It's quite interesting. We have some very interesting things. Class tee, class photo, class banner, a paper girl and a paper boy which are decorations for learning fest, ariel's chairperson insignia, my badge, teambuilding hairspray and face paint. Memories, packed in the rusting tin lollipop tin given to us by ang. I doubt 4 years later anyone would still remember our time capsule promise. I would, of course, the time capsule is in my care. We can't bury it, maybe we'll hide it someplace.

2C, i have so much to say. I'll really miss you people, the gayness can't be forgotten xD My study table now is filled with my farewell letters and some gifts from you people. My previous decoration replaced by all 2C has given me. Pictures, letters and everything else. Reminded of 2C everytime i sit down and do my work. Oh maybe it's a bad choice.

Really can't believe next year in january, we'll return to RV, only to remember that i am not supposed to be in 2C anymore. I'm not seeing my class guys gay around aymore, i'm not looking at ang scolding us anymore. I'm not facing 2C anymore. It's a whole new place to start with. After 2C has gone this far, through thick and think together, ponned arts fest auditions together, we're back to a new environment, back to square one. Ohgod, i want my 2C back!

We'll still have gatherings, i'll remind you people of our time capsule promise. I'll hound you until it's carved into your mind xP I'll preserve our memories in whatever way i can. Hopefully, at the end of our 6 years of RV life, we'll be able to re-open our time capsule, to relieve the memories 2C had held. A part of us inside it. A fresh wave of nostalgia will hit us as we reminisce once more 2C'06.

Aww, i should seriously stop talking about such depressing stuff. Yeah, on a lighter note. Class lunch tmr has received a satisfying number of 24 confirmed responses of going. How nice, mere 6 girls 4 boys absent. Every moment like this is the chance for 2C to grow stronger, closer.

"Photograph" (editted version)

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do, it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Yanyi's head

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, but its time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The 'chers hated us hangin' out
They say some cuckoos went to tore it up.

We used to listen to the Ms Ang
And crap along with everything she knows
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To crap to more than just an empty toot.

Every memory of looking out the class door
I had the photo album spread out on my toilet floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Every memory of walking with the class goons
I found the photo of the gays that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

I miss that class
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it
If I could I relieve those days
I know the one thing that would never change.

Every memory of looking out of the bus door
I had the photo album spread out on the JE floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Every memory of scrambling out the bus door
I found the photo of the memories that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

I miss 2c
I miss our faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to save
Too hard to delete it...

This is the editted version by sherrie and yingting of the song "Photograph" by nickelback. It's quite funny really. Class blog got 7 entries yeaterday. break the record in this 2 years, what a joke. So bored today larh woke up at 2.30pm 0.0 Haha. Class lunch tmr! yay.

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL TODAY

Last day of school with 2C. The class i had spent the past hundreds of days together with. Last day being 2C's chairperson. Last day wearing my yellow insignias and badge. And absolutely the last day 2C, the last day you people will ever hear me screaming at you to line up properly. I'm sorry i was unable to give all of you all the letters today. Those who did not receive it today, i did not forget you, but just unable to finish your letter in time. You all will get one by class chalet (:

I presented the powerpoint i did of the collation of pictures taken in this year in 2C. The several activities we participated in together: Class chalet, west malaysia trip, teambuilding day, national day auditions, class outing and everything else. I'm sure the 180 slides worth of our pictures and dedications did manage to bring memories of the past year back to you. Some dedications were really very touching. Esther, youwei, yingting&sherrie's modified edition of the song "Photograph", joanne's dedications were all really touching for me. It was like just a few days ago that i was elected as 2C's chairperson. I thank everyone for tolerating my absurd tempers every so often. "Time flies? Probably" Now it is already the last day of 2C, absolutely our last official school day together.

We really sucked in cheering last year. I had lost the hope in us, during orientation. 1C was that class which just refused to open their mouths and cheer for themselves. 1C was that class which wouldn't emerge first in anything. 2C was enthusiastic at the right times. Our third in teambuilding cheering proved everything. Nobody would look down on 2C aymore for we have proven ourselves. That is our improvement, the sign of our achievment over the years.

On the 23rd december 2004, we first met. The 35 of us, strangers, aquaintances, nothing more. We knw that this is the class we are going to spend the next 2 years in, 1C. Now everyone had grown closer, the 34 as one. As 2C. Although shenjie is not here to share our laughters and sadness in this year, his memories, "the young man at the back" would stay with us, and his class tee, in our time capsule. Now the day we separate pathways, 26th october 2006. Time forus to move on. Everyone is different, everyone has their own paths to go, we can't stick together forever but we'll all be strong.

I'm thankful for having 2C with me. Our class might not have been as enthusiastic or even as bonded as other classes, but really, tell me you had enjoyed your stay in 2C, as a part of 2C. The class you had shared your smiles, your tears. Your friends here who gave you encouragement and pulled you through the difficult times. The friends whom you once cried with, gayed with, laughed with, played with. Those irreplaceable memories. I'm really glad, our class had minimum conflicts but always able to resolve it peacefully. Remember those times we always had to rush proposals and auditions last minute. The work produced wasn't top quality, but i hoped you had fun. Every single individual in 2 Complicated. We were all unique, we had different habits and way of doing things. Each and every person would not be forgotten, for it was all 34 of us who made 2C what it is today.

I had felt disappointed in the class before, i had felt lost. Some point or another, we weren't such good friends. It is at the point of leaving did we really start to treasure everyone, and accept us as who we are. I'll never forget the looks in some of your eyes as the slideshow is running. I'll never forget the laughter which rang through the class every now and then. I'll never forget the tears some of us had shed because you just couldn't bear to let the class go. Fate brought us together but time has torn us apart. Without separations, we'll never learn to treasure. Without saness, you'll never realise real happiness. Without 2C, we're nothing but atoms xD.

Sadness reigned your thoughts today, but who is to say, in 4 more years, we would become aquaintances once again. Nothing but "hi"s and "bye"s, nothing but the stranger's face once again. Who would knw if we would still reminisce, of the class once so great. Once the 1 Cheesecake, once the 2 Complicated. And who was to knw, how many could remember our time capsule promise?

No more "coffee, tea or me". Imagine having to change your msn group name from Class, to 2C'06. No more of the gayness, i'm quite sure others don't appreciate it the way we do. But whenever you feel really lonely and down, think of 2C, your 33 friends who will always be there for you. Those memories...so hard to save, but too hard to delete it. "Memories will always stay with you, with me, with 2C"

It has been a fun and very gay 2 years 2C has given me. Friends enter and leave our hearts but only true ones leave foot steps in your hearts. 2C had left, the deepest, most beautiful set in my heart. Our memories and all the times spent together would not be forgotten. Because next life, i still want to be in 2C.

It's time, to say goodbye.

























我们一起开始的旅程， 在此画上了完美的句点.

So, today was the result analysis with ms ek. I can't take 9 subjects cos my percentage is lower than 67% =/ Ohwells. sad larh, dont want to talk about it so much also.

Prize presentation was okay. I got another award. Miss inclined pull ups. Explaining the tags in my tagboard. Zzz, everyone is making fun of me larh, it sounds so damn corny. Miss inclined pull ups. Cant they think of anything better. Lol.

Gtg off to chiong the class presentation and the letters. 15 more to go!

My flu persists. Even worse than before. Urgh.

It sucks to go out when i'm having a flu. I feel so damn sleepy today, but nonetheless, the day spent with lydia at vivo city was still fun! xD But of course, it would be a whole lot more fun if i went there loaded.

The whole place is like so damn big, can get lost larh. Poor me and lydia spent like 30min looking for burger king and in the end we knw that it isn't open yet! 0.0 Feel sort of dumb larh, i think lydia went to the information counter no less than 3 times today. Haha what a joke. But after our lunch, we went to..CANDY EMPIRE! Haha, the place was smaller than i expected, but ohwell nvm. It's still fab. Haha, we spent 1 hr in there larh. But everything is damn ex =/ That's why it would definitely be more fun if i had more cash.

And we walked around, and done some guailan things. Heh, and i went home at 5pm. We walked until damn tired. I took 97 then 99. 1 and a half hours. And i got off sneezing like siao. 16 more letters! x/ Die le.

I'm under immense pressure working under ang. Last two weeks of school already, she's continuosly pressurising me. In these 2 weeks alone, she called me like 4 or 5 times already. Reprimanding me on some random things i didn't do or whatever. Gahh i'm gonna have a phobia already.

Gonna go do something for the class. Haha, hopefully it'll be worth. 2 days left...

Bad flu. Argh.

Ran through the heavy rain today with sherry. Like two mad girls in RV uniform running in the damn heavy rain. Drenched to the skin. And went to take 99 which was freezing cold. Wahh no wonder got flu larh =x Then got this old guy, came and said "Wahh tmr no school eh? So can barge out in the rain arh." After me and sherry ran across the road in the rain. You mean, if tmr not holiday then don't need to run in the rain to get home is it? You mean it's because tmr is holiday so i run in the rain is it? -.- So the moral of the story is, must bring umbrella to school. And sherry realised that she has an umbrella -.- Zzz no common sense one. Although i admit that even if i got umbrlla i also wont take out and choose to run through. Haha.

I still have lots of letters to finish in these 2 days. Ohmygod, how is it possible. Zzz, tmr still going vivo city with lydia! Yeah, the candy empire haha.

Anyway today's project fest was pretty boring larh. 4 and a half hours. I stayed in class and slacked most of the time. Only went out for the last 2 hours, so my learning pass is empty except for the one stamp for the drama. Haix, when can our school stop having such meaningless activities...

Zzz, bad flu arghhhh...why are my entries getting so short? o.o No inspiration liao, tsk tsk.

I'M. BORED. BORED. BORED.

Honestly i'm like super bored at home. I wanted to go library return book, due date's today =x But i'm like too lazy to go out. Slept at 3.30am this morning watching death note anime. Only to find that it stops at episode 3 in youtube. So have to find other means to find out what happens in part 2. You knw, i'm REALLY REALLY BORED. Gahhs, instead of doing expo essay like i should, i'm here complaining i'm bored xD Class chalet is on 28th, 29th and 30th nov! Yayness, like finally got the dates, tmr can tell the class aleady. Zzz.

我搞不懂那到底是什么意思...

Fly me to the moon
And let me play among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling kiss me

Fill my heart with song
And let me sing for evermore
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

This song is nice! Haha quite cute. I like the lyrics! So bored at home larh. Write letters! Stuck there very long already. 3 days left, oh god, how am i gonna finish writing so many...? Zzz, have to hiong on the last day meh...haix. Really very bored at home. Since louis is not online, nobody talking to me liaox. Gahhs.

.. I -.- -. .-- I ..- I .-. I - .... . I --- -. .-.. -.-- I .---- I .-- .... --- I -.-. .- -. I .-. . .- -.. I - .... .. ... I --. --- I .- -. -.. I ... - ..- -.. -.-- I .- -. -.. I -.. ..- -. I ... .-.. .- -.-. -.- !

Omg bad flu. Arghh.

So, after ang congratulated me over the phone yesterday, she came into class today, visibly pissed off at something which the cleanliness reps did not do. "SINYEE! Why didn't you clear up my table before i came in?!? This class chairperson useless one." -.- okay, my fault. So contradictory. Then later still say she very disappointed that this yearnone of us topped in any subj. Then she said "sinyee, last year you topped the level in a subj right, what happened this year?" Ya, this year got literature lorh...ya have arh...my fault lorh...zzz I also knw i did badly, but it's not i want one what. I tried already lorh. Then after scolding me she told the class that i received the best chairperson award and how impt i am because i blah blah...Ironic. Whatever larh, i knw i'm not totally such a good chairperson, but heck.

After school went to harbourfront cengtre with 7 other girls and had lunch before rushing back to school for ELDDS production. It was okay bah, some parts quite interesting. And i came back,
99 was damn cold. Wa that how i caught the flu? Zzz, dunno larh. So sian.

Sports day is cancelled!yayness!

Zzz...my headache is killing me =/

So today i went to watch death note. That lead guy is damn shuai can. Gahhs, too bad he turned into a bad guy larhs. And that L guy, haha, so cute. Always eating and eating. I'm anticipating part 2. Saw one big bunch of RV peple there watching also larhs. And halfway watching it i got this damn headache, until now still hurting. I keep rubbing my temples but it doesn't help. Got worse if anything. Arghh i didn't feel so terribly in pain before...

And ang called me just now. Scared the hell out of me larhs, i still thought what i do again. Then she told me i got the best chairperson award. Zzz...didn't expect to get. Haix, then she gave me a short lecture about how i must act in the last week of school and set my duties straight etc. And asked me what are my targets for next year. I don't have much targets...cca leader, i don't stand a chance larh.

My expo essay still haven't write...THIMUN on wednesday again..Zzzz. My headache! Arghhh. I'm feeling terrible...

People who go around spamming tagboards and insulting others in the process. They are just a bunch of people wanting attention. The more you react, the more pissed off you get, the happier they are to see you so agitated. So why bother? Leave their childish imbecile comments to themselves and they'll get tired and go off eventually. When they do an action, there would be a reaction. If there is no response whatsoever, the action will not continue much longer. People get tired after trying repeatedly without getting a response or any action in return. People do get tired. So leave it be, leave them to their own childish delusions and assumptions. It's all theirs to say, but yours to believe.

Learning fest sucked. Haix, don't want say liao. Yesterday chiong until like that, today become so... And i still wake up early to do. Plus chiong my THIMUN until 1am. slept 3 hrs, woke up at 4am continue chiong. You knw 2C should really be called 2Chiongster -.- So it's not exactly surprising i went home super drowsy and with a headache on the bus back. and i came back, flopped down to sleep.

Got back all my results, overall marks. Haix, history and geog hai si le wo ): 2 A2, 2 B4s, 2 C5s. Mr lee told me i got A1 for language arts, in the end i got A2. And he said he'll go check it out. Cool. Haix. Percentage >65% Die le lorh.

Tmr maybe going to watch death note bah, haven't asked. No $$ already. Everything spent on learning fest. Gahh. I don't knw why, feel super sian today, no mood to do anything. Was actually feeling quite dizzy when leaving school. Thank god there isn't any THIMUN meeting, i think i'll faint halfway.

其实是有一点失望. 那就是为什么我坚决不要抱有希望, 因为希望越高失望也越高. 我宁愿就像这样, 不知道反而更好吧. 其实还是放手会比较好过.

You knw what? I suddenly hate lijie, hate the teachers in charge of rvtt except lam wan, hate everybody who made this happened, namely, LIJIE.

I'M SORRY C'DIV JUNIORS! SENIOR DUI BU QI NI MEN!

I don't want to say much, cos nothing can be changed anymore. Targeting the defenceless sec 1 juniors. Despicable!

I got A1 for language arts and A2 for chinese =DDD But the rest, tsk...

I chionged learning fest stuff at jec with others until 9pm. Got home at 9.35pm and kenna scolded like amd. Wtf, i have sufficient reason to HATE learning fest like hell.

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I'm bored, so i ripped this from yuling's sis's blog. Hahas.

1)How old do you wish you were?
18, not too young or mature. Just the right age.

2)Where were you when 9.11 happened?
Er, i forgot =x I was only P3 larh for godness sake.

3)What do you do when vending machines steal your money
Press the coin return button like a maniac and walk away thinking how can i be so suay. Haha.

4)Do you consider yourself kind?
I can be if i want to. Some people don't deserve it bah, okay cut the crap. i'm pure devilish.

5)If you had to get a tatoo, where will it be?
I have no idea since i have no such thought at all.

6)If you could be fluent in other language, what would it be?
Haha! Japanese! xD

7)Do you know your neighbours?
Lol, of course.

8)What do you consider a vacation?
Long break from what i'm doing bah..

9)Do you follow your horoscope?
I'm ot someone who believes in horoscopes but sometimes, they're very true.

10)Would you move for the person you love?
It depends of course.

11)Are you touchy feely?
Uh, that's not anything close to describing me.

12)Do you believe that opposites attract?
Somehow...

13)Dream job?
Lawyer.

14)Favourite channel(s)?
Eh, i don't watch tv.

15)Favourite places to go on weekend
Stay at home and sleep until 2pm is the best xD

16)Shower or baths?
Ditto.

17)Do you paint your nails?-
No larh.

18)Do you trust people easily?
Sadly no. It takes alot for me to really trust a person. And there's approximately 2 person i trust in the world.

19)What are your phobias?
Ehh, i don't think i have any...

20)Do you want kids?
Thinking changes as we grow, leave this question to the future bah..

21)Do you keep a handwritten journal?
Yes, 2 and a half books i think. some thing just can't be wrtten in my blog. But i update my diary once every 200 years. So it's extremely outdated =x

22)Where would you rather be right now?
Considering it's 11.27pm now, i guess in bed sleeping?

23)Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
This is a HAHAHA question.

24)Heavy or light sleeper?
Super heavy. Even continous ringing of phone or vibration of hp beside my head can't wake me up.

25)Are you paraniod?
Depending on what things, i can be quite paranoid in some stuffs.

26)Are you impatient?
Of course, refer to some blog entries. I'm a super ji xing zi person.

27)Who can you relate to?
My counsellor! Haha.

28)How do you feel about interracial couples?
What's wrong with that? No one said there can't be love between races.

29)Have you been burned by love?
Haha, no, and not in the near future.

30)What's your favourite pick-up line?
I have no idea manx..

31)Whats your main ring tone on your handphone?
Stuck by Stacie Oricco.

32)What were you doing at midnight last night?
Hmm, lying on my bed with my earphones plugged in, probably to listening to one of Jay Chou's songs and drifting off to sleep. (it's a good way to waste your hp batt)

33) What did the last text on your cellphone say?
Chienying- "Hahax nvm, i will always be ur councillor, anyway it's not confirmed...Yah, so i may still stay mah." I just don't want to delete this msg because next time can use as some blackmailing material when chienying want to throw me to another counsellor xPp

34)Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Obviously it's mine.

35)What colour shirt are you wearing?
Pink

36)Most recent movie you watched?
It's very long ago le. Pirates of the carribean?

37)Name three things you have on all times?
The 8 pieces of thread the thai buddies tied on my wrist! I'll have to take the rest off when i go shower right?!

38)What colour are your bedsheets?
Er, green? I don't know =/

39)How much cash do you have on you right now?
Zero larh. Whoever keeps cash on themselves at home?

40)What's your favourite part of the chicken?
Haha, i don't know.

41)What's your favourite town/city?
Some europe country or australia. Wanted to go there since so young.

42)I can't wait till...?
O levels finish and my seniors can talk to me already, holidays to come, tournament next year!

43)What did you have for dinner last night?
Er, its takeaway..Chicken rice?

44)How tall are you barefoot?
Hahaha, i'm a very short 158 nia.

45)Do you own a gun?
sadly no, but i think it would be cool to have one. Blast my bro's head off. =x kiddin'

46) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Ehh, i dont know.

47)Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
Working in the society, i'll be 24 then.

48)Last thing you ate?
Chocolate cake. lol.

49)What songs do you sing in the shower?
I've grown out of that phase.

50)Last thing that made you laugh?
Watching my bro play some dumb game and i tickled him until he gave the comp to me =D

51)Worse injury you've ever had?
I generally stay out of accidents. But i guess when i was very young, got hit by a bike. Skin came off from a patch at the elbow. Ewww.

52)Does someone have a crush on you?
Er...this is a HAHAHA question. Therefore i shall no answer it =x

53)What's your favourite candy?
I prefer chocolates to candies (:

54)What song do you want played on your funeral?
Funeral song larh. Lol, play what modern song, anti-climax can.

55)Five random people to do this?
Maybe sylvia will want to do this? Haha, i don't know. Do it if you want to.

Okay, it's 11.53pm already! Go sleep already.

Replies to tags:
Genii> LOL, i ask you come and roar you hai lai zhen de?!? Hahas, interesting.

Kenny> Eh, how come suddenly tag me? Hahas, hello (:

Zhijun> Haha really? Lols, i thought he belonged to JJC?

Eugenia> Hahas, always play play don't update! Thanks for tagging anyway (:

Cherie> Haha, so enthu (: my belovedvedved juniorniornior! Heh, still waiting for that YIJUN to come and tag me. Hahas.

Chienying> I knw i always have that power...Hahas, tsk, don't so easy gan dong larh (:

Kwan> Haha sure, enjoying now bah, but like not much difference from before exams o.o Anyways, JIAYOU for your bio prac tmr! <3>

Today is sec 4 graduation ceremony. Don't know why, but i feel quite sad also. All my nice nice seniors leaving me already, haix, zhen de hen she bu de. I gave the 6 people my letters already, so you all think previous few post talking about classmates right...Haha, wrong larh. For all my beloved seniors. Really must thank them for guiding me along the way. To tessa, choonyen, kwanling, chienying, jason. Especially the 5 of you. My fortune to have you all (: And to louis, haha, thank god bah, last minute made me realise i had another really nice senior. I hope the letter don't gan dong you all too much, like kwanling, chienying and louis told me so. Must jiayou for O levels okay! Then can come and chat with me liaox (:

So why did i feel sad today? Not just because these 6 seniors are going to leave me, i actually felt like i was graduating myself today. All the other stuff didn't really stir up any feelings, but what really touched me was the slideshow which showed pictures of graduating classes and words of encouragement by teachers. Mdm Lam Wan wrote this: 致中四乒乓球员 有空回来看看! 乒乓球队永远需要你们! I was like WAHHH. Don't know why, felt very touched by this simple statement. I thought she didn't give a shit, but actually she is quite committed bah. And i was like, hey, what would we get when it's our turn to graduate?

When i was walking home, i had this weird thought. What would happen if i just died on the spot now? (cos i was er, walking on the road larh) =/ Then started to ask myself alot of questions, which i can't answer. Would anyone feel sad? What would the people think? What would they find out about me in my room, will they find my blog, my diary? Will they knw how i feel? Will my mum finally be relieved that i'm gone for good? See, i can't answer any of those questions. But maybe you can tell me. Haha. It's a weird thought, but interesting in a way. Then i realised i had so many things i wanted to do before i die. The list just goes on and on...

So PSI level was 130 this afternoon when i was on bus 99. And i went to get the strings for learning fest, and i went to the swing! Lol, i went and breathed in polluted air for about 20mins? Ha, i'm anticipating for my year graduation. I bet it would be damn good xD But there's still a long long way to go before we get there.

For now, worry about learning fest bah sinyee!

Don't cry when you have failed yourself, don't ever give yourself up. Pick yourself up and fight again, there's no end to the ups and downs in life. Don't give up, because 我会支持你的知道吗? 加油吧 (:

Hahaha, louis is such a nice senior! He's the only one who talked to me all day. That's really nice right? Haha, and for that, he deserve one nice long letter from me, he'll get it tmr. Anyway, in previous post i wasn't referring about classmats. So gk, relax. Write until hand pain. Haix, today so sian. But louis entertained me xD Haha.

"Anger, tears and sadness are only for those who have given up. I wont shed a tear. 'cause I hav not given up. Spiteful words can hurt my feelings but silence breaks my heart."

A junior realised this. I didn't. 3 days...i can't stand it but i can't do anything as well. Tears fell, hearts broken. So have i given up?

Haix...feeling so sian today. Really quite moodless. Always feel like using comp and come online. Come online already also nothing to do. Nobody to talk to, nobody talk with me, nothing to do and feel so sian. But i don't knw how i can still lag around the comp for a few hours. Although nobody talk to me, which is quite sad since i have 32 friends online right now and no one is giving me a shit.

Got 5 letters have to rush out by tmr. Haix, a bit sad come to think of it. So fast have to separate already, haven't even let you all knw how much i treasure and respect you all first. But then nvm, you all will knw tmr when you all get the letter. I feel quite fortunate at least, to have met the 5 of you, whom i think at least care about me. At first there was only 3, and then i saw 4, and now there's 5. Although some used different ways to show it, i knw you at least bother and i really really appreciate it. I'm not someone who believes in god, but at least must really thank fate that we met, and had guided me along the way in many areas. Haix, why must i feel so sad...?

And as time goes by, we all forget each other. When sadness had filled my heart now, 10 or 15 years down the road, will i even still remember you all? Maybe. Maybe not. Ahh, but there is a higher possibility that you all will forget me first. Everybody has their own life, everybody moves on. And since we are so different, nah, i don't believe i would remain in your memory stream much longer than 1 year or so. Sad but true.

Expo essay by tmr...Haix, moodless to do it..

I'm writing and writing. Letters to my classmates. 7 days left, I'm not sure whether i feel anything anymore. Why must this happen when we have only left with a few weeks together? I had wished we would leave without grudges, but apparently that is not the case. I do not understand. Maybe i don't want to. Writing those letters, i wonder what i'd say when i had got to you. There really isn't much i want to say anymore. I don't want to find our anything that had been left unsaid. I had wanted to say how much i had enjoyed being your friend, how everything had changed. That perhaps we all were to be blamed. But i guess, whatever i want to say is of no use. Even the memories which keep flooding back won't change a thing. We've seen through it all, this facade. Nothing ever changes, friends forever are a scam. No one is ever worth me trusting anymore.

7 days left...

Replies to tags!
Goh hua> Wah...took you long enough liaox. xD

Sze fan> Hahas it's not the end, but just that cannot go into good combination in year 3 only lorh..But thanks for trying to cheer me up, you're such a nice junior (:

Zhijun> Huh why? You say until like doubles with me very bad like that ): Ya must jiayou together le.

Yanran> Okay, you flooded enough. Haha, you won't get retained one larh, don't talk cock. Sec 1 results lousy nvm, sec 2 then must buck up.

Today is RV open house! Lol, and i was so damn bored there. I went to help out in the language arts department, but i guess i didn't really help much. People don't want to go to my station because the tablets at the opposite side of the room is definitely more appealing than papers telling the difference between similes and metaphors. Gahhs. So i keep going over to the table tennis side. Haha. And i actually answered a parent's questions for half and hour! Wah hardcore, keep asking and asking. Then i told them absolute truth. Not all the honeyed good things which are a facade =x and Mr lee said, "piao4 liang4, that's the way you should do it!" -.-

After that went to eat with youwei and junhao, then xw come. Then i saw shibin, stella, kahhan and dixon so i joined them xP. Haha, they watched a disgusting video on some girl eating shit for the ultimate fear factor, then dixon was super grossed out. Wah, people actually do this for money? O.o Dixon was damn grossed out and his expression is damn funny! They go watch it when they eating what, luckily i didn't watch.Then kahhan say come back still want to find it on youtube. Haha, don't need find liao, don't have. Because i find already =x

Then shibin they all went arcade. Cos i'm in school uniform so i went home. i took 99 back home. So stupid, i fell asleep and overshot my stop! Haha, i always will wake up before the stop one lorh, but accidents do happen xP. But luckily i can alight another stop, when the bus come out of the loop. So ya lorh, reached home at around 5.30..

&& must really thank some people for trying to cheer me up these few days. Been quite depressed and unhappy bah, because of results. Although you didn't manage to cheer me up, i appreciate your effort, thanks sylvia! And everyone else (:

Okay, i still have got 1 expository essay to write!

Is it because today is friday the 13th so my day was so fucking screwed up? Yes, i got back my chinese paper alright, but i'm like so damn disappointed in it. I really had high hopes in this paper, i thought maybe i can get 90 or something. I got an 89/110. I also don't want to say what had happened during the lesson, because whatever i say is no use. Everybody tells me i'm wrong, and so i'm wrong. Fine. You might have seen me anxiously flipping through my paper, counting my marks again and again and fighting for the marks. I really want my 90+ marks that much. My friend asked me why am i fighting for that half or one mark when i already got a 89. It's not fighting for that half or one mark you knw, i'm just fighting for what i think is right. I thought i would get the full marks if i had all the main points down, and i did. But my marks got deducted again and again because of one bloody extra sentence in the answer.

I knw 89 is not too bad a score, because my chang wen suo duan screwed me up. I failed it with 8.5 marks. But i really find it infuriating when they marked the paper so fucking strictly and ang are to tell me they mark this very leniently. 89 is unacceptable. I feel so wronged larh. Then obviously i won't smile when i found the paper done unsatisfactorily right. Then ang tell me i got bad attitude. She see me so unhappy, offer to help me fight for the marks. Hello, i'm not so stupid can. Whatever you say, they got some excuse to tell you that you're wrong. And that mdm tia came in and pointed her finger at yuling and said that unless we are sure we can fight the marks back, or we will get further penalised. So obviously i don't want to fight larh. Then she bloody insisted that she wanted to go find the teacher. And she said so much and made me cry.

I knw nothing will be changed. The paper come back she explain everything why i cannot get the marks all that. Wtf, everything is so unlogical and bullshit.

I just came back and told my mother what happen. she sided with ang. Fine, everybody says i'm wrong. Then she started going on about my attitude, how she knw i will surely give teacher a black face. Fuck larh, i bloody did not attitude her okay. You just can't expect me to smile when i don't like that mark on my paper larh. Then my father came back, she go and tell my father. Now even better, my father heard me debating with my mother from downstairs. Come back and scold me, say my attitude really very bad. My mother say i create so much trouble just for half a mark. But you knw, that's really not my point! It's not that half mark i want, what i need is a clear explanation of here i went wrong and not just some lousy remark that pass off as an explanation. And ang got the cheek to tell me to take it easy.

She insisted to help me fight for the answers so i told her which question. Then after that she come and find me. She explained everything and started to flip through my paper.

Ang: Hmm, this question, your answer not bad.
Me: But i only got 1.5 marks.
Ang: This question is 2 marks what.
Me: No, this question is 3 marks.
[Ang take out question paper, look at the score]
Ang: Oh, i asked the teacher le, she say that your this this this.....

Eh come on, i did not ask her to fight that question okay, so she asked what? I'm not even unhappy over that question in he first place larh! Obviously she just anyhow say something to cover up the mark that i lost larh. And she was there saying this sentene totally don't make sense what...And trampling all over me. Fine. Everything is my fault. And i don't know why i'm even crying for this.

I'm scamming comp lesson now :D I don't understand why mrs wong still wants to teach anything now larh. Anyway i also fail already. Oh, and did i say that i passed my overall science by a measly 1.5 marks? Yeah, pathetic, i knw. But sadly, i'm sorry that i'm born without a brain. Maybe i don't have to decide about subject combinations anymore, maybe RV doesn't want me. I can go to neighbourhood school and rot in their combinations there. Eh, who knws, i might top the school. Argh i'm seriously crushed. Later maybe getting back chinese paper, my only hope left. If i also do badly for that one arh, i dunno what to do liao. But i won't update my blog anymore cos i will go kill myself. Seriously.

I think my buddy thinks i'm like a super guailan person cos i fail every subject and i'm not listening to comp lesson. Sad case larh, i'm a bad girl can. Haix, actually when i got back my physics marks today i was very very near the verge of breaking down already, but i didn't because i said i won't. I passed it by a half mark.

Little miss pathetic face, maybe you knw now that you are not so welcomed after all.

So i have decided, double science and iterature AND history. i'm dropping major events in world history. Thanks chienying for your advice xD.

我也是人, 也会伤心难过.

但是你看不见, 因为我说过我不会为了这样而掉眼泪.
我也不想看到你沮丧的脸, 因为其实我也会难过.
有人曾经告诉我, 我很坚强, 为什么会令别人流泪的事, 我却可以忍下来.
为什么我不曾在你面前掉过眼泪. 为什么我总是可以嬉皮笑脸.
你真的这样认为吗... ?

不, 我不哭并不是应为眼泪是脆弱的象征.
其实我也忍得很辛苦, 你知道我为什么坚决不会在别人面前掉眼泪吗?
在你眼里,我真的有那么坚强吗? 我还要加装坚强多久
我感觉好像撑不下去了...

不过你还是不会看到我的眼泪.

Arghh i'm so messed up now. Crap! I still have not come to a conclusion after a whole period of discussing our subject combination with desmond lim. History or literature? Arghhh i really don't knw! Can some experienced pro come help me out here? If i just cannot decide in the end, then i'll take double science and double humanities. If not i can have an elective module. History or literature? I dunno =/

Wtf, i'm like bloody sianx over the stupid learning fest thing larh. Wtf are we supposed to learn from this stupid thing? First, they lose our class's proposal and now we have to redo a whole thing all over again because another class is using our idea. WTF. And i'm more du lan that i have to do every single fucking thing alone because nobody else gives this thing a damn. This bloody thing is seriously getting on my nerves. Couldn't somebody like please give me some ideas? I don't happen to be someone with that much ideas. Kns larh, this is after exam you knw!

I got my chem paper back today. Fucked up. Don't have to say anything more. Mr ong said i was careless and capable of better marks. I studied it for 3 weeks and i get this kind of fucked up results. Why don't i just go bang my head on the wall and die.

CCA is starting tmr. Hell, table tennis is probably the last thing on my mind now. Who still gives a damn larh. I have so many things to go and worry about, oh yeah, not forgetting dearest THIMUN, in which i appear to be the slackest in all 9, oh come on, find me a reason which a shouldn't die already.

This is going to be a long post. Don't say i didn't warned you.

I got back my maths paper 2 today. Not exactly well done, but i passed. Heard that the class clapped for me. Thanks, but well, that doesn't change the fact that my total for maths is still a 56. And i saw our CA marks today, incredibly disappointing. Only language arts, i got an unexpectable A1. My L1R4 was 15 which is crap. I really can't bear to hear people happily discussing about their 6 pointer L1R4 and trample all over me. I really had felt lousy at that time but i can't do anything. If i had a 6 pointer for my L1R4, i guess i would be like them too.
I must really thank Mr Loke. Although i only got 34 for paper 2, he had called my name, looked at me and said "Good" and he smiled. Not like last yr, i got 37 and the teacher moved his gaze from the paper to me and back again, seemingly not believing i could actually achieve such a mark. No matter whether Mr Loke really meant what he said, or it was a mere consolation, he made me feel better, and i'm thankful for it.

We had a talk in LT1 today about the subject combinations we are going to take up next year. Since my results are of suck crap quality, triple science no longer applies anymore. I was thinking of double science and take history and literature as elective subject. Or, double science, history as elective subject, and literature as elective module. So in second semester i can take major events in world history as elective module. But i'll decide when i get all my crappy results back.

Few days back, when i told my mum that i want to take the pure hist combination, my mum said this "History is useless if you want to be a lawyer next time. Why you fail your history and maths? Why you deproved so much? Failed history you still want to take history combination?" And so i told her, "RV doesn't offer us the study of law, sadly. What do you knw?" Which made me have this flashback. When i told her i topped the level in literature last year, she said this "Top literature this kind of useless subject got what use? Why you never top those subjects like maths or science?" However useless she thinks literature might be, i topped that subject. Which i don't think happens to be by chance. I chose history because of interest and literature because i'm good in it. So is there anything wrong with me wanting to take her so called "useless" subjects. Because very unfortunately, i happen to suck in subjects like maths, science and whatever others.

What a joke, ang voted me for best chairperson. Please, i knw she voted me for the sake of voting her own class chairperson. And as such, i so will not get the award. My name and "best chairperson" so do not come together unless it's accompanied by the words "joke" or "dream" Such a disgrace to 2C, sorry guys, we won't be able to get best chairperrson award like last year. It's not like you people don't knw how much i suck. Sad but true. Now i have got 2 expository essays waiting for me to do. I still don't knw what Mr lee sees in me, but i hope i don't disappoint another person who had hopes in me. And i have learning fest stuff to worry about. I don't knw what's the teachers' problems. Misplacing our class's proposal and i end up redoing everything. How fair. I don't care if our class gets any class prize for this. There's only 9 days left but i'm really worn out. I don't think this is a good idea of us learning anything at all. Sock it away man, i'm really tired.

Actually i just about had enough. Drop your emo act will you? It's seriously getting on my nerves. Why are you unable to give me a very simple and straightforward answer as to why you are crying so terribly? does it hurt you, make you so incredibly sad that you can't help but cry? You shook your head no, then what is it? I think it's just a fag you knw. I did not feel angry, disappointed or anything anymore. I just felt that this is ridiculously funny. Why are you crying for what you have done. I could have spat in your face and told you that you brought this upon yourself. I gave you my most sacarstic and harsh tones, but mind you, i can do more. And i don't think you are all that interested in having a taste. The decision is final. Don't you feel ashamed at all? The answers you hav gave me is nothing but just an excuse. Excuse of everything you have done. Ridiculously lousy excuses, even. Now it's settled, so get out of my face already. And stop giving me that pathetic face will you? I had enough.

Is this one of the times you felt like you actually need someone? I thought i had someone. More than one someone, not any random someone. So where are they now? Not here. Because no one really cares about me.

I can't fake it like i used to before. I really can't help but let the tears fall. The long held back tears finally fell today. Nobody knws that i actually cried in school today.

I'm posting for the third time today, but whatever. Matthias told me to do this weird quiz as quoted from him. Lols okay. So here goes:

Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head, three of which much be the opposite sex. After that, tag at least 5 people to do this.

1. Josephine
2. Ariel
3. Veron
4. Yeejin
5. Peiqi
6. Jieren
7. Chienying
8. Matthias
9. Esther
10. Zhijun!
11. Jenn :]

1. How did you meet 10? [Zhijun!]
Last year in River Valley High School in Table Tennis training (:

2. What would you do if you never met 2? [Ariel]
How come this question always tio Ariel one? LOL. If i never met her, i won't even think anything about what i would do right? But i would lose a good friend. Aww...sad xP

3. What would you do if 9 and 11 dated? [Esther & Jenn:]
I won't be very surprised since both of them were from girls' school xP. But they will have to know each other first. I'll let you know if anything between them happens (x

4. Do you like 7? [Chienying]
HAHAHA, of course of course. Best counsellor okay! No kid manx. xD

5. Would 5 and 6 make a good couple? [Peiqi & Jieren]
Too bad, jieren's taken! =x And they'll have to know each other first, if not age gap will have communication problems xP.

6. Describe 3. [Veron]
A girl with a very very good character. I wonder how she became friend to a heartless freak like me =x

7. Do you think 8 is attractive? [Matthias]
This is a HAHAHA question. Lol, of course, everyone is attractive in their own way. (:

8. Tell me something about 9. [Esther]
She lives in a kampung! Haha, i know where she really lives xP

9. Do you know any of 4's family? [Yeejin]
Yeah, i know her whole family. The 7 years of friendship is not for show only hor! (:

10. What is 5's favourite things? [Peiqi]
Er, table tennis and monKEY and other things go find out in her blog yourself. (;

11. What would you do if 10 confesses she likes you? [Zhijun!]
Another HAHAHA question. We're both straight [:

12. What language does 6 speak? [Jieren]
English, chinese and some alien language =x

13. Who is 9 going out with? [Esther]
Me! Haha, no larh, i don't think she's going out with anyone. She very zhen jing one okay! =D

14. How old is 8 now? [Matthias]
He is as ols as this question number. *points up* x)

15. When was the last time you talked to 1? [Josephine]
Online counted? Like few minutes ago larh. If not, then yesterday (:

16. What's 2's favourite band/singer? [Ariel]
I don't know...i only know she likes Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol! (:

17. Would you ever date 7? [Chienying]
What a HAHAHA question. He's like 17? Age gap, and of course not. xP

18. Would you ever date 11? [Jenn:]
We were married. So what do you think? Refer to question 11. (Read: I'm straight)

19. Have you ever seen 8 naked? [Matthias]
This is the stupidest HAHAHA question man. Obviously not larh right. LOL.

Ppl i tag: Whoever wants to do this HAHAHA quiz, go ahead.
This quiz is full of dumb HAHAHA questions. LOL.

Okay, changed a blogskin. It's supposed to be some singapore idol finalists pict, but ya cos i was so bored, i changed it. I changed EVERYTHING actually except the layout. Hope the designer wont come after me, but i did credit the person. I editted the photo we took during national day celebrations this yr into what you see now. Not my problem if you think it sucks okay xP

Spent quite some time to getting this right but i like this skin can. Haha. The picture has 33 people of 2c inside. Just left out Josephine then full house already. Ahh nvm, i just like this skin (:

I'm so damn bored =/

Didn't go for class lunch today cos only guys are going. Crap, now i know why the boys are truly more bonded than the girls. And it's a matter of fact. and i'm at home now feeling extremely bored like i-dunno-what. So i should sit down and write some stuff.

5 down, 29 more to go.

I knew today would be a bad day right from the moment i get up. Because i got up at 6.30am okay. Which normally i would already have reached school like in 10min time. But whatever, i reached today at 7.20am which is the latest time ever in my sec school life. Ohwell, so today was a bad day.

So i got back my maths paper 1 and history paper today. And i failed both. I'm gonna cut the emo crap. I shall just say, i had expected maths to fail all the way beause it seems like i had nv passed before. History, sort of didn't expect to fail, disappointed but i can't do anything except pretend like i don't care. Because my PRC buddy is beside me, what much choice do i have left?

What Mr Lee had told me, hopefully i really have what he sees in me. Although i highly doubt so. But Mr ong and Mr lee see the same thing, i dont knw what they see in me. But it's something. At least i knw im not that useless already.

I'll just continue to get back all my papers and pretend like it's not tearing me up inside, because i have got my buddy to take care of.

我不是坚强,只是已经麻木了,还有什么眼泪可流?

I CAN'T BELIEVE IM SO STUPID, I WANT TO CRY.

世界上再也找不到第二个和我一样笨的人 ):

I really can't believe i can make such a stupid mistake! In exams some more, now all my hopes are gone already. I'm fated to fail every single subject. Why am i so stupid?!?

Haix. Still got malay. Wtf, who still gives a damn to malay after EOYs. Not me.

I went out with jin today. But nth much. Mood spoilt already. I want to go and wallow in self-pity. I want to go and cry like nobody's business. Don't tell me it's already over, because you know i will still think.

I'm a stupid girl ):

``sinyee

Current PSI: 145

And that is so damn pissifying. Stupid haze, make me feel so damn sick. Indonesians want to burn, singapore noob kids also want to burn. Wtf. I see three noobshit kids burning tree twigs and whatever crap in the playground just now. Stupid ppl with no brains is it? See the goddamn haze so thick already still want to contribute to it. Teenagers already still cannot think for themselves, like how pathetic larhs. It's not like it's a measly small flame, they created a big fire can. Kns, wtf is this?

I went out for dinner today, supposedly in a happy mood. But wth, what kind of lousy dinner is that larh, i think even maggie mee taste better can. Then my father dunno why keep suan-ing me. Keep saying what good school got i this kind of student, RV student like this, RV students like that. Eh, what the fuck, RV students cannot be vulgar is it? RV students must be top studying freaks is it? I cannot be your fucking stupid daughter who just don't know how to study is it? I just must be super model student just because i'm in RV is it? If so, i'd rather not be in RV if i have to be fucking labelled "nerdy studying freak cum top student with perfect attitude" I'm not any fucking gangster like you thinks i am can? I may be vulgar, yes, but that doesnt make me any random gangster. Kns, keep saying RV this RV that, walao eh, you ask me go RV one leh. Kao so much also don't know what you want to be bu shuang about.

Going home, met with a damn procession. Some thipusam stuff. I'm not trying to be racist or what but that fucking procession held us up in the car for like 15min. Like crap larh. I'm already in such a pissed off mood still want to make me, being such a fucking impatient person, wait for so long. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with today.

[edit] HAHAHA MY MOTHER TOLD MY BRO TO ASK ME HOW TO COURT HIS CHARBOR! LOL[/edit]

``sinyee

Today was Chinese paper 2 and also, the last paper for our end of years exam. I did extra carefully for this paper, because i felt that now only up to chinese to salvage this situation. I spent about 20mins looking at the cloze passage, stuck at two questions, then i finally wrote down the answer, and hopefully they are correct. This resulting in me left with 15mins to complete the last comprehension. But with horrendous hndwriting i managed.

Everyone was very happy that exams finally over le bah...Somehow i feel it's one day closer to my dooms day, so don't really feel the joy of exam over, maybe just a little more light-hearted. Actually i just want to enjoy my weekend, so why can't we just get this over with? I'm truly very worn out after the exams. Where do i find the time and energy to go and bother about this kind of imbecile matters? Moreover, i don't see a point anymore, there's nothing more to be said, and of course, whatever the outcome, my answer would remain the same. My decision had actually wavered, and i don't believe a simple cloze passage for this chinese paper can make me have a change of mind for even a second. But i had let the cold mask take over, there's no need for extra sentiments.

I went home today, seemingly in a good enough mood to last the rest of the day. I went back to school for the lantern fest celebrations. I would say it's quite a letdown. The PRCs had put in effort, put they made the mistake of putting all the other PRC scholars in a group against us, the sec 2s who are like dirt compared to them. Some of the scholars sang quite well, honestly that's the only part i enjoyed in the whole celebration. Towards the end, everyone was invited to the canteen to eat mooncakes and we were actually supposed to go hold a bunch of lanterns and walk round the track like some 3 year-old kids. The few of us already feel very sian, my light-hearted attitude starting to wear out, and so we went home.

On the bus, the 4 of us sat separated because 97 was too packed. Then i thought about alot of things but they all revolve around the same thing. I was smsing guokai at that time, telling him i was in fact very woried about my results and the subject combination that i am able to take up. It's like there isn't much choices left i guess. I knw i won't do well for this end of years. But i have no idea why i felt stangely sad over this. Maybe i didn't really put in enough effort, maybe i didn't study enough, maybe it's because i seldom pay attention in class...maybe maybe... But it's already too late, i cannot do anything more about this exam. I asked myself, perhaps the first time i actually did, why i cannot do well. I studied for chemistry, since holidays, until the day the test paper was infront of me. I think that was like 3 weeks? Chemistry is not last minute revision but maybe i just put too much concentration in it. I didn't really study so much for physics but that was because we all had thought chemistry would be the major paper. We were not informed of the change in format, so i could say, we pretty much got pwned. I knw that by forgetting to bring my maths file to my grandma house to study is already a very big mistake. I felt that i could have at least done more if i had the maths file with me. But who to blame? It's all over isn't it? Up till the day the subject had been tested, I've been sitting in the library or at my grandma's house, sitting for straight hours, cramming those information in. But maybe the effort is still not enough.

I'm not someone whose tears fall easily, and more importantly, i never let others see them fall. I wonder what will my reaction be when i received back my chem paper, maybe failed, maybe a borderline pass, but nothing more, i'm sure. Will i be depressed the whole period or the whole day? Or would i just act indifferent and console myself that this is my best? Crying is not an option. Maybe i will only come back home, lock myself in my room, and cry my eyes out, but no, you won't see me doing that. I'm most disappointed in chem this time le bah, since i studied so hard for it, i really don't knw what i will do when i find that i had not done well at all. Throughout the whole 30mins bus ride, i was quite silent. Ariel, veron and yanyi kept talking about results. I had told them not to say anymore, but they continued, talking about what subject combination to take etc. Then veron asked me what i wanted, but i'm not sure i even qualify for anyone anymore. I told guokai, maybe it's okay that i don't take triple science, maybe i can take another combination now and still do well for sec 3. Yes, it's as easy as that, but no, i didn't say what i really feel . I had wanted to enter RV when i was in P4 and wanted to take triple science combination in P6. Having aspired for this for so long, i guess it really isn't as easy to take it like i don't care.

I told guokai, maybe i'm too used to be in the best class since primary school, and had totally forgotten that Xingnan and RV is in fact, very different. I still remember the first day i had stepped into RV, sec 1 registraion day, i found my name, number 20 in class 1C. I still remember i said "huh, class C arh..." But i had accepted that because i knw i might not be the best in RV and also, the third class is not all that bad. But now, a great fall, who to blame but myself, being so complacent, thinking that the triple science combination would always have a place for me. Well, i'm just damn wrong wasn't i? Actually i had just wanted to prove to my mother that i really did study. I admit that sometimes i really slack and whatever but it's like she has got selective sight, she only see me plahy comp but never before see me studying. I just want to be able to throw my report card in her face and say "there i told you i got study.." but obviously now, i'm unable to do that, and she will just go on and tell me she was damn right bout me not studying.

I knw you all are being concerned. But don't tell me that exams are over, don't think about results first...Exams are indeed over, but i will have to think about my results sometime. It doesn't really mean that i can go all crazy after the exams because there is still the results to survive. Of course, i knw i will survive, how many times have i managed to? Obviously, every time. It's just the grades, the percentage, the combination. Everything else that matters. I can't do much more to turn back time and do the exam all over again. There's nothing i can do at all actually.

I knw talking about all this is of no use now because the results will still remain the same no matter what i say. But my point is, i'm disappointed in myself. What a long post, i better stop now. Please don't come and try to console me because nothing will change whatever you say, and i'll have to face it somehow, so why not now? Unless you are quite sure i won't give you fucked up attitude, then come try me.

``sinyee

Language papers are finally not that damn morale-crushing. I have no idea how the hell i managed to finish the paper so fast, but it's like, I'm the first in the class to finish. Then i was like lagging the rest of the 45min away. But my reader's response i think sucks, barely cleared a page. Only about three-quarter page. Oh crap, maybe languages can still kill me. One more paper to freedom. I can't wait.

I really don't give a damn to whatever you want to say anymore. I'm just finding out for the sake of finding out. I won't even bother asking why you are doing this, your whole character is questionable to begin with. There's like no chance of me forgiving you, rot in hell bitch. And please stop trying to act like there's nothing wrong, because you know that i don't want to talk to you.

``sinyee

So, I'm back earlier than expected. I don't want to study already. Anyway, there isn't anything to study for languages. So let's see. I flunked history, chem and physics, and maths today. Maybe I'll flunk everything, languanges inclusive. Then I think can die le.

I can't believe I'm like so stupid to leave my maths file and maths set at home. So i didn't study for maths. Not much anyway. I just sat there from 8pm to 11.30pm staring at that piece of permutation worksheet infront of me, but nothing goes into my head. Nothing at all. I'm pretty much done for this time round, byebye to my triple science combi. I knew I couldn't make it. I knw i would never get what I really want. and just what is the point? I studied like crazy for the two sciences, in the end like hell, i didn't knw how to do like half of the questions in physics, but i think my chem might be ever worse. So much for even thinking about the triple science combi.

Maths paper 1 was complete ownage. I don't know like how many pro people managed to finish that damn paper. I was still at pg 4 out of 10 with 30min left. At 8.45 i decided to start from the back. But i still had questions blank. 17 marks gone just like that. Well, blame who? My brain refuses to process anything I've been trying to study so just forget it bah. I'm like feeling hell in the wrong state of mind. I don't know why everytime i do maths, I will have a headache. Seriously, maths causes headaches for me. Anyway at the end of paper 2, i feel damn screwed already. I didn't even bother to check those damn answers with 15 more min to go. I really don't care anymore. It's not like checking helps, I'm gonna fail it anyway.

So after school my head was like going to burst already. But i went jp with jin anyway, get her sis present. But i was like so sian diao my head is throbbing like some shit. Crap, i just feel like dropping dead. I might not even get promoted, but who cares, I'm as good as gone already. No use anymore. I'll just wait for my doom to come.

I dont knw how great is the disappointment when i screwed the science paper. No, disappointed is an understatement. I should say devastated. I totally did not expect this. Even my chem can't make it already. What to do? Well, what can i do? I see after maths paper today, everybody walk around, discussing the questions and i see all of them saying "die le, die le," with a goddamnit smile on their face while i sit in my seat and stare at my pencilcase. You all dont have to discuss any questions with me, because the probability of me getting it correct is like nil. so i guess i have a good reason to hate maths. I'm sure even those questions i did not leave blank, they are wrong as well.

So what can i do? And the last thing i want is to speak to you. Hell, couldn't you like see that I'm totally uninterested in anything that's coming from your mouth? So why can't you like leave me alone?

``sinyee

Whole of today was of craming history notes into my pea-sized brain. Last night, or is it this morning, i slept at 3am. I know abit siaoz but I'm sort of despotic already larhs. Today finished studying for history le, later gonna cram for physics, maybe tonight also sleep at 3am xP. No larh, I'm in the correct state of mind today. Sort of afraid I might not do so well after all these cramming. Oh crap, after reading chienying's entry i rather keep quiet about it.

Okay, so i was walking on the 6th floor, walking back home then i look up at my balcony window and saw all of them closed, and I'm damn happy. whole house to myself. Then i open the door and found that bastard of a brother sitting at he comp desk. Then i instantly sian diao. wtf, see him only i bu shuang already. Good, i go live at my grandma's house for the exam period then he dont need to see me, i also dont need to see his shitface.

So i was saying I'm gonna stay at my grandma's house for my exam period. For simple reason, No comp, No distraction. I can study properly larhs. Just me and my hp, and my grandma that is, but she doesnt really give a damn to what I'm doing larhs. so ya, good thing lorh. Then my parents say if I can get used to it there then i will long-term stay there. so close to school, can walk there liaox, i think half an hour walk. But then of course, will have internet connection there if i really staying larhs. Okay, so that means next time i exam must ask my grandma to keep the modem liaox.

Okay, I'm gonna cram my physics if i want to go in the triple sci combi..think about maths then i want to cry already. Ahh, who can help??

And can like a few kind souls pls volunteer to let me spam sms when i stay at my grandma's house? I dont want to die from boredom.

BYEBYE BLOGGY! SEE YOU ON 6TH/7TH OCT! (:

``sinyee