wahh..i pissed was i last nite. everything
like bu shuang me like that. my father
want me help him write letter. then
my junior refuse to stop talkin to me
on msn then he flare up and scold me.
wtf. them my mum ask me to help
her write the add on the envelope.
then she say my handwriting too
small and wadever. make me write
it over and over again. wtf. then i use
the comp halfway not responding
when im already feeling so fan.
i really really wanted to scream.
i need to let it all out before i go
mad. wads the prob larh.
i seriously think i got some prob.
always feel so weird and depressed.
wtf. and im like how pathetic.
nvm. this entry is filled with
random stuffs. how long has it
been since i last felt accomplished.
haix. like VERY LONG? i didnt think
i felt accomplished at all this yr.
im juz becoming more and more
mad. sometimes i really wonder wads
my purpose in life. you see arh.
im a typical example of a useless
person. my hw always nv hand in
on time, my projects all last
minute work, my exams all
flunk and blah blah...there isnt any
area that i seem to be good in.

i nv show this kinda face i always show
in school to my parents. the reason
being i can dun explain to my
friends but i HAVE TO explain to
my parents. so since i was feeling so
screwed last night, i juz gave my
father that face anyway and i juz refused
to say anything more. and they were the
ones who always say they understand
me the most. HOW WRONG.
they are the ones who are the
most unaware of wad im thinking.
how i feel etc. they nv bother
about how i feel or wadevr. they juz assume
they noe. like how HAHA. if
they noe then they will noe how to
juz get lost and leave me alone when
i show them that face and stop bugging
me. ya wad do i expect. they think
i lead a relaxed life can. they dun see
me struggling with myself during exams.
ALONE. mugging there like nobody's business
until wad time. they dun see it so they
think i dun needa study for the exams.
im like studying in my room and they
nv ever wlk past my room cos its like
the last room closest to the door.
and wad they assume. im using my
hp and sms and chatting in there.
wtf. they only see me use the comp
cos the comp is in the balcony larh rite.
they think i have no hw cos they dun see
me doing it in my room. they dun
think i have any reason to be tired
cos they dunno i wake up at 4am most days
to finish my hw. they dun think that
i am stressed at all juz because i nv
SHOW it to them. they think im very
relexed. yeahh how rite. wtf.
and wad they think of my slacking
bro? study very hard. cos they
ALWAYS walk past his room which
is like juz next to the kitchen.
then nv see him slacking around
and using the comp and playing
ps2. ya they think he is like how
hardworking cos he is 3rd in his class.
how to compare. he is 3rd with
FAILING SUBJ YOU NOE.
at least i dun have larh rite.
and wad kind of school is he in larh.
JURONGVILLE CAN. i go that school
you think i still third. i bet i every
yr top scholar can.wtf. how can compare
like that? tell him come my school and see if
he can get 3rd larh. you think get
3rd so easy in rv arh. at least
not for me larh. im stupid
mah cannot meh. wth. everything wanna
compare. when i get back my psle
score and im at least 40 marks more than
him not as if they got say anything larh
rite. wtf. its so wadever. why dun they see it.

--sinyee
and im full of hatred. for everything. everyone.