I got back all of my results today except
for language arts. Yes, i did very very
badly for all of them. I admit i did
last minute revision for this term
assesment, so i really deserve this
lousy numbers. But i studied very
hard for geography. I really did.
But all that hard work went down the
drain anyway since I'm so close to
failing...For one thing, i think everyone
agree with me that 1 hour is really
too short for papers like Maths, Physics
and Geography. The questions require alot
of procedures and it takes up a fair
bit of our time. I need to be justified.
We were given one whole long list of
topics to study for and in the end, all
the basics which no one bother to study
come out. I'm never going to go
by the lists ever again. Or at least, I'm
not going to do last minute work again.

So the day started off with physics. Of
course i already knew i didn't do too good.
BUT, i didn't know i did THIS badly.
I failed physics. 24/50. Just another
mark...Of course i felt...like shit. But
what can i do? Afterall, i feel that's
what i deserve. I didn't study properly
for it, so it's just my fault. Yes, it's
ME ME ME. I can't blame anyone or
anything. It's ME. My fault.

Chinese paper. My biggest disappointment.
i missed the A1 by 2 marks. I must
be really very careful doing the paper
then i can get my A1. Maybe you think
my mark is good. 37/50. I can't accept the
fact that i lost o a girl whose chinese
have always been weak. I can't bring myself
to accept this fact.

Geography. I won't say i felt very
disappointed. By the time the paper was given
back to us. My mood was already like
shit and i already have complete
xin li zhun bei i would just fail it.
I got the paper and i think i ought to
go knock myself on the wall. 21/50.
I passed by one pathetic mark. I
just tyco scraped past it.

Maths paper. I totally didnt have any hope
because my maths was always on the
50+ boundary. Im very prepared to
fail this as well. There isn't anymore moderation!
wtf. I could have got a B3 if the 10 marks
were added to my pathetic 57/100.
See, i just sucked so much.

Now just waiting for language arts.
I hope i don't do too badly. But even
so, i guess i deserved it too. Since i
never really took language arts seriously.
SORRY MR LEE.

Im really too disappointed by all these
close-to-failing marks. But i won't give
up YET. This is my first RVIP test. And
i must say i learnt to study WAY beforehand
and manage my time well. I need to revise
constantly already. The next test is in term 3.
I have enough time to prepare for it.
So i must jia you for the next test and
only put in hard work and hope for the best.
While others choose to brood
over the unsatisfactory results, we should
move on. And get those who were
disheartened to get back on their feet
and hang on. I hope everyone is not
too saddened by their test results because
you can't possibly do worse than me.
So we should all just move on and
jia you together. It will all be worth
it in the end. I believe it will.

SINYEE-