arghs my hp! now the screen is like a total blank.
as in total darkness. i cant see a shit! okay actually
you can see your face's reflection in that black
screen. lols. arghs. gonna get my k750i tmr. hopefully,
if nothing screws up that is. and now i will just have
yo make do with my father's panasonic hp. it's
not too bad larh but i have alot of files to transfer and stuff
which come to think of it, is pretty stupid cos im only
using that hp for a day =x ohwells.



lessons today was pretty slack. started off with chem.
i failed the chem quiz. oh for goodness sake. i failed
by half a mark. half a bloody mark! and i feel so
bad because i studied for it on mon and thurs and fri
morning before the test. i still failed. arghs sorry mr ong! x(



pe was fun. had netball game with 2F. i was GS=goal
shooter. very funny. just stand in that circle and wait for
ppl to pass ball to you and you shoot. but the sad thing
is, i just can't shoot! arghs im dumb. i can only catch larh.
i was all the way keep saying "i table tennis de ask me
shoot what shoot?!" i think next week i will beeither GA
or WA and jun hao shall be GS cos he is pro-er. but anyways,
we won 2F 3-0. our grp only larh. and zi lie sent this super
big force ball slam into my head. aww man..



and then lesson was drone drone drone on and finally it's
cca! lols. today hardcore training. i didn't slack for
more than 5min today. hahas! big accomplishment okay!
my forehand improved and backhand deprove. oh fck.
im despo to improve! i just kept trng and trng and trng
like crazy. cos i want to prove it to her, that im taking all
this very seriously and that i am training hard. for what i
want.



i was so frustrated with myself. me and jenn use to
play 100 backhand without stopping in less than 15min.
and today was a complete letdown. i so felt like giving up
everytime i see that ball go down the net, missed the ball,
flew out of the table, i so wanted to scream and shout and
scold myself. but i couldnt. i feel so helpless when this happens.
i was trng so hard but nth comes out of this. i will train hard
to get into team. i must get into team. and i will prove
that i can. im trng hard. there's more than just one reason.
to prove her wrong, to show im really serious about this
and to achieve my top wish. actually first and second.
and zhu mu is still not trng me! :f i think he has got smth
wrong.



when cca finally finished i was so tired i just fell asleep on
the bus 196. ohwells. i hope it's really like that cos then, i have
a higher chance. im aiming for it.



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