i woke up at 6 today. goddamn, if i didn't hear my bro
shutting the door, i wouldn't have woken up. because he
isn't even supposed to leave the house earlier than me.
the stupid bus have to take so long to come. met shibin on
the bus, and i reached school at 7.15am. i think it's
the latest i reached before.

due to the heavy and continuos rain, we did not put to use
our folk dance. what th heck, wasted several pe lessons with
tkc asking me to go get the class organised and stuff..haix.
but the celebrations were still great. concert band's dance
was damn entertaining larhs. all the performances were nice
at the least. especially mr ong's singing. i was like ohmygod-ing
there larh. and 2D's skit is super funny! i missed out the dance performance
which i have been hearing that it rocks for so long. cos
chairpersons have to go get that retarded half flower
half windmill and give to teacher. i look damn spastic can.
&& mr lee won the first prize!! whoots (:

mr lee bought us a cake, for no reason, really.
and we were cutting it after celebrations. and they wanted me to cut
it. so called "first blood" lol. but i have to rush and leave first.
sad. but must thank mr lee. the cake was damn nice (:

returned to xnps. damn chaotic inside. all the ex students.
hahas. met alot of friends. then met alot of teachers.
was really quite enjoyable. after that, we went to that
playground and crapped around. was super fun!! hahs.
i want some more! yayness. and when's the next time
we'll be back...hmm.

hols start already. im not looking forward to it at all. even
class outing doesnt seem like a good reason to be happy about.
it might not even work out, and it would be my fault.
for now, must really hardcore the hw. and the researches.
haix. stressed all over again.

oh and HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY ! (:

SINYEE-

damn rain kept us from sentosa today. meeting up
on sunday. we'll go. hope it doesnt rain again.
somehow i think it isnt gonna turn out the way i hoped
it to be. i thought it was working so well.
apparently im wrong then. i nv thought bout how others felt
about it. i was just being selfish enjoying myself. maybe
it's all my fault.

my holidays are gone for good.

a miracle happened today. i didnt get lower than 10 for
maths...and i still passed! wah kaoz. it's a real miracle.
but although it's just a scrape pass got improvement.
so must continue to jiayou. and my chem, can rmb morst
of the ionic charge and stuff bah. thanks to godlike gk
method (there, i mentioned your name again xP) so yeah,
im pretty determined to get my results straight. how hard
it is going to be, i have quite some idea..but im still gonna try.

trng was slack. only played for like 30min? played doubles.
me and jin against zhixuan and carmen. and we lost.
hell. i dun give a damn liao. hiolidays are gonna be so darn packed.

sian. i dun feel like blogging liao. i wanna sleep.

SINYEE-

im bored. not wishes as of studying. ): so i koped
this from josephine! =D
im copying her and writing what i first think of ppl
in 2 complicAted(:

1. Picture a classmate in your mind
2. List down the first things that you think of, related to him/her

#1 PoCheng- yushan and panyin O.o
#2 Xinyu- The ultimate hardcore fan of my blog? heh
#3 Esther- ah, wo de ai! xP hahas.
#4 Eugenia- supercute superfunny girl
#5 JiaHui- why she always look so stunned?? haha
#6 Lydia- Lydiaaaaaa!!! chao fun girl <33s>
#7 Yanyi- Superrrrr irritating person who's always late. lols.
#8 Jerrine- The ultimate tickler!
#9 Josephine- supercute superchio superfunnayy friend!
#10 Kaying- Violent larhs. x)
#11 Yushan- Sick in the mind and even more violent!
#12 Panyin- Innocence.
#13 Yingting- superfrank. i like!
#14 Shuhui- kick-ass knowledgeable xP
#15 Yuling- Xiaoming, Xiaohua2, Xiaohua1 (dun understand then ask :)
#16 Yimin- Chao insect phobia, super nocturnal funny attitude.
#17 Sherrie- Sicko girl hahas.
#18 Ariel- Gay but not quite gay x)
#19 Sinyee- ULTIMATE 19. no meaning xP
#20 Joanne- Super big human reaction time error. heh
#21 Veronica- lols, boosted siaz.
#22 Peishi- Queen of the Ultimate Gayness.
#23 Yvonne- lotsa funny and great ideas bank for you to dig out xP
#24 Guokai- GODLIKE chem pro, supercute choir boy =x
#25 Youwei- Gaia? hahas. and his lotsa crap.
#26 Jieren- always nv bring textbook, always nv do hw, always
heck care teacher, always dun give a shit, always borrow my things!
(wow, longest sia)
#27 Minzhang- "Too prim and proper" --Mr Rendy Lee.
#28 Chinhui- I would love to pound his face in.
#29 Junhao- Eat super slow, super contagious laugh and siao guy.
#30 Yunzheng- Hardcore AVA rep!
#31 Zhaowei- TOO responsible a dept O.O? likes to slack hahas.
and darn gao xiao.
#32 Wenrui- eh, dun like to help ppl de lorh xP
#33 Xuanwei- VICTOR WANG!
#34 Jiachen- Jiachen's shakin super-butt! lols.

damn funny can. jc's shakin super butt. hahs

SINYEE-

past one year of blogging. i missed my blog's birthday.
lols. august 18th i think. but nvm. happy birthday bloggie.
im turning lunatic. at 10 days past my blog's birthday,
i have 281 posts.

today wrote expository essay. writing bout how blogging
can improve your expression in essay writing. but it's
really the other way round. it's writing and reading that
gives me better expression in blogging. maybe. or maybe my
posts have been a truckload of crap. who knws? you
knw, and you and you and you. but i dont.

half done. im gonna get it done very soon. and fufill what i
had set out to do. i wont disappoint anyone on this. there's
no way i will because i set my heart out to do this. even if it
did take longer than i meant to, it would be done.

been very absorbed in books recently. fearless by francine
pascal. sometimes im so absorbed i just cant wait to get to
the end of the book. maybe that's why im reading at quite a fast rate.
maybe this is good, pick up from where i left off last time.
haven really touched books for some time. except for that shopaholic
series which i have thumbed thru countless times.
too engrossed. in other things. overlooked the how nice a book can be.
god im sounding like a downright nerd.

long day. downright goddamn long and boring day. two tests,
bunch of crap. maybe lang arts test wasnt that bad. history
graded assignment, in class again. minimal focal point.
maybe i'll just scrape a pas for this piece. .

tuned out. no longer listening. im just trying to achieve what i want.
and im really sick of you.

SINYEE-

i went to study in the lib again yesterday. this time
stayed 3 hrs there. finished my zuo wen and the mational
day speech thingy. i wrote 14 quarters for my zuo wen.
go count yourself how long is that. lols. then i went home.
in the evening, my family went out to eat with my grandma
and the maid. it must have been months since we last went
out for saturday dinners. the maid is so humourous. sad
that she will be sent back to the agency because my grandpa
is no longer here and she is no longer needed. haix.
maybe i'll go live with my grandma for the period during
EOYs. all the better, no comp, no distractions. and i can
study all day with my hp. maybe i'll do that.

i meant to do history in the lib today. somehow i didnt get
my usual seat (oh cos for so long i went there i have always sat
at the same table) then i didn't knw how to do history and i
didn't feel like hanging around there. so i just revised a bit
on chemical formula like gk asked me to. there i mentioned
your name again =p i hope it pays off larh.

i've planned out the day. im supposed to finish all chi
hw yesterday and i did. and today supposed to finish
history in the morning and revise on chem. i didn't finish
history but i will. and for now, to research for lang arts.
god, pls dun let me fail again tmr. pls pls pls.
and after that im gonna do history. then if got time im gonna
research for that tao ren yan de CID or for THIMUN.
of course i will have time. i have now until at least 11 at night.
of course i have the time, minus meal times. that's why
i have always said to my mum that meal times are really a
waste of time. to which she never failed to give me a
good scolding. she claims that i am always doing things in my
room which is even more waste time than meals. oh,
studying is waste time lorh. because the thing is, to her,
i never study. if she cant see means i dun study.
okay lorh. and the sad thing is my results dun prove that i
have been studying. but it isnt my fault, i DID study x(

well, off to do lang arts research le.

SINYEE-

haix..today took back chem test...i failed mr ong's
expectation which is at least 30 out of 50...haix.
i dunno what i can do, sorry mr ong. i really did study,
not the minimum like he said. i studied everything
but it just didn't pay off. i dun understand why, it isnt
my fault, or is it? i've really put in alot of effort, but i dare
not say my best. i guess the harder i study, the more i
want to do well, the more chance a mental block will
occur as it so frequently does. and then im equals to
failing. but thanks guokai for teaching me chemical formula
today. i knw im abit dumb xP there, i mentioned your name. =p

as im typing, my mum is talking to the vitagen auntie outside
the door. why am i mentioning this? because it's a wonder
they have talked for the past 15min. cos FIY, my mum
is anti-social can. oh they just stopped. okay back.

pe was folk dance as usual. nth much. then got computer.
also the same. proj given already. haix 3 weeks...hopefully
enough. i knw last yr give a damn long time one...then had lang
arts. was the same as well. having teston mon..haix. a bit
de...i dun want to fail yet another subj...chi lesson did zuo wen.
i write very lag cos i cant focus in class which means
the zuo wen will turn out to be rubbish. so bought it back to do.
wasted time mostly larh. mon is also chi test. only subj im
capable of doing well. so i MUST do well. very absolutely.

trng today is super slack. haix sian. we reached there and
had lunch until like 4. then played until like 5 then go outside
and slack liao. dunno why today keep feeling pissed cos i cant
play properly. so lazy...when iw as playing match with yeejin,
mr tan suddenly came and said whoeevr lost play with him. hell,
i dun want to play with him. in fact, NO ONE wanted to play
with him. lols. but jin lost but i pulled her away before mr tan
stpped talking to zhumu and realised the game had ended.
then, we slacked until 6 then go home.

tmr going lib to study again. if nnot for always having to spend
money when i go cos when i do work i just HAVE to munch
on smth, then it would be cost-effective thing to do every
weekend. cost-effective as in cost for your bus fare.

-zuo wen
-history comparison para
-chinese ws bout that national day speech
-CID
-THIMUN research
-& revise chem!

SINYEE-

today had math test......
i'm gonna f.a.i.l ........
haix. never a time not like this. immuned to failing
liaox. i think i will get lower than 10 out of 40 this
time. it's like a complete mental block during the test.
my mind was, well, blank. shit. im gone.

chem today was pretty fun. lotsa ammonia smelling.
i think mr ong was rather stunned when i told him
ammonia has no smell. =x nose block mah. whole day
very difficult to talk sia. then now cough also. 4 days
liao. and 1 week of flu. blahhh. sian. haix tmr get back
chem test...im gonna flunk again. i think i'm really shi
bai larh. like there is not a single subj i can pass.
haix. how to get into my perfect combi???

CID was =/ today. haix my grp teacher in charge is...
TKC. omg si le lorh. dunno why he must specially take our grp
dun take other grps. he just sort of freaks me out
larh. music rox. rent rox. okay it doesnt make sense to you
i guess..and historywas okay. i think history is getting
better and better now. i finally didnt fail an assignment.
still get full marks. got miracle.

sad larh. after end of yrs still got thimun to worry about.
a bit sian to think of. after end of yrs ppl go enjoy and
have fun and i'll be stuck doing thimun. haix. i always
miss the fun. nvm. thimun will be worth. i hope. i dun
want to drag my grp down. i should listen to natalie..

after school went to lot 1 with ying ting, veron and junhao.
dunno why he came along. actually going with veron and peishi
for our usual mini melts and spam nail polish and for today
spam neos. but nvm since peishi cant make it. we still had
fun. went to eat kfc and yt was like keep saying junhao
eat very slow until we all buay tahan. hahas. then we went to
spam nail polish. i bought one of it. (: today nv spam until so shuang
cos that person walked over and stare at us, normally
the ppl dun care. then nvm. we went walk walk
round the place. then we went to mini toons and bought
gummies. we look damn pathetic. cos all 4 of us low on cash
then after every ONE candy we put in, junhao will run over
and weigh it. just to gao xiao. hahas. then we sat around eatting
the gummies. and smth racist happened but i wont express here..
if you want to knw ask me personally. it's QUITE funny.

then me, junhao and veron took 172 back home. veron alighted after
a while. then me and junhao took back to boonlay.
then along the way passed by cemetry then junhao eep wanting
to take pict of the graves with his hp. a bit siao. hahas.
then reached home quite late. finished history. i'm
really gonna have to buck up or i can forget bout getting the
cmbi i want.

out of sight, out of mind.

SINYEE-

tmr is maths test. 101% fail. next mon got lang arts
and chinese test. argh.. today was thimun meeting with
the rep from IMF. most things went in one ear and out another.
i just dont understand. must hardcore research.
my sept holidays only left tuesday and sunday free le..*sobz*
arghh and after mid yrs mr tan says we are gonna charge
full speed into thimun. oh im doomed.

SINYEE-

she tried not thinking about it, but it's almost impossible.
she had friends, good friends. someone to hang around
with, someone she trusted so much. but how fragile
is this friendship, one backstabbed her and the rest
simply couldnt tolerate her. she didnt understand how it turned
to be like this, nobody bothered to explain. what she could do
was only guess in vain. she almost couldnt believe, such
a good friend could betray her. she couldnt believe, she
had hated the wrong person all the while.

she still smiles in school, because there's no reason not to.
maybe they cant see through her smiling front, maybe they
didnt bother to. she hugged her file closer, as if it could be
her shield. she tried to reason why it turned out like this,
but to no avail. she walked home alone, thinking back
on all that had happened. how could such a seemingly strong
friendship, shatter overnight. maybe it wasnt strong at all,
maybe the feeling had accumulated. but she didnt think
it'd come so fast though she had tried to breakaway.

as she walked in the darkness, she walked on so slowly.
there's really nothing she can do she had tried her best. if
they still could tolerate her, well, what good could she do?
her tears threatened to fall in the dark, no one could see
anyway. but she held them back, she want no tears to be shed.
she acted like she didnt care, but she knws she couldnt hold.
what's done cant be undone, what goes around comes around.

if she had not tried to reconcile with her enemy,
she wouldnt ever guess. her seemingly trusted friend
was really, just a fag. the silent enemy, she never
knew of. her friend had backstabbed her. her friend
didnt think she would find out. because she told the one
she hated. she never expected they would get along
and all the secrets would reveal. she had a doubt, should
she trust her enemy or her friend. she simply didnt
know.

all that's left of this. a bunch of lies and half-truths.
who can she really trust. well, no one.
that's the sad truth. face it. cos even your best friend can
betray you the next minute, you just nv know.
the problem is this, if you nv say what you are unhappy with,
she will nv knw. you cant exactly blame her for this, for smth she
didnt know..

alone...

okay. so the people who laughed at my hair today
got to the grand total of three. jun hao, jie ren and in a
most indirect way yuling. dont think by saying i look cute,
i dont get that you are trying to suan my hair. i
know okay =/ and i know those who didnt laugh are just
trying to be polite. ohwells.

folk dance today was okay. i paired with youwei. he is a funny
partner like jiachen. xD lols. we did everything okay.
and the worse thing that can happen happened to me.
tkc asked me to be his dance partner to demo to the
whole class. oh for goodness sake, couldn't he ask any other
random girl instead of me? ma de, i almost died already
when he touched my hand larh. god. i swear that is like
the most embarassing thing can.

and THIMUN comes crashing back today. i was given this
thick booklet which is the reports and resolutions of the first
THIMUN singapore conference. i so cant do this. die already.
shucks man. im not gonna have any question to ask, i wont
know everything i need to know before the meeting
with the IMF rep on wed. shit. im so dead. and the worse thing is,
there's no way out. absolutely nil.

history today was surprisingly okay. but i just hate doing
graded assignments in class. the level of concentration is
abysmal. god. no wonder i flunk everytime. okay that's
not exactly the point. im getting more and more like a loner.
last time i always like to study in a group, go out with ppl, eat with
others and the thing i totally hate is to be alone. but now,
i just adore every morning where i get to walk real slowly
to the bus stop, listening to my hp, and just relax. i hope
it's a long way to the bus stop. i like to be alone. maybe
that's what im getting at, ostracise myself. ohwells. i dunno.

after school i went home earlier. yeah cos im on a saving
spree now and im getting home early for my lunch cos
i didnt have break and my stomach was growling. hahas.
and so i came home and stuffed myself.

honestly i dunno what's the problem yet again. what's your
problem, what's my problem? there is no problem, so
what's the problem actually? ma de, i had enough already lorh.
always got problem or dun even have problem then
anyhow bu shuang me. just because i haven't showed my
temper doesnt mean i dont HAVE one. honestly, it's unfair
to me, and just cos i haven SAID anything, doesnt mean i dont know
what you want to do or i dont care. but sometimes you just
dont bother to explain anything, tell me anything or
basically give a shit. so fine, there's no point anymore.
dont tell me you want to hold. there's nth more to hold
and it should have fallen long ago.

if it's over let it go and
come tmr it will seem
so yesterday, so yesterday
im just a bird that's already flown away.
laugh it off let it go and
when you wake up it will seem
so yesterday, so yesterday
haven you heard that im gonna be okay.

izzit really so easy? arrarently not.

i think i need to psycho ppl into thinking my hair is okay and
not laugh tmr. argh i regret cutting it! BOOS =/ arghh.

have been hardcore-ing dance yesterday and today.
9.30 to 2 plus. and have been hardcore sneezing yesterday
and today. oh stupid, it's like the third time im having
some bloody flu in the past 2 months. gah. i lost my sense of
smell and macdonald's have become tastless. oh god. can die,
i feel super terrible. one side of my nose is permanently
block larhs

gonna hardcore thimun for the next week already, haix
maybe im not supposed to be involved in this de lorh.
you wont ever get anything done if you slack and always
rely on otghers for info. i think desmond lim has made a
wrong choice for choosing me and i made a wrong choice
of saying yes. but it's too late now and i cant back out.
i think i wont survive to the end of all this research amd rare
opportunities meant for the talented and the abled which i am not!
i dun deserve to be in thimun afterall.

and now i shall hardcore my zuo wen. the person i most jing pei
is lim bo seng! yay kang ri ying xiong! xP

[edit] even my fav dark chocolate is tasteless x( [/edit]

SINYEE-

okay. i cut my hair. and it looks kinda...weird. not
the fringe. the back. it just went shorter but it so
look like a paintbrush now. it just doesnt hang down properly
and its like a spurt of hair. hahas. ohwells whatever.
maybe i should have listened to my mum and cut until
dun needa tie cos it really looks awful now...why the hell my
mum dun allow me to layer my hair. it would look one hundred thousand
times better than now larh.

today was slack cos ong's lesson was relieve. and rendy's too.
we had class outing discussion. whoo damn fun. then only
lesson today is like chinese. then got zuo wen have to do..
tmr got dance and going to orchard with sherry..i think.
to get my bottle and hp pouch ! hahas okay.

cca was okay today too. i knew zhu mu wont train me.
and i have to do smth for jenn :D hey dun leave me with
her! actually i dun think she isnt much of a bitch anymore.
i sort of pity her that so many ppl including sinyee the
great one hates her. *blog reader grabs vomit bag* lols.
went around jp with jin, shibin and sherry after cca
i went looking around for nice converse bags with sherry
and looking for a bottle. i saw a nice LIME GREEN nike
bottle on a sec 1's table. hahas i like! hahas. ohwells.

SINYEE-

today's lessons were okay...first lesson was translation.
our first lesson with 2D. damn guailan larh. zw and desmond
were like competing who can command louder. lols.
its very funny larh. 2D ppl chao gao xiao..

chem test was like shit alrh. study de nv come out one
lorh. i think i will flunk. when i thought i would be quite
prepared larh. the questions are like cant be directly
get the ans from what you revised in noted like that.
damn shit. im doomed already larhs.

CID was pretty okay. kenna sabo-ed to be the leader again.
i thought i would only get sabotaged by ppl from my own class.
but what a rubbish way to elect a grp leader, they
point fingers and they all point me. wth. okay fine.
it's gonna be tight schedule. want die already.

sian manx. tests coming up. im big time doomed.

SINYEE-

tmr is chem test!! god..dunno whether can make it or not..
i finished studying the notes...reading thru the textbook
now..(im multitasking okay) lols. then also dunno whether
can pas or not..i really X10000 that i can pass with flying
colours this time. *cross fingers*

today was okay..lessons not too bad. lang arts getting
more and more interesting...and maths is okay today too.
hands-on is better i guess? haix. i finally finished copying
the punishments. hand pain xf arghs.

today after school went lib again to mug chem. stayed there until
like 6 and was feeling damn cold. hahas okay. go study
again liaox.

SINYEE-

i woke up at 4 today to redo the history assignment
which i failed... then i nv read the textbook chapter
that ang wants us to read..haix. who knws go to
school yang dun want to collect. wasted. the worst
thing is..today must be damn unlucky. draw lots, call
register number never ever call before 19 today
i kenna. then cos i nv read then cant answer ang's
question then now have to copy out 4 times the chapter
as punishments..also. zi ji huo gai...

haix..then dance very bad.. the other groups all did okay
then when it was our group's turn, last group somemore,
it was the worst and shortest and it's just terrible.
and it's my fault..sort of. haix. i didnt think it would be
so bad larh...

cca was okay but abit sian...cos sec 3s were not there!
jie was not there! x( haix. went to clementi with jin to
eat lunch before trng then met shibin, stella, carmen
and zhixuan there. they actually not going, but heard
that mr tan went a bit mad larhs so they decided to go
there and study for their common test. then me and jin went
to play as usual. miracle happened today, zhu mu actually
trained me..but i guess it's cos really too little ppl.
the sec 3s went home halfway. guess mr tan gave them
the permission. the place was awfully bare. 6 of us only.
awfully quiet. haix...my forehand feel is very weird now...
the way i have been holding my bat is wrong for forehand
so now have to get used to the correct way... after cca,
pearly and rousi went off and mr tan drove the rest of
us to dover mrt. so reached home quite early today..

and for now, intensive copying and revision...if not,
i will surely flunk. but it's not like i study will have difference...

[edit] and my whole arm from elbows up hurts like fck.
stupid tkc [/edit]

SINYEE-

haix. HSK test briefing is stupid. 2.5 hrs. i almost
died in LT4. somemore i in first row..stupid can.
and i was freezing cold in there. bloody larhs.
i didnt even knw that it would end so freakin late.
i didnt get to revise chem at all today okay. fck.
i reached home at like 7.30 cos they bloody released at
6. stupid. no mood to do hw already larhs.
i want to study alone...

pe was alright. did conditioning exercises today according
tkc. sian. crocodile skin on the knee..painful manx. chem
is so depressing. im gonna big time fail chem. and history..
hopeless case. i just keep failing. have to redo now. so what
she expect. i rushed that piece in 5min, i was at a funeral
for goodness sake. ohwells whatever.

and anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERRY & EMILY!

changed skin! pls give comments (:

i went to the frontier lib again today. finished writing
all 4 letters for the ppl. whoot. look at thos chao chio
letter paper and deco and imagining what their reactions
would be like when i give to them tmr is so fulfilling.
yayness im anticipating...

so i studied the first 2 chapts of notes for chem today.
tmr gonn jia you and study more! i dun care im gonna
do well this time. which come to think of it...maybe cant.
haix. ohwell but im still gonna study..maybe my
mugging mood's back. i said there must be the sec 3 cts then
can xP wahh later get killed by the sec 3s =x

next week's gonna be busy. trying to find time to slot in
a class meeting or more imptly, exco meeting. haix.
hopefully class outing will be successful. eh i dunno say
how many times liaox. okayy...since i already finished
hw i shall revise until 10 and go sleep! finally i can
sleep early (:

&& ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANYI !!

SINYEE-

studying alone is so the best way to finish hw fast
and concentrate. i didnt want to do hw at home
cos i knw i will only slack so i went to jp. i bought
me and my bro's pens and some coloured paper
and envelopes for those birthday letter i owe
ppl. hahas then i went to the frontier lib.
i finished my chang wen suo duan and the hist late
assignment there. okay which is everything
and sorted out the class outing plans. took me only about
2 hrs when at home it would be like 2 days. then
i went home. tmr can revise for chem test and write the
letters! i just realised just now that there is alot of things
to prepare for class outing. but nvm! we will manage. (:



SINYEE-

today wasnt such a good day. there wasn't much joy
to even mention about. i thought i haven been like this
quite some time, cos everything had been going so well...
2C bonded well like i wished it to be, 6E gathering a
successful one and i got my new hp and all...and ytd was
already a little off from pleasant..but i HOPE everything
is resolved huh? i really dont want to have to worry about
this larhs...



today's first lesson was chem..haix im in serious trouble!
i need chem help...anyone?? if not im seriously gonna flunk the
chem test next week...im all blure bout chemical formula..
and then mr ong told me to go to the board and write
down the chemical formula for aqueous ammonia and i was
like stumped. luckily ariel and mr ong got help me in the end.



then was netball again. i was GA= Goal Attacker this time.
i swopped with jun hao. then we played with our class another
team. we wont them 4-0. afterwards we were told to change
positions again then i became goal shooter again...and
my face kenna slammed by the ball again. this time was mz
i think..ohwells.



lang. arts lesson i was told to go somewhere else to do my
delayed-so-long summary test while everyone else
has the presentation on alternative worlds...i went to the
library as i couldnt think of anywhere else. omg larh i
was like feeling damn cold in the library cos i just came out
of comp lab 3. finished the summary test and stick around
to while away rest of the time. finally was time to go back, and
happy to do so too cos im freezing there larhs. then was chi
lesson. haix. i think ang damn bu shuang me already cos i
didnt finish her jian bao. i left one last para sia..and then
got the gong han. sian man.



cca was bloody...oh i dunno how to descibe it larhs. its so
infuriating can. we were like late by 30min. and then
me and jin went to play liao larh. waiting for all the
rest to come. we played and played there. and cos i didnt
eat breakfast and lunch, i went out with jin to have a break.
zhu mu actually came out and told us to go in. wtf larhs.
i think he is damn biased can. and then when sherry and zhijun
arrived like 1.5 hrs late, he trained them first. like wtf larh.
i totally cannot stand him already lorh. i train like fck but
he take it like he cannot see it. i train so hard for what?
he cannot see. he wont train me. what's the use?
it all just came round to nth. nth at all. he asked me why i
went out and didnt train. oh please. i train so hard got
what use? huh tell me larh. he dun give me a freakin damn
when all i wanted to do is improve! and get into the team!
is that alot to askfor? im trng hard for it but he doesnt
even care! it's not like i want to improve without putting in
effort. i train bloody hard during trngs okay. and so what?
he hasnt even asked to train me. i feel so hopeless can.
today i just forgot all about it. i feel so exhausted. i dun
want to hold anymore. trng so hard doesnt help me achieve
anything. my hard work has all gone down the drain.
damn him. i just want to scream at him. every trng i would
be hoping he would train me. train me train me. izzit
really so difficult? does he despise me to the extend
that he doesnt even want to train me? you knw, i just want
to improve and get into team. i m so sick and tired of thinking
that he doesnt have time to train me. in actual fact, he doesnt
give me a freaking damn. ohmygod, i really wonder what,
just WHAT am i working towards. getting into team? and
perhaps the blue insignias? i've put in my best but it still
doesnt work. actually it doesnt matter anymore whether i
get the insignias or not. all i want. really. all i ever want.
is to improve.



i cant help, i really cant help feeling unhappy over the fact
that im unable to improve under this circumstances.
cant he like just soend 30min out iof the 3 hrs of trng we have
to train me? train the pathetic and despo to improve me?
i dun see whats so difficult. everyone is improving but im
staying put. i want to go on but something's stopping
me. i really feel so helpess already. every trng now is like
a waste time session to me. however hard i train, he pretends
like he couldnt see. how do i keep my passion for rvtt up
like this? when it had came back and i had trained hard.
but nth comes back and maybe it will fade away...
couldnt he at least have given me a chance? to prove myself?
ohgod im gonna cry.
i just want to improve you knw. that's all i want.



SINYEE-

went for dance meeting today. some people come late
still dare give me that fcking attitude. honestly do
you knw that the whole group is unhappy with you?
i guess you couldn't care less either. come already still
dare get pissed at us. you think you got that rubbish
attitude i dun have izzit. your ideas are a bunch of crap
and you should be thankful that we didnt tell you straight
in the face larhs. still dare say we didnt do anything in
the time. for goodness sake, you weren't even here. and
it's not like you all did a hell lot without me ytd. OH PLEASE.
your attitude is bullshit larh. you being late is already in
the wrong and you want to come and get pissed. oh
sure bring it on man loser. im damn up to it.



after the fruitless dance meeting was class east out.
not too bad larhs. 16 ppl turned yup. for a non-school
day, it's not bad. so all of us had our usual "camp-out"
at the second floor of jec when suddenly this weird uncle
came and sat down behind our circle. which is damn creepy
cos the uncle looks like a standard cheekopek who keeps
stroking his chin. lols. then he stood up and left after a fair while.
and the boys thought maybe he wasnt human at all. cos he
disappeared behind a pillar. LOLS. ohwells.



after that theguys went to the arcade and me, ps, sherrie
and yingting went to the lib to do hw. sherrie joined her
friends there and cos we couldnt find a place we went back to jec.
yt went to arcade to see the guys while me and ps sat at the
usual place doing hw. i wanted to leave so went to arcade to
see what they playing. they were scamming the bball machine.
cos the ball just touch the metal rim then got score
so they just slam the ball at the rim. and the ball bounced out
damn hard and keep hitting people. hahas but its fun! a game
can benefit the 9 people there. and after lotsa tries our
class people finally broke the damn high score! the glorious
moment when we saw the score reach 836 breaking the
previous 807. then we were damn happy there. then some
asshole guy see we so happy he buay song so went there and
owned our score. oh fck :f but nvm. we took that glorious moment
of the screen with 836 on it with my phone! hahas.
and the tickets left over will go into our class time capsule.
and then...we went home xP



time to chiong hw now manx..



SINYEE-

stayed whole day at home today. did planning for
jian bao. haix damn sian. today is national day.
this yr's mood not like past years..feeling damn sianx.
tmr got dance prac and class eat out. think tmr
wont have so many ppl turn up bah..msg nv
get to alot of ppl. haix. my hp only can save 17
songs. pathetic. ask my father buy me another
memory stick xP. tired manx. update tmr.



SINYEE-

today is a damn good day i tell you. damn. very
DAMN good. xD hahas. i FINALLY got my hp todayy!!
whoots. my k750i here i come!! hahas okay.



today was national day celebration. stupid sia, i lost
my beloved bottle! If anyone of you all see a black
adidas bottle with a pink and white friendship strap
pls kindly return it to Toh Sin Yee of class 2c :D hahs
we started out with the uniformed groups march and the
usual boring stuff. then recite recollections. ditto. and
then we moved off to the hall for CCA leaders investiture.
yay peiqi is finally a double ring!! lols. congrats to peiqi
and kah han. heh i wonder...



after that was those skits put up by sec 1 and 2 classes.
kinda sad, cos we didnt get in. sec 1s were not bad, 1I with
their insane and cute aliens hahas. made them the winning class.
1L's dance was not bad also larhs. sec 2s de. 2K was the winner
but i think 2B did better. i still thik we could have got into
this..then we had community singing! 2C went uber mad
larhs. so fun. took picts and posted on class blog. we are
really getting more and more united and bonded. whoo!
i <333 2C!



after the assembly or whatever you call it, we all went to
the space outside the general office and took class photos!
the first one was damn guai lan cos yvonne and peishi on
the first row suddenly stood up and bloched ppl in the
middle on the second row. hahas. second time was great.
just great! then i had STEP photo taking but the photo is
in josephine's camera.



2C went for class eat out today! 26 out of 34 ppl went.
not too bad huh. and we gayed around there and the exco
grouped everyone up for the teambuilding. we purposely
put those ppl who hate each other together so they can
overcome the barrier and work together as a team. and we split
up all the cliques xP. WHAT. dun complain lorhs. my clique
also split up. just that im station master x) i hope everything
goes well on that day.



im waiting for my hp to finish charging so i can go exploreeeee!!!
hahahas. 2C you xing gan you look like whoo~!! this kinda cheering
put great stress on my already hurting throat zzz. 11 days and
counting...lols



today was also 6E class gathering. not bad le larhs. 15
ppl turned up. i had a nice long chat with eileen and kailin
today. relieving those days...and bitching about *.
hahas just damn fun. i hope we can have more gatherings!
cos its damn fun and everyone is so gao xiao!



SINYEE-

changed my blog song! :D i love yi yan wan nian!
argh stupid why am i still coughing like siao. 10
days already larh. blahh. today's exco meeting
was a success! whoot. the games we planned are like
so god damn fun and gross. well at least 2/5 is.
hahas supposedly exco secret worr..but i think
it would be fun. excited to even think about!
yayness!



pe was damn crazy. run 5 rounds. want us to sprint at the
long stretch and jog at recovery bend. gosh we all ran at
class speed. and it means lag. cos we are so united the class
even runs together. lols. then tan said all first round not
counted. and i was like wtf. so all of us split up already. i
ran with ariel ! :D was able to pace pretty okay. sian.



didnt finish shao nian wen zhai. short of one entry.
and was punished to stay back and do another. hell
larh. i one week away at funeral ask me how to do.
ma de. but i still nv hand in. tmr then hand in. heck.



tmr got 2C class eat out and 6E class gathering!
whoot so excited. haahs. damn gay. 2C is getting
more and more united! whee`` the candies ended
up all gone. hahas . hope class outing would be a success.



SINYEE-

i stayed the whole day at home today. and slacked.
haix so bored. cant wait for tuesday to come. half
day and going back for 6E gathering! but not everyone
can make it. in fact i think only little ppl will go. haix
always like this one.



tmr is coming and i will be giving out candies! hahs
and then got class exco meeting. sounds so big
right. but only a few ppl. lols. okay hopefully tmr will
be a good day. i still haven taken my summary test =x



SINYEE-

i feel like screaming. i just want to scream.
stupid man. this is so totally idiotic. i was so
happily thinking i can get my new hp today...
i waited for my parents to return home and only
to find that my father didn't get my hp again. i
so very feel like screaming at him. he just kept
delaying and delaying. and i have to use his stupid hp.
which takes me a million yrs to type out an sms
when normally i take a few secs. oh hell! i shall turn
off my hp until tuesday. nvm i shall ren some more.



today went out with josephine ((: so fun. initially went
to get her new wallet and for me to buy candies for 2C [:
met her at around 2.05 at orchard mrt. i was late xP
then we went to taka to have lunch. that place was so darn
packed. after that we went in search of her elle wallet.
and it turns out that the one she saw in the newspaper is
not nice at all larhs. 41 bucks somemore. then went to heeren.
saw this ozozo wallet in the wallet shop. we took a long time
deciding whether purple or pink was nicer. hahas she chose
purple . then it happened to be the last piece then she dun want.



then we went to plaza sing to take neos. whot was damn fun!
i like it larhs. but some pretty guailan. and then just got some
inconsiderate ppl stand outide and look in. keep lifting the curtain
and we feel so uneasy larh. come on will it hurt if you wait?
honestly our class ppl is addicted to neos. always spam.
so jos wanted another go and we did larhs. this time poses were
even funnier hahas. and it was already 5.30 when we finished.



then we rushed to suntec to get her wallet. then she went there
and found that it was last piece also. then after checking
thoroughly she just bought it. hahas. we spun around in carrefour
buying drinks and saying how slow the cashier is scanning etc.
hahas. then we rushed home.



i went to jp to get the candies for the class. bought 4 packs
of yupi gummies. yay [: monday give them!lols. im coughing
like crazy.



SINYEE-

arghs my hp! now the screen is like a total blank.
as in total darkness. i cant see a shit! okay actually
you can see your face's reflection in that black
screen. lols. arghs. gonna get my k750i tmr. hopefully,
if nothing screws up that is. and now i will just have
yo make do with my father's panasonic hp. it's
not too bad larh but i have alot of files to transfer and stuff
which come to think of it, is pretty stupid cos im only
using that hp for a day =x ohwells.



lessons today was pretty slack. started off with chem.
i failed the chem quiz. oh for goodness sake. i failed
by half a mark. half a bloody mark! and i feel so
bad because i studied for it on mon and thurs and fri
morning before the test. i still failed. arghs sorry mr ong! x(



pe was fun. had netball game with 2F. i was GS=goal
shooter. very funny. just stand in that circle and wait for
ppl to pass ball to you and you shoot. but the sad thing
is, i just can't shoot! arghs im dumb. i can only catch larh.
i was all the way keep saying "i table tennis de ask me
shoot what shoot?!" i think next week i will beeither GA
or WA and jun hao shall be GS cos he is pro-er. but anyways,
we won 2F 3-0. our grp only larh. and zi lie sent this super
big force ball slam into my head. aww man..



and then lesson was drone drone drone on and finally it's
cca! lols. today hardcore training. i didn't slack for
more than 5min today. hahas! big accomplishment okay!
my forehand improved and backhand deprove. oh fck.
im despo to improve! i just kept trng and trng and trng
like crazy. cos i want to prove it to her, that im taking all
this very seriously and that i am training hard. for what i
want.



i was so frustrated with myself. me and jenn use to
play 100 backhand without stopping in less than 15min.
and today was a complete letdown. i so felt like giving up
everytime i see that ball go down the net, missed the ball,
flew out of the table, i so wanted to scream and shout and
scold myself. but i couldnt. i feel so helpless when this happens.
i was trng so hard but nth comes out of this. i will train hard
to get into team. i must get into team. and i will prove
that i can. im trng hard. there's more than just one reason.
to prove her wrong, to show im really serious about this
and to achieve my top wish. actually first and second.
and zhu mu is still not trng me! :f i think he has got smth
wrong.



when cca finally finished i was so tired i just fell asleep on
the bus 196. ohwells. i hope it's really like that cos then, i have
a higher chance. im aiming for it.



SINYEE-

class outing! yay, going to sentosa in sptember
holidays for class outing! see the class enthu i very happy.
next is planning for it. hope to be successful...
everything is about class to me now.



i listened to every single lesson today cos im not
talking to jieren. lols. which is probably good anyway.
didnt really understand chem..cos i missed the first
lesson for the new topic. arhgs. im doomed. tests coming up.
was super tired during cid. cant help falling asleep.
at last, history today was a LITTLE better...
hahas. ohwells nth much.



SINYEE-

2C you xing gan you look like whoo~!!

i shouldnt even have doubted myself. doubted myy
class. i so love 2C. you all did great for skit!
third for teambuilding cheer! whoots! 2C improve le!
last yr top 5 to this yr third. im honestly superly
proud of all of you. who says our class is not united.
maybe you want to look again.

im happy, really happy today. yes, i cant always be
happy, but im happy today and thats it [:

SINYEE-

i ripped this off sylvia's blogg. finally it's my turn xP.



[x] hugged someone in school?
[ ] gotten a detention?
[ ]smoked in school?
[x] cried in school?
[x] made new friends?
Total: 3



[ ] watched a football (rugby?) game
[x] watched a soccer game
[ ] watched a baseball game
[x]watched a basketball game
Total: 2



[x] watched a tennis match
[ ] watched a softball game
[x] watched a track meet
[x] watched a netball game
[x] stood up for someone being made fun of
Total: 4



[x] broken up with someone during school?
[x] argued with a teacher?
[x] got a 100% on a test?
[x] walked to school
[x]drove to school / driven to school
Total:5



[x]got dropped off at school
[x] heard a rumor about yourself
[ ] gone to school under the influence?
[x] did something illegal at school?
[x] missed school when you weren't sick?
Total: 4



[x] failed a test
[ ] failed a class
[x] made up an excuse for homework not being done?
[x] the teacher believed your lame excuse?
[ ] crushed on a teacher?
Total: 3



[ ]hit on a teacher?
[x] hate a teacher?
[x] was involved with a sport?
[ ] on student council?
[x] in a club?
Total: 3



[x] got a scholarship?
[x] got an award?
[x] fallen asleep in school?
[ ] gotten into trouble for falling asleep in class ?
[x] had your phone go off in class?
Total: 4



[ ] had your phone taken away?
[x] lied to a teacher?
[x] laughed so hard you cried in class
[x] eaten lunch in the bathroom? school toilet, actually.
[x] missed a week of school or more at once
Total: 4



Do You/Did You/Will You?...
[x] enjoy school?
[x] excited for summer? (if there is)
[ ] taking summer school?
[ ] have a summer job?
[ ] going somewhere?
Total: 2



(Total score (34) multiplied by 2 = % of excitement in your school life)
68%. okay larh. my school life not very exciting de mah.
i love thursdays! cos they are special days! hahax.



im really alright. i've always been. let me vent it all out and
i will be okay all over again. it's no big deal. tight cash flow
this week. sorry 2C, i'll buy your candies next time. 5 for
guokai. although you still nv sit down. everyone have. even if
you nv sit down. hahas cant expect me to just give some then
dun give some right? so ya. yes i still rmb lorhs.



SINYEE-

haven updated for 4 days. quite a big gap for a hardcore
blogger like me i guess...ohwells. im feeling alot of things..
but not all can be disclosed...nvm. replies to tags first!



matt> ohwells...how good can life get? at least how good
my life get? not very larhs...but thanks for believing in me.



xinyu> hahas okay...maybe you dun think im lousy only
bah..



jonathan> yeah see? i told you im a lousy student. dun
believe me...



jaslin> yeah! banglas are hardcore pro can [:



sally> hahas okay tag more larh huh..



yingting> esta=esther? hahas...you dun think im lousy
arh...hmm. thanks alot [:



guokai> you can't cheer me up in anyway larh. im born
a pessimist what..honestly, dun needa worry...i will be
okay.



sylvia> thanks sista! why cannot be lousy...? lols [:



okay. so the cause for the lack of posts is cos i've been away
at my grandfather's funeral. he passed away on friday night.
im not exactly very sad...cos not very close with him larhs.
and then i was forced to cancel my plans on saturday, gardening
cip and class meeting for skit. so, im more pissed than sad.
yeah call me the heartless freak. and then my parents tols
me i have to miss school on mon, tue and wed. and i get more
pissed. i have the new zealand form and hapfa results to
hand in, both late. then went there only fold the incense
paper for very long and have some rituals. and then my
parents tell me i can go school on mon. so i went yesterday.
which made me feel more lousy actually. well, it's not impt.



the whole thing was basically just about going there and stone
or fold incense paper for hours until the time for the ritual
to start, last for 2 hrs and then fold or stone again. today
we went to cremate my grandfather's body. my aunt was
like standing beside me crying so terribly and calling my
grandfather that i felt like crying too. that kind of heart wrenching
calls..but i didnt cos im a heartless freak.



missed cca today. actually got time to rush there but my parents
dun allow..haix. and zhumu trained them again today. i
seriously think he has smth against me. i went for trngs and
he doesnt train me but today i nv go and he train jin and jenn
again. it's not the first time already. i feel like shit. im just
lousy larh right. even the coach thinks so. sure got alot of hw
now already. and im bloody tired. didnt sleep properly for
so many days. like only 3 or 4 hrs of sleep. tmr im going
back to school. but im unable to participate in the class
skit. still, hope all goes well for them. maybe i shouldnt go tmr
as well. then jieren will be chao happy. lols. i dun want
to miss out everything.



feel the tension rising. i dun want to hold anymore. but maybe
i still do. i want to. but everything is against me. it's so difficult
for me to believe that i can still fit in. im losing faith.
im falling behind. and i dun care cos it all doesnt matter
anymore. i feel that i cant trust anymore. i am a totally
superficial me. i dun want it this way.



SINYEE-