i hate my family and i mean what i say. i have
siblings who sucks like hell. and i have WONDERFUL
parents who dun understand me one fucking bit.



i have always set out for school at 5.55 am. for
5 months already. until today. my bro complain
to my mum that he will be locked out of school
if he go so early. and my father want me to go school
late now too. like what the fuck. his school
is in JURONG and my school is in COMMOMWEALTH.
very close hur. he go later and i will be LATE can.
i just said what i feel. he wanted me to go with
my bro cos he say very dangerous for me to go
alone in the morning. like what the fuck. i
just said whetehr my bro is there is no diff
cos i always walk faster than him. i just said i
dun like to go to school late. i just said wht i felt.
and he shouted at me in my face and said that i
am to sleep at 10 every night and give him my schedule everyday
then i can go out at 5.55. like WHAT THE FUCK.
he say he is helping me. how to help me by forcing
me to sleep when i haven finish hw. how to help
me? HUH? HOW? he doesnt understand me at all.
how will i knw what time i go home everyday.
i got alot of thigns to do. and mind you, he doesnt even
knw that I AM CHAIRP CAN.



tell me what kind of father is he larh. say arh.
help me. help what fuck. if he dun understand me then just fuck
off and dun say anything larh. i am not the stupid girl
he thinks i am. i am fucking independent enough
to go to the bus stop on my own for hell's sake.
if he just long to see me cry so much. well then, he succeeded.



for so many yrs i haven shed a single tear in front of
them and today, i flare up and i just cried.
i dun think i am in the wrong at all. and im fucking sick
and tired of keeping quiet everytime and let him do
whatever he wants. i am no longer going to keep quiet
about what i feel. i am no longer going to hold back
my tears. im not afraid of anything now. they have seen
me cry, seen me talk back. i have nothing to lose.
i wont ever keep quiet about it anymore. NO MORE.
i had enough. i said i dun tolerate anybody's nonsense.
not even if you are my father or whatever.
the cold war starts now.



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