3 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY.



Im disappointed. dun bother asking why
cos i wont tell. i haven told anyone, not anyone
at all. not you. if you could have seen my reaction,
heard my exasperation. If only...If just a small
little thing like this you didnt bother to do,
you've totally and completely let me down.
If only you have seen wad i have given up. But
of course you have not seen it, never will hear it.
Because my smile fools everyone. I have proved
you wrong. you are the one who has proved me wrong.
I could have seemed like a small thing to you,
but perhaps you should knw, even the smallest
things matters alot to me. If you have taken this
seriously enough, it was a priority to you, you wouldnt
have waited so long. If this had meant alot to you,
you wouldnt have disappointed me in the very
first place. But if you took this long to realise that
something was wrong, i guess you just dun knw me as
well as you thought. Im just disappointed, because
even you could let me down. you wont knw how i had felt
because its you, yes YOU im talking about here,
but you wouldnt knw. because i might seem perfectly
normal when i speak to you and once again, fool you.
you think that im ok. but maybe im not. you wouldnt knw.
because im normal in front of you. but im crumbling inside.
you wouldnt have seen or heard my tears cos i hid them so well.
nothing seems wrong when i talk to you. but then,
everything is wrong.



the pressure im feeling is driving me mad. soon,
i'll be like her one day. another 2 days. this
week is passing really slowly. i have no mood for
anything.pls dun ask anything. dun ask.



SINYEE-