8 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY.



suddenly, just suddenly, i feel like im being
crushed by all the work i have to do. today i
was confirmed into the THIMUN thing and
i think it marks the start of my really busy
period. dunno whether i will survive it. this
sounds even more intimidating than the step
camp. something that involves World Bank and
IMF. all the big shots coming in and talking to you.
and my mind did a fast forward and imagined
the time my grp were to present our report.
and i imagined wad a flop it would be. cos no
matter how always perfected my proj, they all
seem to have tons and tons of mistakes and imperfections.
quite alot of planning to do for the west m'sia
trip as well.he tells me there is not turning back.
did i make the wrong choice? i dunno.
maybe im just taking more than i could manage.



today's trng was hiong like hell. or izzit just cos im too
tired? i slept at 1.30am last night. lol. i think
i almost died during trng already. tmr still got
dance. haix. i think can die right now. do i really
look like i suffer from depression? god. i dun
suffer from any form of depression at all for hell's
sake. its bloody obvious. just a little, busy. CID
report hafta finish by next week. so many things to
finish by next week. next week is my birthday week.
and all this just ruins it all.



i think im gonna perspire blood soon.



sorry if im ap-ing any of you. im really damn
stressed and i dunno wad to do. =/ i really
dun mean wad i say. maybe you all cant see it. i
dun wish any of you to see it. im not weak, but
not strong enough. my smile fools everyone.




SINYEE-