haiix. today v.s nanhua. feel so not on form.
my ankle suddenly feel painful...dunno wad
prob. wahh then go there feel even more
stressed larh. jennings today oso not on form.
then i damn scared i keep saying i will lose the match.
ohwells. started training with lijie. was pretty
ok larh. i was damn scared already.
then zhijun play first singles. she oso very scared.
she won 3-2. then its like my turn. and im bloody scared
although pei qi told me i would win. i mean LIKE REAL.
didnt play with pei qi's sis. wadever. then me and jennings
won the first match. then dunno why second match
we lost. got screamed at by coach. and everyone
was like looking at me. i damn scared jennings will cry.

go back for third match, missed a few balls and
ended up losing again. this time coach shouted
at me very very loud. ME ONLY. i dunno why
he didnt scolde jen. cos she make fewer mistakes i guess.
then im like damn scared but i dun dare to tell jen
cos i scared i influence her. then this match we won.
so half fight. 2-2. damn-it last match i was soooo
scared like dunno wad i dun dare to do anything wrong
i already tot we will lose liao. then who noes.
we thrashed them 11-2. ohwells. then i went back to sit
down and started crying. i mean wadder hell. im so
scared and i dun dare to tell jen and im trying to act jian qiang.
thats alot for me to take lorh. so i cant help it and
broke down right there. i dun gie a damn anymore.
i won and thats it.

then went to the canteen to buy drink
the wadever school de teacher i/c come over and say
my coach.
" how can he be so fierce?" , " when the player is down,
he should encourage them", " he shouldnt scolde you all so fiercely."
and i told him with a smiling face. "he's juz nervous
too." and i was like so damn angry can. i mean, I AM
the one who got scolded, not HIM. so why he wanna come
sy anything when i didnt say anything? i told jennings "
wads his prob? i like being scolded cannot izzit?"
and not scolding the players like wad coach did when
they lost is wad he say. 'he should encourage them."
yea, and see wad happened? they encourage and THEY LOSE.
bloody. he have no damn right to say the way my
coach scolds me. its none of his business larh rite.

now its down to nanyang. we are already 2nd in west zone.
if we win nanyang, we get 1st. but lemme tell you.
its like almost impossible man. wells. i will still
try my best. (: anyway, my coach lemme scream at him after
the match to bu chang...haha

--sinyee
WE HAVE WON THE WAR!