I'm so bored out of my wits these few days. I realise for the past 2 or 3 days, i will have at least 2 entries per day. Maybe that's why im fast approaching my next hundredth entry. Actually had another entry last night but deleted it because contents of short posts out of boredom will be shallower than usual, so no point. Going to return the laptop to school tmr, if i can find bryan tan or desmond lim. Couldn't find the two of them today.

Had training today at 9am, damn early. Everyone was still in half-sleeping mode. xD Only five people turned up today. Me, jin, shibin, zhijun and zhixuan. Of course plus chyiwei and meiling. Today jiaolian trained my forehand. Keep making the same mistakes over and over again. I'm too rushed, must slow down. Slow dowwnnn sinyee! Lol. After that trained my backhand. Then asked me to kai qiu again. Argh, boredom! After some time then trained with him again together with the rest. Forehand got improve but must SLOW DOWN! Okay, i seriously need to jiayou to honour my position in the school team...Everyone else is ready except me and im trying to catch up... And i believe i will...eventually. After that played match and i paired with jiaolian 0.0 I tell you pair with him damn stressed one. Zzz but at least now i knw my mistakes.

After training went jp eat lunch then went walk walk round the place. I was looking for a nice bottle. Why don't they sell decently nice bottles in sports outlets anymore? All i see are the same designs over and over again with different colours. Different ugly colours, i might add. Went home and there, i found myself infront of the laptop again. When its gone tmr, i wonder how much more restless i'll be. And i don't understand why the hell my brother wants to blame the lousy comp out there on me. I didn't use it for one whole week or so. Except for going on to msn. So what's the problem? Truckload of bullshit from him, more like.

Have been really restless for this week after THIMUN. At least when it was still around, i had something to busy myself with. Now after it, i suddenly seem so free and im just..well, bored. Been talking to a few of my committee mates and Dept chair Hoon Kim last night. Yeah, they're all really nice people and i suddenly miss it so much i might have found myself ridiculous. Well the 'me' before the conference definitely will feel so. But i changed my mind after the conference which is not a bad thing at all. And i don't regret one bit.

On last count i have 204 contacts in my handphone address book. TWO HUNDRED AND FOUR. And as usual, i can't find anyone to chat with. Even more so with chienying and peiqi out of the country. Is that like sad or what? I have no mood to do any homework at all, i knw i will definitely not be able to finish before school ends. I tried doing it but just give up half way because i just feel so out of place these few days. The books i borrow seem to settle me. For a while at least. What i need is the laptop returned back to the school and my comp permanently spoiled or something. Okay, i knw i can't survive that...Haix.

I like sitting in my room until daylight turns dark. I don't want to turn on the lights. Like there's some comfort in the darkness. Just like now...all dark out with me and my thoughts in the room. I used to hide out in my room when i just got scolded real badly. Dark out. Lights out. Radio on with Tian Hui playing over and over again on my cd player as i cry silent tears. That's why i like Tian Hui so much. That's why i welcome darkness. Because in darkness then can those tears truly be concealed.

Why do i sound so emo? This post was not set out to be emo -.-

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart.
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart.