I'm blogging so late man. Just got back from outside with my parents and now im damn tired =/ Training for three consecuetive days already, but glad that i got improve. Actually from this week i only started hadcore training on thursday, then friday knw how to la qiu already, today also continue to train my forehand, so got improvement (:

Today woke up late. Because my hp alarm did not ring! And why did it not ring? I think some time in the night, it crashedddd all the wayyyyy down from my top deck of the double decker bed to the floor larh! =/ But Sony Ericsson phones are sturdy! My last phone also crashed alot of time before, never spoil. Okay my father drove me to school for extra training with zhijun. Then when i reached, saw that the chapel was locked and the hall was locked too! So while i was waiting for zhijun i walked past the general office. Then this guy came out and started questioning me 0.0

"Eh, girl. Why are you here for?"
CCA.
"What cca are you in?"
Table Tennis.
"Table tennis arh? Are you sure today table tennis got training?"
No, i came for training on my own.
"TRAINING ON YOUR OWN ARH! Cannot open up for you you knw!"

-Walks back into general office and shoutes-
"MDM LIM ARH!"

At that time i didn't knw what he was going to do. Then suddenly lkc walked out can 0.0 And started saying that i didn't inform the teacher incharge first. Then what happen nobody can take the responsibility, then cannot open up the hall just for us to train. Then what she knws we are very diligent in training (LOL) but they cannot open up the hall. What she is only here for duty. Fine i walk out of school. And while i waited for zhijun to reach, i remembered that jiao lian doesnt shut the latch of the windows in the chapel so we thought we could climb though and play 0.0 But then because we were afraid to get caught, we went ikea's burger king to eat breakfast and lag time.

We took 198 to the place and walked to the complex and saw shibin on the way. So we walked into that place with only two tables la. And saw jiao lian with fuhua people, zoe, amanda and chen hui and one guy i don't knw his name. After a while they left and we began playing. Jin came after a while. Trained forehand for warm-ups first then after train kai qiu qiang gong like that. My right shoulder still hurts larhh. We trained for about one hour only then jiao lian sat down and started telling us alot of things. Can't really say what he was saying here because for one, what he had said was damn long. And also, it's just rvtt business.

So nvm, after listening i just felt that we must really jiayou and show to the rest of the school and everyone else who think we are no kick. Show them that we have trained hard and are here to get something back. No, im not getting anything to honour the school. Hell, no im not. I'm out to get the trophy to honour my coach. Im disappointed that even the teachers in charge son't seem to see the situation. To think that tanlianseng actually knws we are close with jiao lian. What they are assuming is totally not the situation now can! I'm damn pissed at them for jumping to conclusions and putting jiao lian in such a difficult position. So i want to win that 2nd position back to honour how much effort jiao lian has put into training and correcting everything we did wrong at zhu mu's place. Why must i honour the school which gave us nil, nothing more than a training place and ugly jerseys which i rather go out and get better looking ones myself? Even the goddamn balls are not provided by the school larh right!

It's really the first time i saw jiao lian looking so distressed. It's the first time he's even willing to tell us what problems the school is giving him. No matter how much we fight for jiao lian will be non-existent. Because we are just nothing. And jiao lian is nothing to them too. Maybe they want to see what we will become when they have rid of jiao lian. Maybe only then they will see it totally that we only want jiao lian. If they want our 2nd, they'd better keep jiao lian. Or they can just forget about it bah.

The one who should go is not budging.
The one who should rightfully stay had been rid of his choice.
It's all fucked up.
There's no right nor there's wrong.
Everything they say is right.
Everything we say is wrong.
It's too twisted to even say anything at all.
So why am i even trying?