I'm in a very unstable state of mind now so the below contents are quite explicit, language-wise, and not meant for the faint-hearted. If you are not exactly a fan of my vulgarities, i suggest you get out of here now.

You knw, sometimes i wished there was no price to pay for murdering someone, because if it really was like this, my goddamn brother would have been dead by now. Wtf, i really cannot stand him okay. I see him se the comp for consecuetive 6 fucking hours then i told him at 8 i wanted this goddamn comp at 9.30pm. He let me wait until 10.30 still tell my mother its because he bu shuang so he dont want to give me. I had the impulse to go up behind him and pummel his goddamn face, but i knw i can't do that, he's practically double my size. I have the impulse to walk up and flick off the goddamn switch of the comp. But i didn't , i just stood up behind him, and i almost went mad behind there. Bloody hell, i wished i had no such brother.

And you, walao eh, i cannot stand you also. Bloody two-faced. One more time im gonna tell you to your face to fuck the hell off away from me and shut your ass up. It's not like i did anything to you, i dunno why the fuck you must say that of us. You are not exactly someone very perfect. I wont really mind if you are that kinda academically inclined, physically fit and mentally mature, excuse me, you are NONE of that, and most importantly, you are NO beauty queen, so please stop saying you think im very ugly because i knw that at least im better off than you. sometimes maybe you can go look yourself in the miirror and look into your own eyes and search your heart, if you happen to still have one, why the hell are you doing all this? And pls stop deluding yourself. I don't want to tell myself again that what you say dont hurt me. I know im not all that kind of superchio person, i know i told them i dont really care, but you cant deny those words hurt. Imagine i tell you that you are ugly, how the fuck will you feel? I figured i just about had enough of tolerating those bullshit you keep sprouting to me, I figured so you dont deserve my respect after all. So all you showed me was a scam. Sinyee does not tolerate rubbish of any kind from anyone, so pls fucking feel honoured i managed not to ask you to fuck off already. I really dont give a shit to anymore you want to say. I'm staying immuned, showing my long-hidden attitude. My incidentally big attitude, and i happen to know i am very good at giving ppl attitude. I really regret taking you as my friend, so much for that, we had all seen through your self-pity and your acts crying for fake sympathy. and thanks for one and a half yrs of friendship.
I really dont care anymore, make me rid of feelings.

``sinyee