A friday. Finally. Been looking forward to the weekends, this short week had been hectic and tiring. Sadly, im still not allowed to get my rest. Class CIP tmr from 8am till 1pm, though i don't mind this so much because it's 3H's CIP. Then there's chem test on monday which we only knw of today. I don't want to screw yet another one up. To top it all off, homework for this weekend came up to quite alot too, for me at least. All back logs my accumulated undone homework. =x

Had chinese test today. It's probably the hardest one i had ever taken in my RV life man, what the hell. It seriously needs alot of inference and reading in between the lines. But nvm, it's good training for history students! So now, can only wait and hope for a better grade in chinese. Last hope i have.

Had english formal letter test today as well. Nothing special, thought maybe can do quite well. Informal letter test got back, only 20/30. Hope this second letter can help pull up my marks a little too. Got my first assignment for the e-mag already. Not exactly got the assignment but told to brainstorm abit. But i shall not say what bah. Thought of some ideas and interviews i could do with some people. Hope it would be fun.

Physics speech today. Luckily i didn't get picked, because i did not prepare anything at all. =x I was time-keeper, rather stupid, keep raising my hand at the signal of each time interval. Some of the people who presented had fine speeches. Like yuhong, went up there loooking like he is going to faint. So called "preparing his heart" for the speech. But he did a good speech and we all knw it. Not bad, physics rep!

Training was slack. Kwanling and Shining came back to train with us! I was too damn tired to really train. After so long without training, the feel becomes weird again. Ah, shan't talk much about it. After training went to jec with zhijun and kwanling for dinner. Then reached home at 8.45pm.

And....RMUN is here! Ohmybloodygod. Decision making time again. So do i join this time, or do i not? It's during the June holidays man, the time is like so packed. I had fun in THIMUN last year, but the preparation process was torturous, really. I don't want to be like when i was in THIMUN, regretting my decision everytime. I really need to set things straight and discuss this properly with jaslin and jonathan. It starts on 29th may. Which is like 2 days after my birthday, i bet we'll be doing smth on that day too larh. Argh, dilemma.

Okay, i shall finish my SS reflections and hand it in tmr. Then im going to sleep!

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You knw, i really cannot stand people saying i am a irresponsible person when obviously im more responsible than the person who said it. I might not hand up homework on time, that is irresponsibility, but at the very least, i have the basic responsibility to go for appointments on time and stuff like that. I don't think that im perfect but i think i am at least responsible enough to hold a leadership position and do what is expected of me well. At least i bear the consequences of the things i do. This is called being responsible.

"Like you very responsible like that." Yes, i am not 100% responsible, but at the very least i knw that i am more responsible than you. Don't you even dare come and say that im not responsible if you're even thinking about ponning cip tmr okay. That is not called responsible. Don't use tired as an excuse, because you have no reason to be more tired than everyone else. Not like you got work, not like you stay back extra late for your class or cca. Everyone is as tired as you, don't think being tired is a reason to pon. You don't sleep as late as i do every night, you also don't wake up as early, how much more tired can you get?

I don't knw if you'll read this, but if you do, you knw very obviously that im talking about you. It's really not funny okay. Saying "Kiddin" after that sentence doesnt help. It already shows that you feel that way about me. It's really alright to say im irresponsible, ONLY if you are sure that you are more responsible than i am.

But yknw, if you were really that responsible, maybe you won't have kept me waiting nearly every single time, you wouldn't have overshot too much of your smses, you would have understood that actually being tired is not such a big deal at all.

Random people who pass by and offended by what i say, please don't try to act like a inference pro and start inferring what i have typed like a noob okay. If you knw nothing, you shut up and don't comment. This is only to you and you alone. Not like you don't knw im pissed with you for saying that. And you can go ahead and be pissed with me for saying all these. Because there really isn't a reason for you to be pissed at all. Because im every bit as responsible, if not more that you.

So who are you to say im irresponsible?