haix..today took back chem test...i failed mr ong's
expectation which is at least 30 out of 50...haix.
i dunno what i can do, sorry mr ong. i really did study,
not the minimum like he said. i studied everything
but it just didn't pay off. i dun understand why, it isnt
my fault, or is it? i've really put in alot of effort, but i dare
not say my best. i guess the harder i study, the more i
want to do well, the more chance a mental block will
occur as it so frequently does. and then im equals to
failing. but thanks guokai for teaching me chemical formula
today. i knw im abit dumb xP there, i mentioned your name. =p
as im typing, my mum is talking to the vitagen auntie outside
the door. why am i mentioning this? because it's a wonder
they have talked for the past 15min. cos FIY, my mum
is anti-social can. oh they just stopped. okay back.
pe was folk dance as usual. nth much. then got computer.
also the same. proj given already. haix 3 weeks...hopefully
enough. i knw last yr give a damn long time one...then had lang
arts. was the same as well. having teston mon..haix. a bit
de...i dun want to fail yet another subj...chi lesson did zuo wen.
i write very lag cos i cant focus in class which means
the zuo wen will turn out to be rubbish. so bought it back to do.
wasted time mostly larh. mon is also chi test. only subj im
capable of doing well. so i MUST do well. very absolutely.
trng today is super slack. haix sian. we reached there and
had lunch until like 4. then played until like 5 then go outside
and slack liao. dunno why today keep feeling pissed cos i cant
play properly. so lazy...when iw as playing match with yeejin,
mr tan suddenly came and said whoeevr lost play with him. hell,
i dun want to play with him. in fact, NO ONE wanted to play
with him. lols. but jin lost but i pulled her away before mr tan
stpped talking to zhumu and realised the game had ended.
then, we slacked until 6 then go home.
tmr going lib to study again. if nnot for always having to spend
money when i go cos when i do work i just HAVE to munch
on smth, then it would be cost-effective thing to do every
weekend. cost-effective as in cost for your bus fare.
-zuo wen
-history comparison para
-chinese ws bout that national day speech
-CID
-THIMUN research
-& revise chem!
SINYEE-
Friday, August 25
Thursday, August 24
today had math test......
i'm gonna f.a.i.l ........
haix. never a time not like this. immuned to failing
liaox. i think i will get lower than 10 out of 40 this
time. it's like a complete mental block during the test.
my mind was, well, blank. shit. im gone.
chem today was pretty fun. lotsa ammonia smelling.
i think mr ong was rather stunned when i told him
ammonia has no smell. =x nose block mah. whole day
very difficult to talk sia. then now cough also. 4 days
liao. and 1 week of flu. blahhh. sian. haix tmr get back
chem test...im gonna flunk again. i think i'm really shi
bai larh. like there is not a single subj i can pass.
haix. how to get into my perfect combi???
CID was =/ today. haix my grp teacher in charge is...
TKC. omg si le lorh. dunno why he must specially take our grp
dun take other grps. he just sort of freaks me out
larh. music rox. rent rox. okay it doesnt make sense to you
i guess..and historywas okay. i think history is getting
better and better now. i finally didnt fail an assignment.
still get full marks. got miracle.
sad larh. after end of yrs still got thimun to worry about.
a bit sian to think of. after end of yrs ppl go enjoy and
have fun and i'll be stuck doing thimun. haix. i always
miss the fun. nvm. thimun will be worth. i hope. i dun
want to drag my grp down. i should listen to natalie..
after school went to lot 1 with ying ting, veron and junhao.
dunno why he came along. actually going with veron and peishi
for our usual mini melts and spam nail polish and for today
spam neos. but nvm since peishi cant make it. we still had
fun. went to eat kfc and yt was like keep saying junhao
eat very slow until we all buay tahan. hahas. then we went to
spam nail polish. i bought one of it. (: today nv spam until so shuang
cos that person walked over and stare at us, normally
the ppl dun care. then nvm. we went walk walk
round the place. then we went to mini toons and bought
gummies. we look damn pathetic. cos all 4 of us low on cash
then after every ONE candy we put in, junhao will run over
and weigh it. just to gao xiao. hahas. then we sat around eatting
the gummies. and smth racist happened but i wont express here..
if you want to knw ask me personally. it's QUITE funny.
then me, junhao and veron took 172 back home. veron alighted after
a while. then me and junhao took back to boonlay.
then along the way passed by cemetry then junhao eep wanting
to take pict of the graves with his hp. a bit siao. hahas.
then reached home quite late. finished history. i'm
really gonna have to buck up or i can forget bout getting the
cmbi i want.
out of sight, out of mind.
SINYEE-
i'm gonna f.a.i.l ........
haix. never a time not like this. immuned to failing
liaox. i think i will get lower than 10 out of 40 this
time. it's like a complete mental block during the test.
my mind was, well, blank. shit. im gone.
chem today was pretty fun. lotsa ammonia smelling.
i think mr ong was rather stunned when i told him
ammonia has no smell. =x nose block mah. whole day
very difficult to talk sia. then now cough also. 4 days
liao. and 1 week of flu. blahhh. sian. haix tmr get back
chem test...im gonna flunk again. i think i'm really shi
bai larh. like there is not a single subj i can pass.
haix. how to get into my perfect combi???
CID was =/ today. haix my grp teacher in charge is...
TKC. omg si le lorh. dunno why he must specially take our grp
dun take other grps. he just sort of freaks me out
larh. music rox. rent rox. okay it doesnt make sense to you
i guess..and historywas okay. i think history is getting
better and better now. i finally didnt fail an assignment.
still get full marks. got miracle.
sad larh. after end of yrs still got thimun to worry about.
a bit sian to think of. after end of yrs ppl go enjoy and
have fun and i'll be stuck doing thimun. haix. i always
miss the fun. nvm. thimun will be worth. i hope. i dun
want to drag my grp down. i should listen to natalie..
after school went to lot 1 with ying ting, veron and junhao.
dunno why he came along. actually going with veron and peishi
for our usual mini melts and spam nail polish and for today
spam neos. but nvm since peishi cant make it. we still had
fun. went to eat kfc and yt was like keep saying junhao
eat very slow until we all buay tahan. hahas. then we went to
spam nail polish. i bought one of it. (: today nv spam until so shuang
cos that person walked over and stare at us, normally
the ppl dun care. then nvm. we went walk walk
round the place. then we went to mini toons and bought
gummies. we look damn pathetic. cos all 4 of us low on cash
then after every ONE candy we put in, junhao will run over
and weigh it. just to gao xiao. hahas. then we sat around eatting
the gummies. and smth racist happened but i wont express here..
if you want to knw ask me personally. it's QUITE funny.
then me, junhao and veron took 172 back home. veron alighted after
a while. then me and junhao took back to boonlay.
then along the way passed by cemetry then junhao eep wanting
to take pict of the graves with his hp. a bit siao. hahas.
then reached home quite late. finished history. i'm
really gonna have to buck up or i can forget bout getting the
cmbi i want.
out of sight, out of mind.
SINYEE-
Wednesday, August 23
tmr is maths test. 101% fail. next mon got lang arts
and chinese test. argh.. today was thimun meeting with
the rep from IMF. most things went in one ear and out another.
i just dont understand. must hardcore research.
my sept holidays only left tuesday and sunday free le..*sobz*
arghh and after mid yrs mr tan says we are gonna charge
full speed into thimun. oh im doomed.
SINYEE-
and chinese test. argh.. today was thimun meeting with
the rep from IMF. most things went in one ear and out another.
i just dont understand. must hardcore research.
my sept holidays only left tuesday and sunday free le..*sobz*
arghh and after mid yrs mr tan says we are gonna charge
full speed into thimun. oh im doomed.
SINYEE-
Tuesday, August 22
she tried not thinking about it, but it's almost impossible.
she had friends, good friends. someone to hang around
with, someone she trusted so much. but how fragile
is this friendship, one backstabbed her and the rest
simply couldnt tolerate her. she didnt understand how it turned
to be like this, nobody bothered to explain. what she could do
was only guess in vain. she almost couldnt believe, such
a good friend could betray her. she couldnt believe, she
had hated the wrong person all the while.
she still smiles in school, because there's no reason not to.
maybe they cant see through her smiling front, maybe they
didnt bother to. she hugged her file closer, as if it could be
her shield. she tried to reason why it turned out like this,
but to no avail. she walked home alone, thinking back
on all that had happened. how could such a seemingly strong
friendship, shatter overnight. maybe it wasnt strong at all,
maybe the feeling had accumulated. but she didnt think
it'd come so fast though she had tried to breakaway.
as she walked in the darkness, she walked on so slowly.
there's really nothing she can do she had tried her best. if
they still could tolerate her, well, what good could she do?
her tears threatened to fall in the dark, no one could see
anyway. but she held them back, she want no tears to be shed.
she acted like she didnt care, but she knws she couldnt hold.
what's done cant be undone, what goes around comes around.
if she had not tried to reconcile with her enemy,
she wouldnt ever guess. her seemingly trusted friend
was really, just a fag. the silent enemy, she never
knew of. her friend had backstabbed her. her friend
didnt think she would find out. because she told the one
she hated. she never expected they would get along
and all the secrets would reveal. she had a doubt, should
she trust her enemy or her friend. she simply didnt
know.
all that's left of this. a bunch of lies and half-truths.
who can she really trust. well, no one.
that's the sad truth. face it. cos even your best friend can
betray you the next minute, you just nv know.
the problem is this, if you nv say what you are unhappy with,
she will nv knw. you cant exactly blame her for this, for smth she
didnt know..
she had friends, good friends. someone to hang around
with, someone she trusted so much. but how fragile
is this friendship, one backstabbed her and the rest
simply couldnt tolerate her. she didnt understand how it turned
to be like this, nobody bothered to explain. what she could do
was only guess in vain. she almost couldnt believe, such
a good friend could betray her. she couldnt believe, she
had hated the wrong person all the while.
she still smiles in school, because there's no reason not to.
maybe they cant see through her smiling front, maybe they
didnt bother to. she hugged her file closer, as if it could be
her shield. she tried to reason why it turned out like this,
but to no avail. she walked home alone, thinking back
on all that had happened. how could such a seemingly strong
friendship, shatter overnight. maybe it wasnt strong at all,
maybe the feeling had accumulated. but she didnt think
it'd come so fast though she had tried to breakaway.
as she walked in the darkness, she walked on so slowly.
there's really nothing she can do she had tried her best. if
they still could tolerate her, well, what good could she do?
her tears threatened to fall in the dark, no one could see
anyway. but she held them back, she want no tears to be shed.
she acted like she didnt care, but she knws she couldnt hold.
what's done cant be undone, what goes around comes around.
if she had not tried to reconcile with her enemy,
she wouldnt ever guess. her seemingly trusted friend
was really, just a fag. the silent enemy, she never
knew of. her friend had backstabbed her. her friend
didnt think she would find out. because she told the one
she hated. she never expected they would get along
and all the secrets would reveal. she had a doubt, should
she trust her enemy or her friend. she simply didnt
know.
all that's left of this. a bunch of lies and half-truths.
who can she really trust. well, no one.
that's the sad truth. face it. cos even your best friend can
betray you the next minute, you just nv know.
the problem is this, if you nv say what you are unhappy with,
she will nv knw. you cant exactly blame her for this, for smth she
didnt know..
Monday, August 21
alone...
okay. so the people who laughed at my hair today
got to the grand total of three. jun hao, jie ren and in a
most indirect way yuling. dont think by saying i look cute,
i dont get that you are trying to suan my hair. i
know okay =/ and i know those who didnt laugh are just
trying to be polite. ohwells.
folk dance today was okay. i paired with youwei. he is a funny
partner like jiachen. xD lols. we did everything okay.
and the worse thing that can happen happened to me.
tkc asked me to be his dance partner to demo to the
whole class. oh for goodness sake, couldn't he ask any other
random girl instead of me? ma de, i almost died already
when he touched my hand larh. god. i swear that is like
the most embarassing thing can.
and THIMUN comes crashing back today. i was given this
thick booklet which is the reports and resolutions of the first
THIMUN singapore conference. i so cant do this. die already.
shucks man. im not gonna have any question to ask, i wont
know everything i need to know before the meeting
with the IMF rep on wed. shit. im so dead. and the worse thing is,
there's no way out. absolutely nil.
history today was surprisingly okay. but i just hate doing
graded assignments in class. the level of concentration is
abysmal. god. no wonder i flunk everytime. okay that's
not exactly the point. im getting more and more like a loner.
last time i always like to study in a group, go out with ppl, eat with
others and the thing i totally hate is to be alone. but now,
i just adore every morning where i get to walk real slowly
to the bus stop, listening to my hp, and just relax. i hope
it's a long way to the bus stop. i like to be alone. maybe
that's what im getting at, ostracise myself. ohwells. i dunno.
after school i went home earlier. yeah cos im on a saving
spree now and im getting home early for my lunch cos
i didnt have break and my stomach was growling. hahas.
and so i came home and stuffed myself.
honestly i dunno what's the problem yet again. what's your
problem, what's my problem? there is no problem, so
what's the problem actually? ma de, i had enough already lorh.
always got problem or dun even have problem then
anyhow bu shuang me. just because i haven't showed my
temper doesnt mean i dont HAVE one. honestly, it's unfair
to me, and just cos i haven SAID anything, doesnt mean i dont know
what you want to do or i dont care. but sometimes you just
dont bother to explain anything, tell me anything or
basically give a shit. so fine, there's no point anymore.
dont tell me you want to hold. there's nth more to hold
and it should have fallen long ago.
if it's over let it go and
come tmr it will seem
so yesterday, so yesterday
im just a bird that's already flown away.
laugh it off let it go and
when you wake up it will seem
so yesterday, so yesterday
haven you heard that im gonna be okay.
izzit really so easy? arrarently not.
got to the grand total of three. jun hao, jie ren and in a
most indirect way yuling. dont think by saying i look cute,
i dont get that you are trying to suan my hair. i
know okay =/ and i know those who didnt laugh are just
trying to be polite. ohwells.
folk dance today was okay. i paired with youwei. he is a funny
partner like jiachen. xD lols. we did everything okay.
and the worse thing that can happen happened to me.
tkc asked me to be his dance partner to demo to the
whole class. oh for goodness sake, couldn't he ask any other
random girl instead of me? ma de, i almost died already
when he touched my hand larh. god. i swear that is like
the most embarassing thing can.
and THIMUN comes crashing back today. i was given this
thick booklet which is the reports and resolutions of the first
THIMUN singapore conference. i so cant do this. die already.
shucks man. im not gonna have any question to ask, i wont
know everything i need to know before the meeting
with the IMF rep on wed. shit. im so dead. and the worse thing is,
there's no way out. absolutely nil.
history today was surprisingly okay. but i just hate doing
graded assignments in class. the level of concentration is
abysmal. god. no wonder i flunk everytime. okay that's
not exactly the point. im getting more and more like a loner.
last time i always like to study in a group, go out with ppl, eat with
others and the thing i totally hate is to be alone. but now,
i just adore every morning where i get to walk real slowly
to the bus stop, listening to my hp, and just relax. i hope
it's a long way to the bus stop. i like to be alone. maybe
that's what im getting at, ostracise myself. ohwells. i dunno.
after school i went home earlier. yeah cos im on a saving
spree now and im getting home early for my lunch cos
i didnt have break and my stomach was growling. hahas.
and so i came home and stuffed myself.
problem, what's my problem? there is no problem, so
what's the problem actually? ma de, i had enough already lorh.
always got problem or dun even have problem then
anyhow bu shuang me. just because i haven't showed my
temper doesnt mean i dont HAVE one. honestly, it's unfair
to me, and just cos i haven SAID anything, doesnt mean i dont know
what you want to do or i dont care. but sometimes you just
dont bother to explain anything, tell me anything or
basically give a shit. so fine, there's no point anymore.
dont tell me you want to hold. there's nth more to hold
and it should have fallen long ago.
if it's over let it go and
come tmr it will seem
so yesterday, so yesterday
im just a bird that's already flown away.
laugh it off let it go and
when you wake up it will seem
so yesterday, so yesterday
haven you heard that im gonna be okay.
izzit really so easy? arrarently not.
Sunday, August 20
i think i need to psycho ppl into thinking my hair is okay and
not laugh tmr. argh i regret cutting it! BOOS =/ arghh.
have been hardcore-ing dance yesterday and today.
9.30 to 2 plus. and have been hardcore sneezing yesterday
and today. oh stupid, it's like the third time im having
some bloody flu in the past 2 months. gah. i lost my sense of
smell and macdonald's have become tastless. oh god. can die,
i feel super terrible. one side of my nose is permanently
block larhs
gonna hardcore thimun for the next week already, haix
maybe im not supposed to be involved in this de lorh.
you wont ever get anything done if you slack and always
rely on otghers for info. i think desmond lim has made a
wrong choice for choosing me and i made a wrong choice
of saying yes. but it's too late now and i cant back out.
i think i wont survive to the end of all this research amd rare
opportunities meant for the talented and the abled which i am not!
i dun deserve to be in thimun afterall.
and now i shall hardcore my zuo wen. the person i most jing pei
is lim bo seng! yay kang ri ying xiong! xP
[edit] even my fav dark chocolate is tasteless x( [/edit]
SINYEE-
not laugh tmr. argh i regret cutting it! BOOS =/ arghh.
have been hardcore-ing dance yesterday and today.
9.30 to 2 plus. and have been hardcore sneezing yesterday
and today. oh stupid, it's like the third time im having
some bloody flu in the past 2 months. gah. i lost my sense of
smell and macdonald's have become tastless. oh god. can die,
i feel super terrible. one side of my nose is permanently
block larhs
gonna hardcore thimun for the next week already, haix
maybe im not supposed to be involved in this de lorh.
you wont ever get anything done if you slack and always
rely on otghers for info. i think desmond lim has made a
wrong choice for choosing me and i made a wrong choice
of saying yes. but it's too late now and i cant back out.
i think i wont survive to the end of all this research amd rare
opportunities meant for the talented and the abled which i am not!
i dun deserve to be in thimun afterall.
and now i shall hardcore my zuo wen. the person i most jing pei
is lim bo seng! yay kang ri ying xiong! xP
[edit] even my fav dark chocolate is tasteless x( [/edit]
SINYEE-
Friday, August 18
okay. i cut my hair. and it looks kinda...weird. not
the fringe. the back. it just went shorter but it so
look like a paintbrush now. it just doesnt hang down properly
and its like a spurt of hair. hahas. ohwells whatever.
maybe i should have listened to my mum and cut until
dun needa tie cos it really looks awful now...why the hell my
mum dun allow me to layer my hair. it would look one hundred thousand
times better than now larh.
today was slack cos ong's lesson was relieve. and rendy's too.
we had class outing discussion. whoo damn fun. then only
lesson today is like chinese. then got zuo wen have to do..
tmr got dance and going to orchard with sherry..i think.
to get my bottle and hp pouch ! hahas okay.
cca was okay today too. i knew zhu mu wont train me.
and i have to do smth for jenn :D hey dun leave me with
her! actually i dun think she isnt much of a bitch anymore.
i sort of pity her that so many ppl including sinyee the
great one hates her. *blog reader grabs vomit bag* lols.
went around jp with jin, shibin and sherry after cca
i went looking around for nice converse bags with sherry
and looking for a bottle. i saw a nice LIME GREEN nike
bottle on a sec 1's table. hahas i like! hahas. ohwells.
SINYEE-
the fringe. the back. it just went shorter but it so
look like a paintbrush now. it just doesnt hang down properly
and its like a spurt of hair. hahas. ohwells whatever.
maybe i should have listened to my mum and cut until
dun needa tie cos it really looks awful now...why the hell my
mum dun allow me to layer my hair. it would look one hundred thousand
times better than now larh.
today was slack cos ong's lesson was relieve. and rendy's too.
we had class outing discussion. whoo damn fun. then only
lesson today is like chinese. then got zuo wen have to do..
tmr got dance and going to orchard with sherry..i think.
to get my bottle and hp pouch ! hahas okay.
cca was okay today too. i knew zhu mu wont train me.
and i have to do smth for jenn :D hey dun leave me with
her! actually i dun think she isnt much of a bitch anymore.
i sort of pity her that so many ppl including sinyee the
great one hates her. *blog reader grabs vomit bag* lols.
went around jp with jin, shibin and sherry after cca
i went looking around for nice converse bags with sherry
and looking for a bottle. i saw a nice LIME GREEN nike
bottle on a sec 1's table. hahas i like! hahas. ohwells.
SINYEE-
Thursday, August 17
today's lessons were okay...first lesson was translation.
our first lesson with 2D. damn guailan larh. zw and desmond
were like competing who can command louder. lols.
its very funny larh. 2D ppl chao gao xiao..
chem test was like shit alrh. study de nv come out one
lorh. i think i will flunk. when i thought i would be quite
prepared larh. the questions are like cant be directly
get the ans from what you revised in noted like that.
damn shit. im doomed already larhs.
CID was pretty okay. kenna sabo-ed to be the leader again.
i thought i would only get sabotaged by ppl from my own class.
but what a rubbish way to elect a grp leader, they
point fingers and they all point me. wth. okay fine.
it's gonna be tight schedule. want die already.
sian manx. tests coming up. im big time doomed.
SINYEE-
our first lesson with 2D. damn guailan larh. zw and desmond
were like competing who can command louder. lols.
its very funny larh. 2D ppl chao gao xiao..
chem test was like shit alrh. study de nv come out one
lorh. i think i will flunk. when i thought i would be quite
prepared larh. the questions are like cant be directly
get the ans from what you revised in noted like that.
damn shit. im doomed already larhs.
CID was pretty okay. kenna sabo-ed to be the leader again.
i thought i would only get sabotaged by ppl from my own class.
but what a rubbish way to elect a grp leader, they
point fingers and they all point me. wth. okay fine.
it's gonna be tight schedule. want die already.
sian manx. tests coming up. im big time doomed.
SINYEE-
Wednesday, August 16
tmr is chem test!! god..dunno whether can make it or not..
i finished studying the notes...reading thru the textbook
now..(im multitasking okay) lols. then also dunno whether
can pas or not..i really X10000 that i can pass with flying
colours this time. *cross fingers*
today was okay..lessons not too bad. lang arts getting
more and more interesting...and maths is okay today too.
hands-on is better i guess? haix. i finally finished copying
the punishments. hand pain xf arghs.
today after school went lib again to mug chem. stayed there until
like 6 and was feeling damn cold. hahas okay. go study
again liaox.
SINYEE-
i finished studying the notes...reading thru the textbook
now..(im multitasking okay) lols. then also dunno whether
can pas or not..i really X10000 that i can pass with flying
colours this time. *cross fingers*
today was okay..lessons not too bad. lang arts getting
more and more interesting...and maths is okay today too.
hands-on is better i guess? haix. i finally finished copying
the punishments. hand pain xf arghs.
today after school went lib again to mug chem. stayed there until
like 6 and was feeling damn cold. hahas okay. go study
again liaox.
SINYEE-
Tuesday, August 15
i woke up at 4 today to redo the history assignment
which i failed... then i nv read the textbook chapter
that ang wants us to read..haix. who knws go to
school yang dun want to collect. wasted. the worst
thing is..today must be damn unlucky. draw lots, call
register number never ever call before 19 today
i kenna. then cos i nv read then cant answer ang's
question then now have to copy out 4 times the chapter
as punishments..also. zi ji huo gai...
haix..then dance very bad.. the other groups all did okay
then when it was our group's turn, last group somemore,
it was the worst and shortest and it's just terrible.
and it's my fault..sort of. haix. i didnt think it would be
so bad larh...
cca was okay but abit sian...cos sec 3s were not there!
jie was not there! x( haix. went to clementi with jin to
eat lunch before trng then met shibin, stella, carmen
and zhixuan there. they actually not going, but heard
that mr tan went a bit mad larhs so they decided to go
there and study for their common test. then me and jin went
to play as usual. miracle happened today, zhu mu actually
trained me..but i guess it's cos really too little ppl.
the sec 3s went home halfway. guess mr tan gave them
the permission. the place was awfully bare. 6 of us only.
awfully quiet. haix...my forehand feel is very weird now...
the way i have been holding my bat is wrong for forehand
so now have to get used to the correct way... after cca,
pearly and rousi went off and mr tan drove the rest of
us to dover mrt. so reached home quite early today..
and for now, intensive copying and revision...if not,
i will surely flunk. but it's not like i study will have difference...
[edit] and my whole arm from elbows up hurts like fck.
stupid tkc [/edit]
SINYEE-
which i failed... then i nv read the textbook chapter
that ang wants us to read..haix. who knws go to
school yang dun want to collect. wasted. the worst
thing is..today must be damn unlucky. draw lots, call
register number never ever call before 19 today
i kenna. then cos i nv read then cant answer ang's
question then now have to copy out 4 times the chapter
as punishments..also. zi ji huo gai...
haix..then dance very bad.. the other groups all did okay
then when it was our group's turn, last group somemore,
it was the worst and shortest and it's just terrible.
and it's my fault..sort of. haix. i didnt think it would be
so bad larh...
cca was okay but abit sian...cos sec 3s were not there!
jie was not there! x( haix. went to clementi with jin to
eat lunch before trng then met shibin, stella, carmen
and zhixuan there. they actually not going, but heard
that mr tan went a bit mad larhs so they decided to go
there and study for their common test. then me and jin went
to play as usual. miracle happened today, zhu mu actually
trained me..but i guess it's cos really too little ppl.
the sec 3s went home halfway. guess mr tan gave them
the permission. the place was awfully bare. 6 of us only.
awfully quiet. haix...my forehand feel is very weird now...
the way i have been holding my bat is wrong for forehand
so now have to get used to the correct way... after cca,
pearly and rousi went off and mr tan drove the rest of
us to dover mrt. so reached home quite early today..
and for now, intensive copying and revision...if not,
i will surely flunk. but it's not like i study will have difference...
[edit] and my whole arm from elbows up hurts like fck.
stupid tkc [/edit]
SINYEE-
Monday, August 14
haix. HSK test briefing is stupid. 2.5 hrs. i almost
died in LT4. somemore i in first row..stupid can.
and i was freezing cold in there. bloody larhs.
i didnt even knw that it would end so freakin late.
i didnt get to revise chem at all today okay. fck.
i reached home at like 7.30 cos they bloody released at
6. stupid. no mood to do hw already larhs.
i want to study alone...
pe was alright. did conditioning exercises today according
tkc. sian. crocodile skin on the knee..painful manx. chem
is so depressing. im gonna big time fail chem. and history..
hopeless case. i just keep failing. have to redo now. so what
she expect. i rushed that piece in 5min, i was at a funeral
for goodness sake. ohwells whatever.
and anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERRY & EMILY!
died in LT4. somemore i in first row..stupid can.
and i was freezing cold in there. bloody larhs.
i didnt even knw that it would end so freakin late.
i didnt get to revise chem at all today okay. fck.
i reached home at like 7.30 cos they bloody released at
6. stupid. no mood to do hw already larhs.
i want to study alone...
pe was alright. did conditioning exercises today according
tkc. sian. crocodile skin on the knee..painful manx. chem
is so depressing. im gonna big time fail chem. and history..
hopeless case. i just keep failing. have to redo now. so what
she expect. i rushed that piece in 5min, i was at a funeral
for goodness sake. ohwells whatever.
and anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERRY & EMILY!
Sunday, August 13
changed skin! pls give comments (:
i went to the frontier lib again today. finished writing
all 4 letters for the ppl. whoot. look at thos chao chio
letter paper and deco and imagining what their reactions
would be like when i give to them tmr is so fulfilling.
yayness im anticipating...
so i studied the first 2 chapts of notes for chem today.
tmr gonn jia you and study more! i dun care im gonna
do well this time. which come to think of it...maybe cant.
haix. ohwell but im still gonna study..maybe my
mugging mood's back. i said there must be the sec 3 cts then
can xP wahh later get killed by the sec 3s =x
next week's gonna be busy. trying to find time to slot in
a class meeting or more imptly, exco meeting. haix.
hopefully class outing will be successful. eh i dunno say
how many times liaox. okayy...since i already finished
hw i shall revise until 10 and go sleep! finally i can
sleep early (:
&& ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANYI !!
SINYEE-
i went to the frontier lib again today. finished writing
all 4 letters for the ppl. whoot. look at thos chao chio
letter paper and deco and imagining what their reactions
would be like when i give to them tmr is so fulfilling.
yayness im anticipating...
so i studied the first 2 chapts of notes for chem today.
tmr gonn jia you and study more! i dun care im gonna
do well this time. which come to think of it...maybe cant.
haix. ohwell but im still gonna study..maybe my
mugging mood's back. i said there must be the sec 3 cts then
can xP wahh later get killed by the sec 3s =x
next week's gonna be busy. trying to find time to slot in
a class meeting or more imptly, exco meeting. haix.
hopefully class outing will be successful. eh i dunno say
how many times liaox. okayy...since i already finished
hw i shall revise until 10 and go sleep! finally i can
sleep early (:
&& ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANYI !!
SINYEE-
Saturday, August 12
studying alone is so the best way to finish hw fast
and concentrate. i didnt want to do hw at home
cos i knw i will only slack so i went to jp. i bought
me and my bro's pens and some coloured paper
and envelopes for those birthday letter i owe
ppl. hahas then i went to the frontier lib.
i finished my chang wen suo duan and the hist late
assignment there. okay which is everything
and sorted out the class outing plans. took me only about
2 hrs when at home it would be like 2 days. then
i went home. tmr can revise for chem test and write the
letters! i just realised just now that there is alot of things
to prepare for class outing. but nvm! we will manage. (:
SINYEE-
and concentrate. i didnt want to do hw at home
cos i knw i will only slack so i went to jp. i bought
me and my bro's pens and some coloured paper
and envelopes for those birthday letter i owe
ppl. hahas then i went to the frontier lib.
i finished my chang wen suo duan and the hist late
assignment there. okay which is everything
and sorted out the class outing plans. took me only about
2 hrs when at home it would be like 2 days. then
i went home. tmr can revise for chem test and write the
letters! i just realised just now that there is alot of things
to prepare for class outing. but nvm! we will manage. (:
SINYEE-
Friday, August 11
today wasnt such a good day. there wasn't much joy
to even mention about. i thought i haven been like this
quite some time, cos everything had been going so well...
2C bonded well like i wished it to be, 6E gathering a
successful one and i got my new hp and all...and ytd was
already a little off from pleasant..but i HOPE everything
is resolved huh? i really dont want to have to worry about
this larhs...
today's first lesson was chem..haix im in serious trouble!
i need chem help...anyone?? if not im seriously gonna flunk the
chem test next week...im all blure bout chemical formula..
and then mr ong told me to go to the board and write
down the chemical formula for aqueous ammonia and i was
like stumped. luckily ariel and mr ong got help me in the end.
then was netball again. i was GA= Goal Attacker this time.
i swopped with jun hao. then we played with our class another
team. we wont them 4-0. afterwards we were told to change
positions again then i became goal shooter again...and
my face kenna slammed by the ball again. this time was mz
i think..ohwells.
lang. arts lesson i was told to go somewhere else to do my
delayed-so-long summary test while everyone else
has the presentation on alternative worlds...i went to the
library as i couldnt think of anywhere else. omg larh i
was like feeling damn cold in the library cos i just came out
of comp lab 3. finished the summary test and stick around
to while away rest of the time. finally was time to go back, and
happy to do so too cos im freezing there larhs. then was chi
lesson. haix. i think ang damn bu shuang me already cos i
didnt finish her jian bao. i left one last para sia..and then
got the gong han. sian man.
cca was bloody...oh i dunno how to descibe it larhs. its so
infuriating can. we were like late by 30min. and then
me and jin went to play liao larh. waiting for all the
rest to come. we played and played there. and cos i didnt
eat breakfast and lunch, i went out with jin to have a break.
zhu mu actually came out and told us to go in. wtf larhs.
i think he is damn biased can. and then when sherry and zhijun
arrived like 1.5 hrs late, he trained them first. like wtf larh.
i totally cannot stand him already lorh. i train like fck but
he take it like he cannot see it. i train so hard for what?
he cannot see. he wont train me. what's the use?
it all just came round to nth. nth at all. he asked me why i
went out and didnt train. oh please. i train so hard got
what use? huh tell me larh. he dun give me a freakin damn
when all i wanted to do is improve! and get into the team!
is that alot to askfor? im trng hard for it but he doesnt
even care! it's not like i want to improve without putting in
effort. i train bloody hard during trngs okay. and so what?
he hasnt even asked to train me. i feel so hopeless can.
today i just forgot all about it. i feel so exhausted. i dun
want to hold anymore. trng so hard doesnt help me achieve
anything. my hard work has all gone down the drain.
damn him. i just want to scream at him. every trng i would
be hoping he would train me. train me train me. izzit
really so difficult? does he despise me to the extend
that he doesnt even want to train me? you knw, i just want
to improve and get into team. i m so sick and tired of thinking
that he doesnt have time to train me. in actual fact, he doesnt
give me a freaking damn. ohmygod, i really wonder what,
just WHAT am i working towards. getting into team? and
perhaps the blue insignias? i've put in my best but it still
doesnt work. actually it doesnt matter anymore whether i
get the insignias or not. all i want. really. all i ever want.
is to improve.
i cant help, i really cant help feeling unhappy over the fact
that im unable to improve under this circumstances.
cant he like just soend 30min out iof the 3 hrs of trng we have
to train me? train the pathetic and despo to improve me?
i dun see whats so difficult. everyone is improving but im
staying put. i want to go on but something's stopping
me. i really feel so helpess already. every trng now is like
a waste time session to me. however hard i train, he pretends
like he couldnt see. how do i keep my passion for rvtt up
like this? when it had came back and i had trained hard.
but nth comes back and maybe it will fade away...
couldnt he at least have given me a chance? to prove myself?
ohgod im gonna cry.
i just want to improve you knw. that's all i want.
SINYEE-
to even mention about. i thought i haven been like this
quite some time, cos everything had been going so well...
2C bonded well like i wished it to be, 6E gathering a
successful one and i got my new hp and all...and ytd was
already a little off from pleasant..but i HOPE everything
is resolved huh? i really dont want to have to worry about
this larhs...
today's first lesson was chem..haix im in serious trouble!
i need chem help...anyone?? if not im seriously gonna flunk the
chem test next week...im all blure bout chemical formula..
and then mr ong told me to go to the board and write
down the chemical formula for aqueous ammonia and i was
like stumped. luckily ariel and mr ong got help me in the end.
then was netball again. i was GA= Goal Attacker this time.
i swopped with jun hao. then we played with our class another
team. we wont them 4-0. afterwards we were told to change
positions again then i became goal shooter again...and
my face kenna slammed by the ball again. this time was mz
i think..ohwells.
lang. arts lesson i was told to go somewhere else to do my
delayed-so-long summary test while everyone else
has the presentation on alternative worlds...i went to the
library as i couldnt think of anywhere else. omg larh i
was like feeling damn cold in the library cos i just came out
of comp lab 3. finished the summary test and stick around
to while away rest of the time. finally was time to go back, and
happy to do so too cos im freezing there larhs. then was chi
lesson. haix. i think ang damn bu shuang me already cos i
didnt finish her jian bao. i left one last para sia..and then
got the gong han. sian man.
cca was bloody...oh i dunno how to descibe it larhs. its so
infuriating can. we were like late by 30min. and then
me and jin went to play liao larh. waiting for all the
rest to come. we played and played there. and cos i didnt
eat breakfast and lunch, i went out with jin to have a break.
zhu mu actually came out and told us to go in. wtf larhs.
i think he is damn biased can. and then when sherry and zhijun
arrived like 1.5 hrs late, he trained them first. like wtf larh.
i totally cannot stand him already lorh. i train like fck but
he take it like he cannot see it. i train so hard for what?
he cannot see. he wont train me. what's the use?
it all just came round to nth. nth at all. he asked me why i
went out and didnt train. oh please. i train so hard got
what use? huh tell me larh. he dun give me a freakin damn
when all i wanted to do is improve! and get into the team!
is that alot to askfor? im trng hard for it but he doesnt
even care! it's not like i want to improve without putting in
effort. i train bloody hard during trngs okay. and so what?
he hasnt even asked to train me. i feel so hopeless can.
today i just forgot all about it. i feel so exhausted. i dun
want to hold anymore. trng so hard doesnt help me achieve
anything. my hard work has all gone down the drain.
damn him. i just want to scream at him. every trng i would
be hoping he would train me. train me train me. izzit
really so difficult? does he despise me to the extend
that he doesnt even want to train me? you knw, i just want
to improve and get into team. i m so sick and tired of thinking
that he doesnt have time to train me. in actual fact, he doesnt
give me a freaking damn. ohmygod, i really wonder what,
just WHAT am i working towards. getting into team? and
perhaps the blue insignias? i've put in my best but it still
doesnt work. actually it doesnt matter anymore whether i
get the insignias or not. all i want. really. all i ever want.
is to improve.
i cant help, i really cant help feeling unhappy over the fact
that im unable to improve under this circumstances.
cant he like just soend 30min out iof the 3 hrs of trng we have
to train me? train the pathetic and despo to improve me?
i dun see whats so difficult. everyone is improving but im
staying put. i want to go on but something's stopping
me. i really feel so helpess already. every trng now is like
a waste time session to me. however hard i train, he pretends
like he couldnt see. how do i keep my passion for rvtt up
like this? when it had came back and i had trained hard.
but nth comes back and maybe it will fade away...
couldnt he at least have given me a chance? to prove myself?
ohgod im gonna cry.
i just want to improve you knw. that's all i want.
SINYEE-
Thursday, August 10
went for dance meeting today. some people come late
still dare give me that fcking attitude. honestly do
you knw that the whole group is unhappy with you?
i guess you couldn't care less either. come already still
dare get pissed at us. you think you got that rubbish
attitude i dun have izzit. your ideas are a bunch of crap
and you should be thankful that we didnt tell you straight
in the face larhs. still dare say we didnt do anything in
the time. for goodness sake, you weren't even here. and
it's not like you all did a hell lot without me ytd. OH PLEASE.
your attitude is bullshit larh. you being late is already in
the wrong and you want to come and get pissed. oh
sure bring it on man loser. im damn up to it.
after the fruitless dance meeting was class east out.
not too bad larhs. 16 ppl turned yup. for a non-school
day, it's not bad. so all of us had our usual "camp-out"
at the second floor of jec when suddenly this weird uncle
came and sat down behind our circle. which is damn creepy
cos the uncle looks like a standard cheekopek who keeps
stroking his chin. lols. then he stood up and left after a fair while.
and the boys thought maybe he wasnt human at all. cos he
disappeared behind a pillar. LOLS. ohwells.
after that theguys went to the arcade and me, ps, sherrie
and yingting went to the lib to do hw. sherrie joined her
friends there and cos we couldnt find a place we went back to jec.
yt went to arcade to see the guys while me and ps sat at the
usual place doing hw. i wanted to leave so went to arcade to
see what they playing. they were scamming the bball machine.
cos the ball just touch the metal rim then got score
so they just slam the ball at the rim. and the ball bounced out
damn hard and keep hitting people. hahas but its fun! a game
can benefit the 9 people there. and after lotsa tries our
class people finally broke the damn high score! the glorious
moment when we saw the score reach 836 breaking the
previous 807. then we were damn happy there. then some
asshole guy see we so happy he buay song so went there and
owned our score. oh fck :f but nvm. we took that glorious moment
of the screen with 836 on it with my phone! hahas.
and the tickets left over will go into our class time capsule.
and then...we went home xP
time to chiong hw now manx..
SINYEE-
still dare give me that fcking attitude. honestly do
you knw that the whole group is unhappy with you?
i guess you couldn't care less either. come already still
dare get pissed at us. you think you got that rubbish
attitude i dun have izzit. your ideas are a bunch of crap
and you should be thankful that we didnt tell you straight
in the face larhs. still dare say we didnt do anything in
the time. for goodness sake, you weren't even here. and
it's not like you all did a hell lot without me ytd. OH PLEASE.
your attitude is bullshit larh. you being late is already in
the wrong and you want to come and get pissed. oh
sure bring it on man loser. im damn up to it.
after the fruitless dance meeting was class east out.
not too bad larhs. 16 ppl turned yup. for a non-school
day, it's not bad. so all of us had our usual "camp-out"
at the second floor of jec when suddenly this weird uncle
came and sat down behind our circle. which is damn creepy
cos the uncle looks like a standard cheekopek who keeps
stroking his chin. lols. then he stood up and left after a fair while.
and the boys thought maybe he wasnt human at all. cos he
disappeared behind a pillar. LOLS. ohwells.
after that theguys went to the arcade and me, ps, sherrie
and yingting went to the lib to do hw. sherrie joined her
friends there and cos we couldnt find a place we went back to jec.
yt went to arcade to see the guys while me and ps sat at the
usual place doing hw. i wanted to leave so went to arcade to
see what they playing. they were scamming the bball machine.
cos the ball just touch the metal rim then got score
so they just slam the ball at the rim. and the ball bounced out
damn hard and keep hitting people. hahas but its fun! a game
can benefit the 9 people there. and after lotsa tries our
class people finally broke the damn high score! the glorious
moment when we saw the score reach 836 breaking the
previous 807. then we were damn happy there. then some
asshole guy see we so happy he buay song so went there and
owned our score. oh fck :f but nvm. we took that glorious moment
of the screen with 836 on it with my phone! hahas.
and the tickets left over will go into our class time capsule.
and then...we went home xP
time to chiong hw now manx..
SINYEE-
Wednesday, August 9
stayed whole day at home today. did planning for
jian bao. haix damn sian. today is national day.
this yr's mood not like past years..feeling damn sianx.
tmr got dance prac and class eat out. think tmr
wont have so many ppl turn up bah..msg nv
get to alot of ppl. haix. my hp only can save 17
songs. pathetic. ask my father buy me another
memory stick xP. tired manx. update tmr.
SINYEE-
jian bao. haix damn sian. today is national day.
this yr's mood not like past years..feeling damn sianx.
tmr got dance prac and class eat out. think tmr
wont have so many ppl turn up bah..msg nv
get to alot of ppl. haix. my hp only can save 17
songs. pathetic. ask my father buy me another
memory stick xP. tired manx. update tmr.
SINYEE-
Tuesday, August 8
today is a damn good day i tell you. damn. very
DAMN good. xD hahas. i FINALLY got my hp todayy!!
whoots. my k750i here i come!! hahas okay.
today was national day celebration. stupid sia, i lost
my beloved bottle! If anyone of you all see a black
adidas bottle with a pink and white friendship strap
pls kindly return it to Toh Sin Yee of class 2c :D hahs
we started out with the uniformed groups march and the
usual boring stuff. then recite recollections. ditto. and
then we moved off to the hall for CCA leaders investiture.
yay peiqi is finally a double ring!! lols. congrats to peiqi
and kah han. heh i wonder...
after that was those skits put up by sec 1 and 2 classes.
kinda sad, cos we didnt get in. sec 1s were not bad, 1I with
their insane and cute aliens hahas. made them the winning class.
1L's dance was not bad also larhs. sec 2s de. 2K was the winner
but i think 2B did better. i still thik we could have got into
this..then we had community singing! 2C went uber mad
larhs. so fun. took picts and posted on class blog. we are
really getting more and more united and bonded. whoo!
i <333 2C!
after the assembly or whatever you call it, we all went to
the space outside the general office and took class photos!
the first one was damn guai lan cos yvonne and peishi on
the first row suddenly stood up and bloched ppl in the
middle on the second row. hahas. second time was great.
just great! then i had STEP photo taking but the photo is
in josephine's camera.
2C went for class eat out today! 26 out of 34 ppl went.
not too bad huh. and we gayed around there and the exco
grouped everyone up for the teambuilding. we purposely
put those ppl who hate each other together so they can
overcome the barrier and work together as a team. and we split
up all the cliques xP. WHAT. dun complain lorhs. my clique
also split up. just that im station master x) i hope everything
goes well on that day.
im waiting for my hp to finish charging so i can go exploreeeee!!!
hahahas. 2C you xing gan you look like whoo~!! this kinda cheering
put great stress on my already hurting throat zzz. 11 days and
counting...lols
today was also 6E class gathering. not bad le larhs. 15
ppl turned up. i had a nice long chat with eileen and kailin
today. relieving those days...and bitching about *.
hahas just damn fun. i hope we can have more gatherings!
cos its damn fun and everyone is so gao xiao!
SINYEE-
DAMN good. xD hahas. i FINALLY got my hp todayy!!
whoots. my k750i here i come!! hahas okay.
today was national day celebration. stupid sia, i lost
my beloved bottle! If anyone of you all see a black
adidas bottle with a pink and white friendship strap
pls kindly return it to Toh Sin Yee of class 2c :D hahs
we started out with the uniformed groups march and the
usual boring stuff. then recite recollections. ditto. and
then we moved off to the hall for CCA leaders investiture.
yay peiqi is finally a double ring!! lols. congrats to peiqi
and kah han. heh i wonder...
after that was those skits put up by sec 1 and 2 classes.
kinda sad, cos we didnt get in. sec 1s were not bad, 1I with
their insane and cute aliens hahas. made them the winning class.
1L's dance was not bad also larhs. sec 2s de. 2K was the winner
but i think 2B did better. i still thik we could have got into
this..then we had community singing! 2C went uber mad
larhs. so fun. took picts and posted on class blog. we are
really getting more and more united and bonded. whoo!
i <333 2C!
after the assembly or whatever you call it, we all went to
the space outside the general office and took class photos!
the first one was damn guai lan cos yvonne and peishi on
the first row suddenly stood up and bloched ppl in the
middle on the second row. hahas. second time was great.
just great! then i had STEP photo taking but the photo is
in josephine's camera.
2C went for class eat out today! 26 out of 34 ppl went.
not too bad huh. and we gayed around there and the exco
grouped everyone up for the teambuilding. we purposely
put those ppl who hate each other together so they can
overcome the barrier and work together as a team. and we split
up all the cliques xP. WHAT. dun complain lorhs. my clique
also split up. just that im station master x) i hope everything
goes well on that day.
im waiting for my hp to finish charging so i can go exploreeeee!!!
hahahas. 2C you xing gan you look like whoo~!! this kinda cheering
put great stress on my already hurting throat zzz. 11 days and
counting...lols
today was also 6E class gathering. not bad le larhs. 15
ppl turned up. i had a nice long chat with eileen and kailin
today. relieving those days...and bitching about *.
hahas just damn fun. i hope we can have more gatherings!
cos its damn fun and everyone is so gao xiao!
SINYEE-
Monday, August 7
changed my blog song! :D i love yi yan wan nian!
argh stupid why am i still coughing like siao. 10
days already larh. blahh. today's exco meeting
was a success! whoot. the games we planned are like
so god damn fun and gross. well at least 2/5 is.
hahas supposedly exco secret worr..but i think
it would be fun. excited to even think about!
yayness!
pe was damn crazy. run 5 rounds. want us to sprint at the
long stretch and jog at recovery bend. gosh we all ran at
class speed. and it means lag. cos we are so united the class
even runs together. lols. then tan said all first round not
counted. and i was like wtf. so all of us split up already. i
ran with ariel ! :D was able to pace pretty okay. sian.
didnt finish shao nian wen zhai. short of one entry.
and was punished to stay back and do another. hell
larh. i one week away at funeral ask me how to do.
ma de. but i still nv hand in. tmr then hand in. heck.
tmr got 2C class eat out and 6E class gathering!
whoot so excited. haahs. damn gay. 2C is getting
more and more united! whee`` the candies ended
up all gone. hahas . hope class outing would be a success.
SINYEE-
argh stupid why am i still coughing like siao. 10
days already larh. blahh. today's exco meeting
was a success! whoot. the games we planned are like
so god damn fun and gross. well at least 2/5 is.
hahas supposedly exco secret worr..but i think
it would be fun. excited to even think about!
yayness!
pe was damn crazy. run 5 rounds. want us to sprint at the
long stretch and jog at recovery bend. gosh we all ran at
class speed. and it means lag. cos we are so united the class
even runs together. lols. then tan said all first round not
counted. and i was like wtf. so all of us split up already. i
ran with ariel ! :D was able to pace pretty okay. sian.
didnt finish shao nian wen zhai. short of one entry.
and was punished to stay back and do another. hell
larh. i one week away at funeral ask me how to do.
ma de. but i still nv hand in. tmr then hand in. heck.
tmr got 2C class eat out and 6E class gathering!
whoot so excited. haahs. damn gay. 2C is getting
more and more united! whee`` the candies ended
up all gone. hahas . hope class outing would be a success.
SINYEE-
Sunday, August 6
i stayed the whole day at home today. and slacked.
haix so bored. cant wait for tuesday to come. half
day and going back for 6E gathering! but not everyone
can make it. in fact i think only little ppl will go. haix
always like this one.
tmr is coming and i will be giving out candies! hahs
and then got class exco meeting. sounds so big
right. but only a few ppl. lols. okay hopefully tmr will
be a good day. i still haven taken my summary test =x
SINYEE-
haix so bored. cant wait for tuesday to come. half
day and going back for 6E gathering! but not everyone
can make it. in fact i think only little ppl will go. haix
always like this one.
tmr is coming and i will be giving out candies! hahs
and then got class exco meeting. sounds so big
right. but only a few ppl. lols. okay hopefully tmr will
be a good day. i still haven taken my summary test =x
SINYEE-
Saturday, August 5
i feel like screaming. i just want to scream.
stupid man. this is so totally idiotic. i was so
happily thinking i can get my new hp today...
i waited for my parents to return home and only
to find that my father didn't get my hp again. i
so very feel like screaming at him. he just kept
delaying and delaying. and i have to use his stupid hp.
which takes me a million yrs to type out an sms
when normally i take a few secs. oh hell! i shall turn
off my hp until tuesday. nvm i shall ren some more.
today went out with josephine ((: so fun. initially went
to get her new wallet and for me to buy candies for 2C [:
met her at around 2.05 at orchard mrt. i was late xP
then we went to taka to have lunch. that place was so darn
packed. after that we went in search of her elle wallet.
and it turns out that the one she saw in the newspaper is
not nice at all larhs. 41 bucks somemore. then went to heeren.
saw this ozozo wallet in the wallet shop. we took a long time
deciding whether purple or pink was nicer. hahas she chose
purple . then it happened to be the last piece then she dun want.
then we went to plaza sing to take neos. whot was damn fun!
i like it larhs. but some pretty guailan. and then just got some
inconsiderate ppl stand outide and look in. keep lifting the curtain
and we feel so uneasy larh. come on will it hurt if you wait?
honestly our class ppl is addicted to neos. always spam.
so jos wanted another go and we did larhs. this time poses were
even funnier hahas. and it was already 5.30 when we finished.
then we rushed to suntec to get her wallet. then she went there
and found that it was last piece also. then after checking
thoroughly she just bought it. hahas. we spun around in carrefour
buying drinks and saying how slow the cashier is scanning etc.
hahas. then we rushed home.
i went to jp to get the candies for the class. bought 4 packs
of yupi gummies. yay [: monday give them!lols. im coughing
like crazy.
SINYEE-
stupid man. this is so totally idiotic. i was so
happily thinking i can get my new hp today...
i waited for my parents to return home and only
to find that my father didn't get my hp again. i
so very feel like screaming at him. he just kept
delaying and delaying. and i have to use his stupid hp.
which takes me a million yrs to type out an sms
when normally i take a few secs. oh hell! i shall turn
off my hp until tuesday. nvm i shall ren some more.
today went out with josephine ((: so fun. initially went
to get her new wallet and for me to buy candies for 2C [:
met her at around 2.05 at orchard mrt. i was late xP
then we went to taka to have lunch. that place was so darn
packed. after that we went in search of her elle wallet.
and it turns out that the one she saw in the newspaper is
not nice at all larhs. 41 bucks somemore. then went to heeren.
saw this ozozo wallet in the wallet shop. we took a long time
deciding whether purple or pink was nicer. hahas she chose
purple . then it happened to be the last piece then she dun want.
then we went to plaza sing to take neos. whot was damn fun!
i like it larhs. but some pretty guailan. and then just got some
inconsiderate ppl stand outide and look in. keep lifting the curtain
and we feel so uneasy larh. come on will it hurt if you wait?
honestly our class ppl is addicted to neos. always spam.
so jos wanted another go and we did larhs. this time poses were
even funnier hahas. and it was already 5.30 when we finished.
then we rushed to suntec to get her wallet. then she went there
and found that it was last piece also. then after checking
thoroughly she just bought it. hahas. we spun around in carrefour
buying drinks and saying how slow the cashier is scanning etc.
hahas. then we rushed home.
i went to jp to get the candies for the class. bought 4 packs
of yupi gummies. yay [: monday give them!lols. im coughing
like crazy.
SINYEE-
Friday, August 4
arghs my hp! now the screen is like a total blank.
as in total darkness. i cant see a shit! okay actually
you can see your face's reflection in that black
screen. lols. arghs. gonna get my k750i tmr. hopefully,
if nothing screws up that is. and now i will just have
yo make do with my father's panasonic hp. it's
not too bad larh but i have alot of files to transfer and stuff
which come to think of it, is pretty stupid cos im only
using that hp for a day =x ohwells.
lessons today was pretty slack. started off with chem.
i failed the chem quiz. oh for goodness sake. i failed
by half a mark. half a bloody mark! and i feel so
bad because i studied for it on mon and thurs and fri
morning before the test. i still failed. arghs sorry mr ong! x(
pe was fun. had netball game with 2F. i was GS=goal
shooter. very funny. just stand in that circle and wait for
ppl to pass ball to you and you shoot. but the sad thing
is, i just can't shoot! arghs im dumb. i can only catch larh.
i was all the way keep saying "i table tennis de ask me
shoot what shoot?!" i think next week i will beeither GA
or WA and jun hao shall be GS cos he is pro-er. but anyways,
we won 2F 3-0. our grp only larh. and zi lie sent this super
big force ball slam into my head. aww man..
and then lesson was drone drone drone on and finally it's
cca! lols. today hardcore training. i didn't slack for
more than 5min today. hahas! big accomplishment okay!
my forehand improved and backhand deprove. oh fck.
im despo to improve! i just kept trng and trng and trng
like crazy. cos i want to prove it to her, that im taking all
this very seriously and that i am training hard. for what i
want.
i was so frustrated with myself. me and jenn use to
play 100 backhand without stopping in less than 15min.
and today was a complete letdown. i so felt like giving up
everytime i see that ball go down the net, missed the ball,
flew out of the table, i so wanted to scream and shout and
scold myself. but i couldnt. i feel so helpless when this happens.
i was trng so hard but nth comes out of this. i will train hard
to get into team. i must get into team. and i will prove
that i can. im trng hard. there's more than just one reason.
to prove her wrong, to show im really serious about this
and to achieve my top wish. actually first and second.
and zhu mu is still not trng me! :f i think he has got smth
wrong.
when cca finally finished i was so tired i just fell asleep on
the bus 196. ohwells. i hope it's really like that cos then, i have
a higher chance. im aiming for it.
SINYEE-
as in total darkness. i cant see a shit! okay actually
you can see your face's reflection in that black
screen. lols. arghs. gonna get my k750i tmr. hopefully,
if nothing screws up that is. and now i will just have
yo make do with my father's panasonic hp. it's
not too bad larh but i have alot of files to transfer and stuff
which come to think of it, is pretty stupid cos im only
using that hp for a day =x ohwells.
lessons today was pretty slack. started off with chem.
i failed the chem quiz. oh for goodness sake. i failed
by half a mark. half a bloody mark! and i feel so
bad because i studied for it on mon and thurs and fri
morning before the test. i still failed. arghs sorry mr ong! x(
pe was fun. had netball game with 2F. i was GS=goal
shooter. very funny. just stand in that circle and wait for
ppl to pass ball to you and you shoot. but the sad thing
is, i just can't shoot! arghs im dumb. i can only catch larh.
i was all the way keep saying "i table tennis de ask me
shoot what shoot?!" i think next week i will beeither GA
or WA and jun hao shall be GS cos he is pro-er. but anyways,
we won 2F 3-0. our grp only larh. and zi lie sent this super
big force ball slam into my head. aww man..
and then lesson was drone drone drone on and finally it's
cca! lols. today hardcore training. i didn't slack for
more than 5min today. hahas! big accomplishment okay!
my forehand improved and backhand deprove. oh fck.
im despo to improve! i just kept trng and trng and trng
like crazy. cos i want to prove it to her, that im taking all
this very seriously and that i am training hard. for what i
want.
i was so frustrated with myself. me and jenn use to
play 100 backhand without stopping in less than 15min.
and today was a complete letdown. i so felt like giving up
everytime i see that ball go down the net, missed the ball,
flew out of the table, i so wanted to scream and shout and
scold myself. but i couldnt. i feel so helpless when this happens.
i was trng so hard but nth comes out of this. i will train hard
to get into team. i must get into team. and i will prove
that i can. im trng hard. there's more than just one reason.
to prove her wrong, to show im really serious about this
and to achieve my top wish. actually first and second.
and zhu mu is still not trng me! :f i think he has got smth
wrong.
when cca finally finished i was so tired i just fell asleep on
the bus 196. ohwells. i hope it's really like that cos then, i have
a higher chance. im aiming for it.
SINYEE-
Thursday, August 3
class outing! yay, going to sentosa in sptember
holidays for class outing! see the class enthu i very happy.
next is planning for it. hope to be successful...
everything is about class to me now.
i listened to every single lesson today cos im not
talking to jieren. lols. which is probably good anyway.
didnt really understand chem..cos i missed the first
lesson for the new topic. arhgs. im doomed. tests coming up.
was super tired during cid. cant help falling asleep.
at last, history today was a LITTLE better...
hahas. ohwells nth much.
SINYEE-
holidays for class outing! see the class enthu i very happy.
next is planning for it. hope to be successful...
everything is about class to me now.
i listened to every single lesson today cos im not
talking to jieren. lols. which is probably good anyway.
didnt really understand chem..cos i missed the first
lesson for the new topic. arhgs. im doomed. tests coming up.
was super tired during cid. cant help falling asleep.
at last, history today was a LITTLE better...
hahas. ohwells nth much.
SINYEE-
Wednesday, August 2
2C you xing gan you look like whoo~!!
i shouldnt even have doubted myself. doubted myy
class. i so love 2C. you all did great for skit!
third for teambuilding cheer! whoots! 2C improve le!
last yr top 5 to this yr third. im honestly superly
proud of all of you. who says our class is not united.
maybe you want to look again.
im happy, really happy today. yes, i cant always be
happy, but im happy today and thats it [:
SINYEE-
i shouldnt even have doubted myself. doubted myy
class. i so love 2C. you all did great for skit!
third for teambuilding cheer! whoots! 2C improve le!
last yr top 5 to this yr third. im honestly superly
proud of all of you. who says our class is not united.
maybe you want to look again.
im happy, really happy today. yes, i cant always be
happy, but im happy today and thats it [:
SINYEE-
Tuesday, August 1
i ripped this off sylvia's blogg. finally it's my turn xP.
[x] hugged someone in school?
[ ] gotten a detention?
[ ]smoked in school?
[x] cried in school?
[x] made new friends?
Total: 3
[ ] watched a football (rugby?) game
[x] watched a soccer game
[ ] watched a baseball game
[x]watched a basketball game
Total: 2
[x] watched a tennis match
[ ] watched a softball game
[x] watched a track meet
[x] watched a netball game
[x] stood up for someone being made fun of
Total: 4
[x] broken up with someone during school?
[x] argued with a teacher?
[x] got a 100% on a test?
[x] walked to school
[x]drove to school / driven to school
Total:5
[x]got dropped off at school
[x] heard a rumor about yourself
[ ] gone to school under the influence?
[x] did something illegal at school?
[x] missed school when you weren't sick?
Total: 4
[x] failed a test
[ ] failed a class
[x] made up an excuse for homework not being done?
[x] the teacher believed your lame excuse?
[ ] crushed on a teacher?
Total: 3
[ ]hit on a teacher?
[x] hate a teacher?
[x] was involved with a sport?
[ ] on student council?
[x] in a club?
Total: 3
[x] got a scholarship?
[x] got an award?
[x] fallen asleep in school?
[ ] gotten into trouble for falling asleep in class ?
[x] had your phone go off in class?
Total: 4
[ ] had your phone taken away?
[x] lied to a teacher?
[x] laughed so hard you cried in class
[x] eaten lunch in the bathroom? school toilet, actually.
[x] missed a week of school or more at once
Total: 4
Do You/Did You/Will You?...
[x] enjoy school?
[x] excited for summer? (if there is)
[ ] taking summer school?
[ ] have a summer job?
[ ] going somewhere?
Total: 2
(Total score (34) multiplied by 2 = % of excitement in your school life)
68%. okay larh. my school life not very exciting de mah.
i love thursdays! cos they are special days! hahax.
im really alright. i've always been. let me vent it all out and
i will be okay all over again. it's no big deal. tight cash flow
this week. sorry 2C, i'll buy your candies next time. 5 for
guokai. although you still nv sit down. everyone have. even if
you nv sit down. hahas cant expect me to just give some then
dun give some right? so ya. yes i still rmb lorhs.
SINYEE-
[x] hugged someone in school?
[ ] gotten a detention?
[ ]smoked in school?
[x] cried in school?
[x] made new friends?
Total: 3
[ ] watched a football (rugby?) game
[x] watched a soccer game
[ ] watched a baseball game
[x]watched a basketball game
Total: 2
[x] watched a tennis match
[ ] watched a softball game
[x] watched a track meet
[x] watched a netball game
[x] stood up for someone being made fun of
Total: 4
[x] broken up with someone during school?
[x] argued with a teacher?
[x] got a 100% on a test?
[x] walked to school
[x]drove to school / driven to school
Total:5
[x]got dropped off at school
[x] heard a rumor about yourself
[ ] gone to school under the influence?
[x] did something illegal at school?
[x] missed school when you weren't sick?
Total: 4
[x] failed a test
[ ] failed a class
[x] made up an excuse for homework not being done?
[x] the teacher believed your lame excuse?
[ ] crushed on a teacher?
Total: 3
[ ]hit on a teacher?
[x] hate a teacher?
[x] was involved with a sport?
[ ] on student council?
[x] in a club?
Total: 3
[x] got a scholarship?
[x] got an award?
[x] fallen asleep in school?
[ ] gotten into trouble for falling asleep in class ?
[x] had your phone go off in class?
Total: 4
[ ] had your phone taken away?
[x] lied to a teacher?
[x] laughed so hard you cried in class
[x] eaten lunch in the bathroom? school toilet, actually.
[x] missed a week of school or more at once
Total: 4
Do You/Did You/Will You?...
[x] enjoy school?
[x] excited for summer? (if there is)
[ ] taking summer school?
[ ] have a summer job?
[ ] going somewhere?
Total: 2
(Total score (34) multiplied by 2 = % of excitement in your school life)
68%. okay larh. my school life not very exciting de mah.
i love thursdays! cos they are special days! hahax.
im really alright. i've always been. let me vent it all out and
i will be okay all over again. it's no big deal. tight cash flow
this week. sorry 2C, i'll buy your candies next time. 5 for
guokai. although you still nv sit down. everyone have. even if
you nv sit down. hahas cant expect me to just give some then
dun give some right? so ya. yes i still rmb lorhs.
SINYEE-
haven updated for 4 days. quite a big gap for a hardcore
blogger like me i guess...ohwells. im feeling alot of things..
but not all can be disclosed...nvm. replies to tags first!
matt> ohwells...how good can life get? at least how good
my life get? not very larhs...but thanks for believing in me.
xinyu> hahas okay...maybe you dun think im lousy only
bah..
jonathan> yeah see? i told you im a lousy student. dun
believe me...
jaslin> yeah! banglas are hardcore pro can [:
sally> hahas okay tag more larh huh..
yingting> esta=esther? hahas...you dun think im lousy
arh...hmm. thanks alot [:
guokai> you can't cheer me up in anyway larh. im born
a pessimist what..honestly, dun needa worry...i will be
okay.
sylvia> thanks sista! why cannot be lousy...? lols [:
okay. so the cause for the lack of posts is cos i've been away
at my grandfather's funeral. he passed away on friday night.
im not exactly very sad...cos not very close with him larhs.
and then i was forced to cancel my plans on saturday, gardening
cip and class meeting for skit. so, im more pissed than sad.
yeah call me the heartless freak. and then my parents tols
me i have to miss school on mon, tue and wed. and i get more
pissed. i have the new zealand form and hapfa results to
hand in, both late. then went there only fold the incense
paper for very long and have some rituals. and then my
parents tell me i can go school on mon. so i went yesterday.
which made me feel more lousy actually. well, it's not impt.
the whole thing was basically just about going there and stone
or fold incense paper for hours until the time for the ritual
to start, last for 2 hrs and then fold or stone again. today
we went to cremate my grandfather's body. my aunt was
like standing beside me crying so terribly and calling my
grandfather that i felt like crying too. that kind of heart wrenching
calls..but i didnt cos im a heartless freak.
missed cca today. actually got time to rush there but my parents
dun allow..haix. and zhumu trained them again today. i
seriously think he has smth against me. i went for trngs and
he doesnt train me but today i nv go and he train jin and jenn
again. it's not the first time already. i feel like shit. im just
lousy larh right. even the coach thinks so. sure got alot of hw
now already. and im bloody tired. didnt sleep properly for
so many days. like only 3 or 4 hrs of sleep. tmr im going
back to school. but im unable to participate in the class
skit. still, hope all goes well for them. maybe i shouldnt go tmr
as well. then jieren will be chao happy. lols. i dun want
to miss out everything.
feel the tension rising. i dun want to hold anymore. but maybe
i still do. i want to. but everything is against me. it's so difficult
for me to believe that i can still fit in. im losing faith.
im falling behind. and i dun care cos it all doesnt matter
anymore. i feel that i cant trust anymore. i am a totally
superficial me. i dun want it this way.
SINYEE-
blogger like me i guess...ohwells. im feeling alot of things..
but not all can be disclosed...nvm. replies to tags first!
matt> ohwells...how good can life get? at least how good
my life get? not very larhs...but thanks for believing in me.
xinyu> hahas okay...maybe you dun think im lousy only
bah..
jonathan> yeah see? i told you im a lousy student. dun
believe me...
jaslin> yeah! banglas are hardcore pro can [:
sally> hahas okay tag more larh huh..
yingting> esta=esther? hahas...you dun think im lousy
arh...hmm. thanks alot [:
guokai> you can't cheer me up in anyway larh. im born
a pessimist what..honestly, dun needa worry...i will be
okay.
sylvia> thanks sista! why cannot be lousy...? lols [:
okay. so the cause for the lack of posts is cos i've been away
at my grandfather's funeral. he passed away on friday night.
im not exactly very sad...cos not very close with him larhs.
and then i was forced to cancel my plans on saturday, gardening
cip and class meeting for skit. so, im more pissed than sad.
yeah call me the heartless freak. and then my parents tols
me i have to miss school on mon, tue and wed. and i get more
pissed. i have the new zealand form and hapfa results to
hand in, both late. then went there only fold the incense
paper for very long and have some rituals. and then my
parents tell me i can go school on mon. so i went yesterday.
which made me feel more lousy actually. well, it's not impt.
the whole thing was basically just about going there and stone
or fold incense paper for hours until the time for the ritual
to start, last for 2 hrs and then fold or stone again. today
we went to cremate my grandfather's body. my aunt was
like standing beside me crying so terribly and calling my
grandfather that i felt like crying too. that kind of heart wrenching
calls..but i didnt cos im a heartless freak.
missed cca today. actually got time to rush there but my parents
dun allow..haix. and zhumu trained them again today. i
seriously think he has smth against me. i went for trngs and
he doesnt train me but today i nv go and he train jin and jenn
again. it's not the first time already. i feel like shit. im just
lousy larh right. even the coach thinks so. sure got alot of hw
now already. and im bloody tired. didnt sleep properly for
so many days. like only 3 or 4 hrs of sleep. tmr im going
back to school. but im unable to participate in the class
skit. still, hope all goes well for them. maybe i shouldnt go tmr
as well. then jieren will be chao happy. lols. i dun want
to miss out everything.
feel the tension rising. i dun want to hold anymore. but maybe
i still do. i want to. but everything is against me. it's so difficult
for me to believe that i can still fit in. im losing faith.
im falling behind. and i dun care cos it all doesnt matter
anymore. i feel that i cant trust anymore. i am a totally
superficial me. i dun want it this way.
SINYEE-
Friday, July 28
Wednesday, July 26
i woke up late again today. supposed to meet natalie
and jonathan at je mrt at 7.20am today then we head
off to raffleslink to meet with the rest. i woke up at
7.15am. my father brought me to clementi mrt and i
reached city hall mrt at 8.05am. bryan tan also just
reach.
the conference was alright. though i would say the three
speakers were very brief in what they were talking about.
we learnt more on the Millennium Development Goals (MDGs)
and then had a little more of discussion. Do not look down
on Bangladesh people. i repeat. DO NOT look down on
bangladesh people. the delegates are so fantastic in putting across
and debating their point i was so amazed. they are really good.
especially that 17 year old bangladesh girl. questioning world
bank in that tone and defending her country. completely
admirable.
the first workshop i went to was about gender inequalities.
it shows me really how much females in the world are being
treated inequally. really how bad the world had excuses for
men. look at that india tradition of jorgini. it's unfair that
a young woman has to be sacrificed to a "village god" and
that she has to perform dances infront of dead bodies
and serve all sexual needs of the village and do all manual work
in the village. come on that's just sexist. honestly, i very much
agree with the speaker. rmb the panadol cold commercial?
they said smth like when the mother gets sick then the
household would be in chaos? and the scenario of the commercial
is this: a woman running around putting the tie on the
child and smth for school on the father. and the man is there reading
newspaper. so why can't the man get off his ass and help the sick
mother do the work? you knw we are not born to do all of
the household chores.
the second workshop was really boring. smth about globallisation.
i was pretending to take notes there but i was like writing crap to
myself. the presenter was talking in a monotonous tone. didnt
have any other media refernces. plain talking for 1.5 hrs. it's a
wonder anyone even listened. and the bangladesh people had
an internal debate within them again. im so suprised they are
really interested in this seemingly useless topic to me. i vow
never to look down on bangladesh people ever again.
the third workshop was he best of the 3. smth about the basics
of media relations. teach us stuffs about how to handle the
media, an interview. what do to when a reporter misquotes you.
what to put in a press release etc. what makes it fun is because
the presenter has really great presentation skills which kept
me engaged throughout and she was really comical and animated.
yes. and i learnt smth new: once reporters makes a mistake
in an article for more than 3 times, they kiss goodbye
to their bonus. and someone asked whether it is three times in
a yr. and the presenter said 3 times in their career. and then
i raised my hand and asked. "since there is such a strict regime,
so how many of them really get their bonus?" and this caused
an uproar in the room. ppl started laughing and somewhat nodding
in agreement. honestly, what do they depend on?
with that, the day ended with hw to do. 2 summaries on the day.
one on one of the workshops and another i dunno what.
on the way home...wasn't such a pleasant journey back. it was the
whole point why i feel lousy. cos today i finally knw that i
am nowhere near "good". all the pretence, all the "i thoughts".
i was just lying to myself all the way. i just didnt want to admit
that im just lousy isnt it? and then my mum called me when i
was walking home. she demanded to know why i wasnt home
when it was already 8pm. i tod her that i already told her i will
reach home late cos of the conference. amd she was like asking
me to hurry up home and serve dinner for my younger bro.
and i was like asking her why my elder bro cant serve him.
must i serve. and she say that my elder bro already finish
dinner so my younger bro is waiting for me to serve him.
talk about gender inequality. im a live example. wtf. my
bro's home dun ask him serve want me to rush home and
serve. and i accidentally muttered a "ma de" and she told my father.
i hung up and waited for my doom.
when i reached home i was trying to calm myself down so i wont
go in and start to scream at my younger bro for being such a pain.
and i manged it this time round. i even managed to joke around
with him. and then my father called and he made me cry.
threatening me that that is no way i talk to my mum and
that i am his daughter and i cant do anything more without him.
great. im just lousy okay. and then ppl had to come and tell me zw
went down earlierthn i normally did and ang said that was good.
you knw i feel really unfair. i bring them down early all i get are
what? people scolding me for bringinfg them down so early.
and then zw bring you all down even earlier, and ang praises him.
and you all willingly go down without complaints.
come on, i knw you all just hate me but must you all do it this way?
i said that i knw im lousy. you dun have to point it out to
me anymore okay. its all just unfair. and when i dun look normal,
normal as in laughing and joking around ppl just think i
have got smth wrong. sometimes jieren crack some stupid joke and i
find myself miling genuinely. but how many of you actually
knw that i really dun feel like smiling? you think im a happy
go lucky person or smth cos you always see me smiling and joking with
ppl in school. but sorry. im none of that. it doenst make
me feel good to smile when i seriously dun feel like it.
you all really think i am happy everyday. maybe look again next time.
i hardly even smile at home. i wanna faster go sleep before
my father comes back and lecture me until i cry again.
why doesnt anyone believe im lousy. i just wanna scream out
loud and cry like nobody's business. i dunno what the fck
is your problem. just leave me alone okay. before i flare
up at you. b thankful i haven and buzz off.my flu is
getting worse everyday.
thanks for cheering me up . just an sms.
but while you depend on me. who do i rely on?
SINYEE-
and jonathan at je mrt at 7.20am today then we head
off to raffleslink to meet with the rest. i woke up at
7.15am. my father brought me to clementi mrt and i
reached city hall mrt at 8.05am. bryan tan also just
reach.
the conference was alright. though i would say the three
speakers were very brief in what they were talking about.
we learnt more on the Millennium Development Goals (MDGs)
and then had a little more of discussion. Do not look down
on Bangladesh people. i repeat. DO NOT look down on
bangladesh people. the delegates are so fantastic in putting across
and debating their point i was so amazed. they are really good.
especially that 17 year old bangladesh girl. questioning world
bank in that tone and defending her country. completely
admirable.
the first workshop i went to was about gender inequalities.
it shows me really how much females in the world are being
treated inequally. really how bad the world had excuses for
men. look at that india tradition of jorgini. it's unfair that
a young woman has to be sacrificed to a "village god" and
that she has to perform dances infront of dead bodies
and serve all sexual needs of the village and do all manual work
in the village. come on that's just sexist. honestly, i very much
agree with the speaker. rmb the panadol cold commercial?
they said smth like when the mother gets sick then the
household would be in chaos? and the scenario of the commercial
is this: a woman running around putting the tie on the
child and smth for school on the father. and the man is there reading
newspaper. so why can't the man get off his ass and help the sick
mother do the work? you knw we are not born to do all of
the household chores.
the second workshop was really boring. smth about globallisation.
i was pretending to take notes there but i was like writing crap to
myself. the presenter was talking in a monotonous tone. didnt
have any other media refernces. plain talking for 1.5 hrs. it's a
wonder anyone even listened. and the bangladesh people had
an internal debate within them again. im so suprised they are
really interested in this seemingly useless topic to me. i vow
never to look down on bangladesh people ever again.
the third workshop was he best of the 3. smth about the basics
of media relations. teach us stuffs about how to handle the
media, an interview. what do to when a reporter misquotes you.
what to put in a press release etc. what makes it fun is because
the presenter has really great presentation skills which kept
me engaged throughout and she was really comical and animated.
yes. and i learnt smth new: once reporters makes a mistake
in an article for more than 3 times, they kiss goodbye
to their bonus. and someone asked whether it is three times in
a yr. and the presenter said 3 times in their career. and then
i raised my hand and asked. "since there is such a strict regime,
so how many of them really get their bonus?" and this caused
an uproar in the room. ppl started laughing and somewhat nodding
in agreement. honestly, what do they depend on?
with that, the day ended with hw to do. 2 summaries on the day.
one on one of the workshops and another i dunno what.
on the way home...wasn't such a pleasant journey back. it was the
whole point why i feel lousy. cos today i finally knw that i
am nowhere near "good". all the pretence, all the "i thoughts".
i was just lying to myself all the way. i just didnt want to admit
that im just lousy isnt it? and then my mum called me when i
was walking home. she demanded to know why i wasnt home
when it was already 8pm. i tod her that i already told her i will
reach home late cos of the conference. amd she was like asking
me to hurry up home and serve dinner for my younger bro.
and i was like asking her why my elder bro cant serve him.
must i serve. and she say that my elder bro already finish
dinner so my younger bro is waiting for me to serve him.
talk about gender inequality. im a live example. wtf. my
bro's home dun ask him serve want me to rush home and
serve. and i accidentally muttered a "ma de" and she told my father.
i hung up and waited for my doom.
when i reached home i was trying to calm myself down so i wont
go in and start to scream at my younger bro for being such a pain.
and i manged it this time round. i even managed to joke around
with him. and then my father called and he made me cry.
threatening me that that is no way i talk to my mum and
that i am his daughter and i cant do anything more without him.
great. im just lousy okay. and then ppl had to come and tell me zw
went down earlierthn i normally did and ang said that was good.
you knw i feel really unfair. i bring them down early all i get are
what? people scolding me for bringinfg them down so early.
and then zw bring you all down even earlier, and ang praises him.
and you all willingly go down without complaints.
come on, i knw you all just hate me but must you all do it this way?
i said that i knw im lousy. you dun have to point it out to
me anymore okay. its all just unfair. and when i dun look normal,
normal as in laughing and joking around ppl just think i
have got smth wrong. sometimes jieren crack some stupid joke and i
find myself miling genuinely. but how many of you actually
knw that i really dun feel like smiling? you think im a happy
go lucky person or smth cos you always see me smiling and joking with
ppl in school. but sorry. im none of that. it doenst make
me feel good to smile when i seriously dun feel like it.
you all really think i am happy everyday. maybe look again next time.
i hardly even smile at home. i wanna faster go sleep before
my father comes back and lecture me until i cry again.
why doesnt anyone believe im lousy. i just wanna scream out
loud and cry like nobody's business. i dunno what the fck
is your problem. just leave me alone okay. before i flare
up at you. b thankful i haven and buzz off.my flu is
getting worse everyday.
thanks for cheering me up . just an sms.
but while you depend on me. who do i rely on?
SINYEE-
Tuesday, July 25
i feel pissedstressedtired and whatsoever today.
i was fined $1 by ang for extremely long nails
today. longest in the class. cool. i finally listened to
one pathetic maths leson today. im a lousy student.
and a lousy chairperson and a lousy whatever you
call me. dun ask me why am i pissed. it's gonna take
up a whole lot of space. it shall be written somewhere
else with more privacy. im stressed cos i knw i have
been a lousy chairperson. im just wondering why ang
haven sacked me yet. and im tired cos trng today was
damn hiong.
lessons was okay. aloy ong rox. dun need any reason.
he just rocks. rendy rocks too. dance today was pretty fun.
i feel scammed cos i thought dance report was suppsed
to hand in today but its like 3 weeks from now. nvm.
one less thing to do. and im even starting to think the teacher
is quite nice. he released late. and i told the whole class to
run back cos its really unfair smth is always eating into
rendy's lesson. apparently he can see we chionged back cos
everyone was like panting larhs. and rendy didnt let
us do summary today. free period. i wonder why i even
disliked him in the first place. lousy me.
cca damn hiong. i didnt slack for more than 10 min today.
its accomplishment okay! i improved in forehand cos
i spent like 20min in backhand and the rest all hardcore
forehand trng. yay im happy.
tmr off from school. 1o asia conferernce. i knw 2c will be
very happy cos im not around to boss them tmr. i would
say, pls dun be late for IRP tmr and enjoy yourselves while
im not there [: oh and zw pls rmb to put the pink slip and
count attendance correctly hor. jia you.
can i at least find someone
who will miss me? ohwells.my presence is insignificant.
i wanna breakaway.
SINYEE-
i was fined $1 by ang for extremely long nails
today. longest in the class. cool. i finally listened to
one pathetic maths leson today. im a lousy student.
and a lousy chairperson and a lousy whatever you
call me. dun ask me why am i pissed. it's gonna take
up a whole lot of space. it shall be written somewhere
else with more privacy. im stressed cos i knw i have
been a lousy chairperson. im just wondering why ang
haven sacked me yet. and im tired cos trng today was
damn hiong.
lessons was okay. aloy ong rox. dun need any reason.
he just rocks. rendy rocks too. dance today was pretty fun.
i feel scammed cos i thought dance report was suppsed
to hand in today but its like 3 weeks from now. nvm.
one less thing to do. and im even starting to think the teacher
is quite nice. he released late. and i told the whole class to
run back cos its really unfair smth is always eating into
rendy's lesson. apparently he can see we chionged back cos
everyone was like panting larhs. and rendy didnt let
us do summary today. free period. i wonder why i even
disliked him in the first place. lousy me.
cca damn hiong. i didnt slack for more than 10 min today.
its accomplishment okay! i improved in forehand cos
i spent like 20min in backhand and the rest all hardcore
forehand trng. yay im happy.
tmr off from school. 1o asia conferernce. i knw 2c will be
very happy cos im not around to boss them tmr. i would
say, pls dun be late for IRP tmr and enjoy yourselves while
im not there [: oh and zw pls rmb to put the pink slip and
count attendance correctly hor. jia you.
can i at least find someone
who will miss me? ohwells.my presence is insignificant.
i wanna breakaway.
SINYEE-
Monday, July 24
do you knw that excess sneezing can lead to headaches?
oh yes, it can. damn, the sneezing fit hasn't gone
away. i thought it waslike any other times, just sneeze
for one day and that's it. but too bad this isn't the
case, sadly. most of today, i could only breathe thru my
mouth. wtf.
i woke up at 5.40am today. hur. 40min later larhs. but
then i didn't rush lorh. cos i knw that 5.40am still
allows me to reach school at a fairly early time.
so ya, i reached school at 6.50am! lols. maybe i shouldn't
even wake up so early from now on. damn tired x
pe was ah tan today. damn suck man. make us do this
and that until i whole day no more strength. then got
fire drill again. walao. why must happen during rendy's
lesson larh. we already late for lesson le then still kope
his lesson. wth. i think by tmr i would have died from fatigue.
im damn tired! argh. bloodayy. today whole day like walking
corpse larhs. cant even concentrate during the simplest
chinese lesson. tsk. damn suck. sci lesson was fun. crystal
harvesting ((: aloy ong is darn cute. whee! lold. okay
ours is still not bad larh. and aloy ong gave us all motivation.
but then, i wasn't very motivated i would say. i still see
myself as a failure. haix.
after school went to tiong with josephine to take the retarded
passport photos. and while we were eating in macs,
i looked out and say * and *. hahas. omg just look at their
height diff larhs. lol. okay back to the photo. its 8 bucks.
godly ex. oh damn im broke le larh. turn out like ohmygod.
i look...weird. ohwells nvm i can't be bothered. and i bought
myself another dark choc toblerone. im addicted already.
woots. ohwells. who cares anyway.
can someone like tell we wtf are we supposed to do for
dance. the bloody teacher like didn't even bother to answer
properly larh wtf. LOUSY. just fail me larh right. i
won't half mind, really.
im not going on saturday. and you cant make me.
SINYEE-
oh yes, it can. damn, the sneezing fit hasn't gone
away. i thought it waslike any other times, just sneeze
for one day and that's it. but too bad this isn't the
case, sadly. most of today, i could only breathe thru my
mouth. wtf.
i woke up at 5.40am today. hur. 40min later larhs. but
then i didn't rush lorh. cos i knw that 5.40am still
allows me to reach school at a fairly early time.
so ya, i reached school at 6.50am! lols. maybe i shouldn't
even wake up so early from now on. damn tired x
pe was ah tan today. damn suck man. make us do this
and that until i whole day no more strength. then got
fire drill again. walao. why must happen during rendy's
lesson larh. we already late for lesson le then still kope
his lesson. wth. i think by tmr i would have died from fatigue.
im damn tired! argh. bloodayy. today whole day like walking
corpse larhs. cant even concentrate during the simplest
chinese lesson. tsk. damn suck. sci lesson was fun. crystal
harvesting ((: aloy ong is darn cute. whee! lold. okay
ours is still not bad larh. and aloy ong gave us all motivation.
but then, i wasn't very motivated i would say. i still see
myself as a failure. haix.
after school went to tiong with josephine to take the retarded
passport photos. and while we were eating in macs,
i looked out and say * and *. hahas. omg just look at their
height diff larhs. lol. okay back to the photo. its 8 bucks.
godly ex. oh damn im broke le larh. turn out like ohmygod.
i look...weird. ohwells nvm i can't be bothered. and i bought
myself another dark choc toblerone. im addicted already.
woots. ohwells. who cares anyway.
can someone like tell we wtf are we supposed to do for
dance. the bloody teacher like didn't even bother to answer
properly larh wtf. LOUSY. just fail me larh right. i
won't half mind, really.
im not going on saturday. and you cant make me.
SINYEE-
Sunday, July 23
Saturday, July 22
1st post for today below.
so sian. ripped off sally's blog. i realise i always rip off
things from ppl's blogs. =x
A-Z [:
A- Available?
lols. i am and still will be. until im 16 or maybe if he
can manage to...i shall not continue...
B- Best friends?
again. why this kind always ask for best friend? i dun have best
friends. my close friends are myCLIQUE(: , yeejin, peiqi and
guokai.
C- Celebrity crushes?
i dont really watch tv...anyway sinagpore actors are really CMI.
D- Dog's name?
i dont have a dog...
E- Easiest person to talk to?
guokai, peiqi and yeejin.
F- Favourite singers?
S.H.E! hahas hardcore fan. kelly clarkson, JJ and
alot larhs.
G- Gummy bears or gummy worms?
gummy worms. they are cuter! hahas.
H- Hometown?
The lalaland in boonlay in singapore [:
I- Instrument?
Sorry, imma sportswoman.
-dunno what happened to J and K-
L- Longest car ride?
Somewhere from one part of china to another part.
i think it's from suzhou to nanjing.
M- Milk flavour?
ditto.
N- Number of sublings?
One elder brother and one younger brother which both
are huge pains in the ass.
O- One wish?
I wish for another million wishes! hahas, no larh. i
want to catch up in my studies and cca.
P- Person last texted you?
Matthias.
Q- favourite Quote?
ehh i dunno...
R- Reason to smile?
Need reason one meh. i shuang then i smile larh.
S- song you last heard?
Tong kuai by S.H.E and still listening now.
T- Time you woke up?
umm...7.45am.
U- Unknown facts about me?
Since it's called unknown facts, it's therefore supposed to
remain unknown.
V- Veggie you hate?
Long beans
W- Worst habits?
Vulgar and slack.
X- X-rays you've had?
Haven had any.
Y- Yummy food?
CHOCOLATES.
Z- Zodiac sign?
Imma true blue monkaayy [:
10 ppl?
you shuang then you do.
arhhh im so in love with s.h.e's new album!!
lols. im mad already.happy happy (((:
SINYEE-
so sian. ripped off sally's blog. i realise i always rip off
things from ppl's blogs. =x
A-Z [:
A- Available?
lols. i am and still will be. until im 16 or maybe if he
can manage to...i shall not continue...
B- Best friends?
again. why this kind always ask for best friend? i dun have best
friends. my close friends are myCLIQUE(: , yeejin, peiqi and
guokai.
C- Celebrity crushes?
i dont really watch tv...anyway sinagpore actors are really CMI.
D- Dog's name?
i dont have a dog...
E- Easiest person to talk to?
guokai, peiqi and yeejin.
F- Favourite singers?
S.H.E! hahas hardcore fan. kelly clarkson, JJ and
alot larhs.
G- Gummy bears or gummy worms?
gummy worms. they are cuter! hahas.
H- Hometown?
The lalaland in boonlay in singapore [:
I- Instrument?
Sorry, imma sportswoman.
-dunno what happened to J and K-
L- Longest car ride?
Somewhere from one part of china to another part.
i think it's from suzhou to nanjing.
M- Milk flavour?
ditto.
N- Number of sublings?
One elder brother and one younger brother which both
are huge pains in the ass.
O- One wish?
I wish for another million wishes! hahas, no larh. i
want to catch up in my studies and cca.
P- Person last texted you?
Matthias.
Q- favourite Quote?
ehh i dunno...
R- Reason to smile?
Need reason one meh. i shuang then i smile larh.
S- song you last heard?
Tong kuai by S.H.E and still listening now.
T- Time you woke up?
umm...7.45am.
U- Unknown facts about me?
Since it's called unknown facts, it's therefore supposed to
remain unknown.
V- Veggie you hate?
Long beans
W- Worst habits?
Vulgar and slack.
X- X-rays you've had?
Haven had any.
Y- Yummy food?
CHOCOLATES.
Z- Zodiac sign?
Imma true blue monkaayy [:
10 ppl?
you shuang then you do.
arhhh im so in love with s.h.e's new album!!
lols. im mad already.happy happy (((:
SINYEE-
imma happy but tired girl today. hahas. went for
dsa in the morning. i very slack lorh. didnt want to
play, only want to sleep. hahas. today i was on form.
i trained with sherry before the juniors came to try
out. i won her 5 out of 6 rounds. but then..very
disappointed. zhen jiao lian says that i deproved
alot already..wu gong quan fei already. die already
lorh. i mean, im on form you knw. on form. i
didnt train with the juniors who went to try out.
so lousy i dun want to go there and make a fool of
myself. zhiyun got in...congrats! she's my doubles partner
when iwas p6 and she was p4. pro girl. hope she
can get into rv and be my junior! [: then i went to look for
ariel and veron to see if they wanted to go out with me.
and so! went to watch pirates of the carribbean at jp.
hahas. the show is pretty nice larh. and veron can actually
sleep larh! i was like gonna comment on a lame part of the
movie and i turned over and stopped in mid-sentence.
"veron! dun sleep larh!"
hahas...i bought she album le! so happy. and i bought a top
from puremilk cos they having sale. an it would be another
123456789 yrs before i can get anything from there again.
so im a happybut tired girl today!
&& good news! we are going back to zhen jiao lian in sept!
yayness! zhu mu finally got sacked. aha! but why
must wait until sept? why cannot now? argh nvm
i can pon cca until sept. hahas jkjk. me and jenn will
go back and be the star doubles. hopefully larhs.
im gonna get into b girls' school team. okay maybe not.
i ripped this from zhijun's blog:
Scene: in some school during tournament
LOST THE MATCH
CRYING LIKE MAD
zhen jiao lian said:
look, dont cry anymore.
you shout and play at every training and we
managed to get second
others have to train like mad
do you think nanyang can be first by just playing all day?
of course not!
so you shld be happy.
zhen jiao lian is the bes jiao lian ever.
SINYEE-
dsa in the morning. i very slack lorh. didnt want to
play, only want to sleep. hahas. today i was on form.
i trained with sherry before the juniors came to try
out. i won her 5 out of 6 rounds. but then..very
disappointed. zhen jiao lian says that i deproved
alot already..wu gong quan fei already. die already
lorh. i mean, im on form you knw. on form. i
didnt train with the juniors who went to try out.
so lousy i dun want to go there and make a fool of
myself. zhiyun got in...congrats! she's my doubles partner
when iwas p6 and she was p4. pro girl. hope she
can get into rv and be my junior! [: then i went to look for
ariel and veron to see if they wanted to go out with me.
and so! went to watch pirates of the carribbean at jp.
hahas. the show is pretty nice larh. and veron can actually
sleep larh! i was like gonna comment on a lame part of the
movie and i turned over and stopped in mid-sentence.
"veron! dun sleep larh!"
hahas...i bought she album le! so happy. and i bought a top
from puremilk cos they having sale. an it would be another
123456789 yrs before i can get anything from there again.
so im a happy
&& good news! we are going back to zhen jiao lian in sept!
yayness! zhu mu finally got sacked. aha! but why
must wait until sept? why cannot now? argh nvm
i can pon cca until sept. hahas jkjk. me and jenn will
go back and be the star doubles. hopefully larhs.
im gonna get into b girls' school team. okay maybe not.
i ripped this from zhijun's blog:
Scene: in some school during tournament
LOST THE MATCH
CRYING LIKE MAD
zhen jiao lian said:
look, dont cry anymore.
you shout and play at every training and we
managed to get second
others have to train like mad
do you think nanyang can be first by just playing all day?
of course not!
so you shld be happy.
zhen jiao lian is the bes jiao lian ever.
SINYEE-
Friday, July 21
im scamming comp lesson :D
im supposed to change my hp today lorh. dunno
whether my dad will go get for me. ahaha.
k750i! here i come! lols.
ytd's xue yi xin sheng ended damn late. like 9plus
lorh. i reached home at 11 like that larhs. then
cannot blog and cannot do flash. so now im scamming
comp lesson again. honestly comp lesson sucks.
waste time de lorh.sian sian sian arhhhhh. lols.
today's chem test was like. kns. i confirm fail de can.
going back to xingnan! celebrate ms chew's birthday.
whoots! so long since i last went back. nobody is bothering
bout the teacher. sad case. pon cca lorhs. hahahas.
tmr still needa go back to school for DSA wtf. guan
wo she me shi lorh.i hope it would be damn fun later
although only got me and jin are girls. the rest all guys.
okay nvm. they will just go kick their soccer ball.
this comp lab darn hot can. gahh.
-due to you wei's constant ka chiao-ing, im back to blog
after school-
i didnt listen to flash lesson at all just now. i mean
what you expect. it's plain boring. lols. went back to
xingnan just now. they sports day. we guailan the
security guard. hahas i think we always do that when
we come back. wasnt exactly as nice as i imagined it
would be larh. only me, jin, kai, liu, kiong, li and emerson
went back lorhs. ohwells. we might be going to ms chew's
house next saturday to give her an official celebration.
with the cake and everything larhs.
so tired today..probably cos today got alot of tests...
chem test. i studied pretty hard for it but i still got
alot dunno. lang arts test wasnt as bad as i thought.
maybe i will do better for that? hopefully...and then got
chinese zuo wen to write. honestly i cant finish in
1hr. although she ask us to write one is like du hou gan,
but i needa do at home. do a plan and i can finish in 15min.
so ya, lagged the lesson away larh basically.
very tired man. and next wed will be the 1degree asia
conference thingy...whole day off school. is that good or
bad? i dunno...until pretty late. and then mr tan will
test us on IMFknowledge already. haix. hardcore
research now le...
SINYEE-
im supposed to change my hp today lorh. dunno
whether my dad will go get for me. ahaha.
k750i! here i come! lols.
ytd's xue yi xin sheng ended damn late. like 9plus
lorh. i reached home at 11 like that larhs. then
cannot blog and cannot do flash. so now im scamming
comp lesson again. honestly comp lesson sucks.
waste time de lorh.sian sian sian arhhhhh. lols.
today's chem test was like. kns. i confirm fail de can.
going back to xingnan! celebrate ms chew's birthday.
whoots! so long since i last went back. nobody is bothering
bout the teacher. sad case. pon cca lorhs. hahahas.
tmr still needa go back to school for DSA wtf. guan
wo she me shi lorh.i hope it would be damn fun later
although only got me and jin are girls. the rest all guys.
okay nvm. they will just go kick their soccer ball.
this comp lab darn hot can. gahh.
-due to you wei's constant ka chiao-ing, im back to blog
after school-
i didnt listen to flash lesson at all just now. i mean
what you expect. it's plain boring. lols. went back to
xingnan just now. they sports day. we guailan the
security guard. hahas i think we always do that when
we come back. wasnt exactly as nice as i imagined it
would be larh. only me, jin, kai, liu, kiong, li and emerson
went back lorhs. ohwells. we might be going to ms chew's
house next saturday to give her an official celebration.
with the cake and everything larhs.
so tired today..probably cos today got alot of tests...
chem test. i studied pretty hard for it but i still got
alot dunno. lang arts test wasnt as bad as i thought.
maybe i will do better for that? hopefully...and then got
chinese zuo wen to write. honestly i cant finish in
1hr. although she ask us to write one is like du hou gan,
but i needa do at home. do a plan and i can finish in 15min.
so ya, lagged the lesson away larh basically.
very tired man. and next wed will be the 1degree asia
conference thingy...whole day off school. is that good or
bad? i dunno...until pretty late. and then mr tan will
test us on IMFknowledge already. haix. hardcore
research now le...
SINYEE-
Wednesday, July 19
i woke up today at the time when i would have just
reached school...i woke up at 6.45am. like wth,
i dun believe that my bro and my mum couldnt
see that i was still sleeping. even if it was a double
decker bed, it isnt very hard to see, is it?
so how did i wake up? my mum turned off the fan
and i was wondering why the hell she turned it off
for when i heard her waking my bro up. and i was like
damn shocked i overslept until this time. and the
most ridiculous thing is that my mum can tell me
she didnt see me. lols. so i took a cab to school. costed
me 13 bucks. and the driver was....oh nvm.
and i was pissed. when i walked into the class, already
filled with people and i take a look at the extreme
side from the door. im pissed. because the windows
are still not open. honestly, do they think that im the one
who is supposed to open up the windows for them
every morning? is it really so difficult for them
to go and open the windows? it's just windows for
goodness sake. when it was time to line up for irp,
i just said the usual thing and of course expecting the
one or two to move and the rest waiting for me to prompt
again. today, nobody moved at all. pretended like i
didnt say anything. pls dun act like you didnt hear
what i said. and in the assebly ground. i flamed ppl.
igf its just a one register place difference and if everybody
change place, how am i supposed to count the attendance?
if you think that this is my problem, and it's so
easy everyone can do it. fine. i give you my insignias,
i give you my badge. and you be the chairperson.
racial harmony carnival was pretty fun. i think all
the sec 3s and 4s did a chaoji good job. i enjoyed
myself. i bought more things for other ppl than myself lorhs.
just to support seniors mah. i bought a mango pudding
for ariel, a cha ye dan for peishi, 3 otahs for jieren,
a prata for junhao and half a fondue for peishi. hahas.
what i really had for myself is just a oreo milkshake.
and nth else. lols.
teambuilding day coming up. get excited. class meetinf
tmr. haix..
SINYEE-
reached school...i woke up at 6.45am. like wth,
i dun believe that my bro and my mum couldnt
see that i was still sleeping. even if it was a double
decker bed, it isnt very hard to see, is it?
so how did i wake up? my mum turned off the fan
and i was wondering why the hell she turned it off
for when i heard her waking my bro up. and i was like
damn shocked i overslept until this time. and the
most ridiculous thing is that my mum can tell me
she didnt see me. lols. so i took a cab to school. costed
me 13 bucks. and the driver was....oh nvm.
and i was pissed. when i walked into the class, already
filled with people and i take a look at the extreme
side from the door. im pissed. because the windows
are still not open. honestly, do they think that im the one
who is supposed to open up the windows for them
every morning? is it really so difficult for them
to go and open the windows? it's just windows for
goodness sake. when it was time to line up for irp,
i just said the usual thing and of course expecting the
one or two to move and the rest waiting for me to prompt
again. today, nobody moved at all. pretended like i
didnt say anything. pls dun act like you didnt hear
what i said. and in the assebly ground. i flamed ppl.
igf its just a one register place difference and if everybody
change place, how am i supposed to count the attendance?
if you think that this is my problem, and it's so
easy everyone can do it. fine. i give you my insignias,
i give you my badge. and you be the chairperson.
racial harmony carnival was pretty fun. i think all
the sec 3s and 4s did a chaoji good job. i enjoyed
myself. i bought more things for other ppl than myself lorhs.
just to support seniors mah. i bought a mango pudding
for ariel, a cha ye dan for peishi, 3 otahs for jieren,
a prata for junhao and half a fondue for peishi. hahas.
what i really had for myself is just a oreo milkshake.
and nth else. lols.
teambuilding day coming up. get excited. class meetinf
tmr. haix..
SINYEE-
Tuesday, July 18
stupid hooker took our classroom again today
and we were forced to invade war grounds again...
like hell, cant he like choose some other classroom
instead of nice 2C? ahwells. lessons were as usual.
cca was ditto. sucks larh. the coach sucks and now
everyone hates it already. see larh. eh mr. can see
anot huh huh huh? can see that coach's lousiness?
wtf. seriously. even i, someone who can like love rvtt
to bits last time seriously dreads trng now.
and that bloody 100 made us wait for well over 30min.
and honestly, im not sorry for what happened.
cos its not anybody's fault and had it not happened,
everyone would have ponned cca today. but to
say the absolute truth, however much i want to pon
i still had half a mind of going for trng today.
because i want to improve. and if so that lousy
a coach is not gonna train me and jenn, then too bad,.
we are gonna train ourselves. talk about biased.
he trained everyone except me and jenn today. like
wtf larh. i didnt slack alot today for hell's sake. and my
arm was aching really badly larhs.can see or not?
he just refuses to train us larhs. i want to improve for fck's
sake.
give me back zhen jiao lian and i swear i will go for every
single official and extra table tennis trng he gives.
and i shall emphasize. im not sorry. because
it once rocked. and a single person changed everybody's
attitude towards it all. its not anybody's fault.
maybe it is the coach's incompetency. maybe it was the
teacher's negligence. but neither yours nor mine.
cos if he did not present himself as such a cannot
make it coach, i would nv have slacked and never miss a
single cca session. i thought it was only me at first.
and i found out today, im not alone. you can keep the
coach and have lesser attendance, unhappy pupils
and me hating every moment of this. well, good
luck to rvtt b girls. which unfortunately, im a part of.
sometimes i really wonder why am i waiting
for him, when there's another one out there,
waiting for me...well, thts all about love isnt it.
SINYEE-
and we were forced to invade war grounds again...
like hell, cant he like choose some other classroom
instead of nice 2C? ahwells. lessons were as usual.
cca was ditto. sucks larh. the coach sucks and now
everyone hates it already. see larh. eh mr. can see
anot huh huh huh? can see that coach's lousiness?
wtf. seriously. even i, someone who can like love rvtt
to bits last time seriously dreads trng now.
and that bloody 100 made us wait for well over 30min.
and honestly, im not sorry for what happened.
cos its not anybody's fault and had it not happened,
everyone would have ponned cca today. but to
say the absolute truth, however much i want to pon
i still had half a mind of going for trng today.
because i want to improve. and if so that lousy
a coach is not gonna train me and jenn, then too bad,.
we are gonna train ourselves. talk about biased.
he trained everyone except me and jenn today. like
wtf larh. i didnt slack alot today for hell's sake. and my
arm was aching really badly larhs.can see or not?
he just refuses to train us larhs. i want to improve for fck's
sake.
give me back zhen jiao lian and i swear i will go for every
single official and extra table tennis trng he gives.
and i shall emphasize. im not sorry. because
it once rocked. and a single person changed everybody's
attitude towards it all. its not anybody's fault.
maybe it is the coach's incompetency. maybe it was the
teacher's negligence. but neither yours nor mine.
cos if he did not present himself as such a cannot
make it coach, i would nv have slacked and never miss a
single cca session. i thought it was only me at first.
and i found out today, im not alone. you can keep the
coach and have lesser attendance, unhappy pupils
and me hating every moment of this. well, good
luck to rvtt b girls. which unfortunately, im a part of.
sometimes i really wonder why am i waiting
for him, when there's another one out there,
waiting for me...well, thts all about love isnt it.
SINYEE-
Monday, July 17
very very tired today. like siao. i slept at 12.30am
last night and i expect myself to oversleep again
this morning. and lol, i woke up at 3.45am
which is like wth. 3hrs and 15min of sleep does
me no good. t caused e a terrible headache in
school at the start of the day.
pe today was like what. the teacher thought our
lesson was until 9.15am then she say let us play
ball game when we done with running and some
drills. she made us run two rounds around the
track. she said boys must be below 4min and girls
below 5min. who is she joking? who cant do 800m
im 5min for goodness sake? i tried to open up my
strides today. i dunno whether i did okay.
but the teacher says i did below the time limit which
is like ditto. cos everyone did. and she made us do bridging.
and pumping and sit ups. and now my shoulder
joint hurts.
my knee has been giving me problems lately. i
didnt do anything to it. i mean i didnt like injure it or
smth. but it hurts like fck everytime i walk.
tmr got trng...haix...
got fire drill. so dumb the designated route makes
us go one bloody big round around the school when
we can like just walk to the track in like half the time.
stupid larhs. in the case of a real fire, who got the
time to go one big round larhs.
after school hafta meet for some thimun conference
or whatsoever meeting. then mdm chia gave
all of us a piece of...assignment for us to find out
those ans and hand in by tmr. great. and the
knowledge test is this week. even greater.
plus chem and lang. arts and maths test. it just
gets greater and greater.
haix, so. do all now.
honestly i dunno what to do. and im just tired.
SINYEE-
last night and i expect myself to oversleep again
this morning. and lol, i woke up at 3.45am
which is like wth. 3hrs and 15min of sleep does
me no good. t caused e a terrible headache in
school at the start of the day.
pe today was like what. the teacher thought our
lesson was until 9.15am then she say let us play
ball game when we done with running and some
drills. she made us run two rounds around the
track. she said boys must be below 4min and girls
below 5min. who is she joking? who cant do 800m
im 5min for goodness sake? i tried to open up my
strides today. i dunno whether i did okay.
but the teacher says i did below the time limit which
is like ditto. cos everyone did. and she made us do bridging.
and pumping and sit ups. and now my shoulder
joint hurts.
my knee has been giving me problems lately. i
didnt do anything to it. i mean i didnt like injure it or
smth. but it hurts like fck everytime i walk.
tmr got trng...haix...
got fire drill. so dumb the designated route makes
us go one bloody big round around the school when
we can like just walk to the track in like half the time.
stupid larhs. in the case of a real fire, who got the
time to go one big round larhs.
after school hafta meet for some thimun conference
or whatsoever meeting. then mdm chia gave
all of us a piece of...assignment for us to find out
those ans and hand in by tmr. great. and the
knowledge test is this week. even greater.
plus chem and lang. arts and maths test. it just
gets greater and greater.
haix, so. do all now.
honestly i dunno what to do. and im just tired.
SINYEE-
Sunday, July 16
lols. sian i ripped this off sally's blog xP
okay cos i got nth to do. so here goes.
four names you go by:
a) sinyee
b) celestine (rendy can call only hor)
c) sinsin
d) bu shuang xiao jie. hahas.
2) four screen names you've had:
a) guardian devil (:
b) sinyee
c) Sin Yee (i hate it when its spelt this way)
d) nil
3) four PHYSICAL things you don't like about yourself:
a) im too short. hahas.
b) my left calf is thinner than my right one. hahas
c) i dun like my face. LOL!
d) i dun like my fingers. lol. this is real lame.
4) four parts of your heritage:
a) erm.
b) have
c) meh
d) ?
5) four things that scare you:
a) the feeling before you run a race
b) the feeling before i play tournament
c) see somebody faint
d) the feeling before i take maths exam. lol.
6) four of your everyday essentials:
a) i need money! lols.
b) and chocolates!
c) and my handphone
d) sleep.
7) four things that you are wearing now:
a) tank top
b) board shorts
c) the 8 pieces of thread the thai buddies tied on
my left wrist!
d) anklet
8) four of your favourite bands or musical artistes:
a) S.H.E
b) JJ
c) Kelly Clarkson
d) fish leong
9) four of your favourite songs:
a) tian hui- S.H.E
b) because of you- kelly clarkson
c) zhi dui ni shuo- JJ
d) behind these hazel eyes- kelly clarkson
10) four things you want in a relationship:
a) ask me
b) when
c) im
d) 16
11) three truths and one lie (In no particular order, figure them out yourself.)
a) i wont stead until im 16.
b) little things matters alot to me.
c) i hate to smile when i dun feel like it.
d) im a sushi lover!
12) four things you wanna do badly right now:
a) understand every single thing in maths
b) forget everything bout himA and himB.
c) eat chocolates.
d) see him.
13) four careers you're considering / have considered:
a) lawyer
b) biologist
c) singer. ditto larhs.
d) undercover.
14) four places you wanna go on vacation:
a) europe.
b) japan
c) australia. i want go damn long le.
d) hmm..malaysia..veh long didnt go le.
15) four names you like (3 english + 1 chinese):
a) Peishi (:
b) josephine (:
c) ariel (:
d) veronica (:
16) four things / people you wanna do / see before you die:
a) sort everything out with himA and himB.
b) have a last counselling session with my best counsellor.
c) talk the last time with my fav. graduated senior.
d) see him smile.
there are too many things i want to do. i still want to have
last clique outing. eat all the chocolates i can and walk
through the rain a last time.
17) four things that indicate that you're stereotypically a boy:
a) I
b) AIN'T
c) A
d) BOY. ditto.
18) four things that indicate you're stereotypically a girl:
a) i love a guy.
b) my birth certificate states that imma girl
c) my school uniform is a pinafore and not a jacket. lols
d) i go to the girls toilet and not the boys toilet. LOL.
19) four celeb crushes:
a) haven
b) even
c) crossed
d) my mind.
20) four people that i would like to see take this quiz:
a) you
b) shuang
c) then
d) do.
SINYEE-
okay cos i got nth to do. so here goes.
four names you go by:
a) sinyee
b) celestine (rendy can call only hor)
c) sinsin
d) bu shuang xiao jie. hahas.
2) four screen names you've had:
a) guardian devil (:
b) sinyee
c) Sin Yee (i hate it when its spelt this way)
d) nil
3) four PHYSICAL things you don't like about yourself:
a) im too short. hahas.
b) my left calf is thinner than my right one. hahas
c) i dun like my face. LOL!
d) i dun like my fingers. lol. this is real lame.
4) four parts of your heritage:
a) erm.
b) have
c) meh
d) ?
5) four things that scare you:
a) the feeling before you run a race
b) the feeling before i play tournament
c) see somebody faint
d) the feeling before i take maths exam. lol.
6) four of your everyday essentials:
a) i need money! lols.
b) and chocolates!
c) and my handphone
d) sleep.
7) four things that you are wearing now:
a) tank top
b) board shorts
c) the 8 pieces of thread the thai buddies tied on
my left wrist!
d) anklet
8) four of your favourite bands or musical artistes:
a) S.H.E
b) JJ
c) Kelly Clarkson
d) fish leong
9) four of your favourite songs:
a) tian hui- S.H.E
b) because of you- kelly clarkson
c) zhi dui ni shuo- JJ
d) behind these hazel eyes- kelly clarkson
10) four things you want in a relationship:
a) ask me
b) when
c) im
d) 16
11) three truths and one lie (In no particular order, figure them out yourself.)
a) i wont stead until im 16.
b) little things matters alot to me.
c) i hate to smile when i dun feel like it.
d) im a sushi lover!
12) four things you wanna do badly right now:
a) understand every single thing in maths
b) forget everything bout himA and himB.
c) eat chocolates.
d) see him.
13) four careers you're considering / have considered:
a) lawyer
b) biologist
c) singer. ditto larhs.
d) undercover.
14) four places you wanna go on vacation:
a) europe.
b) japan
c) australia. i want go damn long le.
d) hmm..malaysia..veh long didnt go le.
15) four names you like (3 english + 1 chinese):
a) Peishi (:
b) josephine (:
c) ariel (:
d) veronica (:
16) four things / people you wanna do / see before you die:
a) sort everything out with himA and himB.
b) have a last counselling session with my best counsellor.
c) talk the last time with my fav. graduated senior.
d) see him smile.
there are too many things i want to do. i still want to have
last clique outing. eat all the chocolates i can and walk
through the rain a last time.
17) four things that indicate that you're stereotypically a boy:
a) I
b) AIN'T
c) A
d) BOY. ditto.
18) four things that indicate you're stereotypically a girl:
a) i love a guy.
b) my birth certificate states that imma girl
c) my school uniform is a pinafore and not a jacket. lols
d) i go to the girls toilet and not the boys toilet. LOL.
19) four celeb crushes:
a) haven
b) even
c) crossed
d) my mind.
20) four people that i would like to see take this quiz:
a) you
b) shuang
c) then
d) do.
SINYEE-
Saturday, July 15
oh great. even my father is saying that i look
tired. lols and i dunno why. i so lag still tired.
sian.
today was speech day. ditto larhs. they go throw
all the sec 2s to the gallery which is like chaoji
stuffy and whatevers larh. sian lorh all those
speeches. gahh. and i was just so bloody bored
i started smsing ppl lorh. hahas. thanks to ppl
who kept me entertained larhs. i see those graduates
get their prizes so nice larh. i inspire to be like
them! haha i only want the bilingual award larh.
but considering my B3 eng and A2 chinese, still
have alot to work for.
concert band rocked the most. let's swing! hahas.
and then dance also. they darn cute. cos the tibetan
dance looked retarded. and then was choir.
our school performing arts really...pro sai.
after the whole thing, decided to go plaze sing with
clique. and then that gk call and make me and jos and
peishi go back to the school 2 times to look for the
shoes he left in school. but in the end we still cant
find it larhs. plaza sing was a bit of a wasted trip.
my feet hurts now and im sleepy.
SINYEE-
tired. lols and i dunno why. i so lag still tired.
sian.
today was speech day. ditto larhs. they go throw
all the sec 2s to the gallery which is like chaoji
stuffy and whatevers larh. sian lorh all those
speeches. gahh. and i was just so bloody bored
i started smsing ppl lorh. hahas. thanks to ppl
who kept me entertained larhs. i see those graduates
get their prizes so nice larh. i inspire to be like
them! haha i only want the bilingual award larh.
but considering my B3 eng and A2 chinese, still
have alot to work for.
concert band rocked the most. let's swing! hahas.
and then dance also. they darn cute. cos the tibetan
dance looked retarded. and then was choir.
our school performing arts really...pro sai.
after the whole thing, decided to go plaze sing with
clique. and then that gk call and make me and jos and
peishi go back to the school 2 times to look for the
shoes he left in school. but in the end we still cant
find it larhs. plaza sing was a bit of a wasted trip.
my feet hurts now and im sleepy.
SINYEE-
Friday, July 14
didnt update yesterday cos i was chionging
the retarded flash. i think flash 5 is nicer to
use than flash 8. since i was so hopeless in the
scripting, i just asked yun zheng to help me do
in the end since he could do one for just 5min.
went to track nationals yeaterday for sherrie and
matthias the event. was pretty impressed larhs.
after watching the last event, me and sherrie raced
the bus to lot 1. lols. why did we race there? cos it
was aready late and the 307 was so darn full we cant
get up so we decided to race there. the driver or the
passengers or even, both, must have thought that we
were 2 siao char bors there larh. okay and i reached home
at 8 and started to chiong flash. i really want to go
to track nats next wednesday larhs. but then thursday
got maths test and nobody pei me go. arghs.
today was dumb. i planned to leave house at 5.40am
like i always do. but who knws i fell asleep on the sofa
at 5.35am and i slept until 5.50am then my bro woke
me up and i chionged down to the bus stop. the bus
took darn long larh and i was like cursing at the
stupid bus. always happens that when im late the bus
would be those lanpong slow slow ones and the mrt
would be do not board. and although i reached je mrt
approx 20min or more later, i still see the same people
as the early time. and half of bus 97 is of people
from rv. and i still managed to reach school round 6.55am.
after morning assembly hafta meet desmond lim for
smth bout the thimun thing. thought he was gonna test
us today. hell, no. some 5-day conference dunno at where.
then thimun people hafta go for 1 day and we hafta pay
$30. what the heck. if it helps then i wont mind that much.
haix. then lesson was sian sian sian...next week alot of
tests. im so going to hardcore flunk all. language arts, maths
and chem. die. x(
and i knw why i didnt get to host the suzhou people already.
due to me having gone to step exchange prog. they
dont want me missing too many lessons. anything
larh. im not really that keen anymore anyway. i just
realised how tired i was. every morning feel like sleeping
in class but having to go on forcing myself to stay awake.
after school, rushing around, doing my countless list of
this and thats. oh fuck. cant i like have one day when i
can just go home right after school and sleep?
pe was chao hiong. my stomach muscles and thigh
and wherever is hurting like some shit. stupid larhs.
i can tell you that my passion has faded away.
a part of me wants to drop out, another wants to go on.
well, it's not like i have much of a choice anyway.
but now, i just dont feel the joy like i used to.
heritage day. sec 4 classes coming up with all those
things to sell. its not my fucking fault if my class doesnt
want to buy much of what your class is selling okay.
there is no need for you to put me down like this.
i did try okay. at least i managed to make them buy from
none to three orders. at least you could have
been like A, asking why there are so few orders instead
of just implying that im doing a bad job convincing people
to buy and asking another person to help. everyone give
us order list now you think everyone so fucking rich to
buy alot of everything arh. you should just feel bloody
lucky that i returned the order list to you in such a short time
considering you gave it to me like last period and expect it
back at the end of the day. asking a different person to ask
doesnt make any difference because my class is my class.
it doesnt and wont make any bloody difference whether
it is me asking or not. you unhappy then cancel those
three orders as well larh. i still help people to pay for you
to get your pathetic order so its not an empty class list when
i give it back okay.you cant force people to buy.
you senior big deal larh. can ask
her ignore me larh. fuck you larh right.
SINYEE-
the retarded flash. i think flash 5 is nicer to
use than flash 8. since i was so hopeless in the
scripting, i just asked yun zheng to help me do
in the end since he could do one for just 5min.
went to track nationals yeaterday for sherrie and
matthias the event. was pretty impressed larhs.
after watching the last event, me and sherrie raced
the bus to lot 1. lols. why did we race there? cos it
was aready late and the 307 was so darn full we cant
get up so we decided to race there. the driver or the
passengers or even, both, must have thought that we
were 2 siao char bors there larh. okay and i reached home
at 8 and started to chiong flash. i really want to go
to track nats next wednesday larhs. but then thursday
got maths test and nobody pei me go. arghs.
today was dumb. i planned to leave house at 5.40am
like i always do. but who knws i fell asleep on the sofa
at 5.35am and i slept until 5.50am then my bro woke
me up and i chionged down to the bus stop. the bus
took darn long larh and i was like cursing at the
stupid bus. always happens that when im late the bus
would be those lanpong slow slow ones and the mrt
would be do not board. and although i reached je mrt
approx 20min or more later, i still see the same people
as the early time. and half of bus 97 is of people
from rv. and i still managed to reach school round 6.55am.
after morning assembly hafta meet desmond lim for
smth bout the thimun thing. thought he was gonna test
us today. hell, no. some 5-day conference dunno at where.
then thimun people hafta go for 1 day and we hafta pay
$30. what the heck. if it helps then i wont mind that much.
haix. then lesson was sian sian sian...next week alot of
tests. im so going to hardcore flunk all. language arts, maths
and chem. die. x(
and i knw why i didnt get to host the suzhou people already.
due to me having gone to step exchange prog. they
dont want me missing too many lessons. anything
larh. im not really that keen anymore anyway. i just
realised how tired i was. every morning feel like sleeping
in class but having to go on forcing myself to stay awake.
after school, rushing around, doing my countless list of
this and thats. oh fuck. cant i like have one day when i
can just go home right after school and sleep?
pe was chao hiong. my stomach muscles and thigh
and wherever is hurting like some shit. stupid larhs.
i can tell you that my passion has faded away.
a part of me wants to drop out, another wants to go on.
well, it's not like i have much of a choice anyway.
but now, i just dont feel the joy like i used to.
heritage day. sec 4 classes coming up with all those
things to sell. its not my fucking fault if my class doesnt
want to buy much of what your class is selling okay.
there is no need for you to put me down like this.
i did try okay. at least i managed to make them buy from
none to three orders. at least you could have
been like A, asking why there are so few orders instead
of just implying that im doing a bad job convincing people
to buy and asking another person to help. everyone give
us order list now you think everyone so fucking rich to
buy alot of everything arh. you should just feel bloody
lucky that i returned the order list to you in such a short time
considering you gave it to me like last period and expect it
back at the end of the day. asking a different person to ask
doesnt make any difference because my class is my class.
it doesnt and wont make any bloody difference whether
it is me asking or not. you unhappy then cancel those
three orders as well larh. i still help people to pay for you
to get your pathetic order so its not an empty class list when
i give it back okay.you cant force people to buy.
you senior big deal larh. can ask
her ignore me larh. fuck you larh right.
SINYEE-
Wednesday, July 12
today got back our report books...sianz. did
really lan this time round. didnt manage to
reach the 70% target larh...haix. only got 64.7%
not a single A1. only got one pathetic A2 which
is my chinese. maths is no longer my lousiest
subj can you believe it. now id geog and science.
haix. our cid. get D. i did the report until so xin ku
then redo somemore then still D. wtf. haix.
lang arts was chao nice today. watched a film called
yamakasi. its damn cool. those ppl scaling buildings
like nth larh.
haix. i dunno whats wrong...
SINYEE-
really lan this time round. didnt manage to
reach the 70% target larh...haix. only got 64.7%
not a single A1. only got one pathetic A2 which
is my chinese. maths is no longer my lousiest
subj can you believe it. now id geog and science.
haix. our cid. get D. i did the report until so xin ku
then redo somemore then still D. wtf. haix.
lang arts was chao nice today. watched a film called
yamakasi. its damn cool. those ppl scaling buildings
like nth larh.
haix. i dunno whats wrong...
SINYEE-
Tuesday, July 11
today sucked. seriously. dunno why like
whole day keep getting scolded. and i was very
tired. needless to say, i didnt eat my breakfast
again. okay nvm.
first lesson was history. ohman that yang. cant
stand her sia. nice is nice but her way of teaching
is another different story. and that hooker
used our classroom causing us having to invade
2B class while they away on pe. and i can tell
you, their class is like a war ground. ohgod, i shall
not elaborate. sorry any 2B ppl reading this. it's
of no offence [: what the heck, my humanities journal.
hand in late then minus one mark. god larh,
my 4 out of 5 marks became a 3. urgh.
next was chinese lesson. for god's sake, my short
presentation on tan kah kee was rubbish larh.
and i see ang suan me until so darn shuang. i knw
i should just go and hide my face somewhere.
then she wanted to use textbook which sincerely
i didnt hear her say must bring. then mine is with
goh hua. and she asked who nv bring, i was actually
stupid enough to raise my hand. and then ang gave
me this emaningful look which made me want to
hide away even more. haix.
after that break time. have to skip it to complete
my dance assignment and discuss the music assignment.
honestly that piece of work we handed in...
ohwells. and then i missed my breakfast plus
break. just great.
then was maths lesson. using the whole of maths
lesson to complete my dance assignment. so i wasnt
listening to loke. see i said im a lousy student. after his
lesson i told the class to hurry up use the time and
get changed for dance so we wont be late later.
when we came back, i found aloy ong waiting there.
not looking too pleased when he asked for a word
with me. god larh. i just didnt do one qn of his
assignment. and he is treating me like im a dunce.
then its like i dunno whats my problem today
larh. and he asked the classs who gave them
permission to go change and waste his time. there goes.
im dead meat. see i was burying my face in my
hands. but the class didnt say it was me, they
didnt tell ong i was the one who told them to change.
god larh. im a failure can. and my class didnt tell on
me. im thankful. and after the lesson ong asked me
if i was okay. yeah im okay i say. but i was really
thinking, how okay can you be when you have been
making mistakes and getting blamed since morning?
yeah great.
and after that was dance. god. we were told to take
off our socks today as well. and out comes my
saturday fun toe nail polish. hot pink pls. and we
were told to play a really lame game involving us having
to crawl in between the legs of our peers. okay seriously
wtf is this. still say we are the selfish class which didnt
want to do it. honestly, i wont mind that 10 marks off
my assignment you sucker. i wont mind a failing grade.
its bullshit you are telling me to do. yeah so im not doing it.
and at the end of the lesson, i was supposed to
collect all their dance assignments. handed to him and
he asked me where was the class list. having no idea what
the heck is he talking about i just kept quiet while
he rattled on. you were supposed to bring your class
list and tick who handed in and who didnt. yeah im
supposed to. he win liao lorh. bloody hell.
luckily rendy didnt pick on me. at all. rendy's being nice.
after school when i thought i could have lunch, you wei
handed me a wad of notes and told me to count them
for the class photo. great. so after school i was trying
so hard to sort out the dance assignments and count
those notes. and bending over the canteen bench
for a considerable 30min caused me a backache.
and i was rushing around looking for ang to hand her the
money. rushing around like a frantic kid.
god this is really bad larh.
trng today was no better. i missed my breakfast+break+
lunch. tell me how i still go play table tennis. jenn was
saying i look and play like a corpse just now larh.
okay and i lagged today cos that ah zhu was darn slack
and only trained 2 ppl. wtf how to improve?!?
seriously larh. this is bullshit. and then tan still said what
workplan, need 70% and above for overall percentage.
good lorh. i this kind. tsk. talking bout today was like
so very bad larh. as a conclusion:
today sucked. big time.
pls dun be the next person to tell me i look
depressed.
SINYEE-
whole day keep getting scolded. and i was very
tired. needless to say, i didnt eat my breakfast
again. okay nvm.
first lesson was history. ohman that yang. cant
stand her sia. nice is nice but her way of teaching
is another different story. and that hooker
used our classroom causing us having to invade
2B class while they away on pe. and i can tell
you, their class is like a war ground. ohgod, i shall
not elaborate. sorry any 2B ppl reading this. it's
of no offence [: what the heck, my humanities journal.
hand in late then minus one mark. god larh,
my 4 out of 5 marks became a 3. urgh.
next was chinese lesson. for god's sake, my short
presentation on tan kah kee was rubbish larh.
and i see ang suan me until so darn shuang. i knw
i should just go and hide my face somewhere.
then she wanted to use textbook which sincerely
i didnt hear her say must bring. then mine is with
goh hua. and she asked who nv bring, i was actually
stupid enough to raise my hand. and then ang gave
me this emaningful look which made me want to
hide away even more. haix.
after that break time. have to skip it to complete
my dance assignment and discuss the music assignment.
honestly that piece of work we handed in...
ohwells. and then i missed my breakfast plus
break. just great.
then was maths lesson. using the whole of maths
lesson to complete my dance assignment. so i wasnt
listening to loke. see i said im a lousy student. after his
lesson i told the class to hurry up use the time and
get changed for dance so we wont be late later.
when we came back, i found aloy ong waiting there.
not looking too pleased when he asked for a word
with me. god larh. i just didnt do one qn of his
assignment. and he is treating me like im a dunce.
then its like i dunno whats my problem today
larh. and he asked the classs who gave them
permission to go change and waste his time. there goes.
im dead meat. see i was burying my face in my
hands. but the class didnt say it was me, they
didnt tell ong i was the one who told them to change.
god larh. im a failure can. and my class didnt tell on
me. im thankful. and after the lesson ong asked me
if i was okay. yeah im okay i say. but i was really
thinking, how okay can you be when you have been
making mistakes and getting blamed since morning?
yeah great.
and after that was dance. god. we were told to take
off our socks today as well. and out comes my
saturday fun toe nail polish. hot pink pls. and we
were told to play a really lame game involving us having
to crawl in between the legs of our peers. okay seriously
wtf is this. still say we are the selfish class which didnt
want to do it. honestly, i wont mind that 10 marks off
my assignment you sucker. i wont mind a failing grade.
its bullshit you are telling me to do. yeah so im not doing it.
and at the end of the lesson, i was supposed to
collect all their dance assignments. handed to him and
he asked me where was the class list. having no idea what
the heck is he talking about i just kept quiet while
he rattled on. you were supposed to bring your class
list and tick who handed in and who didnt. yeah im
supposed to. he win liao lorh. bloody hell.
luckily rendy didnt pick on me. at all. rendy's being nice.
after school when i thought i could have lunch, you wei
handed me a wad of notes and told me to count them
for the class photo. great. so after school i was trying
so hard to sort out the dance assignments and count
those notes. and bending over the canteen bench
for a considerable 30min caused me a backache.
and i was rushing around looking for ang to hand her the
money. rushing around like a frantic kid.
god this is really bad larh.
trng today was no better. i missed my breakfast+break+
lunch. tell me how i still go play table tennis. jenn was
saying i look and play like a corpse just now larh.
okay and i lagged today cos that ah zhu was darn slack
and only trained 2 ppl. wtf how to improve?!?
seriously larh. this is bullshit. and then tan still said what
workplan, need 70% and above for overall percentage.
good lorh. i this kind. tsk. talking bout today was like
so very bad larh. as a conclusion:
today sucked. big time.
pls dun be the next person to tell me i look
depressed.
SINYEE-
Monday, July 10
haix. im going mad larhs. i just had my dinner
at 10.35pm. it's like crazy larh. the stupid dance
assignment took me so long. dun say i slack lorh.
i was trying very hard larh okay. thanks
josephine for helping so much and matthias
for trying to help. like finally, the thing is
done. okay not really done. have to cut and
paste somemore and paste on construction paper
and my that write-up bout what i feel bout dance.
seriously wjat do i feel about dance. nothing larh.
im a sportswomen not a dancer tell me think bout
dance got what use huh huh huh?
and i didnt do my that research on tan kah kee
cos i sort of misunderstood ang's meaning.
and she suan-ed me like shit larh. what the
heck. aiya then the internet is like all those
fan ti zi. see already sian diao still do what.
luckily i suddenly thought of this book that
i bought when i was...P4? dunno larh, some book
called xin jia po wei ren then got a chapter bout
tan kah kee. if that book wasnt so dusty and old,
i swore i would have kissed that book. lol. on
a second though. probably not. hahax. great larhs.
my house so big and i cant even find a tube of glue.
blehx..
SINYEE-
at 10.35pm. it's like crazy larh. the stupid dance
assignment took me so long. dun say i slack lorh.
i was trying very hard larh okay. thanks
josephine for helping so much and matthias
for trying to help. like finally, the thing is
done. okay not really done. have to cut and
paste somemore and paste on construction paper
and my that write-up bout what i feel bout dance.
seriously wjat do i feel about dance. nothing larh.
im a sportswomen not a dancer tell me think bout
dance got what use huh huh huh?
and i didnt do my that research on tan kah kee
cos i sort of misunderstood ang's meaning.
and she suan-ed me like shit larh. what the
heck. aiya then the internet is like all those
fan ti zi. see already sian diao still do what.
luckily i suddenly thought of this book that
i bought when i was...P4? dunno larh, some book
called xin jia po wei ren then got a chapter bout
tan kah kee. if that book wasnt so dusty and old,
i swore i would have kissed that book. lol. on
a second though. probably not. hahax. great larhs.
my house so big and i cant even find a tube of glue.
blehx..
SINYEE-
yes. im feeling somewhat lost and confused.
quite a long story to say and ya, not like
i will say. okay whatever.
i dont knw what made me feel off blogging
for so long. although i still blog, yes i do
but it revolves around stuff which are
really, nonsense. i no longer feel any enthusiasm
for blogging. i no longer have any intersting
topics for blogging. i totally dunno why i am
still blogging. mayb cos recently has been on
other things. work and etc. larh. been sort of
quite occupied and ya catching up on school
work more or less. now, hafta chiong the dance
assignment le.
my tagboard's getting stagnant
SINYEE-
quite a long story to say and ya, not like
i will say. okay whatever.
i dont knw what made me feel off blogging
for so long. although i still blog, yes i do
but it revolves around stuff which are
really, nonsense. i no longer feel any enthusiasm
for blogging. i no longer have any intersting
topics for blogging. i totally dunno why i am
still blogging. mayb cos recently has been on
other things. work and etc. larh. been sort of
quite occupied and ya catching up on school
work more or less. now, hafta chiong the dance
assignment le.
my tagboard's getting stagnant
SINYEE-
Saturday, July 8
i hate weekends. so sian. make me do hw
and hw and hw again. so bloody sian. sleep
late wake up late. stupid routine over
and over again. sian. school faster start.
monday faster come. im gonna be bored to death
at home. but i hafta finish hw first. all
hw supposed to hand up on mon finished already.
SINYEE-
and hw and hw again. so bloody sian. sleep
late wake up late. stupid routine over
and over again. sian. school faster start.
monday faster come. im gonna be bored to death
at home. but i hafta finish hw first. all
hw supposed to hand up on mon finished already.
SINYEE-
Friday, July 7
Yan ran told me to do this 100 question quiz
thingy larh. since its the wekend, i shall do lorh xP
1. Full Name: Toh Sin Yee
2. Name Backwards: go figure it out yourself.
3. Were You Named After Someone: dunno. so
many sinyee (s) in the world.
4. Meaning Of Name: dun really have meaning. my
mum said its cos alot ppl called sinyee. so im called
sinyee. lol.
5. Nickname: sleepyhead, sinsin, celestine
6. Screen Name: dun have.
7. Date Of Birth: 27/05/92
8. Place Of Birth: Singapore
9. Nationality: Singaporean
10. Current Location: home.
11. Star Sign: Gemini
12. Religion: Buddhist
13. Height: 158cm. i seriously dun think i shrunk 2cm.
14. Weight: 47kg. the bloody camp made me fat.
15. Shoe Size: 7
16. Hair Colour: Black
17. Eye Colour: Black
18. What do u look like: stupid question. as if i
describe then you can knw.
19. Innie or Outie: out
20. Righty Or Lefty: right
21. Gay, Straight, Bi Or Other: chao stupid question.
of cos in straight.
22. Best Friends: dun have. closer few: my clique,
peiqi, yeejin
23. Best Friend You Trust The Most: i trust
guokai and peiqi and my clique
24. Fav Pals:REATRDED. isnt it like best friends.
25. Bez Frens Of The Opp Sex: stop asking bout best
friend larh i dun have larh. closest friend who is a guy
is guo kai larh.
26. Best Buddies: you see you see. RETARDED larh.
27. Boifren or Girlfren: if you knw me well, you knw
my rule.
28. Crush: im in the correct state of mind not to state
the name.
29. Parents: now what does this question mean?
30. Worst Enemy: definitely myself.
31. Fav Online Guys: i dun even initiate talks online
32. Fav Online Girls: see above.
33. Funniest Fren: guo kai
34. Craziest Fren: ariel
35. Advice Fren: i like to keep things to myself
36. Loudest Fren: i cant find anyone louder than me
37. Person u cry with: who do you think.
38. Any sisters: one.
39. Any brudders: two.
40. Any pets: a few dumb fish which are not even mine.
41. A disease: yeah short term memory loss. lol.
42. A pager: nopes
43. A personal phone line: i wish...and the bill would be
like...WOW.
44. A cell phone: yes
45. A lava lamp: no
46. A pool or hot tub: dumb question again.
47. A car: ya my father got car. counted? LOL
48. Personality: you tell me this.
49. Driving: if i can get a license at 14, i will.
50. Car or one u want: leave that to later.
51. Room: hur. not really messy anymore since the
maid was here.
52. What's missing: my brain. lol
53. Schl: xnps, rvhs, lamers and crappers school for the
retarded and disabled
54. Bed: double deck. upper deck.
55. Relationship with parents: okay.
56. Bliv in urself: depends on when and what.
57. Do u bliv in love at first sight: depends.
58. Consider urself a gd listener: toot. dunno.
-dunno what hppened to qn 59-
60. Get along with parents: hur. okay lorh.
61. Save ur email conversations: no
62. Pray: depends on for who, what for, and etc.
63. Bliv in reincarnation: i'll answer this when i see
you again next life.
64. Lyk 2 make fun of ppl: depends on who that
unlucky person is.
65. Lyk 2 talk on phone: very.
66. Want 2 get married:ask me this when im 21.
67. Lyk 2 drive: yeah right.
68. Get motion sickness: i can read and write in a vehicle
which is moving.
69. Eat the stems of a broccoli:see i shuang or not.
70. Eat chicken fingers with a fork: dumb dumb dumb quedtion.
71. Dream in color: i dunno what is this.
72. Type with ur fingers on home row: no
73. Sleep with a stuffed animal: never did..
74. Right nxt 2 u: balcony window.
75. On the walls of ur room: posters, calendar,
planner etc.
76. On ur mouse pad: just a paper file.
77. Dream car: see question 50.
78. Dream date: ask me this when im 16.
79. Dream honeymoon spot: ask me this when i get
married.
80. Dream husband or wife: beauty lies in the eyes
of the beholder.
81. Ur bedtime: im nocturnal unless im really tired.
82. Under ur bed: my bro.
83. The single most important question: what crap?
84. Ur bad tym of the day: depends.
85. Ur worst fears: i dunno. im not very afraid of
anything.
86. The weather is: standard singapore weather at this
time.
87. The time: 7:01pm
88. The date: 07/07/06
89. The bez trick u eva played on someone: lemme think...
-dunno what happened to qn 90-
91. Theme song: i dun even watch tv. and s'pore production
theme songs are really nan ting.
92. The hardest thing bout growin up:how will i knw? i haven
finished growing up.
93. Ur funniest experience: dunno.
94. Scariest moment: ehh..seriously dunno
95. The silliest thing u hav said: i always say silly things.
96. The funniest or most desperate thing you hav done 2
get da attention of the opp sex: i dun think im the
despo type.
97. The scariest thing that's ever happened while with
your friends: ehh during nanyang choral fest.
98. The worst feeling in the world: that very special sinking feeling...
99. The best feeling in the world: i dunno. haven felt it before
100. 5 people to do this quiz: you want do then do lorh.
today school early dismissal. slack. haix.
dunno what to say already...
SINYEE-
thingy larh. since its the wekend, i shall do lorh xP
1. Full Name: Toh Sin Yee
2. Name Backwards: go figure it out yourself.
3. Were You Named After Someone: dunno. so
many sinyee (s) in the world.
4. Meaning Of Name: dun really have meaning. my
mum said its cos alot ppl called sinyee. so im called
sinyee. lol.
5. Nickname: sleepyhead, sinsin, celestine
6. Screen Name: dun have.
7. Date Of Birth: 27/05/92
8. Place Of Birth: Singapore
9. Nationality: Singaporean
10. Current Location: home.
11. Star Sign: Gemini
12. Religion: Buddhist
13. Height: 158cm. i seriously dun think i shrunk 2cm.
14. Weight: 47kg. the bloody camp made me fat.
15. Shoe Size: 7
16. Hair Colour: Black
17. Eye Colour: Black
18. What do u look like: stupid question. as if i
describe then you can knw.
19. Innie or Outie: out
20. Righty Or Lefty: right
21. Gay, Straight, Bi Or Other: chao stupid question.
of cos in straight.
22. Best Friends: dun have. closer few: my clique,
peiqi, yeejin
23. Best Friend You Trust The Most: i trust
guokai and peiqi and my clique
24. Fav Pals:REATRDED. isnt it like best friends.
25. Bez Frens Of The Opp Sex: stop asking bout best
friend larh i dun have larh. closest friend who is a guy
is guo kai larh.
26. Best Buddies: you see you see. RETARDED larh.
27. Boifren or Girlfren: if you knw me well, you knw
my rule.
28. Crush: im in the correct state of mind not to state
the name.
29. Parents: now what does this question mean?
30. Worst Enemy: definitely myself.
31. Fav Online Guys: i dun even initiate talks online
32. Fav Online Girls: see above.
33. Funniest Fren: guo kai
34. Craziest Fren: ariel
35. Advice Fren: i like to keep things to myself
36. Loudest Fren: i cant find anyone louder than me
37. Person u cry with: who do you think.
38. Any sisters: one.
39. Any brudders: two.
40. Any pets: a few dumb fish which are not even mine.
41. A disease: yeah short term memory loss. lol.
42. A pager: nopes
43. A personal phone line: i wish...and the bill would be
like...WOW.
44. A cell phone: yes
45. A lava lamp: no
46. A pool or hot tub: dumb question again.
47. A car: ya my father got car. counted? LOL
48. Personality: you tell me this.
49. Driving: if i can get a license at 14, i will.
50. Car or one u want: leave that to later.
51. Room: hur. not really messy anymore since the
maid was here.
52. What's missing: my brain. lol
53. Schl: xnps, rvhs, lamers and crappers school for the
retarded and disabled
54. Bed: double deck. upper deck.
55. Relationship with parents: okay.
56. Bliv in urself: depends on when and what.
57. Do u bliv in love at first sight: depends.
58. Consider urself a gd listener: toot. dunno.
-dunno what hppened to qn 59-
60. Get along with parents: hur. okay lorh.
61. Save ur email conversations: no
62. Pray: depends on for who, what for, and etc.
63. Bliv in reincarnation: i'll answer this when i see
you again next life.
64. Lyk 2 make fun of ppl: depends on who that
unlucky person is.
65. Lyk 2 talk on phone: very.
66. Want 2 get married:ask me this when im 21.
67. Lyk 2 drive: yeah right.
68. Get motion sickness: i can read and write in a vehicle
which is moving.
69. Eat the stems of a broccoli:see i shuang or not.
70. Eat chicken fingers with a fork: dumb dumb dumb quedtion.
71. Dream in color: i dunno what is this.
72. Type with ur fingers on home row: no
73. Sleep with a stuffed animal: never did..
74. Right nxt 2 u: balcony window.
75. On the walls of ur room: posters, calendar,
planner etc.
76. On ur mouse pad: just a paper file.
77. Dream car: see question 50.
78. Dream date: ask me this when im 16.
79. Dream honeymoon spot: ask me this when i get
married.
80. Dream husband or wife: beauty lies in the eyes
of the beholder.
81. Ur bedtime: im nocturnal unless im really tired.
82. Under ur bed: my bro.
83. The single most important question: what crap?
84. Ur bad tym of the day: depends.
85. Ur worst fears: i dunno. im not very afraid of
anything.
86. The weather is: standard singapore weather at this
time.
87. The time: 7:01pm
88. The date: 07/07/06
89. The bez trick u eva played on someone: lemme think...
-dunno what happened to qn 90-
91. Theme song: i dun even watch tv. and s'pore production
theme songs are really nan ting.
92. The hardest thing bout growin up:how will i knw? i haven
finished growing up.
93. Ur funniest experience: dunno.
94. Scariest moment: ehh..seriously dunno
95. The silliest thing u hav said: i always say silly things.
96. The funniest or most desperate thing you hav done 2
get da attention of the opp sex: i dun think im the
despo type.
97. The scariest thing that's ever happened while with
your friends: ehh during nanyang choral fest.
98. The worst feeling in the world: that very special sinking feeling...
99. The best feeling in the world: i dunno. haven felt it before
100. 5 people to do this quiz: you want do then do lorh.
today school early dismissal. slack. haix.
dunno what to say already...
SINYEE-
Thursday, July 6
seriously i have got smth wrong. normally
blogging would be the first few things i do
when i come online. and now. i dunno what
to blog about. my mind is blank. haix
i dun understand a single thing. i dun understand
anything at all. one time you are saying this
and i understand you and another time you
are saying the same thing but i dun get you or
vice-versa. eh very confusing leh. dun play larh.
i dun even knw what is the purpose of it. lol.
seiously. i think im going mad soon.
im talking rubbish dun you think?
SINYEE-
and now even the dream is gone...
blogging would be the first few things i do
when i come online. and now. i dunno what
to blog about. my mind is blank. haix
i dun understand a single thing. i dun understand
anything at all. one time you are saying this
and i understand you and another time you
are saying the same thing but i dun get you or
vice-versa. eh very confusing leh. dun play larh.
i dun even knw what is the purpose of it. lol.
seiously. i think im going mad soon.
im talking rubbish dun you think?
SINYEE-
and now even the dream is gone...
Wednesday, July 5
haven updated for the past 2 days...been really
busy with all the school work im lagging behind.
been busy with the thimun thing. what with today's
IMF talk and everything. anyway, today's talk
was...i dunno but it doesnt seem to like make me
understand more. IMF's presentation was a little
confusing although i understood the role of IMF
and etc. cos we already did background research.
but wotrld bank...a bit irrelevant as to what they do
etc. haix..very bad larh.
sian. supposed to have alot to blog about in this
entry cos i haven blogged for a while. but my
mind went blank larh. haix.
SINYEE-
dun tell me this is all a dream cos everything had felt so right...
busy with all the school work im lagging behind.
been busy with the thimun thing. what with today's
IMF talk and everything. anyway, today's talk
was...i dunno but it doesnt seem to like make me
understand more. IMF's presentation was a little
confusing although i understood the role of IMF
and etc. cos we already did background research.
but wotrld bank...a bit irrelevant as to what they do
etc. haix..very bad larh.
sian. supposed to have alot to blog about in this
entry cos i haven blogged for a while. but my
mind went blank larh. haix.
SINYEE-
dun tell me this is all a dream cos everything had felt so right...
Sunday, July 2
it just feels so good to have my friends here
when im feeling so screwed. Thanks josephine!
yes, josephine tan! i only knw one josephine in
my whole life. and also ariel and peishi.
thank you ppl so much.
although i have almost given up hope, im still
holding on. but i think we all should just
stop helping him to find excuse. cos i knw that
obvious answer. seriously i thought one time
might just be an exception but it happened
again today. although there was a reason,
i dun really believe it. maybe...i hope its the way
you guys said.
i think i totally dun have any humanity. i went to
the hospital to see my grandfather today. and i
see him, suffering there on the bed, i could
only stand in a corner and look at him. i didnt do
anything, i couldnt do anything. but as im typing
i seriously think i should kill myself, i didnt do anything,
i didnt feel anything. seriously. im rid of humanity.
im not even fit to be called a human. god.
gonna chiong hw tmr. gonna miss step gatehring.
sian dun wanna go..zzz so tired...
SINYEE-
when im feeling so screwed. Thanks josephine!
yes, josephine tan! i only knw one josephine in
my whole life. and also ariel and peishi.
thank you ppl so much.
although i have almost given up hope, im still
holding on. but i think we all should just
stop helping him to find excuse. cos i knw that
obvious answer. seriously i thought one time
might just be an exception but it happened
again today. although there was a reason,
i dun really believe it. maybe...i hope its the way
you guys said.
i think i totally dun have any humanity. i went to
the hospital to see my grandfather today. and i
see him, suffering there on the bed, i could
only stand in a corner and look at him. i didnt do
anything, i couldnt do anything. but as im typing
i seriously think i should kill myself, i didnt do anything,
i didnt feel anything. seriously. im rid of humanity.
im not even fit to be called a human. god.
gonna chiong hw tmr. gonna miss step gatehring.
sian dun wanna go..zzz so tired...
SINYEE-
i WAS angry and sad at the same time just now.
as i was composing this entry in my head. it was
supposed to start off with im sad and angry.
but no longer. im highhhh now! yayness. lol
but still. crap larh.
SYF opening ceremony.
it was complete rubbish larh can. those
performances are so boring i can actually
fall asleep there. how bad is that larh. and after
that went to flag taxi and some inconsiderate
and kiasu ppl come rushing infront and got into
the cab and wheezed off. wtf. causing me to have to
wait for like 15 min or more for a pathetic cab with
jos and yanyi.
and i dunno whats coming to our school. that kinda
person can actually qualify for such an impt job.
ohmygod larh. i cant believe that is the truth.
god i just refuse to believe this absurd truth.
im just so angry alrh. she sucks. big time
can. kns larh.
then went to eat dinner at yoshi at bugis with yanyi.
must thank yanyi for giving me so many excuses
and one was actually true. lol okay. lagged there a bit
then went home. talked alot on the mrt. bout the
same person, the same thing. will die one larh.
i think i talking gibberish. my toblerone has turned
from chocolate to chocolate fudge. haha. its
disgusting. but too bad. I LIKE LEH. lol cosd imma
chocoholic (:
等待真的是很痛苦的事...
SINYEE-
as i was composing this entry in my head. it was
supposed to start off with im sad and angry.
but no longer. im highhhh now! yayness. lol
but still. crap larh.
SYF opening ceremony.
it was complete rubbish larh can. those
performances are so boring i can actually
fall asleep there. how bad is that larh. and after
that went to flag taxi and some inconsiderate
and kiasu ppl come rushing infront and got into
the cab and wheezed off. wtf. causing me to have to
wait for like 15 min or more for a pathetic cab with
jos and yanyi.
and i dunno whats coming to our school. that kinda
person can actually qualify for such an impt job.
ohmygod larh. i cant believe that is the truth.
god i just refuse to believe this absurd truth.
im just so angry alrh. she sucks. big time
can. kns larh.
then went to eat dinner at yoshi at bugis with yanyi.
must thank yanyi for giving me so many excuses
and one was actually true. lol okay. lagged there a bit
then went home. talked alot on the mrt. bout the
same person, the same thing. will die one larh.
i think i talking gibberish. my toblerone has turned
from chocolate to chocolate fudge. haha. its
disgusting. but too bad. I LIKE LEH. lol cosd imma
chocoholic (:
等待真的是很痛苦的事...
SINYEE-
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